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Genre: Dark Romance, Mafia Romance, Enemies to Lovers, Slow Burn, Forced Proximity, Angst, Mature
Sypnosis: One witness. One mistake. One man who should have ended it immediately. Instead, Kim Seokjin lets her live inside his world where danger breathes behind every wall and trust is the most expensive thing you can offer. She thinks she is surviving him. She does not realize she is becoming the only thing he refuses to lose.
A/N: Hi, my lovelies! This Seokjin × Y/N story is a little surprise for you all and one that’s very special to me. This piece was actually commissioned by a lovely reader who trusted me with her idea and gave me the chance to bring it to life. I’m so, so grateful for your support and for allowing me to share this story here so others can experience it too.
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The café always feels smaller at night. There's something about the quiet presses in closer, like the space itself is exhaling after holding its breath all day. The laughter is gone. The rush is gone. What’s left is the hum of the refrigerator, the soft clink of porcelain, and you.
You stand behind the counter, sleeves pushed to your elbows, fingers damp from the sink as you rinse the last cup of the night. The water runs lukewarm now, barely comforting, barely anything, but you let it spill over your skin a second longer than necessary, just to feel something.
The smell of coffee clings to everything. Bitter, burnt at the edges. It seeps into your clothes, your hair, your bones. You wonder, not for the first time, if this is what your life smells like now, spent beans and long hours.
You turn off the tap. You’ve always told yourself that silence means peace. Silence means no one asking for anything, no one expecting anything, no one looking at you like you owe them something you don’t have. Still… tonight, it lingers a little too long.
You dry your hands slowly, eyes flicking to the clock mounted above the menu board.
11:47 PM. Later than usual.
A small sigh escapes you, quiet enough that even you barely hear it. You move through the motions automatically, stacking chairs, wiping surfaces already clean, double-checking the register. Routine is a kind of armor.
By the time you reach the door, keys already in hand, the world outside looks… different. It always does at this hour.
The streetlights cast long, uneven shadows across the pavement, stretching everything into something unfamiliar. The city doesn’t sleep, not really, but it softens. Edges blur. Sounds carry farther.
You lock the door behind you, the click echoing louder than it should. For a moment, you hesitate. It’s instinct, more than thought. A pause you can’t quite explain, like your body is catching onto something your mind hasn’t yet understood.
Then you shake it off. You’re tired. That’s all.
The main road is longer, brighter, safer. But the alley cuts your walk home in half, and you’ve taken it enough times to know every crack in the pavement, every flickering light overhead. You tell yourself it’s fine.
And you turn into the alley. The shift is immediate. The air feels cooler here, heavier somehow. The faint buzz of the street fades behind you, replaced by something quieter.
Your footsteps echo softly, uneven against the concrete. You tuck your hands into your jacket, pulling it tighter around yourself as you move.
Halfway through, you hear it.
A voice. Low and strained. You stop.
It’s not loud—if anything, it’s too quiet. The kind of quiet that forces you to listen harder, that makes every nerve in your body sharpen without permission.
“…I told you—I don’t know anything.”
You recognize that voice. Your neighbor, Mr. Choi.
You’ve passed him in the hallway a dozen times. Exchanged polite nods. Once, he helped you carry groceries up the stairs when the elevator broke. He always smelled faintly of cigarettes and something sharper, something you couldn’t quite place.
Another voice answers. Calm. Measured.
“People who know nothing,” the man says softly, “don’t usually run.”
Something in the tone makes your skin prickle. You take a step closer before you can stop yourself, drawn by a mix of concern and curiosity. The alley bends slightly ahead, shadows pooling where the light doesn’t quite reach. You shouldn’t look, you know that. But you do, and everything changes.
There are four men. Three of them stand around your neighbor, their presence are heavy. They don’t fidget. They don’t speak. They don’t need to. Their silence feels practiced, like it belongs to them. And then, him.
He stands a few feet away, not touching, not crowding, but undeniably in control of everything unfolding. Tall. Composed. Dressed too well for this part of the city at this hour. His coat falls perfectly against his frame, dark fabric catching what little light there is. One hand rests casually in his pocket, the other holding nothing—no weapon, no threat. Your neighbor is shaking.
“I swear,” Mr. Choi says, voice breaking now, “I didn’t tell anyone. I don’t know where it is.”
The man tilts his head slightly.
“You’re wasting my time,” he replies, almost gently. And that, more than anything else, is what makes your chest tighten.
There’s no anger in him. No frustration. Just a quiet finality, like the decision has already been made and everyone else is just catching up.
You should leave now. Before they notice you. Before you become part of something you don’t understand.
Carefully, you take a step back. Then another. Your breath feels too loud. Your heartbeat even louder, thudding against your ribs like it’s trying to give you away. You keep your eyes down, movements slow, controlled. Almost there, almost.
Your shoe catches against a loose piece of gravel. The sound is small, insignificant. But in the silence, it might as well be a gunshot.
Everything stops. You freeze. For a split second, nothing happens. Then, “Someone’s there.”
Your blood turns cold. You don’t wait. You don’t think. You turn, and run straight into him.
You don’t even see him move. One second, the alley is empty behind you. The next, he’s there, close enough that you stumble back, breath knocked from your lungs as your shoulder collides with his chest.
Strong. Unyielding. A hand closes around your wrist before you can recover. Firm enough that you know immediately, there’s no breaking free.
Your head snaps up, and for the first time, you see his face clearly. He’s… not what you expected. There’s no visible cruelty. No obvious threat carved into his features. If anything, he looks composed. Almost… refined. Dark eyes steady as they take you in, sharp and assessing in a way that makes you feel like you’re being read, line by line. Like a problem he hasn’t solved yet.
You try to pull your hand back. His grip tightens just enough to stop you.
“Please—” The word leaves you before you can stop it, breathless, unsteady. “I didn’t see anything.”
A lie. And both of you know it. His gaze lingers on your face for a moment too long.
“You shouldn’t have come down this alley tonight,” he says quietly.
Behind him, you hear movement, your neighbor’s voice rising, panicked now, cut short by something you don’t want to imagine. You flinch. His eyes don’t leave yours.
“Let me go,” you whisper, the words trembling despite the effort you put into steadying them. “I won’t say anything. I don’t even know who you are.”
A pause. Something flickers across his expression. He releases your wrist, Only to take your hand instead.
Your breath catches. The gesture is almost… polite. But the message is clear. You’re not going anywhere.
“Come with me.”
You shake your head immediately, panic rising sharp and fast. “No. No, I— I have to go home—”
“You won’t make it there tonight.”
Still calm. Still certain. Your chest tightens. “You can’t just—”
“I can.” He doesn’t raise his voice. Doesn’t step closer. But the space between you feels smaller anyway, suffocating. Your pulse stutters as you look at him, searching for something—mercy, hesitation, anything you can use.
“Please,” you try again, softer now, your voice betraying you. “I won’t tell anyone. I swear.”
Another pause. Then, almost thoughtfully “That’s not the problem.”
Before you can ask what is, his grip shifts, firmer now, guiding you forward. Leaving no room for refusal. You stumble once, then fall into step because you have no choice. There is no gun pressed to your head, no shouted threats, no chaos unraveling around you. The world continues as it always has, distant traffic humming somewhere beyond the alley, a stray light flickering overhead, the night carrying on without caring what happens to you.
That is what unsettles you the most. If this were a nightmare, it would be louder. But this is quiet. And the man standing in front of you feels like the kind of danger that does not need noise to be understood. His hand still holds yours. Not in a way that leaves bruises or forces tears out of you. It is controlled, like everything about him. You test it once, just a small pull, more instinct than intention. He does not react immediately. But his grip adjusts, subtle and unyielding, like a reminder rather than a warning.
You swallow. Your heart is beating too fast, too hard, like it is trying to make up for the silence around you. You look at him again, searching for something human enough to cling to. Fear has a way of sharpening details. You notice the way his coat sits perfectly on his shoulders despite the situation, the way his expression barely shifts, the steadiness in his gaze that never once flickers away from you.
He looks like someone who has already decided how this ends. And you are just… waiting to find out. You expect him to say something that confirms it. A threat, a command. Something that draws a clear line between what you are now and what you are about to become.
Instead, he studies you. It is not a quick glance, not the kind people give strangers they have already dismissed. It lingers, thoughtful in a way that makes your chest tighten. His eyes move over your face like he is memorizing it, or maybe measuring it against something only he understands.
You feel exposed under it. Not in the way you would under a leering stare, but in a way that feels worse. Like he is trying to figure out where you fit in a situation you do not belong in. His thumb shifts slightly against your hand, almost absentminded.
“You’re shaking,” he says, quietly enough that it feels like something he noticed rather than something he meant to point out.
You don’t respond. You do not trust your voice to come out steady. You do not trust yourself to sound anything but afraid.
Behind him, the alley feels darker now. You do not dare look back, but the absence of your neighbor’s voice is louder than anything you heard earlier. It presses against your ears, thick and suffocating. Something inside you twists. You force yourself to speak anyway.
“I told you,” you manage, the words thinner than you want them to be, “I didn’t see anything.”
This time, he exhales. “I know what you saw,” he replies, his tone unchanged, as if your denial does not matter either way. The way he says it makes your stomach drop. Because it sounds like the truth is irrelevant now.
Your throat tightens. “Then why am I still here?”
It is a simple question. But it carries everything you are too afraid to say outright. Why aren’t you dead yet?
His gaze does not waver. For a moment, you think he will ignore you. That he will simply move on, drag you somewhere else without bothering to explain. You brace yourself for that, for the helplessness of being handled like an object in a situation you cannot control.
Instead, he answers. “Because I haven’t decided what to do with you.”
He says it the same way someone might comment on the weather, or the time, or anything equally ordinary. Your fingers curl slightly, your nails pressing into your own palm as if the sensation might ground you. You shake your head, a quiet, desperate motion.
“I’m not something you get to decide on,” you say, and this time there is more force behind it. Fear is still there, sitting heavy in your chest, but something else pushes through it. Anger. “I’m a person. You can’t just take me because I was in the wrong place at the wrong time.”
For the first time, something shifts in his expression. Not much. Just the faintest narrowing of his eyes, the smallest pause in his stillness. Like you have said something… interesting.
“You were in the wrong place,” he agrees, calmly. “That part is true.”
Your breath catches. “And now?” you press, even though every instinct is telling you to stop, to stay quiet, to not push someone like him. “What does that make this?”
His gaze lingers on you for a second longer. Then, finally, he lets go of your hand. Relief floods through you so quickly it almost makes you dizzy. But it lasts only a moment. Because his next words take its place.
“It makes you my responsibility.”
You stare at him. The sentence does not make sense in your head. Not the way it should. Not in a way that feels safe or reassuring. Responsibility is supposed to sound like protection, like care. But from him, it feels like ownership.
“I don’t need you to be responsible for me,” you say, your voice sharper now, steadier in your own ears. “I just need you to let me go.”
“No,” he says.
Your chest tightens. “You can’t just decide that.”
“I already did.”
Before you can respond, before you can find something to say that might break through whatever wall he has built around himself, he turns slightly, his attention shifting just enough to signal something to the man behind him.
They move immediately. Whatever was happening before is over now. And so are your chances of walking away from it.
When his attention returns to you, there is nothing hurried in the way he looks at you, nothing chaotic in the way he moves. He steps closer, not enough to corner you, but enough to make it clear that distance will not save you.
“Dont make this harder,” he says, quieter this time.
Every part of you resists, rooted in place by fear, anger, disbelief. This cannot be real. People do not just get taken like this. Not without a fight. Not without someone noticing.
But the alley is empty. The night has already swallowed everything that happened here.
“No,” you repeat, more firmly now, even as your voice trembles at the edges. “I’m not going anywhere with you.”
For a second, you think he might grab you again. He doesn’t. Instead, he watches you. Like he is giving you space to make a choice he already knows the outcome of.
“You can walk,” he says, his voice low, even, “or I can carry you.”
Your stomach drops. It is not said as a threat. It is said as a fact. And somehow, that makes it impossible to argue with.
Your nails dig deeper into your palm. Your mind races, searching for an opening, a way out, something you can use to turn this in your favor. There is nothing.
Only him. Only this moment. Only the understanding settling deep in your chest that whatever happens next is not something you get to control.
Your shoulders stiffen. And slowly, unwillingly, you take a step forward.
The car is waiting at the end of the street. Black. Polished. Out of place in a neighborhood like yours. One of them opens the door before you even reach it. You hesitate, your gaze flicking between the open space inside and the man standing behind you. He does not touch you this time.
You get in. The door closes with a soft, final sound. The city moves past you in a blur after that. Streetlights streak across the window, buildings shifting from familiar to unfamiliar too quickly for you to track. You sit rigidly, your hands clenched in your lap, your reflection faint in the glass.
He sits beside you. Close enough that you are aware of him. The silence stretches. You cannot stand it.
“Where are you taking me?” you ask, your voice quieter now, worn down by everything you cannot control.
“Somewhere safe.”
The answer almost makes you laugh. Nothing about this feels safe.
His place is nothing like yours. You realize that the moment you step inside. The space is vast, open, almost painfully clean. Everything is sharp lines and muted tones, glass and marble and soft lighting that feels too deliberate to be comforting. There is no clutter. No signs of life beyond what is necessary. It does not feel like a home. It feels like a place designed to be controlled.
Your shoes echo faintly against the floor as you step further in, your chest tightening with every second that passes. The door closes behind you, quiet but heavy, and something about the sound makes it feel like the world outside has just been cut off completely. You turn to him immediately.
“What is this?” you ask, your voice stronger now, fueled by everything you have been holding in. “You bring me here and expect me to just what, stay?”
He removes his coat with unhurried precision, draping it over the back of a chair as if this is any other night, any other routine.
“You will stay here for now,” he says.
“For now?” you echo, disbelief breaking through. “That’s not an answer.”
“It’s the only one you’re getting.”
Your hands clench at your sides.
“No,” you say again, louder this time, the word echoing slightly in the open space. “You don’t get to do this. You don’t get to decide that I just disappear into your life because it’s convenient for you.”
He turns to face you fully then.
“You didn’t disappear,” he says, his voice still calm, still controlled. “You were seen.”
The words hit harder than they should.
“You think I wanted that?” you shoot back. “You think I chose this?”
“No,” he replies, and there is something quieter beneath it now, something almost thoughtful. “But it doesn’t change the situation.”
Your breath falters. You take a step toward him, your frustration spilling over now, too big to contain.
“Then change it,” you demand. “Let me go. I won’t tell anyone. I don’t even understand what I saw. I just want to go home.”
The word home feels fragile in your mouth now. Like something that might not belong to you anymore. For a moment, he just looks at you. Then, slowly, he shakes his head.
“I don’t make decisions based on what people want,” he says.
The finality in his tone settles deep in your chest. You stare at him, anger and fear tangling together until you cannot tell where one ends and the other begins.
“Then what do you base them on?” you ask, your voice quieter now, but no less intense.
His gaze holds yours. And for the first time, there is something in it you cannot quite name.
“Risk.”
The word lingers between you. And suddenly, you understand. This is not about you as a person, this is about what you represent. A variable, a mistake, a problem he hasn’t decided how to solve. Your throat tightens.
“So what,” you whisper, “I just stay here until you decide I’m not one anymore?”
He does not answer immediately. But he does not deny it either. And somehow, that silence says everything.
You do not sleep. You try. You lie on the edge of a bed that is far too soft for a place that feels this cold, staring at a ceiling that does not belong to you, counting seconds that refuse to pass fast enough. The sheets smell clean, unfamiliar, like something expensive and untouched, and every time you shift, the silence follows you. It is not the comforting kind, it is the kind that listens back.
You turn onto your side, then your back, then your side again. Your body is exhausted, your mind wired so tightly it almost hurts. Every time you close your eyes, the alley comes back in fragments. Your neighbor’s voice. The way it cut off. The way he looked at you like you had already stepped into something you could not leave.
And then him, always him. The calm in his voice. The certainty in his eyes. The way he said no as if the word was not meant to be questioned. You sit up abruptly. Breathing feels easier when you are not lying still.
The room they put you in is larger than your entire apartment. Floor to ceiling glass stretches along one wall, the city spread out beyond it in glittering lights that feel too far away to reach. Somewhere down there, life is still happening. People are laughing, arguing, going home to places that belong to them.
You wonder if anyone would notice you are gone. The thought sits heavier than it should. You push it away and swing your legs over the side of the bed, your bare feet meeting the cold floor. The chill runs up your spine, grounding you in a way the silence cannot.
You cannot stay here. The realization is not new. It has been sitting in your chest since the moment that door closed behind you. But now it sharpens, takes shape, becomes something you can act on.
You stand slowly, listening. Nothing. No footsteps outside the door. No voices, no movement.
Carefully, you cross the room and reach for the handle. It opens. The hallway beyond is dimly lit, soft lights set low against the walls. Everything looks the same as it did when you walked through it earlier, pristine and controlled, like nothing exists here without permission. You step out.
Your heart starts to pick up again, but this time it feels different. Less panic, more focus. You keep your steps light, measured, your eyes adjusting to the space as you move.
There are no guards in sight, no one stops you. For a moment, hope flickers. Maybe he underestimated you. Maybe he thinks you will just stay put, obedient, quiet, waiting for him to decide what happens next. You are not that person. You move faster.
