In Her Brain is Her Heart

I write because it makes me happy, it doesn’t reflect on what I’m going through in life— it’s mostly fiction. So please keep an open mind about what you’re reading, don’t be too quick to judge or tell rumors… If you have a question about what I am writing, ask. Thanks…

[inherbrainisherheart]

Someone will always be

prettier, someone will

always be smarter, someone

will always be younger. But

they will never be you.

#rememberthat

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Will I mess up? Totally.

Will I do the wrong things? You bet.

Will I try to get it right? Absolutely.

If you are looking for the perfect person it

sure as hell isn't me. I'm a mess and get

things wrong. A lot. But at least I'm willing

to learn and get it right.

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THE ONE

I don't want you to love me because I'm good for you,

because I say and do all the right things. Because I am

everything you have been looking for.

I want to be the one you didn't see coming. The one who gets

under your skin. Who makes you unsteady. Who makes you

question everything you have ever believed about love. I

want to be the one who makes you feel reckless and out of

control; the one you are infuriatingly and inexplicably

drawn to.

I don't want to be the one who tucks you into bed; I want to

be the reason why you can't sleep at night.

_LANG LEAV

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I spend 23 hours a day wondering whether we're wrong for

each other, wondering whether we've got the energy that we

need to get through everything that we seem to get into,

whether the baggage we both bring would sink a small ship.

But in the 24th hour. I realize I've been thinking about him for

23 hours and I come back to there's something about him I

can't stay away from. Something about him that makes me

want to love him.

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I'm me… Far from perfect…

I'm a nearly shattered crystal glass; half full…

It' not that I don't want to fix it, I just don't know where to start…

Or if I'm ready..

I was never ready for you - but you're here..

I tried to talk myself out of this.. I tried to distract myself with other people.

Tried to shut out the voices of my mind and heart.

I know I'm still broken, but I see you helping me pick up the pieces..

Thank you for the smile I forgot I had..

Thank you for just being you...

No more, no less...

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Whispers—-“I”

Love

You….

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It’s empty, the smile I wear

Nobody knows it but me

You have my real smile

Because I left it there…

Empty chambers of tears shed

Nobody knows I’m crying

They think I’m laughing

How I wish you were here…

Used and wasted strength

Nobody knows how much I hurt

If it doesn’t kill you it makes you stronger

I wonder if they’re wrong…

Wild and free, single and ready to mingle.

Nobody knows I miss you

Bound to this earth

Trapped in total mystery

Doing this all on my own

Nobody thinks I need you

They don’t know I’m crying

When I’m alone…

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"To truly be in love, is to sacrifice when it's too hard to accept, deny yourself when you know it's wrong, and to always choose yourself first..."

-KwotedByLyn

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My love for you is what scares me

I see you in everything I do

I look to the sky and wonder

Do you see the same sky too?

Thoughts of you capture my mind

I think of you at all times of the day

I close my eyes and try to squeeze them out

Do you try to erase them too?

My best friend, my favorite love

I have ruined things once again

I run fast from these feelings

Do you want to run too?

Hard truths confuse my heart

I think I'm truly in love with you

I hide because I don't know what else to do

Do you struggle with this too?

A game of love and friendship roulette

I hurt when I know I have to choose

I load in my choices and spin-3, 2, 1

Do you want me to spin again?

At the end of the day-

I always choose you..

I know in my heart you'll never love me too...

Do I want my love to take you away?

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So quickly we forget

The first time we met

Hearts skipping beats

Forgetting each breath...

We look in each others eyes

As time slowly slips by...

I knew it from that day,

We fell in love- but in a wrong way...

You and I will never be

Our love was never free...

Sacrifices of the heart

I knew this all from the start...

To keep ones emotions inside

To remain friends and not hide...

No more than a friend,

Which is exactly how this will end...

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I take with me my anger and misery

Making out with hatred along the way...

To be understood and accepted

Two wishes never granted...

So deserving of this end

Rape, abuse, sickness, and pain.

All I've really ever known...

Do you think I wanted all of this?

Misfit in life

Never belonging

A heavy burden

No tears will shed the day I'm gone...

Gladness will resonate

Say goodbye

Tired of hurting you

Tired of hurting myself...

Not sad anymore

Not crying

I go without regret

Goodbye, a choice I have to make...

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This note,

Say goodbye,

To a world of hate,

A world of lies.

This note,

For those who cared,

When I needed them the most,

Weren't really there.

My family,

Who put on an act.

"You'll be okay..."

That wasn't a fact.

My best friend,

Who I wasn't good enough for.

Well, I tried my best,

I can't take this anymore.

I'm done.

Through.

There's one last thing,

I must do.

You think you are big,

I'm so much bigger.

I can hold up this gun,

And pull the trigger.

To Fade quickly,

This decision iron clad.

Alleviate your stress,

I'd be glad.

So it's my time to go,

The world can finally breathe.

Life is so much better,

Without me.

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I found and lost the love I can never have and because of this I am once again alone in my thoughts... please excuse my hurt and most of all- please excuse me for loving you so much... so much it hurts to stay...

Drunk with madness,

Such an insatiable thirst.

Not for whiskey or wine,

but for thoughts and dreams.

What have I to offer if not

the prostitution of my soul?

I have recited poetry to the sky,

set pages on fire

with passionate prose.

Waltzed across constellations,

to witness your beauty,

my undeniable attraction.

I have fought and I've lost,

found and buried skeletons

that lay within the breast of love.

And yet, upon this very breast,

my head resting

and taking comfort,

As I fall back into the

depths of my addiction,

I chase the shadows of

a beautiful mind,

search for the sunshine

that provides everlasting warmth,

and from beyond

the next galaxy,

your handsome whispers

"There is no beauty

without melancholy."

and I reply,

"today then, My love,

is surely the most

beautiful day of all!"

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Kidnapped by your love

I look to window’s glow,

visions of dancing shadows

pondering on your precious smile.

Your love still lives.

It pitter patters inside my brain

unable to be extinguish.

No! I won’t forget you.

For we were the Yin and I Yang

that exists only in one lifetime.

It’s like a bird's song,

radiating lasting melodies

inside my head and tingles my ears.

Truth be known,

everything I am now and what I could be

is result of our love from which

appeared from stardust energies,

where we’ll meet.

Now, love song I write,

as memory

etched in words that

plays like a treasured old record.

I won’t forget you

with those deep eyes and sweet smile

my soul kidnaped by your love

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