I love my girlfriend in this quiet, overwhelming kind of way that sneaks up on me at random times.
It’s not even always big moments. Sometimes I’ll just be doing something completely normal and suddenly think, oh. I know her.
Like out of every possible life and every possible version of things, I somehow ended up existing at the same time as her and getting to know her.
And that feeling never really leaves.
I think what gets me most is that she doesn’t even have to be trying. She’ll say something small or laugh at something stupid or talk about something she likes, and I’ll just sit there thinking, you have no idea how much I adore you.
I want to hear about every little thing. I want to know what she thinks when she looks out car windows. I want to know what songs she skips and which ones she replays three times in a row. I want to know the stories she forgets she’s already told me.
I want the random thoughts and the bad days and the moments where she talks too much and the moments where she doesn’t talk at all.
And sometimes I think about how impossible people are. Entire universes inside one person. Whole histories and memories and fears and habits and versions of themselves nobody else gets to see.
And somehow she lets me know her.
I don’t think I’ll ever think that’s ordinary.
There are so many people in the world, and somehow she became my favorite one.
Not in a dramatic movie way. Not in a “you complete me” way.
Just in this very simple, very terrifying, very human way where I keep realizing over and over again that if something happens in my life, she’s the first person I want to tell.
If I see something beautiful, I wish she was there.
If I laugh, I want her to hear it.
If I’m overwhelmed, she’s the person I think of.
And I know love gets talked about like it’s fireworks and huge declarations and impossible things.
But for me, it feels more like this:
I just keep finding more reasons to love her.
And every time I think I’ve reached the end of them, somehow there are more.
Anyway, I’m in love with my girlfriend, and I think that’s one of the luckiest things that’s ever happened to me.