The living area opens up in front of you, all glass and shadow and sharp edges softened by low light. It looks like a place that exists outside of time, untouched by anything messy or human.
The front door is there. You see it immediately. Your steps falter for only a second before you push forward, every instinct in you narrowing to that one point. You do not think about what happens after. You do not think about where you will go, how you will get home, what you will do if someone sees you. You just need to get out.
Your hand closes around the handle. You twist. Nothing. You try again, harder this time, your grip tightening as you force the handle down, your shoulder pressing slightly against the door like that might make a difference.
It doesn’t move. Locked. Of course it is. Frustration surges through you, hot and immediate. You pull back, your hand lifting to hit the door before you can stop yourself. The sound echoes too loudly in the silence, sharp and out of place.
You freeze. Listen. Still nothing. Your pulse races. You turn quickly, scanning the room for something else, another way out, another door, anything. The windows stretch wide, but you already know they will not open. A place like this is not built for escape. It is built for control.
You move toward the nearest panel anyway, your fingers searching for a latch, a seam, anything that might give. The glass is cool under your touch, solid and unyielding. You press your forehead against it for a second, your breath fogging the surface.
“Think,” you whisper to yourself, the word barely audible.
There has to be something. People do not live in cages like this without a way in and out. There has to be a system, a code, something you can figure out if you just take a second to look closer. You step back, scanning again, slower this time. That is when you hear it.
“Trying to leave without saying anything.”
His voice does not startle you. Because something in you always knew he would be there. You turn slowly.
He stands near the entrance to the hallway, one hand resting lightly against the wall as if he has been there for a while, watching. He is dressed differently now, the sharp edges of earlier softened slightly, his sleeves rolled just enough to expose his forearms, his posture relaxed in a way that feels almost deceptive. There is no anger in his face. No surprise, only quiet awareness.
“You locked the door,” you say, your voice steadier than you feel, refusing to let him hear the panic that was there seconds ago.
“I did.”
He does not move closer. Does not raise his voice. He simply confirms it, like it is the most natural thing in the world.
You let out a breath, shaking your head. “Then what was the point of letting me walk out of that room? You could have just locked me in there too.”
His gaze lingers on you for a moment, thoughtful.“I wanted to see what you would do.”
The answer lands somewhere between insulting and unsettling.
“And this is supposed to prove something?” you ask, your frustration pushing forward again. “That I don’t want to stay here? Congratulations. You already knew that.”
A flicker of interest crosses his expression.
“You didn’t hesitate,” he says. “You didn’t check if anyone was watching. You didn’t look for another option first.”
Your brows draw together. “What does that have to do with anything?”
“It tells me how you think.”
You let out a short, disbelieving breath. “You kidnapped me and now you’re analyzing me like I’m part of some experiment.”
“I didn’t kidnap you.”
The correction comes easily, almost reflexively.
“You gave me no choice,” you shoot back immediately. “That’s the same thing.”
He considers that for a second. Then, quietly, “No. It isn’t.”
Your hands clench at your sides. “You’re unbelievable.”
“And you’re predictable.”
The words hit harder than you expect. Your chest tightens, anger flaring again, sharp and immediate. “You don’t know anything about me.”
“No,” he agrees calmly. “But I know enough.”
Silence settles between you for a moment, heavy and charged. You take a step toward him, closing some of the distance, refusing to let him stand there like he holds all the control without being challenged.
“Then tell me,” you say, your voice lower now, steadier, cutting through the space between you. “What exactly do you think you know?”
His gaze drops briefly, not in dismissal, but in thought, like he is choosing his words carefully. Then it returns to you.
“You’re not reckless,” he says. “If you were, you would have screamed in the alley. You would have run without thinking. You didn’t.”
Your breath catches, just slightly.
“You observed first. You tried to leave quietly. You only panicked when you realized you were already involved.”
You hold his gaze, refusing to look away.
“And now?” you ask.
Something shifts in his expression again, subtle but there.
“Now you’re angry,” he says. “Which is better than afraid.”
The words catch you off guard. You hadn’t realized it, not fully. The fear is still there, sitting deep in your chest, but it is not the only thing anymore. It has changed shape, twisted into something sharper, something that pushes back instead of freezing.
“Don’t act like you’re doing me a favor,” you say, your voice quieter now but no less firm. “You’re the reason I’m here in the first place.”
“I’m also the reason you’re still alive.”
The room stills. The words settle between you, heavier than anything else he has said.
“You think that makes this better?” you ask, your voice barely above a whisper now.
“No,” he replies.
Honest. Simple. It throws you off more than any lie would have. For a moment, neither of you speak. The city lights flicker faintly behind you, reflected in the glass, turning the space into something surreal. You become aware of how close you are now, the distance between you no longer safe, no longer easy to ignore.
He does not step closer, but he does not step back either.
“Go back to your room,” he says after a moment, his voice quieter now, less like an order and more like something else you cannot quite name.
You don’t move. “I’m not going to stay here forever,” you tell him.
“You can’t keep me locked in like this.”
"I know."
Your frustration spikes again. “Then why are you doing it?”
This time, he does not answer immediately. His gaze holds yours, steady and unreadable, but there is something beneath it now, something that feels heavier than before.
“Because letting you go right now would be a mistake.”
The honesty in it leaves no room to argue. Your chest tightens.
“And keeping me here isn’t?”
A pause. Then, quietly, “That depends on you.”
The words settle deep, unsettling in a way you cannot quite explain. You stare at him for a long moment, searching for something, anything that might give you an opening, a weakness, a reason to believe you can still turn this in your favor. You find nothing. Only that same calm certainty. That same control.
Your shoulders stiffen. And slowly, reluctantly, you step back. Because, for now, you understand something you didn’t before. This is not a cage you can break out of in one night. And he is not a man you can outmaneuver without learning how he thinks first.
You turn without another word and walk back toward the hallway, your footsteps quieter this time, your mind already racing with something new. Not just fear, not just anger. Strategy. Because if he thinks he understands you already, he is wrong. And you are going to prove it.
Morning comes without warmth. It slips into the room through the glass walls in pale, indifferent light, stretching across the floor until it reaches the edge of the bed where you’ve barely slept. You don’t remember closing your eyes. You only remember thinking too much, feeling too much, replaying everything until exhaustion blurred it into something dull. You sit up slowly, your body heavy, your mind already awake in the worst way.
The first thing you feel is the emptiness in your stomach. The second is your pride. You ignore the first.
The food is already there when you step out of your room. You don’t know who brought it in. You didn’t hear anything, didn’t notice anyone moving through the penthouse. It sits neatly on the long dining table, steam still rising faintly from the food arranged with quiet precision.
It looks good. Too good. Warm rice, something savory, fresh fruit, coffee.
Normal. Like you’re a guest. Like last night didn’t happen. Your fingers curl at your sides. You walk past it, you don’t even slow down.
You expect him to mention it. He doesn’t. He moves through the space like everything is exactly as it should be, like nothing about your presence here disrupts his routine. He is already dressed, already composed, already stepping into his day as if you are just another detail he has accounted for.
He glances at you once. His gaze flicks briefly toward the untouched food, then back to your face. He says nothing. And somehow, that irritates you more than if he had forced you to sit down and eat.
You last until midday. By then, the hunger has sharpened into something uncomfortable, something distracting. It coils in your stomach, pulling your focus away from everything else, making your thoughts slower, heavier.
Still, you refuse. You sit on the far end of the couch, arms crossed, eyes fixed somewhere past the glass walls, pretending the city below matters more than the quiet presence behind you.
You hear him before you see him. The soft sound of a glass being set down. The faint rustle of movement that always feels too controlled, too deliberate.
“You should eat.”
His voice is calm. Of course it is. You don’t turn.
“I’m not hungry.”
The lie is obvious. You know it. He knows it. Neither of you pretend otherwise. There’s a pause behind you, not long, just enough to feel intentional.
Then, “That’s not how it works.”
You let out a quiet breath, something between a laugh and frustration, and finally turn to face him.
“Everything about this doesn’t work,” you reply, your voice sharper now, thinner at the edges from lack of sleep and food and patience. “So forgive me if I don’t follow your rules.”
His expression doesn’t change. But there’s something in the way he looks at you now, something more focused, more attentive.
“They’re not rules,” he says. “It’s a necessity.”
“For who?” you challenge immediately. “You?”
“For you.”
You shake your head, pushing yourself up from the couch, your irritation spilling over now.
“You don’t get to decide what I need,” you tell him, stepping closer, your voice gaining strength the more you speak. “You brought me here against my will. You don’t get to act like you care about what happens to me after that.”
“I don’t act,” he replies quietly.
The words land heavier than you expect. You stop in front of him, your chest rising and falling faster now, your emotions sitting too close to the surface.
“Then what is this?” you press. “Because from where I’m standing, it looks like control.”
His gaze holds yours, steady and unflinching.
“It is control.”
The honesty knocks the air out of you for a second. No denial. No justification. Just the truth.
“And you think that makes it better?” you ask, your voice dropping slightly, something more vulnerable slipping through despite your effort to hold it back.
“No,” he says again.
Always honest. Always calm. It’s infuriating. Your hands curl into fists at your sides.
“Then stop pretending this is anything else,” you snap. “You’re keeping me here because it’s convenient for you. Not because you care if I eat or sleep or breathe.”
Something shifts then. Subtle, but there. He steps closer. Enough that the space between you changes.
“You’re still refusing to eat,” he says, his voice lower now, quieter, but somehow more present. “That’s not defiance. That’s self-destruction.”
Your breath catches, just slightly.
“Maybe I don’t care,” you shoot back, even though the words feel thinner than you want them to.
“You don’t know anything about me,” you say again, but it sounds weaker this time.
His gaze doesn’t waver.
“I know you’re still here,” he replies.
The words land differently. You don’t answer. You can’t. Because some part of you understands exactly what he means.
You don’t eat that day. He doesn’t force you. He doesn’t threaten you, doesn’t drag you to the table, doesn’t turn it into a battle you can fight head-on. He simply… doesn’t bend.
Meals appear. Meals disappear, untouched. And every time, his gaze lingers just a second longer than before.
Not angry. Not frustrated. Watching. Waiting.
You try to escape again. You wait for a moment when he’s not in the room, when the penthouse falls into that same eerie stillness. You move faster this time, more careful, your eyes sharper, your mind piecing together patterns you didn’t notice before.
The door is still locked. The windows still don’t open. You search deeper. Drawers. Panels. Corners of the space that might hide something useful.
You almost miss it. A keypad near the side entrance, subtle enough to blend into the wall if you’re not looking for it. Your heart starts racing. Finally.
You step closer, your fingers hovering over it, your mind already working through possibilities. Codes. Patterns. Something you can guess, something you can break. You don’t hear him this time. Not until it’s too late.
“Still trying.”
The words brush against your ear, low and close enough to make your breath catch sharply in your throat. You turn too quickly and your back meets something solid. You hadn’t even realized how close you’d gotten to the wall until now.
Your pulse spikes instantly, your body going rigid as his presence settles behind you, close enough that you can feel the heat of him without him touching you.
“You’re persistent,” he continues, his voice quieter now, closer than before, each word deliberate. You force yourself to breathe.
“Move,” you say, trying to step forward, but there’s nowhere to go. The wall is in front of you. He is behind you. You are caught.
“You’re getting careless,” he replies.
“I’m getting out,” you snap back, even as your voice wavers slightly under the pressure of his proximity.
A soft exhale brushes against the side of your neck.“You’re not ready to leave,” he murmurs.
Your skin reacts before you can stop it. A shiver runs down your spine, sharp and unexpected, your breath hitching in a way you hate.
“Don’t,” you warn, your voice lower now, strained in a way that has nothing to do with fear.
“Don’t what?”
He hasn’t touched you. That’s the problem. If he had, you could push him away. You could fight it, turn it into something physical, something tangible. But this, this is something else.
“You don’t get to stand this close to me like this,” you say, your words coming out slower now, more careful, as if choosing the wrong tone might shift something you don’t fully understand yet.
“And you don’t get to keep trying to leave without consequences.”
The word lands heavy. Consequences. Your throat tightens.
“And what,” you challenge, even as your heart races harder, “this is your version of punishment?”
There’s a pause. Then, quietly, “No.”
Your breath falters. His hand lifts. You feel it before it happens, the shift in the air, the subtle movement behind you. His fingers brush lightly against your wrist, enough to turn your hand away from the keypad. The contact is brief, but it lingers.
“Punishment would be harsher than this,” he continues, his voice steady, controlled, as if he’s discussing something distant rather than the way your body is reacting to his presence.
You swallow.Your mind spins, trying to catch up, trying to make sense of the tension building between you, of the way your body feels too aware of him, too aware of everything.
You hate it. You hate that he can stand this close without touching you and still affect you like this. You hate that part of you doesn’t want him to move.
“Step away,” you say, but it comes out softer than you intend.
He doesn’t. For a moment, the world narrows to just this. Your breathing. His presence. The space between contact and something more.
Then, slowly, he steps back. The distance feels colder than before. You turn quickly, your chest rising and falling as you face him, your emotions tangled and sharp and impossible to separate.
“Don’t do that again,” you tell him.
His gaze holds yours. Calm. Unreadable.
“You should eat,” he replies instead.
The shift is so sudden it almost makes you laugh. You stare at him, anger and something else burning under your skin. And for the first time, you realize something that unsettles you more than anything else so far. This is no longer just about escaping. This is about enduring him. Learning him. Surviving him. Because the way he looks at you now, it’s not just about risk anymore. It’s about control. And something far more dangerous. Interest.
What unsettles you the most is not the danger. It is not the memory of the alley, not the knowledge of what he is capable of, not even the quiet understanding that your life has been reduced to a variable in someone else’s hands.
It is him. You expected cruelty. You expected raised voices, threats that would corner you into obedience, the kind of force that leaves no room to question who is in control.
Instead, he watches. He waits. He lets you push, lets you resist, lets you test the limits of something invisible and suffocating. And every time you expect him to snap, to show you the kind of man he must be beneath that calm exterior, he does the opposite.
He steps back. He chooses silence. He lets you exist inside his space without crushing you under it. And that… confuses you more than anything else. Because it forces you to look closer.
You start noticing things. At first, it happens without intention. You are restless, constantly aware of the walls around you, of the doors that do not open, of the life outside that continues without you. There is nothing to distract you from him, from the way he moves through this place like it belongs entirely to him.
Because it does. He wakes early. Earlier than you expect. By the time you step out of your room most mornings, still heavy with exhaustion, he is already dressed, already moving, already stepping into a routine that feels too precise to be accidental.
He takes calls you are not meant to hear. Low voices. Measured words. Names that mean nothing to you but carry weight in the way they are spoken. You catch fragments sometimes. Locations. Numbers. Decisions that sound final even when you do not understand them.
He never raises his voice. There is something about the way he speaks that makes people listen. You find yourself listening too. Even when you do not want to.
He eats regularly. At the same time every day, alone. He does not ask you to join him again after the first few attempts. The meals still appear. Still disappear. But he stops looking at you when they remain untouched, as if he has decided something about you and moved on from it. That irritates you more than his persistence ever did.
You start eating eventually. Not for him, for yourself. You tell yourself that over and over again as you sit at the edge of the table one afternoon, forcing down a few bites under the weight of your own pride.
He notices, but he says nothing. And somehow, that feels like a victory you cannot quite claim.
The distance between you shifts in small, almost invisible ways. You stop flinching every time he enters a room. You stop watching the doors quite as obsessively. You start watching him instead. The way his sleeves are always rolled just enough when he is working, like precision matters even in the smallest details. The way he pauses sometimes, just for a second, before answering a call, as if choosing his tone before his words. The way he exists in silence without discomfort.
You wonder what it takes to become like that. You wonder what kind of life carves that kind of control into someone.
You try to escape again. Because staying still feels like surrender, and you are not ready to give him that.
It happens late. The penthouse is quiet again, the city outside dimmed into distant lights and muffled sound. You move carefully, slower than before, your eyes sharper, your steps more deliberate. You have learned. That is your advantage now.
You avoid the obvious. The front door. The main panels. The places you know he expects you to try. Instead, you search deeper. A secondary hallway you had not paid attention to before. A door near the back that blends too easily into the wall.
It opens. Your pulse spikes. For the first time, something gives. The room beyond is darker, less polished than the rest of the penthouse. Storage, maybe. Or something else he does not use often. You step inside.
Your breath comes faster now, anticipation mixing with adrenaline, your mind already racing ahead. This could be it. There has to be another exit. A service door. A stairwell. Something less controlled, something overlooked.
You move quickly. Your foot catches on something you do not see in the dim light, and before you can steady yourself, your body pitches forward. Your hand shoots out instinctively, catching against the edge of a metal surface.
Pain slices through your palm. You suck in a breath, your body going still as the sting spreads, your fingers curling reflexively. For a second, you do not move. Then you look down. Blood. Dark against your skin, slipping between your fingers, trailing slowly toward your wrist.
Your stomach twists. You press your other hand over it instinctively, trying to stop it, your mind scrambling to refocus. You need to keep moving. You need to find a way out before he notices. But your breathing is uneven now, your thoughts slipping, your body reacting faster than your plan can hold.
