FUCKING DAMMIT.
I FUCKING MISS MY BEST FRIEND. I wish i could just scream it on the top of my lungs. I can't take it anymore. Thinking about you is thinking about death, but it's even worse. You're no longer in my life, but I have to see you still. I still have the memories, what did I do? That's the biggest question. WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO, SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME. I never stop missing you. It's been 4 years and it still hurts just as much as if it happened yesterday. Tears constantly running down my face as I bring this thought of our sister bond we shared. I hope you know I wrote my college essay about our friendship because our childhood memories inspired me to become a teacher. 14 years, how could you throw 14 years down the drain? I wonder if you ever think of me and the memories we shared. I wonder if you ever miss me, because i miss you a hell if a lot. I don't know how long it's gonna take me to recover from this, if I ever do. I'm so heart broken. I hope one day we can be close again, but maybe I'm just being too positive.