And then, “You’re getting worse at this.”
His voice fills the space behind you, quiet and certain, like it has been waiting for you to fail. You close your eyes for a second. Not now. Not when you were this close.
You turn slowly.He stands in the doorway, his presence filling the room without effort, his gaze already fixed on your hand. On the blood. Something shifts in his expression.
“Let me see.”
It is not a command. But it feels like one.
“I’m fine,” you say immediately, even as your voice tightens slightly, your grip on your hand pressing harder.
You are not fine. And he knows it.
“You’re bleeding,” he replies, stepping closer.
“I said I’m fine.”
Your back hits the edge of the table behind you, your body tensing as he closes the distance, your instincts flaring again even as something else begins to stir underneath it.
He does not argue. He does not raise his voice. He simply reaches for your wrist. You try to pull back. He catches it easily. Firm enough that you cannot slip away.
“Stop,” he says quietly.
And something in the way he says it makes you still. Your breathing feels louder now. He lifts your hand slightly, turning it just enough to see the cut more clearly. Blood continues to slip through your fingers, slower now but steady, the sting pulsing in time with your heartbeat.
His touch is careful. Precise. Like he has done this before. Probably has. The thought sends something strange through you.
“You need to clean this,” he murmurs, more to himself than to you.
“I can do it myself,” you insist, but your voice has lost some of its edge.
He does not let go. Instead, he guides you out of the room, his hand still around your wrist. You should pull away. You don’t.
The bathroom is too bright after the dimness of the storage room. You blink against the light as he turns on the faucet, the sound of running water filling the silence between you.
He releases your wrist then. Only to take your hand again, more deliberately this time, holding it under the stream.
The sting sharpens instantly. You inhale sharply, your body reacting before you can stop it.
“Stay still,” he says, his voice low, steady.
You bite back the urge to pull away, your fingers tightening slightly as the water runs over the cut, washing away the blood in thin, swirling lines.
He is close. Closer than before. Close enough that you can feel the heat of him beside you, the faint brush of his sleeve against your arm, the subtle shift of his breathing in the quiet space.
Your focus starts to slip. Not from the pain. From him. His hands are steady. Warm. Careful in a way you did not expect from someone like him.
Your chest rises a little faster. You hate it. You hate the way your body reacts to proximity, to the quiet control in his movements, to the absence of force where you expected it most.
“Why do you keep doing this?” he asks suddenly, his voice softer now, almost thoughtful. You swallow.
“Trying to leave?” you reply, your tone weaker than before.
“Yes.”
You let out a small breath.
“Because I don’t belong here.”
The words feel heavier now. His hands pause for a second. Then continue.
“You’re still here,” he says.
It is not an argument. Just a fact. You look at him then. His focus is on your hand, on the way he wraps it carefully, on the precision in every movement. There is something intimate about it, something that settles too deep under your skin.
“You don’t even look at me like I’m a person,” you say quietly.
His gaze lifts, meets yours. And for a moment, the space between you shifts.
“I look at you exactly as you are,” he replies.
Your breath catches.
“And what is that?” you ask, softer now.
His eyes linger on yours, something darker moving beneath the calm surface.
“A risk,” he says.
Your stomach tightens.
“But not just that anymore.”
The words settle slowly. Dangerously. You feel it then. The shift. Not in the room. In yourself. The way your pulse changes, the way your awareness sharpens, the way your body becomes too conscious of how close he is, of how easily he could step closer, of how little distance there is left between you.
His hand moves again, adjusting the wrap around your palm. Your fingers twitch slightly. He notices. A faint pause. Then his thumb presses lightly against your wrist, just enough to feel your pulse. Your breath stutters.
“You should be more careful,” he murmurs, his voice lower now, closer.
Your heart is racing. You know he can feel it. And something in the way his gaze lingers tells you he understands exactly why.
Heat creeps up your neck, unwanted, unfamiliar in this context, in this place, with him. You pull your hand back slightly. Just enough to remind yourself where you stand.
“Don’t,” you say, your voice quieter now.
“Don’t what?”
The same question. The same tone. But this time, it feels different. More dangerous.
You hesitate. That is all it takes. A small shift. A small crack. His gaze sharpens just slightly, something almost knowing settling into it.
“Interesting,” he says softly.
Your chest tightens.
“I’m not…” you start, but the words don’t land the way you want them to.
He doesn’t interrupt. The silence stretches, filled with everything you are not saying. Everything he is already noticing.
He steps back first. The distance returns. But it feels different now. Colder.
You exhale slowly, your body catching up with the moment, your thoughts scrambling to rebuild the walls you feel slipping.
“I’m not staying here,” you say again, more firmly this time.
He watches you. Calm. Unmoved.
You look down at your bandaged hand, then back at him, something shifting quietly inside your chest.
Because he is right. You are not chained. There are no locks on your wrists. No visible restraints. But every door leads back to him. Every path circles inward. And the worst part is not the control.Not the danger. It is the way your body reacted just now. The way your mind faltered. The way something unfamiliar and unwanted stirred under his touch.
You straighten slightly, forcing your expression back into something guarded, something firm.
“This doesn’t change anything,” you tell him.
His gaze holds yours for a second longer.
Then, quietly,
“We’ll see.”
And somehow, that feels less like a threat and more like a promise.
The air still clings to your skin when you step out of the shower. Warmth lingers in the quiet space around you, steam curling faintly along the mirror before fading into nothing. For a moment, you stay there, your fingers brushing against the edge of the sink, grounding yourself in something simple, something real. Everything else feels too complicated.
You reach for the clothes he gave you the first night you arrived. You remember how it felt then, wearing something that belonged to him without understanding why it unsettled you. Now, as you pull the loose shirt over your head, the fabric falling past your thighs, soft and unfamiliar but no longer entirely foreign, the feeling shifts into something quieter.
It still belongs to him. That thought lingers longer than it should. The boxers sit low on your hips, brand new, untouched before you wore them, but still chosen by him, still part of a space that revolves around him whether you want it to or not. You push the thought away. You don’t have the energy to sit with it.
The penthouse is dim when you step out. Evening has settled fully now, the city outside glowing in scattered lights that reflect faintly against the glass. Everything feels quieter at this hour, like the world has slowed just enough for the smallest sounds to carry.
You walk toward the kitchen without thinking. Halfway there, you hear his voice. It stops you immediately.
“This is Kim Seokjin.”
The words land before you can process them. Your breath catches, your steps slowing until you come to a complete stop just outside his office.
Kim Seokjin.
For a second, it doesn’t feel real. You’ve been here long enough to know him, to understand the way he moves, the way he speaks, the way everything around him bends to his control, but you’ve never heard him say his name out loud. And suddenly, he feels more real than he did before.
“Yes,” he continues, his voice calm, steady in a way that makes every word feel deliberate. “The transaction is moving as planned. There won’t be any delays.”
There’s a pause. You can’t hear the other voice, but you can feel the weight of the conversation anyway.
“And Mr. Choi is no longer a concern.”
Your chest tightens. Your neighbor. The name alone is enough to pull you closer without thinking, your body leaning slightly toward the door, your breath quieter now.
Another pause. Longer this time, then—
“She stays where she is.”
Your stomach drops. You don’t need him to say your name. You know.
“She saw everything,” he continues, his tone shifting just slightly, not softer, but more deliberate. “And right now, she’s safer under my control than anywhere else.”
Safer. The word lands differently this time. Not dismissive. Not empty.
“There are people already asking questions,” he adds. “If they find out I was the one who took Choi, they’ll trace everything connected to him.”
Your grip tightens slightly at your sides.
“She was there,” he says. “Which makes her a liability to them before she is one to me.”
A pause. Then quieter, more final, “And they won’t hesitate to use her if they get to her first.”
Your chest feels tight. Not from fear. From understanding. Because now, it makes sense. Everything. Why you’re here. Why he hasn’t let you go. Why every exit feels impossible no matter how hard you try.
It’s not just about him. It’s about everyone else. And what they would do to you if you walked out that door.
You step back slowly, your thoughts moving too fast, your emotions catching up all at once. You don’t hear the rest of the call.
The door opens. He sees you immediately. There’s no surprise in his expression, no hesitation in the way his gaze settles on you, like he already knew you were there, like this was inevitable.
For a moment, neither of you speaks. You don’t know where to start. So you don’t ease into it.
“You think keeping me here makes me safe?”
The question comes out sharper than you expect, your voice cutting through the quiet space between you.
His gaze doesn’t waver.
“You heard enough,” he says.
You step closer, your emotions pushing forward now that everything is out in the open.
“You could’ve told me,” you press. “Instead of letting me think I’m just some problem you haven’t decided how to deal with.”
“I did tell you,” he replies calmly. “You just didn’t listen.”
Frustration flares instantly.
“That’s not the same,” you argue, your voice tightening. “You don’t explain anything. You just expect me to stay here and trust you.”
“I don’t expect you to trust me.”
The honesty stops you for a second.
“Then what do you expect?” you ask, quieter now, but no less intense.
His gaze lingers on you, “Cooperation.”
The word feels heavier than it should. You let out a breath that sounds almost like a laugh, but there’s no humor in it.
“So this is what this is?” you say. “Protection with conditions?”
“It’s survival,” he corrects.
You shake your head, stepping closer again, your chest rising faster now.
“You don’t get to decide that for me,” you say. “You don’t get to lock me in here and call it protection just because it benefits you too.”
He doesn’t react the way you expect. He doesn’t raise his voice. He doesn’t argue. Instead, he moves. Fast enough that you don’t process it until it’s already happening.
Your back meets the wall. The impact isn’t rough, but it’s enough to knock the breath from your lungs, enough to still you instantly as his presence closes in, leaving no space to move. Your pulse spikes.
“You’re still thinking like this is about what you want,” he says, his voice lower now, closer, every word deliberate. “It’s not.”
Your breathing is uneven now, your body reacting before your mind can catch up.
“You don’t get to—”
Your words falter. Because he steps closer. Close enough that the space between you disappears, close enough that you can feel the heat of him, the quiet control in the way he holds himself back. His hand comes up, not rough, not forceful, but firm enough to keep you exactly where you are.
“You walk out that door,” he murmurs, his voice brushing against your skin, “and you don’t get the chance to argue about it later.”
Your chest rises sharply.
“You don’t know that,” you manage, even though your voice is weaker now, caught somewhere between defiance and something else.
“I do.”
The certainty in his tone settles deep. Your breath catches. His face is close now, closer than it has ever been, his gaze dropping briefly to your lips before returning to your eyes, something darker moving beneath the surface.
“You think I’m the problem,” he continues, quieter now, his voice steady but heavier, “but I’m the only reason you’re still breathing without someone holding a gun to your head.”
The words should scare you. They should push you back into anger, into resistance. Instead, your body reacts differently.
Your pulse is racing, your breath uneven, your thoughts slipping in ways you don’t understand. You can feel him. Every inch of space he takes up. Every second he stays this close. It does something to you. Something you hate. Something you can’t ignore. Your eyes flick to his lips before you can stop yourself. Just for a second. But it’s enough. Because he notices. Something shifts in his expression, subtle but unmistakable, something almost knowing settling into the way he looks at you now.
Your chest tightens. You should push him away. You don’t. He leans closer. His breath brushes against your neck now, warm, steady, too close, and it sends a sharp shiver down your spine that you can’t hide.
“You’re stubborn,” he murmurs, his voice lower now, softer in a way that feels more dangerous than anything else he’s said. “You keep pushing like you want to see what happens when I stop holding back.”
Your fingers curl at your sides. You hate the way your body reacts to his voice, to his proximity, to the quiet control in every movement.
“I’m not afraid of you,” you say, but it doesn’t sound the way you want it to. There’s something else in it now. Something he hears immediately. A faint shift. Something almost like amusement flickers in his gaze.
“No,” he agrees quietly. “That’s not the problem.”
“Then what is?” you ask, softer now, even though you don’t mean to be.
He doesn’t answer right away. Instead, his hand shifts slightly, just enough to tilt your chin up, just enough to keep your gaze locked on his. The contact is minimal. But it lingers.
“It’s that you feel it too,” he says.
Your heart stutters. The words hit harder than anything else he’s said. Because you do. And he knows it.
You shake your head instinctively, but your body betrays you, your breath uneven, your pulse too fast.
“You’re wrong,” you insist.
But your voice lacks conviction. His gaze lingers, slow, deliberate, like he’s taking his time now, like he already knows how this plays out.
“Keep telling yourself that,” he murmurs, his breath still warm against your skin, still too close, still making it impossible to think clearly. “But don’t push me just to prove it.”
Your chest rises sharply. “What happens if I do?” you ask before you can stop yourself. The question hangs there.
His lips hover close enough that you feel it, not quite touching, but close enough to blur the line.
“Then I stop being patient.”
The words are quiet. But they settle deep. Your breath falters. For a moment, everything narrows.
The space. The silence. The way your body reacts before your mind can catch up. You hate it. You hate that part of you doesn’t want him to move. You hate that you don’t want this moment to end. And that is what scares you the most.
Then, he steps back. Just like that. The space returns instantly. Cold. Sharp. Controlled. Like he never lost it. Like he never would.
You inhale slowly, your body still caught in the aftermath, your thoughts struggling to catch up. He looks at you for a second longer, his expression unreadable again, like the moment never happened.
“Stay inside,” he says, his voice back to calm, back to controlled. “It’s the only reason you’re still alive.”
Then he turns and walks away. Leaving you standing there, your back still against the wall, your pulse still racing, your thoughts tangled in ways you don’t understand. Because now, you know the truth. You are here because he is protecting you. And somehow, that makes him even more dangerous than before.
Morning arrives differently here. It doesn’t rush in or demand attention. It slips through the glass in soft, pale light, stretching slowly across the floor, climbing the walls, settling into every corner of the penthouse like it belongs there. The city below is already awake, distant and alive, but up here, everything feels suspended, quiet in a way that doesn’t match the world outside.
You wake before you mean to. Not from noise, not from movement, from thought. Last night lingers in your body before it reaches your mind. The memory of his voice, low and controlled, the way he stood too close, the way your breath betrayed you, the way your body reacted in ways you don’t want to examine too closely.
You sit up slowly, pushing the sheets aside, your fingers brushing against fabric that doesn’t belong to you.
His shirt. It slips against your skin when you move, loose and soft, the sleeves falling past your wrists, the collar dipping just enough to remind you how easily it shifts when you’re not careful. You exhale slowly, pushing yourself up, trying to ground yourself in something simpler. It doesn’t work.
The kitchen is already occupied when you step in. You don’t hear him at first. You feel him. There’s a difference now, something subtle but impossible to ignore, the way your body reacts to his presence before you even see him. It settles into your awareness like a quiet pull, something that sharpens your senses without asking permission.
He’s standing at the counter. Sleeves rolled, movements precise, controlled in a way that feels effortless. There’s something almost disorienting about it, the way he exists in this space, the way everything he does feels deliberate even when it looks simple. He doesn’t look like someone who orchestrates danger. He looks like someone making breakfast. The normalcy of it unsettles you. He glances at you, just once. But it lingers. Not long enough to call it out, but long enough that you feel it settle under your skin.
“You’re awake,” he says, his voice steady, like this is expected, like you walking into his space dressed in his clothes is just another part of his routine.
You lean slightly against the counter, folding your arms without thinking, trying to ignore the way his gaze flicked over you a second longer than necessary.
“I didn’t realize you cook,” you reply.
It’s a small thing to say. But it fills the space.
“I don’t,” he answers simply. “Not usually.”
Your brows pull together slightly.
“Then what is this?”
He doesn’t look at you when he replies.
“An exception.”
The word lingers. You don’t ask why. You’re not sure you want the answer. You stay where you are. You don’t leave. That realization comes quietly, settling into your chest in a way that feels heavier than it should.
You could walk out. Go back to your room. Avoid this entirely. But you don’t. Instead, you watch him. The way his hands move, steady and precise, the way he handles everything like it matters, even something as simple as this. There’s no rush in him, no wasted movement, just quiet control in everything he does.
You hate that you notice. You hate that it draws your attention the way it does.
“You’re staring.”
His voice pulls you out of it. You blink, your gaze snapping back to his face.
“I’m not,” you reply immediately.
He looks at you. His gaze moves over you slowly, deliberate in a way that makes your breath catch despite yourself. It lingers at your shoulders, at the way the fabric of his shirt slips slightly when you shift, at the way it falls against your skin like it belongs there. Your pulse picks up.
“You’re still wearing my clothes,” he says.
It’s not a question. It’s not even an accusation. Just a statement.
“You gave them to me,” you counter, your voice steady even as something in your chest tightens.
“I did.”
The way he says it feels heavier than it should. Something shifts in the silence that follows. You don’t move. Neither does he. For a moment, it feels like everything slows, like the space between you has narrowed without either of you stepping closer. Then he turns back to what he’s doing. The moment breaks. But not completely.
You sit down when he sets the plate in front of you. You don’t argue. That’s new. You notice it immediately. So does he. But neither of you says anything about it.
The chair feels too close to where he stands, too aware of his presence, too aware of the way your body reacts every time he moves within your space.
You pick up the fork slowly, your fingers brushing against it as you try to focus on something normal. Something simple. It doesn’t work. You can feel his gaze on you. Enough that it settles into your awareness, enough that it makes every movement feel more deliberate than it should be.
“You’re quiet,” he says after a moment.
You glance up at him. “So are you.”
“That’s not unusual.”
A faint exhale leaves you. “No,” you admit. “It’s not.”
Silence stretches again. But it’s different now. Not tense. Not sharp. Something else. Something heavier. You don’t realize how close he is until he’s there. One moment, he’s across from you. The next, he’s beside you. Close enough that the shift in space is immediate. Your breath catches slightly, your body reacting before your mind can catch up. He reaches past you. But the movement brings him closer than necessary, his arm brushing lightly against yours, his presence settling into your space in a way that feels deliberate even if it shouldn’t. Your fingers tighten slightly around the fork.
“You’re distracted,” he says quietly.
“I’m not,” you reply, but it comes out softer than you intend.
His gaze lingers on you. “You are.”
Your chest rises a little faster.
“And whose fault is that?” you ask before you can stop yourself.
The words hang there. He doesn’t answer immediately. Instead, he studies you, his attention sharper now, more focused in a way that makes it harder to breathe normally.
“You tell me,” he says finally.
Your pulse spikes. You don’t respond. You can’t. Because you don’t trust what might come out if you do. The silence stretches again, but this time it feels different. Closer. He doesn’t move away. And neither do you.
You can feel him. Your body reacts before your mind can catch up, awareness settling into every inch of space between you, your breath uneven in a way you can’t hide. You hate it. You hate how easily he affects you. You hate that he knows it.
“You’re still fighting it,” he murmurs.
Your gaze snaps to his. “Fighting what?”
His eyes hold yours, steady, unreadable in a way that feels intentional. “This.”
The word lands heavier than it should. Your chest tightens. “There is no this,” you say, but your voice lacks conviction.
Something shifts in his expression. Subtle. Knowing. He leans slightly closer. Not enough to touch. Just enough to make the distance feel intentional. Your breath falters.
“You can keep telling yourself that,” he says quietly. “It doesn’t change anything.”
Your heart is racing now. You should step back. You don’t. Because part of you doesn’t want to. And that realization hits harder than anything else.
He moves first. But this time, it’s not to step away. It’s to straighten slightly, to create just enough distance to break the moment without fully leaving it behind.
“You should eat,” he says, his voice steady again, controlled, like nothing just happened. Like he didn’t see it. Like you didn’t feel it.
You stare at him for a second longer, your chest still rising unevenly, your thoughts tangled in ways you don’t want to untangle. Then you look down at your plate. Because staying in that moment feels more dangerous than anything else.
The rest of the morning passes quietly. But something has changed. You feel it in the way your thoughts linger on him longer than they should. In the way your body reacts every time he steps into your space. In the way the silence between you feels less like distance and more like something waiting to break. And the most dangerous part is not him. Not what he is. Not what he’s capable of. It’s you. Because you’re starting to want things you shouldn’t. And you don’t know how to stop.
Sleep doesn’t come. It refuses you completely, no matter how many times you close your eyes, no matter how long you lie still and try to force your body into rest. Your mind keeps moving, circling the same moments, replaying them with a clarity that feels cruel.
The way he said your name. The way his breath felt against your skin. The way your body reacted before you could stop it. You turn onto your side, then your back again, frustration building slowly, tightening in your chest until staying in bed feels impossible.
You sit up. The room is quiet, dim with only a faint glow from the city filtering through the curtains. For a moment, you hesitate, your thoughts catching up with your actions.
You shouldn’t go looking. You already know enough. But that thought doesn’t stop you. Because knowing isn’t the same as understanding. And right now, understanding feels like the only thing that might steady you.
You step out into the hallway. The penthouse is silent, the kind of silence that makes every movement feel louder than it should be. You move carefully, instinctively aware of the space around you, your senses sharper in the dark.
You glance toward his room first. The door is closed. You walk closer, slower now, your hand hovering just slightly before you test the handle. Locked. Of course it is. You let out a quiet breath, something between frustration and expectation. Then your gaze shifts. His office. The door isn’t fully closed. You step inside carefully.
The room feels different at night, heavier somehow, like everything inside it carries more weight in the absence of light. The desk sits exactly as it always does, clean, organized, nothing out of place. Too perfect. Too controlled.
You move closer. Your fingers brush the edge of the desk before you pull open the first drawer. Nothing obvious. Documents. Clean. Minimal. You try another. And another. Your heartbeat starts to pick up, your movements quicker now, your breathing quieter as if that might hide what you’re doing. There has to be something. Something that tells you who he really is. Something that tells you who is looking for you.
A paper slips slightly as you pull it free, your eyes scanning quickly, trying to make sense of names, numbers, fragments that feel important but incomplete, “Looking for something?”
The voice behind you stops everything. Your breath catches sharply, your body going still before you even turn. He’s already there. Standing in the doorway. Watching you. You don’t have time to explain. You don’t even try.
“I need to know what I’m involved in,” you say instead, your voice tighter than you intend, your grip still holding the paper.
He doesn’t move immediately. He just watches you, his gaze slow, taking in everything without rushing. Then he steps forward. You step back instinctively. Your hip hits the edge of the desk. There’s nowhere else to go.
He closes the distance. Fast enough that you don’t react until it’s too late.
The papers slip from your hands, scattering across the floor as his presence presses into yours, his hand braced against the desk beside you, effectively trapping you there without force. Your breath stutters.
“You don’t stop,” he murmurs, his voice lower now, closer, the words settling into the space between you in a way that feels heavier than they should. Your chest rises unevenly.
“I’m not going to just sit here and wait for something to happen,” you reply, even as your voice softens under the weight of his proximity.
His gaze lingers on you.
“You’re really testing my patience,” he says. His other hand moves to rest against the desk, close enough that you feel surrounded without being touched. Your pulse races.
“You think digging through my things is going to change anything?” he continues, his voice quieter now, slower, like he’s taking his time.
“I think it might give me a chance,” you answer.
“A chance at what?”
“At not being completely in the dark.”
His eyes hold yours. And something shifts. Not anger. Something deeper.
“You’re not in the dark,” he says softly.
Your breath catches.
“Then why does it feel like I am?”
He leans in slightly. Close enough that the space between you disappears. Your back presses more firmly against the desk, your body reacting before your mind can catch up.
“Because you don’t like the answers,” he murmurs.
The words brush against your skin. You should push him away. You don’t.
His gaze drops briefly, just enough to make your breath falter, just enough to make you aware of how close he is, how easily this could shift into something else.
“You keep pushing,” he continues, his voice lower now, softer in a way that feels more dangerous than before. “Like you’re trying to find a line.”
Your fingers curl slightly against the edge of the desk. “Maybe I am.”
The admission slips out before you can stop it. His gaze sharpens.
“And what happens when you find it?”
Your heart is racing now. “I guess we’ll see.”
For a moment, neither of you moves. Then his hand lifts. Enough to tilt your chin slightly upward, forcing your gaze to stay on his.
“You don’t know what you’re asking for,” he says quietly.
Your breath trembles. “Then show me.”
The words hang there. Dangerous. Unavoidable. Something shifts in his expression. Subtle, but unmistakable.
He leans closer. Your breath catches. You feel it before it happens, the change in the air, the shift in tension, the way everything narrows to just this moment.
His lips hover close. Too close. Your pulse pounds. And then, he stops for a second that feels longer than it should. Like he’s giving you time. Like he’s letting you choose. You don’t realize you’ve reached for his shirt until your fingers curl into the fabric.
That’s all it takes. The distance disappears. His jaw brushed the curve of your ear, the faint rasp of stubble sending heat skimming across your skin before his teeth closed in a slow, deliberate bite. Not enough to hurt. Just enough to make your breath catch, a quiet, helpless sound slipping past your lips before you could stop it.
You hated this. Hated how easily he unraveled you. How your body answered him without permission, pulse stuttering, thoughts dissolving into something reckless and unsteady. Every touch felt like a question you shouldn’t want to answer, yet here you were, leaning into him as if you already had.
Even with that small spark of resistance still flickering in your mind, your body betrayed you. Your head tilted back just enough, exposing the line of your throat, a silent challenge wrapped in a breathy whisper. There was defiance in it, sharp and tempting, the kind that drew something darker out of him.
He didn’t hesitate. His mouth found your skin as if he had been waiting for permission you never truly gave. Slow. Intentional. Each press of his lips along your neck felt measured, like he was taking his time learning every inch of you. When his tongue brushed against your pulse, tasting the warmth there, your breath faltered despite your effort to keep it steady.
Every brush of his mouth against your pulse sent a tremor through you, a soft, unguarded sound slipping free before you could swallow it down. It was quiet, but it was there, betraying the heat coiling low in your body, tightening with every second he refused to stop.
Your fingers curled against the edge of the desk, grip tightening until your knuckles blanched, as if holding on to something solid might keep you grounded. It didn’t. Nothing did. Not when your body leaned into him without permission, not when your breathing turned uneven no matter how hard you tried to steady it.
His mouth found yours without warning, firm and unyielding, the kind of kiss that didn’t ask, only took. It stole the air from your lungs in an instant. Leaving you breathless as his hand tightened just enough to keep you exactly where he wanted you. There was heat in it. Possession. Something dangerously close to hunger.
You tasted the faint trace of whisky on his lips, rich and intoxicating, but there was something deeper beneath it, something darker that pulled you in before you could think to resist. When his teeth caught your lower lip, tugging just enough to make your breath hitch, a quiet sound slipped from you, soft and unsteady. And the worst part was how easily you gave in to it.
A slow, aching heat spread low in your body, pulsing with a need you didn’t want to name. It made your breath uneven, your thoughts hazy, every nerve tuned to him and nothing else. Before you could think twice, you were on the desk, the edge pressing faintly against you as he stepped closer. Your legs parted without permission, a quiet, instinctive movement that welcomed him in ways your mind still tried to resist.
Your hand slid into his hair, fingers threading through the dark strands, tightening just enough to pull. To challenge. The sound that left him was low and rough, something felt more than heard, vibrating through you like a warning you had no intention of listening to.
The kiss deepened, turning messy and urgent, his mouth moving against yours with a hunger that made it hard to tell where you ended and he began. His tongue traced every response from you, slow one second, relentless the next, until your breathing broke into something uneven and fragile.
Your bodies pressed together, heat bleeding through every layer, every inch of space between you disappearing beneath the weight of it.
He pulled back just enough, your lips still brushing, his breath warm and unsteady against your skin.
“You’re so fucking stubborn,” he murmured, voice low and rough, laced with something dangerously close to frustration. “Always pushing me like this." His voice a low, gravelly whisper that sent a jolt straight to your cunt.
Your hips moved against him, slow at first, then with more intention, feeling the hard bulge of his cock through his jeans. A soft gasp slipped out, unsteady and unguarded, as the friction sent a rush of sensation through you.
Clothes quickly turned into nothing more than barriers between you, clumsy and frustrating in the heat of the moment. Your fingers worked at the buttons of his shirt, unsteady but determined, while he lost patience entirely, dragging the fabric over his head in one swift motion.
For a second, you stilled. The sight of him, all defined lines and tension, his chest rising and falling a little heavier than before, pulled something tight in your chest. Your gaze followed the shape of him, down to where his waistband sat low on his hips, and you felt that same dangerous pull all over again. Like you were already too far gone to stop.
The space around you seemed to close in, his office shrinking until it felt like there was nothing left but him and the heat building between you. The air turned thick, heavy with every unsteady breath, every quiet sound of movement as fabric slipped and fell forgotten to the floor. Soon, you were both stripped bare, your skin flushed and slick with sweat under the low glow of the lamp, every inch of you exposed to his hungry gaze.
He didn't waste a second, his mouth descending to your breasts, lips wrapping around one hardened nipple as he sucked hard, his teeth grazing the sensitive peak while his fingers pinched and rolled the other, drawing out a string of desperate whimpers from you.
You hated how easily he got under your skin, how completely he took over your senses until nothing else mattered but him.
His hand roamed lower, sliding between your thighs to find you already soaking wet, his fingers teasing your slick folds with deliberate strokes that made your back arch off the desk.
"Fuck, you're dripping for me," he growled, his voice thick with lust as he looked up at you, eyes dark and intense. The words sent a thrill through you.
He dropped to his knees, the cool air hitting your exposed skin as he spread your legs wider, his breath hot against your pussy. His tongue flicked out, tracing the edges of your swollen clit with agonizing slowness, the wet, slurping sounds filling the office as he lapped at you like a man starved. Each stroke was deliberate, building the tension until you were writhing, your fingers knotting in his hair as he added a finger, then two, thrusting them deep inside your tight, dripping cunt.
His fingers curling to hit that perfect spot that made stars burst behind your eyes, the rhythm steady and unrelenting as he sucked your clit harder, his other hand gripping your thigh to hold you in place.
Time blurred in a haze of heat, every moment pulling you closer to the edge you couldn’t quite step over. His attention didn’t waver, as if he had all the time in the world to unravel you piece by piece.
The office felt distant now, reduced to shadows and muffled sounds, while your breath broke in uneven rhythms you could no longer control. Every reaction betrayed you, every quiet sound giving away just how far gone you already were.
You'd never felt anything like it, the way his tongue swirled and flicked, the obscene squelching of your juices coating his fingers as he pumped them in and out, faster and deeper with each thrust.
When it finally broke through you, it felt like everything inside you gave way at once, tension snapping clean through your body. Your pussy clenching around his fingers as waves of ecstasy crashed through you, your cries muffled only by the palm you slapped over your mouth.
He didn’t let it end there. Even as your body finally began to soften against him, breath uneven and strength draining from your limbs, he lingered, unrelenting in the way he kept you anchored to the moment, as if he refused to let the intensity fade too quickly.
The aftershocks still moved through you in quiet, uncontrollable waves, leaving you unsteady, suspended somewhere between exhaustion and lingering heat.
And when you finally looked at him, there was no satisfaction of having finished. Only hunger. Still there. Still watching you like he wasn’t done with you yet.
He straightened slowly, the movement unhurried, like he was giving you time to change your mind even though neither of you really believed you would.
Reaching into the desk drawer, he retrieved something without breaking eye contact, the silence between you tightening again, heavy with understanding rather than words. He tear it open and roll it down his thick, throbbing cock. The sight of him, veins bulging along his shaft, precum glistening at the tip, made your mouth water, but there was no time to think as he positioned himself between your legs, the head of his dick pressing against your entrance.
He slid into you slowly at first, inch by inch, stretching your sensitive pussy around his girth until he was buried to the hilt, a groan escaped him as your walls gripped him tight.
"Fuck, you feel so good, so fucking tight," he rasped, his hands gripping your hips as he began to thrust, each movement deep and powerful, filling you completely. His cock hitting that sweet spot inside you with every stroke, the wet slap of skin against skin mingling with your mutual moans.
He flipped you over, the new position allowing him to pound into you harder, his balls slapping against your clit with each forceful drive. You met his rhythm, pushing back against him, the raw intensity of it all pushing you toward another peak as he growled filthy words in your ear. "Take it, you dirty little thing, cum all over my cock."
It went on, unrelenting and all-consuming, as if neither of you could find the will to pull away. The position shifted again, the desk chair creaking softly beneath the weight of it all, the room filled with nothing but breath and movement and the steady unraveling of control between you. His hands on your tits as you bounced on his length, feeling every vein and ridge drag against your inner walls.
Sweat dripped down your bodies, the air thick with the scent of sex, until finally, with one last, deep thrust, he buried himself inside you and came, his cock pulsing as he filled the condom, your own release crashing over you. For a moment, there was only silence. Heavy. Lingering. Unavoidable. And neither of you moved to fill it right away.
The office feels different now, not because anything has changed physically, but because something invisible has settled into the space, something you can feel in the air between you and him. The city outside continues to glow beyond the glass, indifferent and distant, while inside, everything feels too close, too aware of itself.
You are still on top of him. Close enough that if either of you moves first, the moment might shatter into something else entirely. But neither of you does. That silence stretches. Not uncomfortable. Not peaceful either. Something in between, something suspended, like the world forgot to tell you what comes next.
You realize your hands are still pressed against his shoulders. He notices. His gaze doesn’t move away from you, not even for a second, but there is no urgency in it now, no pressure, just that same steady awareness that has always made it impossible for you to ignore him.
“You’re still thinking too much,” he says finally. His voice is lower than before, quieter in a way that feels less like control and more like something closer to honesty.
You exhale slowly, looking at him properly now.
“I’m still trying to make sense of all of this,” you admit softly.
A faint shift passes through his expression, not quite amusement, not quite agreement.
“You should stop trying to understand everything all at once,” he says.
Your throat tightens slightly.
“That’s easy for you to say,” you reply.
His gaze holds yours.
“It’s not,” he answers. “It’s just necessary.”
That word lingers longer than it should. You look away for a moment, trying to steady your breathing, trying to bring yourself back into something that feels normal. But nothing about this feels normal anymore, not the room, not the silence, not the way your thoughts keep circling back to him even when you try to push them away.
“What happens now?” you ask quietly.
It is the first time you say it out loud. The first time you acknowledge that something has shifted between you, something neither of you can pretend didn’t happen. He studies you for a moment before answering.
“That depends on you,” he says.
You let out a small, almost disbelieving breath.
“Me?”
His voice doesn’t change.
“You can keep fighting me,” he says. “Or you can start trusting that I’m not the one you need to be afraid of.”
The words land differently now. Not like a command. Not like manipulation. More like something carefully placed in front of you, left for you to decide what to do with.
You push yourself off him slowly, your feet finding the floor again, your body feeling slightly unsteady in a way you refuse to acknowledge.
“I don’t know how to trust someone like you,” you admit.
There is no accusation in it. Just truth. He watches you for a moment longer.
“I didn’t ask you to trust everything,” he replies. “Just enough to stay alive.”
That sentence settles deeper than anything else tonight. You look at him again, and for the first time, you don’t just see control or distance or danger. You see responsibility. Heavy. Unshaken. Something he carries without asking for permission. And that changes the shape of everything you thought you understood.
You step back slightly, the space between you widening again, and something in your chest tightens at the loss of proximity more than you want to admit.
“I should go,” you say softly.
He nods once. No argument. No attempt to stop you. That, somehow, feels louder than anything else.
Your room feels colder than usual when you enter it. Or maybe it only feels that way because the warmth you were just in hasn’t faded from your skin yet.
You close the door slowly behind you, leaning against it for a moment without moving further inside. The silence here is different from his office. Less charged, less heavy, but somehow more isolating now that you’ve been reminded of what it feels like not to be alone in it.
Your fingers brush lightly against the fabric of his shirt again without you realizing it. You should change. You don’t. Not immediately. Because your mind is still replaying everything in fragments you cannot fully organize. His voice. His gaze. His touch. The way he spoke to you like the world outside your existence was something he was constantly calculating against.
You sit down slowly on the edge of the bed, your thoughts catching up to your body piece by piece. You should feel confused. You do. You should feel scared. Some part of you still is. But neither of those emotions feels complete anymore. Because there is something else now, something softer and more dangerous at the same time, something that settles in quietly when you are not paying attention.
You realize it only when you stop resisting it. You didn’t pull away from him tonight. Not when you had the chance. Not when you should have. And even now, sitting alone in your room, you are not sure if you regret it.
That thought stays with you longer than anything else. Outside your door, the penthouse remains silent. And somewhere beyond it, Kim Seokjin continues to exist in the same space as you, as if nothing between you has fully ended. As if it never really will.
Morning arrives without urgency, slipping through the glass like it has nowhere else to be except here. The city outside is already awake, already moving, already living a life that feels far removed from the quiet heaviness inside the penthouse. Up here, everything feels slower, like even time is careful not to disturb what has changed between you and him.
You wake before you want to. Because your body refuses to fully stay inside it. There is a dull ache in your limbs, not sharp enough to demand attention, but present enough to remind you that last night did not end the way ordinary nights end. You stay still for a moment, staring at the ceiling as if it might explain what your mind keeps circling back to.
It does not. Instead, what returns is him. The way he looked at you without distance. The way silence between you no longer felt empty. The way you did not leave when you should have. You sit up slowly, pulling the sheet aside, and the room shifts with your movement in a way that feels too loud for how quiet everything is. The fabric of his shirt falls naturally against your skin when you move, familiar now in a way that unsettles you more than it should. It does not feel like borrowed clothing anymore. It feels like something that belongs in this space the same way you do, even if you are still trying to reject that idea.
You exhale quietly and push yourself out of bed. There is no escape in staying still. The kitchen is already occupied when you step out. You know before you see him. It is not sound or movement that gives it away. It is something else, something that has started to settle in you without permission. Awareness. That quiet instinct that reacts to him before your thoughts can form properly.
He is there, standing by the counter, the early light from the city falling across his frame in a way that makes everything feel too composed to be accidental. Nothing about him looks rushed. Nothing about him ever does. Even the simplest movements carry that same controlled precision, as if everything he does is measured against something only he understands.
For a moment, you just watch him. Because your body does it before your mind can decide otherwise.
He glances at you once when you enter, and it is enough to shift something inside your chest. Not surprise. Not acknowledgment. Something quieter. Something that feels like awareness of a shared space that no longer belongs entirely to either of you.
“You’re awake,” he says.
You move closer slowly, stopping near the counter without fully committing to sitting yet.
“I didn’t think you were the type to make breakfast almost everyday,” you say.
A faint pause follows your words, not from confusion but from consideration.
“I am not,” he replies.
You nod slightly, absorbing that without fully understanding why it feels like more than it should. Because nothing about him is usually simple.
You sit down. He places a plate in front of you without ceremony before taking the seat across from you. The distance is familiar now, but it carries a different weight than before. Less like separation. More like something carefully maintained.
You do not eat immediately. Neither does he. For a while, only silence exists between you. It is not the kind of silence that feels empty anymore. It is full in a way that makes it harder to pretend nothing has changed. It carries memory without needing to speak it.
You break it first.
“You didn’t sleep properly,” you say quietly.
“I did,” he answers.
Your eyes lift slightly toward him, reading him more carefully now.
“That is not what it looks like,” you reply.
A brief pause follows.
“It was enough,” he says.
That answer tells you more than a longer explanation would have.
You set your fork down, attention fully on him now even if you are not sure you want it to be.
“You said I am safer here,” you say carefully. “But you never told me what I am actually safe from.”
His gaze stays on you without shifting.
“That depends on what you already know,” he replies.
A small tension builds in your chest at that.
“You mean Mr. Choi,” you say.
The name changes the air immediately. He does not avoid it. Instead, he leans into it in the same calm way he always does when he decides something will not be softened for your comfort.
“Mr. Choi was involved in things you were never meant to be close to,” he says. “He was trading information. Movement schedules. Access points. Things that don’t stay small once they enter circulation.”
You listen without interrupting, even though something in you resists every word.
“So he was not just some random neighbor,” you say slowly.
“No,” he replies.
The honesty is immediate. Unfiltered. Final. Your fingers rest against the table without moving.
“And you took him because of that,” you continue.
“I took him because someone else would have taken him worse,” he says.
You look at him more sharply now.
“That is supposed to make me feel better,” you say quietly.
“It is supposed to make you understand context,” he replies.
The distinction matters more than you want it to. Silence returns again, but it feels heavier now, filled with things you are only beginning to piece together.
You exhale slowly. “So where do I fit into all of this,” you ask, “because I am still not seeing how I become part of something like that just by being in the wrong place at the wrong time.”
His gaze does not leave you.
“That is where you are wrong,” he says.
Your chest tightens slightly at the certainty in his voice.
“I did not choose to be part of this,” you reply.
“I know,” he says.
That is what unsettles you the most. Not denial. Not disagreement. Acknowledgment. A quiet acceptance that you are already inside something neither of you can fully reverse.
You lean back slightly, your thoughts moving faster than your ability to organize them.
“Then why keep me here,” you ask, softer now.
For the first time this morning, his expression shifts in a way that is not immediately readable. Not distance. Not calculation. Something more restrained.
“I stopped seeing you as something I could simply remove from the situation,” he says.
The words land quietly, but they do not fade. You stare at him for a moment longer than you intend to.
“That does not sound like a reason,” you say.
“It is the only one that matters,” he replies.
The silence that follows is no longer empty. It feels like something held carefully in place, like both of you are aware that one more question might change the shape of everything again.
You notice your own hesitation. That is what scares you more than anything else. Not his world. Not the danger outside it. But the fact that you are no longer reacting to him purely with resistance. There is something else there now. Something you do not want to define too quickly.
You stand slowly, breaking the stillness.
“I need time to think,” you say.
He nods once. No argument. No attempt to stop you. That should feel like distance. It does not. It feels like permission. You walk toward your room, but you stop at the doorway without meaning to. Because for a moment, you realize something you have been avoiding all morning. You are not trying to escape him the way you used to. You are trying to understand what happens if you stop running at all. And behind you, he remains where he is. Not following. Not calling you back. Just watching quietly as if he already knows you will not leave the same person you were when you walked in.
Weeks pass in a way that no longer feels like waiting. Time does not drag inside the penthouse anymore. It moves quietly, naturally, like something that has finally settled into the shape it was always meant to take. There are no dramatic shifts, no sudden realizations that arrive like thunder. Instead, everything changes in small, almost unnoticeable ways until one day you realize you are no longer the person who once stood at that door, wondering if escape was the only answer.
Now the door is always unlocked. And you no longer look at it. That becomes the quiet truth of your days.
Seokjin leaves in the morning without saying much, his world still calling him back into places you are only beginning to understand. But the difference now is not in his absence. It is in what he leaves behind.
Freedom. Not as something distant or unreachable, but as something placed gently into your hands, as if he trusts you to decide what to do with it. And every day, without saying it out loud, you choose the same thing.
You stay. You find your own rhythm inside his space. It becomes your space too before either of you ever says it.
Some afternoons, he returns to find you in the library, curled into one of the deep chairs with a book resting open in your lap, your attention somewhere between the pages and the quiet comfort of knowing he will walk through the door eventually. Other nights, he steps inside to the soft glow of the television, your figure half-lost in the couch, a blanket loosely draped over you as if you never intended to fall asleep but did anyway.
And sometimes, like tonight, he finds you in the kitchen. Flour dusted lightly across the counter. A faint sweetness in the air. Your sleeves pushed up, your focus fixed on something you are trying to get right without entirely knowing if you will. He stops in the doorway when he sees you. Not announcing himself. Not interrupting. Just watching. Because this is the part of you he did not expect to matter as much as it does.
“You went out,” he says after a moment.
You glance over your shoulder, a small smile forming without effort. “I did,” you reply. “Your men were very serious about it.”
A quiet huff of amusement escapes him, barely there but real.
“I trust you,” he says, stepping further inside. “I do not trust them to leave you unguarded.”
You nod slightly, turning back to what you are doing.
“I figured that much.”
He leans against the counter, watching you more closely now.
“What is this,” he asks.
You hesitate for a second, then answer honestly.
“I saw something online,” you admit. “I wanted to try it.”
That earns a pause.
“You are experimenting,” he says.
“I am learning,” you correct softly.
Something shifts in his expression at that, something that lingers longer than it should.
Dinner ends up forgotten. Postponed by something neither of you plans but both of you recognize the moment it begins. You offer him food. He looks at you instead. “I am not hungry for that,” he says quietly.
The way he says it changes the air between you. The space between you disappears slowly, naturally, like it has done this too many times to be uncertain anymore. The connection is no longer something that surprises you. It feels known, like something your body understands before your thoughts can catch up.
Later, the kitchen fades into memory. The couch becomes the place where everything settles again. You are tangled together, the city lights dim behind you, the world outside reduced to something distant and unimportant compared to the quiet rhythm you share here.
Neither of you speaks at first. But eventually, your thoughts return to something that has lingered in the background of all this change.
“Seokjin,” you say softly.
He shifts slightly beside you, his attention already on you before you finish.
“What happened to him,” you ask. “Mr. Choi.”
The name feels different now. Less like a mystery. More like a piece of a story you have already stepped into.
He is quiet for a moment before answering.
“He is alive,” he says. “Somewhere far from here.”
You turn your head slightly to look at him.
“Alive,” you repeat.
“Yes,” he continues. “New name. New life. No connections to what he was involved in.”
You study his face carefully.
“You let him go.”
“I removed him from the equation,” he corrects.
That answer makes more sense for who he is.
“And the people who were looking for him,” you ask.
His gaze darkens slightly, not with anger but with something colder.
“They are no longer a problem,” he says.
You hold his gaze. “All of them?”
“The one who mattered is in custody,” he replies. “The rest are not in a position to reach you.”
You exhale slowly, letting that settle.
“For good,” you say.
He does not answer immediately. Then, quieter than before, he says, “For as long as I can control it.”
That honesty matters more than a promise. You shift closer to him, your hand resting lightly against his chest.
“You did all of that,” you say.
His gaze softens slightly.
“I did what was necessary,” he replies.
“For me,” you press.
A pause. Then, finally, “Yes.”
The word is simple. But it carries everything. Silence follows again, but it is different now. Warmer. Full. You study him for a moment longer before speaking again.
“You know,” you say quietly, “I could have left at any point.”
His gaze shifts slightly at that.
“I know,” he replies.
“I did not,” you continue.
He does not interrupt. Because he understands that this matters.
“I stayed,” you say, your voice softer now. “Because I wanted to be here.”
That changes something in him.
“I stopped asking myself when I would leave,” you add. “I started asking myself why I would.”
His hand moves slightly against yours.
“And what answer did you find,” he asks.
You meet his gaze fully.
“You,” you say.
The word settles into the space between you like it has always belonged there.
He exhales quietly, something shifting in his expression that he does not hide from you anymore.
“You are the only thing in this place that does not feel temporary,” you continue. “Everything else still feels like it could disappear if I look away long enough.”
His voice lowers.
“I am not going anywhere,” he says.
“I know,” you reply. “That is why I stayed.”
He studies you for a long moment. Then, quietly, “I used to think keeping you here was about control,” he admits.
You tilt your head slightly.
“And now,” you ask.
“Now I know it was about not wanting to come back to nothing,” he says.
That lands deeper than anything else. You smile softly, your hand brushing lightly against his cheek.
“You do not have to come back to nothing anymore,” you say.
His gaze holds yours. “I know,” he replies.
A pause. Then, softer, “I come back to you.”
The kiss that follows is not rushed. It carries everything that has been said and everything that has not needed words at all. And when you settle back into him, the world outside feels smaller than it ever has. Because it no longer matters in the same way.
The first time you step outside his world is not quiet. Everything about it carries weight, history, consequence. The kind of night that exists long before you arrive and will continue long after you leave. You feel it the moment you stand in front of the mirror, the city stretching endlessly behind you through the glass, your reflection unfamiliar in a way that makes your chest tighten just slightly.
You do not look like the person who once tried to escape this place. You do not feel like her either. There is something steadier in the way you hold yourself now. Something that has learned where it belongs, even if the path here was never something you would have chosen at the beginning.
Seokjin stands behind you, his presence filling the space without needing to announce itself. You catch his reflection before you turn, his gaze already fixed on you in that quiet, unwavering way you have come to understand.
“You do not have to do this,” he says.
His voice is calm, but there is something beneath it you have learned to hear. Not doubt in you. Concern for what this night might demand.
You turn to face him fully, smoothing your hands down the fabric of your dress, grounding yourself in the moment.
“I know,” you reply softly.
He studies you for a long second, searching for something he cannot force out of you.
“Once we walk in there,” he continues, “there is no separating you from me in their eyes.”
You step closer.
“I am already not separate from you,” you say.
The words settle between you, steady and certain. His gaze lowers slightly, taking you in like he is memorizing something he does not want to lose.
“You understand what that means,” he says quietly.
“I do,” you answer.
And you do. It means you will be seen. Measured. Judged. Not as a guest. Not as a stranger. But as something far more dangerous in a world like his. You will be seen as his.
The venue is exactly what you expect and nothing like it at the same time. Elegant in a way that feels calculated rather than welcoming. Conversations that sound polished but carry something sharper underneath. Eyes that linger a little too long, noticing everything without appearing to.
The moment you step inside with him, the room shifts. You feel it in the way conversations pause just slightly before continuing. In the way glances turn into stares that are quickly hidden behind practiced composure. In the way space seems to adjust itself around him, around you, as if the entire room is recalibrating to account for your presence.
His hand finds yours. And you realize then that this is not just about them seeing you. It is about him standing with you in a space where nothing is ever simple.
“You can still leave,” he murmurs quietly, just enough for you to hear.
You look at him. At the man who once kept you inside walls you hated. At the man who now gives you every choice and still hopes you stay.
“I walked in with you,” you say. “I am not walking out without you.”
Something shifts in his expression at that, something he does not hide.
“Good,” he says.
People approach. One by one. Conversations begin that feel more like assessments than introductions. Names are exchanged, but you quickly understand that names mean less here than alliances, than history, than power that exists beneath everything being said.
You stand beside him through it all. And slowly, something changes. At first, they look at you like a question. Then like a possibility. And eventually, like an answer they do not like but cannot ignore.
Because Seokjin does not correct their assumptions. He does not distance himself from you. He does not soften your presence. He lets it exist exactly as it is. And that is what makes it undeniable.
At some point, the conversations fade into the background. The noise of the room becomes distant, replaced by something quieter between you and him.
You step slightly away from the crowd, toward a space where the city is visible again through tall glass, the lights stretching endlessly into the night. He follows without being asked.
For a moment, neither of you speaks. You just stand there, side by side, the reflection of both of you faintly visible against the glass.
“This is your world,” you say softly.
“It is,” he replies.
You glance at him.
“And now I am in it.”
He turns slightly toward you.
“You have been in it for a while,” he says.
You shake your head faintly.
“No,” you correct. “I was surviving in it. This is different.”
He studies you carefully.
“How.”
You take a breath, letting the weight of everything settle before you answer.
“Because I am not here by accident anymore,” you say. “I am here because I chose to be.”
The words feel heavier spoken out loud. His gaze does not leave yours.
“That changes everything,” he says.
“It does,” you agree.
Silence follows, but it is not empty. It is full of everything that has led you here. Everything that could have ended differently but did not.
You step closer, your voice softer now, but no less certain.
“I used to think you were the worst thing that could happen to me,” you admit.
A faint shift crosses his expression.
“And now,” he asks.
You do not hesitate.
“Now I think you are the only thing that ever made sense after everything stopped making sense.”
He exhales slowly, something in him giving way in a way you have only seen in rare moments when he allows himself to be unguarded.
“You make this place feel different,” he says quietly.
You tilt your head slightly.
“How.”
“Less like something I have to control,” he answers. “More like something I want to come back to.”
Your chest tightens at that.
“You always had something to come back to,” you say.
He shakes his head faintly.
“No,” he replies. “I had responsibilities. Power. Territory. None of that is the same thing.”
His gaze softens just enough to shift everything again.
“You are,” he adds.
The words stay with you. Settle into you. And for a moment, the world outside the glass feels smaller than the space between you.
You reach for him first this time.
“I love you,” you say.
It does not come out as a confession. It comes out like something that has been true for longer than you have allowed yourself to say it.
His eyes hold yours, steady and unshaken. For a second, he says nothing. And then, quietly, like it belongs in this moment and nowhere else,
“I love you too.”
No hesitation. No distance. Just truth. The kind that does not need to be repeated to be understood.
When you step back into the room together, everything feels different.
Because whatever exists between you is no longer hidden, no longer uncertain, no longer something either of you can walk away from without losing something real.
They see it now. All of them. In the way you stand beside him. In the way his hand finds yours again without thought. In the way neither of you looks away.
And for the first time, you do not feel like someone caught in his world. You feel like someone who belongs in it.
End.
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Sypnosis: She never dreamed of space. If anything, she spent most of her life resenting it.
Y/N is the daughter of a legendary astronaut the world still mourns, a man remembered for the stars while his family learned how to live with his absence. To everyone else, he was history. To her, he was every birthday missed and every empty seat at home.
Joining the international space program was never about passion. It was about proving she could survive the same sky that took him away.
Then she meets Park Jimin.
A former pilot turned mission specialist, Jimin is everything she isn’t—warm, patient, endlessly easy to love. While she keeps people at a distance, he somehow slips past every wall she builds.
They compete. They clash. They slowly become inseparable.
Until a catastrophic mission failure leaves them stranded beyond Earth with failing systems, no rescue in sight, and impossible choices waiting in the dark between stars.
Because in space, survival always costs something.
And not everyone gets to come home.
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Chapter 6
The capsule crosses the edge of Earth’s atmosphere at 27,000 kilometers per hour. Suddenly everything begins shaking apart. Warning alarms explode across the cabin instantly while violent turbulence slams through the structure hard enough to blur your vision. The entire capsule groans beneath atmospheric pressure as fire blooms outside the viewport in terrifying waves of orange and white. For one horrifying second, it feels like Earth itself is trying to reject both of you.
The heat shield temperature spikes immediately.
1,200°C. 1,400°C. 1,700°C.
The numbers climb so fast your stomach twists violently. Inside the reinforced descent chamber, Jimin grips the restraints weakly while emergency lighting flashes red across his exhausted face. His oxygen line trembles with every violent shudder tearing through the capsule.
“Trajectory holding,” you breathe while forcing your hands steady across the manual controls. Barely holding.
The capsule spins suddenly. Hard. Everything lurches sideways as warning systems scream through the cabin.
ROLL INSTABILITY.
You react instantly. Your father’s voice echoes sharply through memory. You guide the atmosphere. You don’t fight it. You force yourself not to overcorrect.
One adjustment. Then another. The capsule stabilizes just enough before another shockwave slams through the hull.
Metal groans somewhere behind you. A terrible sound. Structural stress. The improvised shelter module attached outside is beginning to fail earlier than predicted.
Your pulse spikes instantly. Too early. The capsule jerks violently again while the external temperature climbs higher. You hear Jimin coughing behind you.
Rough. Painful.
You glance back only briefly. Big mistake. Because seeing him pale and barely conscious nearly destroys your focus.
“Stay with me,” you say immediately.
Jimin blinks slowly trying to focus on your voice through the chaos around both of you.
“You’re kinda bossy during atmospheric death,” he murmurs weakly.
The fact he can still joke almost breaks you.
Another warning flashes across the system.
EXTERNAL STRUCTURE FAILURE IMMINENT.
Your breathing quickens. You know what comes next. The separation.
You look toward the rear hatch where the emergency glide rig waits secured beside the airlock system. The thing barely looks real. Just fragments of engineering desperation welded together into something pretending to be survivable.
Outside the viewport, fire tears endlessly across the hull while Earth grows larger beneath clouds glowing gold from sunrise. The capsule begins spinning again. You manually compensate immediately. Sweat slides down your temple despite the freezing cabin air. Every muscle in your body strains against the violent shaking while reentry forces press heavier by the second. Then suddenly, a deafening metallic crack explodes through the structure.
The entire capsule lurches sideways violently. Jimin gasps sharply behind you. Warning systems scream.
SHELTER MODULE DETACHMENT FAILURE.
Your heart nearly stops. The external module is tearing apart unevenly. If it drags the capsule off balance during lower descent, both of you die instantly.
You look at the timer. Forty seconds until separation altitude. No choice anymore. You launch from the pilot controls immediately moving toward Jimin while the capsule shakes violently around both of you.
He looks barely conscious now. Eyes unfocused. Breathing uneven beneath the oxygen mask. Your chest aches seeing him like this.
“Hey,” you whisper urgently while cupping his face gently. “Look at me.”
His eyes struggle toward yours slowly.
“There you are,” he murmurs faintly.
The words nearly ruin you. You quickly secure the final manual locks across his chamber restraints with trembling fingers. The descent chamber protects him during lower impact. The autopilot will carry him once you stabilize the vector.
If it works. If any of this works.
Jimin notices you reaching for the emergency glide harness attached around your waist. Weak panic crosses his face immediately.
“No.”
Your throat burns.
“Jimin—”
“Please.”
He tries pulling against the restraints despite exhaustion immediately stopping him halfway. Tears rise sharply in your eyes.
“You have to let me do this.”
“I can’t.”
His voice cracks completely now.
The capsule shudders violently again. Separation altitude approaching. No time.
You lean forward until your forehead rests against his for what might be the last time. Tears cloud your vision so badly you can barely see him anymore, but you memorize him anyway. The uneven sound of his breathing. The way he still looks at you like you are something worth surviving for.
“I’ll see you on Earth,” you whisper, your voice trembling softly between you.
The silence that follows hurts more than anything. Because neither of you truly knows if that promise can be kept.
Jimin’s eyes glisten helplessly now, exhaustion stripping away the last of the strength he has been pretending to carry.
“Promise me,” he says quietly, the words cracking apart as they leave him.
Something inside you breaks at the sound of it. Still, you force yourself to nod.
“I promise.”
And before he can see how terrified you really are, you kiss him. And this time the kiss hurts. Because it feels like goodbye.
His hand shakes weakly against your cheek while the capsule burns through atmosphere around both of you. For one suspended impossible moment, everything disappears except him. Then another violent alarm tears through the cabin.
SEPARATION WINDOW OPEN.
You pull away breathing unevenly.
Jimin stares at you like he is trying to memorize your entire existence before gravity steals it from him. Then softly,
“I love you.”
Your vision blurs completely.
“I love you more.”
And before courage abandons you entirely, you run.
The rear hatch cycles open. Instant roaring wind and pressure consume the capsule immediately. Earth spins below in endless clouds and sunlight. Your heart pounds violently. Every survival instinct in your body screams not to jump.
But Jimin is behind you. Alive. Waiting.
You look back once. He is crying now openly inside the chamber watching you through reinforced glass. Still beautiful somehow even like this. Still your favorite person in the universe.
Then you detach the final line. And fall. The world becomes violence instantly. Wind tears across your body hard enough to rip screams from your throat while the glide rig struggles stabilizing beneath catastrophic atmospheric force. Heat burns around you. The sky itself feels on fire.
Above, the capsule streaks downward through blazing clouds. Below, Earth rises impossibly fast. Your vision shakes violently while warning systems flash across the small wrist display attached beside your glove.
Altitude dropping. Velocity unstable.
You fight the controls desperately remembering every word from your father’s recordings.
Guide the atmosphere. Don’t fight it.
The rig spins sideways suddenly. You correct. Too hard. The world flips violently again. Your stomach lurches. Clouds explode around you.
You cannot breathe properly. Cannot think properly. Everything becomes instinct and terror and survival.
Then suddenly, the parachute deployment system triggers.
Nothing happens. Cold horror floods your body instantly. You slam the emergency override manually. For one horrifying second, nothing.
Then, the parachute explodes open above you violently. The force nearly snaps your entire body backward. Air tears from your lungs painfully. But the spin stops. The descent slows. You stare upward in disbelief while the parachute strains against brutal wind currents above endless mountains hidden beneath cloud cover.
Far above you, another parachute blossoms beneath burning sky. The capsule stabilizes. Jimin’s capsule. Your vision blurs instantly with tears.
The ocean glitters far beyond distant coastlines while sunrise spills gold across Earth below. And for the first time since this nightmare began, home no longer feels impossible.
You hit the mountain slope hard enough to forget your own name for several seconds. Pain explodes through your entire body the second impact throws you violently across wet rock and snow. The parachute canopy snaps somewhere above you while momentum drags you downward another several feet before finally stopping against a cluster of jagged stones near the edge of a steep cliffside. For a terrifying moment, you genuinely think you might already be dead.
The world around you feels distant. Muted. Your ears ring violently while freezing air cuts sharply against your skin through the damaged descent suit.
Snow falls lightly around you. Small flakes drifting through pale morning light. You stare upward breathing unevenly.
Sky. The realization hits so suddenly tears burn behind your eyes again.
Earth. You made it back to Earth. A weak laugh escapes your throat before turning immediately into a painful cough.
Every part of your body hurts. Your shoulder burns sharply probably dislocated from landing impact. One side of your ribs screams every time you breathe too deeply. Blood slides warm down the side of your forehead from somewhere near your hairline. But you are alive.
Your shaking hands claw against frozen ground while adrenaline slowly fades enough for reality to crash back fully into place.
Jimin.
You sit upright too fast instantly regretting it as dizziness slams through your vision. You force yourself toward the emergency beacon attached near your harness while snow continues drifting softly around the mountainside.
The capsule. You search the sky desperately. Nothing. Only clouds stretching endlessly above sharp mountain peaks glowing gold beneath sunrise.
Panic rises immediately. Your fingers fumble violently against the cracked wrist display trying to reconnect tracking systems.
Static answers first. Then fragmented data flickers weakly across the screen.
DESCENT CAPSULE SIGNAL DETECTED
COASTAL IMPACT SURVIVED
LOCATION UNKNOWN
A sob escapes your throat before you can stop it.
Survived. He survived.
Relief hits so hard it physically hurts. Your head falls forward briefly while tears disappear against freezing air.
Thank God.
Somewhere across the ocean coastline below these mountains, Park Jimin is alive. The thought alone keeps your heart beating.
Far away from the mountains, waves crash violently against the side of the damaged descent capsule floating partially submerged near a rocky shoreline. Inside, emergency alarms continue echoing through smoke filled air while seawater leaks slowly across the cabin floor.
Jimin regains consciousness to the sound of metal groaning around him. Pain arrives immediately afterward. Every breath burns. His vision blurs heavily while emergency lights flash weakly red across the ruined chamber. For several seconds, he cannot remember where he is.
Then memory crashes back all at once.
The reentry. The fire. You falling away from the capsule into open sky.
His pulse spikes instantly. “Y/N—”
The word barely leaves his mouth before coughing overtakes him violently. The harness restraining him finally releases automatically with a mechanical hiss. Jimin nearly collapses trying to stand as seawater surges harder against the cabin walls.
Radiation sickness. Exhaustion. Impact trauma.
His body feels barely functional now. Still, he forces himself toward the cracked viewport.
Outside, endless ocean stretches beneath early morning sunlight while jagged coastal cliffs rise nearby covered in fog.
Earth. He made it home.
But the realization barely matters compared to the panic flooding through him now.
You. Where are you?
His trembling fingers slam repeatedly against emergency communication controls trying to activate any surviving system.
Nothing. Only static.
“No…” he whispers hoarsely.
The capsule groans again beneath another crashing wave. Water rises higher across the floor. Jimin stumbles toward the emergency hatch forcing it open manually with shaking hands just as icy seawater floods harder inside. The ocean air hits immediately.
Cold. Violent.
He barely manages pulling himself onto the damaged hull before collapsing onto his hands breathing hard against the freezing wind.
Above him, seagulls circle through pale morning clouds. The sight almost feels unreal after so long surrounded only by metal walls and endless darkness.
Then suddenly, voices.
Distant at first. Shouting across water.
Jimin lifts his head weakly. A fishing boat cuts through the waves nearby, small against the massive ocean but getting closer quickly. Several fishermen stand near the rail staring openly toward the smoking descent capsule floating near the cliffs. One of them points directly at him.
Jimin tries standing. Fails immediately. The world tilts violently sideways. His body finally giving up after surviving too much for too long.
Still, only one thought repeats inside his head while darkness presses heavily against the edges of his vision.
Please let her be alive.
Back in the mountains, hours pass slowly. The cold becomes dangerous fast. You manage activating your emergency locator beacon before collapsing briefly against the rocky slope from exhaustion.
Helicopters arrive just after noon. At first you think you imagined the sound. Then suddenly it grows louder. You force yourself upright painfully while snow whips harder around the mountain ridge. A rescue helicopter appears through clouds moments later.
Dark against the sky. Beautiful. The sight nearly makes you cry again.
Rescue teams descend quickly once they spot the torn parachute canopy spread across the snow beneath you. Voices echo around you.
Medical equipment. Thermal blankets.
Questions fired too quickly for your exhausted brain to process properly.
You only ask one. Over and over again.
“The capsule?”
Nobody answers immediately. Fear slices sharply through you again. Then finally one rescue medic speaks carefully into his headset before looking toward you with visible disbelief.
“The second astronaut survived ocean impact.”
Your entire body goes still.
“What?”
“He was recovered alive by a coastal fishing vessel approximately two hours ago.”
The world blurs instantly.
Alive. Jimin is alive.
The relief hits so hard your knees nearly give out completely despite the medics supporting you. Tears spill freely down your face now. You laugh through them anyway. Because after all the death and silence and impossible things space demanded from both of you—
Park Jimin still came home too.
Hours later, global news stations interrupt regular programming simultaneously. The footage spreads across the world within minutes. Burning reentry trails crossing Earth’s atmosphere. A damaged capsule floating against violent ocean waves. A rescue helicopter lifting an injured astronaut from snowy mountains.
Humanity watches in collective disbelief as the two astronauts previously declared dead return home alive. And somewhere far away, your mother finally breaks down crying in front of the television after weeks spent mourning a daughter she thought space already stole forever.
The hospital room feels unfamiliar in the worst possible way. After weeks trapped inside stations filled with recycled oxygen, flickering systems, and metal walls that constantly reminded you how fragile human life becomes in space, Earth suddenly feels overwhelming. The air smells too alive. Antiseptic mixes with rain drifting through the slightly cracked window somewhere down the hallway. Machines hum softly beside your bed while distant footsteps echo through the hospital corridors every few minutes.
Nothing here floats. Nothing here drifts. Gravity presses against every inch of your body like Earth itself is making sure you truly came home.
You wake slowly sometime after midnight. At first, panic arrives before consciousness fully does. Your body jerks instinctively because darkness still feels dangerous now. For on second, your brain expects emergency alarms. Failing oxygen systems. Endless orbit outside observation windows. You expect to wake surrounded by silence so deep it feels inhuman.
Instead, pain spreads sharply across your ribs. A heart monitor beeps steadily nearby. Rain taps softly against glass. And suddenly reality returns all at once.
Hospital. Earth. Alive.
You stare blankly toward the ceiling while exhaustion settles heavily inside your bones. Thick bandages wrap around your shoulder and side beneath the hospital gown. Bruises darken your skin everywhere the descent harness dug into your body during atmospheric entry. Your throat still burns from smoke inhalation and screaming against violent wind during reentry.
Every breath hurts. But you are alive enough to feel it.
Your eyes slowly drift toward the window where city lights glow softly through rainfall outside. Cars move below. Buildings stand warm and ordinary beneath the storm. People are sleeping in apartments right now. Ordering takeout. Watching movies. Complaining about work tomorrow morning. The normalcy of it almost makes you cry.
After floating above Earth believing you would never touch it again, humanity suddenly feels heartbreakingly beautiful.
Then memory crashes into you violently. Jimin.
You sit upright immediately. Pain rips through your side so sharply your vision whites out for a second. The heart monitor beside your bed spikes wildly.
“Hey hey, easy.”
A nurse rushes toward you instantly before gently forcing you back against the pillows.
“You’re going to reopen your stitches.”
“Where is he?”
Your voice comes out rough and weak from dehydration. The nurse hesitates for half a second too long. Fear floods your bloodstream immediately.
“Where’s Jimin?”
“He’s alive.”
Relief slams through you so fast it almost hurts physically. You close your eyes briefly trying to breathe through it.
“Is he okay?”
The nurse softens visibly.
“He’s stable.”
Stable. You suddenly hate that word more than anything. Stable means surviving. Your fingers curl tightly into the blanket.
“The radiation exposure caused complications,” she continues carefully. “But the doctors are monitoring him closely.”
You stare at her silently while panic claws slowly back into your chest.
Complications. The word echoes violently through your head because you remember the way Jimin looked before descent.
Pale. Barely conscious. Still smiling at you anyway because he didn’t want your last memory of him to be fear. Your throat burns instantly.
“I want to see him.”
“It’s almost one in the morning.”
“I need to see him.”
The words come out shakier than intended. The nurse pauses quietly after that. Because there is no training manual for comforting astronauts who survived impossible things together.
“He asked about you first,” she says gently.
Your entire chest aches hearing that.
“When?”
“Right after he woke up.”
Of course he did.
Tears sting your eyes immediately before you can stop them. The nurse adjusts your IV line carefully while her expression softens further.
“You both scared the entire world.”
You laugh weakly at that. The sound breaks halfway through because suddenly you remember the transmission declaring both of you dead. Humanity mourning two astronauts while you drifted through orbit talking to empty chairs because loneliness became too heavy to carry silently anymore. The nurse eventually leaves after checking your medication but sleep never truly returns afterward. Every time you close your eyes, memories drag you backward instantly.
Jimin smiling through the radiation shelter glass while locking you safely inside. His heartbeat monitor flatlining during the solar storm. The moment you found him barely alive inside that abandoned station. His voice cracking when he begged you not to leave during reentry.
You wake from every nightmare gasping.
At 4:12 AM, you finally stop trying to rest.
The room feels too small. Too quiet. Too empty without him.
You pull the monitoring wires carefully from your chest before swinging your legs over the side of the bed. Pain spreads immediately through your ribs and shoulder, sharp enough to make you dizzy for a second. Still, you stand anyway.
The hospital floor feels freezing beneath your socks while you slowly make your way into the hallway gripping the wall for balance. Nurses notice immediately.
One of them starts walking toward you. You ignore her completely.
Room 407. The number repeats endlessly inside your head after overhearing it earlier from the nurses’ station.
407. 408. 409.
The walk feels longer than reentry somehow. Every step hurts. Your body feels stitched together by pure stubbornness and unresolved adrenaline. Still, you keep moving. Because after surviving space itself, nothing on Earth could stop you from reaching him now.
The hallway grows quieter the farther you go. Rain continues falling softly against massive hospital windows while dim emergency lights glow along the floor. Then finally—
407.
You stop outside the door. And suddenly fear hits harder than atmospheric descent ever did.
What if he looks worse? What if the radiation damage is permanent? What if surviving changed him? What if you already lost pieces of each other out there in orbit without realizing it yet?
Your hand shakes lightly against the door handle.
Then slowly, you push the door open. The room is dark except for pale moonlight spilling through rain covered windows. Machines beep softly near the bed.
And there he is. Park Jimin sleeps curled slightly beneath white hospital blankets while soft city light catches against his face. Your breath leaves you instantly.
He looks thinner than before. Softer somehow. Exhaustion hollows shadows beneath his eyes while bruises and fading burns disappear beneath the loose hospital gown. Bandages wrap around one hand where he burned himself saving your life during the station fire. An oxygen line rests beneath his nose while IV medication drips slowly beside him.
But he is here. Alive enough to breathe. Alive enough to sleep. Alive enough to come home.
Emotion crashes through you so violently your knees nearly give out. You grip the doorway trying not to break apart right there. Because after all the death orbit demanded from both of you, after grief and silence and solar storms and impossible odds, Park Jimin survived.
Tears blur your vision immediately. You move toward him slowly. Carefully. Like getting too close might somehow wake you from this.
The chair beside his bed scrapes softly when you sit down. Jimin doesn’t wake immediately. For a long moment, you simply watch him breathe.
Up. Down. Up. Down.
Your body still needs proof. Your fingers move before your brain does, reaching carefully toward his hand resting against the blanket. Warm.
The second your skin touches his, something inside your chest finally begins unclenching for the first time in weeks.
Jimin stirs faintly. His eyebrows pull together slightly before his eyes slowly open. Disorientation crosses his face first. Then recognition hits him all at once. And suddenly he looks at you like he cannot believe you are real.
Neither of you speaks immediately. The room fills too quickly with emotion neither of you knows how to survive gracefully. Jimin’s eyes glass over almost instantly.
“So,” he whispers weakly after several long seconds, “guess we’re terrible at dying.”
A broken laugh escapes you before turning immediately into tears. The ugly kind pulled from months of fear and exhaustion and love too overwhelming for the human body to contain anymore. Jimin squeezes your hand weakly.
“You’re alive.”
The way he says it nearly destroys you. Like some part of him still expects to wake up back in orbit alone again. You nod shakily through tears.
“So are you.”
His face crumples slightly at that.
“You scared me,” he admits softly.
You laugh through tears again.
“You jumped out of a spacecraft.”
“You locked me inside a radiation shelter first.”
“That was romantic.”
“That was psychological warfare.”
A weak laugh escapes him. The sound feels fragile. Then suddenly his expression shifts again.
“I thought you burned up during reentry.”
The confession comes out barely above a whisper. Like speaking it aloud might somehow make it real again. Your chest aches painfully hearing that. You move closer immediately despite the pain tearing through your ribs.
“I’m here.”
Jimin looks at you silently for several seconds afterward. And something about his expression completely ruins you. Like surviving space changed the shape of his soul permanently and now the only thing grounding him back to Earth is you sitting beside him holding his hand.
“You came back,” he whispers finally.
Your vision blurs all over again. Because suddenly you realize nobody has ever waited for you this way before.
Not your father. Not the space program. Not the world.
Just him. Park Jimin waited for you.
You lean forward carefully until your forehead rests against his. His hand lifts instinctively toward your face despite exhaustion. Always instinct with him. Always reaching for you first.
“I love you,” you whisper shakily.
Jimin closes his eyes briefly like the words physically undo something painful inside him. When he opens them again, they shine with tears he no longer bothers hiding.
“I love you more.”
Outside, rain continues falling softly across the sleeping city while Earth turns peacefully beneath storm clouds and hospital lights. And inside room 407, two astronauts who survived impossible things finally find gravity again in each other.
Three days after the world learns you survived space, your hospital hallway becomes impossible to recognize. Security guards stand outside every entrance twenty four hours a day. Nurses whisper nervously near elevators whenever media helicopters circle overhead again. Hospital administrators move through corridors with exhausted expressions while representatives from aerospace agencies argue quietly behind closed conference room doors.
Every television screen inside the building shows the same thing. Your faces. Over and over again.
Footage of the damaged descent capsule floating violently in the ocean. The mountain rescue helicopter lifting you from snow covered cliffs. The emergency transmission declaring both astronauts deceased. Then the miracle afterward.
The survival. The impossible return.
Humanity becomes obsessed almost overnight. News anchors call both of you symbols of resilience. Internet edits romanticize your mission into something tragic and beautiful. People online analyze every recovered transmission between you and Jimin. Conspiracy theories spread faster than official statements. Journalists dig through classified documents searching for evidence of the illegal autonomous rescue program.
And somewhere in the center of all of it, you feel more exhausted than famous. The attention suffocates you immediately. Because none of these people understand what survival actually cost.
They only see headlines. Not the silence afterward. Not the loneliness. Not Jimin begging you not to leave him before reentry while his hands shook from radiation poisoning. The world sees inspiration. You still wake up hearing heartbeat monitors flatline.
This morning, rain falls softly outside the hospital windows while another news report plays muted across the television mounted near your bed.
SURVIVING ASTRONAUTS EXPECTED TO ADDRESS PUBLIC SOON.
You groan immediately before grabbing the remote. The television goes black.
Peace. Finally.
A soft laugh comes from the doorway. You turn instantly. Jimin leans carefully against the frame wearing gray sweatpants and a loose hospital hoodie, one hand still wrapped in healing bandages from the station fire. Your heart still stops every single time you see him. Maybe it always will now.
His recovery has been slow. Radiation exposure left him weaker than he wants anyone to know. Some mornings he still looks pale enough to scare you. Some nights nightmares wake him breathing hard in the dark hospital room beside yours because the solar flare still lives somewhere inside him.
But he is here. Still smiling. Still looking at you like surviving became worth it the moment you did too.
“You turned off your fan club?” he asks softly.
You narrow your eyes.
“If one more news anchor calls us star crossed lovers, I’m leaving Earth again.”
Jimin grins tiredly while stepping farther inside your room.
“That’d be awkward considering everyone already thinks we’re secretly married.”
You stare at him.
“What?”
He pulls out his phone immediately.
“Oh, you haven’t seen SpaceTok yet.”
“SpaceTok?”
“Worst invention humanity ever created.”
Despite yourself, curiosity wins. Jimin sits carefully beside you before showing his screen. Your stomach drops instantly.
Edits. Thousands of them. Slow motion footage from training sessions. Mission clips. Recovered audio transmissions. Someone added orchestral music beneath the moment you screamed his name after finding his distress beacon. Another edit zooms dramatically into the footage of Jimin helping you into the launch capsule before mission departure. Comments flood endlessly beneath it.
THE WAY HE LOOKS AT HER???
they literally survived space for love
if they don’t get married i’m suing nasa
You throw the phone back toward him horrified.
“Oh my God.”
Jimin laughs quietly for the first time all morning. The sound warms the room instantly.
“You know what’s worse?” he says. “There’s apparently a conspiracy thread dedicated entirely to whether we kissed in orbit.”
Your face burns immediately.
“We literally almost died.”
“And yet somehow the internet only cares whether I was your boyfriend.”
You look away too quickly. Jimin notices instantly. The teasing expression softens slightly while silence settles gently between both of you. Then suddenly, a knock interrupts the room. You glance toward the door expecting another doctor. Instead, your entire body freezes.
Your mother stands there clutching her bag tightly against her chest. For one suspended moment, nobody moves. She looks smaller somehow. Like grief aged her during the weeks she believed space stole you too. The second her eyes meet yours, tears immediately fill them.
“Mom.”
Your voice cracks completely. She crosses the room instantly. And suddenly you are in her arms again. The hug hurts your injuries. You do not care. Your mother sobs quietly against your shoulder while holding you so tightly it feels like she’s trying to physically convince herself you exist.
“I thought…” Her voice breaks apart violently. “I thought I lost you.”
Tears spill down your face immediately too.
“I’m here.”
She pulls back just enough to cup your face with shaking hands.
“You came home.”
The words nearly destroy you because suddenly you realize something horrifying. Your mother already survived loving one astronaut once. And it almost ruined her.
You lean into her touch instinctively while both of you cry quietly together. Then her eyes drift toward the other side of the room. Toward Jimin. He straightens immediately like a nervous teenager caught sneaking into someone’s bedroom. The sight would almost make you laugh if your chest didn’t hurt so much emotionally. Jimin bows politely despite the obvious panic flickering across his face.
“Hello, ma’am.”
Your mother studies him silently for several seconds. Then softly,
“So you’re Park Jimin.”
His ears immediately turn pink.
“Yes, ma’am.”
You almost choke trying not to laugh. This is the same man who survived orbital disaster while cracking jokes during atmospheric descent. And somehow meeting your mother terrifies him more.
Your mother looks between both of you carefully. Then suddenly:
“Are you her boyfriend?”
Silence detonates across the room instantly. Your eyes widen. Jimin goes completely still. Then slowly, he looks toward you. And the expression on his face changes something deep inside your chest forever.
Because he doesn’t answer for you. Doesn’t assume. He simply looks at you quietly like the decision belongs entirely in your hands. Like no matter how much he loves you, he will still let you choose him freely. Your throat tightens painfully.
After everything both of you survived together, the softness of that moment nearly breaks you more than space ever did.
You look back at your mother. Then at him again. And quietly—
“Yes.”
The word barely leaves your mouth before relief visibly floods across Jimin’s face. Honest relief so genuine it makes your chest ache. Like some part of him still feared losing you even after surviving impossible things together.
Your mother notices too. A small emotional smile touches her face while tears still shine in her eyes.
“Well,” she says softly, “that explains why he keeps looking at you like you hung the moon.”
Jimin immediately hides his face behind one hand. You laugh for the first time in days. And somehow the sound heals something inside the room instantly.
Another knock interrupts again shortly afterward. This time, an older man stands outside the doorway holding flowers awkwardly in one hand. Jimin freezes immediately.
“Dad?”
You blink in surprise. Park Minho looks strikingly similar to his son despite older age softening his features. The resemblance becomes obvious around the eyes especially. And suddenly, memory clicks sharply into place.
Old archived photographs from your father’s astronaut training years. A younger version of this man standing beside him. Your pulse stutters. Jimin notices your expression instantly. His father steps carefully inside before looking toward you with quiet warmth.
“I’m very happy to finally meet you.”
Then gently:
“Your father would’ve been proud of you.”
Emotion climbs painfully into your throat. Because suddenly everything connects. The stories. The training archives. The hidden rescue system your father helped design. The history orbiting both your lives long before you ever met each other.
Jimin watches you carefully from beside the bed. And somehow, despite the cameras outside and the media frenzy waiting beyond hospital walls and the entire world turning both of you into symbols, none of it matters right now.
Not the headlines. Not the fame. Not the conspiracy investigations already threatening aerospace agencies worldwide.
Only this room. These people. This impossible second chance at life.
Jimin eventually reaches for your hand quietly beneath the blanket. His fingers slide carefully between yours. And while the world outside becomes obsessed with the astronauts who survived space and fell in love doing it, Park Jimin only looks at you like coming home was always enough.
Recovery happens quietly. It happens slowly in ordinary places. In kitchens filled with sunlight. In the sound of someone else breathing safely beside you at night. In learning how to exist again without constantly expecting loss.
Months pass after returning to Seoul. Winter fades gradually into spring while the world slowly loses interest in the astronauts who survived impossible things. Media attention still follows both of you sometimes. Reporters occasionally wait outside rehabilitation centers hoping for photographs. Documentaries continue releasing online dissecting the mission, the conspiracy, the survival story that somehow captured the entire world for months.
But eventually, humanity moves on. And honestly, you are grateful for it. Because healing feels easier once strangers stop watching.
Your new apartment begins feeling like home sometime around late March. You never notice the exact moment it happens.
One day the space feels temporary. The next, Jimin’s hoodie hangs permanently over the dining chair while his favorite tea sits beside yours inside the kitchen cabinet like it naturally belongs there.
At first, he still sleeps on the floor beside your bed. Even months later, neither of you fully trusts silence yet. Some nights are still difficult. You occasionally wake from nightmares gasping after dreaming about drifting alone through endless orbit again. Other nights Jimin wakes suddenly after hearing phantom emergency alarms inside his sleep. But now, recovery no longer feels lonely.
This morning, soft sunlight spills across your apartment kitchen while rain taps quietly against the balcony windows. You stand barefoot near the stove stirring soybean stew while half awake exhaustion still clings to your body.
Your hair remains messy from sleep. One of Jimin’s oversized shirts hangs loosely over your shoulders. And for the first time in a very long time, life feels normal enough to be beautiful.
Behind you, Jimin sits at the kitchen island scrolling lazily through his tablet while drinking coffee. Or attempting to. Every few seconds he glances toward you instead. You notice eventually.
“What?”
Jimin smiles immediately into his mug.
“Nothing.”
“You’ve been staring at me for five straight minutes.”
“You’re making breakfast aggressively.”
You blink.
“What does that even mean?”
“You look personally offended by tofu.”
A laugh escapes you before you can stop it. Jimin watches your smile quietly for a second longer than necessary. Then softer:
“There it is.”
Warmth creeps instantly into your face.
“You’re annoying.”
“You’re in love with me.”
“Unfortunately.”
“Devastating news.”
Before you can answer, the apartment buzzer rings. You glance toward the clock. 9:14 AM.
Jimin stands first automatically. “I’ll get it.”
A few moments later, your mother walks into the apartment carrying reusable grocery bags filled with vegetables from her backyard garden. The second she sees you, her expression softens immediately.
“You look tired.”
“That’s because your daughter refuses to sleep before two in the morning,” Jimin says from the kitchen.
Your mother gasps dramatically.
“Still?”
You groan.
“Can both of you stop exposing me in my own apartment?”
Jimin grins shamelessly while taking the grocery bags from her hands.
“Don’t worry, ma’am. I’m suffering too.”
“You literally stayed awake watching conspiracy videos with me last night.”
“That’s called emotional support.”
Your mother laughs quietly while removing her shoes near the entrance. The sight still feels surreal sometimes. For so many years, your childhood home carried silence. Heavy silence. Now laughter exists here.
Your mother moves around the kitchen comfortably while unpacking vegetables onto the counter.
Fresh lettuce. Peppers. Green onions. Cherry tomatoes still smelling faintly like sunlight and soil.
“I planted too much again,” she says casually.
“You say that every week,” you mumble.
“And every week you still finish everything.”
Jimin immediately nods.
“She makes really good soup with the radishes.”
Your mother beams instantly at him.
“Oh? You like the radishes?”
“Very much.”
Liar.
You watch the interaction quietly while pretending to focus on breakfast. At some point over the past few months, Jimin stopped acting nervous around her. Now he follows her around the kitchen stealing side dishes while listening attentively whenever she talks about gardening or neighborhood gossip or recipes she wants both of you to learn.
Sometimes you catch your mother smiling at him softly when he isn’t looking. Like she sees how carefully he loves you. Like she silently thanks him for bringing you home alive too.
Later that afternoon, rain finally clears enough for sunlight to spill warmly across the city.
Your mother stands near the dining table folding empty grocery bags before speaking carefully.
“I was thinking…”
You glance up.
“We should visit your father today.”
The room falls gently quiet afterward.
Because despite everything—
You still haven’t gone.
Not since returning home.
Maybe part of you wasn’t ready yet.
Maybe surviving space changed the shape of your grief too much.
But today—
Today suddenly feels different.
You nod slowly.
“Okay.”
The cemetery rests quietly near the edge of the city surrounded by trees just beginning to bloom beneath spring sunlight.
Your father’s grave sits beneath soft afternoon light scattered through cherry blossom branches overhead.
Han Yejun.
Astronaut.
National hero.
Beloved husband.
Father.
You stare at the engraved name silently while emotion rises slowly inside your chest.
Jimin stands beside you quietly carrying the flowers your mother brought earlier.
The wind moves softly through the cemetery while distant birdsong echoes faintly somewhere beyond the trees.
Your mother kneels first arranging flowers carefully beside the gravestone.
Then she steps back silently.
Giving you space.
You stare downward for several long moments before finally speaking.
At first, your voice barely comes out.
“I used to hate you for leaving.”
The confession hangs quietly beneath the spring sky.
Your throat burns instantly afterward.
Jimin’s hand slips carefully into yours beside your leg.
You squeeze his fingers tightly before continuing.
“I spent years pretending I didn’t care about space because I thought loving it meant becoming like you.”
Tears blur your vision slowly.
“I thought if I became better than you somehow… maybe it would finally hurt less.”
The words break apart halfway through.
Your breathing shakes immediately afterward.
Because grief becomes heavier once honesty finally reaches it.
Your mother lowers her eyes quietly beside you while tears begin slipping silently down her face too.
You swallow hard trying to continue.
“But when I was up there…”
Emotion crashes violently into your chest.
You look down at the grave helplessly while tears spill freely now.
“When everything went wrong… when I thought we were going to die…”
Your voice cracks completely.
“You still saved us.”
A sob escapes before you can stop it.
Jimin immediately moves closer beside you while still holding your hand tightly.
You cry harder after that.
The kind buried for years finally breaking open all at once.
“I’m sorry,” you whisper through tears. “I’m so sorry for hating you.”
Your shoulders shake violently now while grief and love and relief collapse together painfully inside your chest.
Beside you, your mother quietly wipes her own tears with trembling hands.
And Jimin—
Jimin simply stays.
One hand holding yours.
The other rubbing slowly against your back while you fall apart beside your father’s grave beneath spring sunlight.
After several minutes, you finally manage breathing again.
Your face hurts from crying.
Your eyes burn.
But strangely—
Your chest feels lighter too.
Like forgiveness finally reached somewhere grief could not.
Jimin crouches carefully beside the gravestone afterward placing the flowers down gently.
Then softly, almost shyly:
“Thank you for saving us.”
Your vision blurs again instantly.
Because suddenly you realize your father never truly disappeared from your life.
Pieces of him still existed everywhere.
In old recordings.
In orbital calculations.
In the courage he unknowingly left behind inside you.
The wind moves softly through blooming trees overhead while sunlight warms the cemetery ground beneath your feet.
And for the first time since childhood—
Standing beside your father no longer feels lonely.
By early summer, your apartment finally begins feeling lived in instead of survived in.
The tension that followed both of you home from space slowly softens around the edges. Not completely. Some wounds settle too deep inside the body to disappear entirely. There are still nights when thunder wakes you because it sounds too much like collapsing metal. There are still mornings when Jimin pauses quietly near windows staring too long at the sky like part of him remains stranded somewhere above Earth.
But healing exists now too.
In routines.
In softness.
In ordinary love.
Tonight, warm rain falls lazily against the balcony windows while the city glows gold beneath blurred neon reflections. Music hums quietly from the kitchen speaker while you stand barefoot near the stove stirring pasta sauce wearing one of Jimin’s old university shirts.
The shirt hangs too large over your body.
Jimin claims you steal his clothes constantly.
You claim he leaves them everywhere on purpose.
Honestly, both are true.
“You’re burning the garlic,” he says from the couch.
You narrow your eyes immediately.
“I’m literally not.”
“You absolutely are.”
“You’ve become arrogant ever since learning how to cook two meals.”
Jimin grins without looking away from the documentary playing on television.
“Three meals.”
“You made ramen.”
“That still counts.”
“It came with instructions.”
A laugh slips out before you can stop it.
The sound fills the apartment warmly.
Jimin glances toward you immediately after hearing it.
Every single time.
Like some part of him still quietly treasures proof that you can laugh again.
You catch him staring.
“What?”
“Nothing,” he says softly.
But his expression says everything anyway.
Love has become frighteningly visible between both of you now.
Just woven naturally into the shape of your lives.
Into grocery lists.
Into shared tea mugs left in sinks.
Into the way Jimin automatically reaches for your hand during crowded streets without thinking anymore.
Dinner happens slowly afterward while rain continues tapping gently outside.
Jimin tells you about a rehabilitation doctor accidentally recognizing him earlier that morning because apparently her teenage daughter runs a fan account dedicated entirely to recovered mission footage.
You nearly choke on your drink laughing.
“No.”
“I’m serious.”
“What was the account name?”
Jimin groans immediately.
“I’m never telling you that.”
“Why?”
“She edits slow motion videos of us with sad music.”
“That’s kind of romantic.”
“She added sparkles during our congressional hearing.”
You laugh so hard your stomach hurts.
Jimin watches you across the table quietly smiling despite himself.
And suddenly the apartment feels painfully warm with happiness.
Later, the rain deepens into steady midnight storms while Seoul glows softly outside the bedroom windows.
You lie tangled together beneath blankets while distant thunder rolls somewhere beyond the city skyline. The room smells faintly like fabric softener and Jimin’s shampoo and the tea both of you forgot to finish earlier beside the bed.
Jimin rests beside you half asleep, one arm lazily draped across your waist while soft instrumental music plays quietly from someone’s apartment several floors below.
The world feels peaceful tonight.
You trace absentminded circles across his arm while staring toward the ceiling.
“Can I ask you something?”
Jimin hums softly against your shoulder.
“Mhm.”
“When did you realize you loved me?”
A sleepy smile touches his mouth immediately.
“That’s dangerous information.”
“Why?”
“Because you’ll become unbearable afterward.”
You lightly shove his shoulder.
“Jimin.”
He laughs quietly before lifting himself slightly onto one elbow.
Moonlight spills softly across his face through the curtains while rain shadows move gently against the walls.
“I think…” His voice lowers thoughtfully. “Maybe the observatory.”
You blink.
“The night with your mother’s recordings?”
He nods slowly.
“You looked at me differently after that.”
Emotion stirs quietly inside your chest hearing him say it aloud.
“You stopped treating me like competition,” he continues softly. “You started seeing me.”
The honesty in his voice makes your throat tighten unexpectedly.
Jimin brushes his fingers carefully against your cheek before smiling faintly.
“When did you?”
You hesitate.
Because the answer feels embarrassingly obvious now.
“The water tank incident.”
His eyebrows lift instantly.
“You fell in love with me after yelling at me?”
“I didn’t say love.”
“You absolutely implied it.”
You hide your face briefly against the pillow groaning while he laughs softly beside you.
Then quieter:
“I think part of me knew before I wanted to admit it.”
Jimin watches you carefully.
“How?”
You glance toward him slowly.
“Because whenever something happened… good or bad… you became the first person I looked for.”
Silence settles gently afterward.
Jimin’s expression softens so much it almost hurts to look at him.
Then he leans down kissing you slowly.
Warm.
Unhurried.
Like he still cannot believe both of you survived long enough for tenderness like this.
You kiss him back immediately.
And somewhere between rain and moonlight and lingering trauma neither of you fully escaped yet, the distance between both your bodies slowly disappears.
There is nothing rushed about it.
Nothing desperate.
Only softness.
Jimin touches you carefully like every scar still deserves reverence instead of shame.
His lips brush slowly against the faded marks along your shoulder left behind by reentry harness burns. Against the pale scars near your ribs from emergency surgery afterward.
Every touch feels full of love so deep it becomes almost unbearable.
You run your fingers through his hair while he presses quiet kisses along your skin like he’s trying to memorize proof that you survived.
That both of you did.
The room grows warmer around you while rain continues falling softly outside the windows.
Your breathing mixes together quietly.
Skin against skin.
Heart against heart.
Jimin lifts his head eventually just to look at you.
Like he still finds your existence miraculous.
“You’re beautiful,” he whispers.
Emotion crashes gently through your chest hearing it.
Because he says it like he means every broken part too.
You pull him closer again kissing him deeply while his hand slides carefully against your waist.
And just as the world narrows beautifully into warmth and tangled sheets and the overwhelming comfort of loving someone who came back alive with you—
Your phone rings.
Both of you freeze instantly.
The sound slices violently through the quiet room.
For one horrible second, instinctive panic flashes across both your faces.
Because late night calls still feel dangerous now.
Jimin reaches toward the nightstand first while breathing slightly unevenly.
The screen glows brightly in the dark room.
Unknown secure line.
Houston.
Your stomach drops immediately.
Jimin looks toward you slowly.
Neither of you speaks.
Then finally—
You answer.
“Hello?”
Static crackles briefly through the speaker before a familiar professional voice responds.
“Commander Y/N. Mission Specialist Park.”
The formal tone alone makes your pulse spike.
You sit upright immediately pulling the blanket tighter around yourself while Jimin watches carefully beside you.
“This is Director Alvarez from Houston.”
Something cold settles quietly inside your chest.
Rain continues tapping softly against the windows while the room suddenly feels too still.
“We need both of you back here immediately,” the director says carefully.
Your throat tightens.
“For what?”
Silence answers first.
Then quietly:
“We found something in orbit.”
Houston greets both of you like ghosts returning from the dead again.
The moment your plane lands, black government vehicles already wait near the private runway beneath heavy afternoon clouds. Security escorts move quickly around the aircraft while officials speak urgently into earpieces like the entire city has been holding its breath waiting for your arrival.
You sit beside Jimin near the plane window watching rain slide slowly across the glass.
The closer you get to NASA again, the stranger your heartbeat feels.
Because part of you still remembers leaving this city believing space might kill you.
Another part remembers falling in love here.
Jimin notices your silence immediately.
His fingers slide carefully between yours across the armrest.
“You okay?”
You glance toward him quietly.
“Feels weird coming back.”
A soft understanding settles across his face instantly.
“Yeah,” he murmurs. “Feels like seeing an old version of ourselves.”
You think about that during the drive toward Johnson Space Center.
The streets look exactly the same.
Same diners.
Same highway signs.
Same skyline glowing faintly beneath rainstorms.
But both of you are completely different people now.
Back then, you arrived angry and grieving and determined to prove yourself against the shadow of your father’s legacy.
Back then, Park Jimin was just the annoyingly charming mission specialist everyone adored immediately.
Now—
He reaches for your hand during turbulence without thinking.
Now you know exactly how he sounds when terrified.
Now you know what his heartbeat felt like against your chest while the world nearly ended outside a radiation shelter.
Love changes memory strangely.
The facility entrance becomes chaos the second both of you arrive.
NASA officials greet you formally while cameras flash endlessly from controlled press areas outside security barriers. Staff members whisper excitedly while watching both of you walk through the building together.
Some smile.
Some stare.
Some look emotional enough to cry.
Because despite the investigations and classified hearings and media storms afterward, everyone inside this building knows one thing clearly.
You should not be alive.
Neither of you should have survived.
Inside the main conference hall, a long recognition ceremony waits already prepared.
Large digital screens display restored mission footage overhead while aerospace representatives, engineers, international partners, and government officials fill nearly every seat.
The applause begins the moment both of you enter.
You freeze slightly at the sound.
Jimin squeezes your hand once before letting go gently.
Like he understands you need grounding but also space.
Director Alvarez steps forward first.
His expression softens visibly seeing both of you standing there alive.
“For what it’s worth,” he says quietly before the ceremony begins, “I’m very glad you came.”
Emotion catches unexpectedly inside your throat.
Because after everything—
After investigations and classified programs and political disasters—
Part of you feared becoming nothing more than controversy to them.
The ceremony lasts nearly two hours.
Mission commendations.
International recognition.
Official acknowledgments of survival and emergency innovation during orbital catastrophe.
The aerospace council grants both of you permanent senior flight status alongside lifetime research positions if you choose to remain within the program.
The financial compensation alone is staggering.
Government settlements.
Mission hazard awards.
Recovery compensation from classified program disclosures.
Enough money to change both your lives permanently.
You barely care.
Jimin cares even less.
During one of the presentations, recovered orbital simulations appear across the massive screen behind the stage.
A silence slowly falls across the room afterward.
Because suddenly the atmosphere shifts.
Less celebratory.
More haunting.
An older systems engineer clears his throat quietly before speaking.
“After your emergency descent…” He pauses carefully. “The station remained structurally unstable for approximately four hours.”
Your stomach twists immediately.
Digital footage rotates slowly across the screen.
The remains of the orbital station drift silently through darkness while damaged systems spark intermittently.
Then—
The simulation changes.
A catastrophic chain reaction tears violently through the structure.
Fire.
Explosive decompression.
Complete fragmentation.
The entire station disappears into debris.
The room stays completely silent afterward.
Your pulse slows painfully inside your chest.
Four hours.
If both of you hesitated even slightly—
If reentry preparation took longer—
If you argued one more time before descent—
You would have died there.
No rescue system could have reached you afterward.
Nothing could.
Beside you, Jimin slowly exhales.
His hand brushes lightly against yours beneath the table.
The systems engineer looks toward both of you quietly.
“The truth is…” His voice lowers slightly. “Your decision to descend when you did saved both your lives.”
Emotion rises sharply inside your throat.
Because suddenly survival feels even more terrifying.
The ceremony finally ends hours later beneath endless photographs and press statements and exhausted congratulations from officials across half the world.
By evening, both of you escape the facility quietly before another media session can trap you again.
The sky clears gradually after sunset.
Houston glows gold beneath fading rainwater while warm wind moves softly through the campus pathways.
You walk beside Jimin in comfortable silence for several minutes before realizing where he’s leading you.
The observatory.
Your heart stutters immediately.
The same place where everything first changed between both of you.
Where you first saw loneliness beneath his smile.
Where he first stopped feeling unreachable.
The observatory remains mostly empty tonight.
Soft blue starlight projections glow faintly across the curved ceiling while the city flickers far below massive glass windows.
The moment you step inside, memories crash into you instantly.
Jimin walks slowly toward the center platform before turning back toward you.
And suddenly,
Your pulse starts racing for an entirely different reason.
Because the atmosphere feels suspiciously romantic.
Night sky overhead.
Private observatory.
Park Jimin looking devastatingly soft beneath artificial starlight.
Your brain immediately betrays you.
Oh my God.
Is he proposing?
The thought hits so suddenly you nearly stop breathing.
Jimin notices your expression instantly.
“What?”
“You’re acting weird.”
“I’m just standing.”
“You brought me here emotionally.”
“What does that even mean?”
You stare at him accusingly while your heartbeat spirals completely out of control.
Jimin slowly begins smiling.
Then grinning.
Then fully trying not to laugh.
Realization dawns across your face instantly.
“Oh my God,” you whisper horrified. “You know what I thought.”
That completely destroys him.
Jimin bends forward laughing so hard he nearly loses balance.
“You thought I was proposing?”
“You brought me to the observatory!”
“It’s a building!”
“You’re literally glowing under fake stars right now!”
Jimin laughs even harder.
“You should see your face.”
“I hate you.”
“No you don’t.”
Unfortunately true.
You cross your arms dramatically while trying to recover dignity.
“Fine. Why did you bring me here then?”
Jimin’s laughter softens slowly afterward.
Then fades completely.
The observatory grows quieter around both of you while projected constellations drift gently overhead.
He walks closer.
Closer.
Until warmth radiates softly between your bodies again.
And suddenly his expression changes into something familiar.
That soft sincerity only you get to see now.
“You remember what you told me once?” he asks quietly.
You blink slightly.
“What?”
“You said you joined the astronaut program because you wanted to prove you were better than your father.”
Emotion stirs faintly inside your chest hearing the old confession again.
Jimin reaches carefully for your hand.
“But somewhere along the way…” His thumb brushes softly against your fingers. “You became someone entirely your own.”
Your throat tightens instantly.
“And you know what I realized?”
“What?”
He smiles softly.
“You’re the bravest person I’ve ever met.”
The words hit harder than expected.
Because Jimin knows exactly what fear looked like inside you.
He saw every broken terrified version and stayed anyway.
Warmth burns behind your eyes immediately.
Then—
This man ruins the emotional moment completely.
Jimin tilts his head slightly before smiling.
“So.”
You narrow your eyes instantly.
“That tone is dangerous.”
“Race you to Mars?”
Silence.
You stare at him blankly.
Then violently shove his shoulder.
“Park Jimin.”
He bursts into laughter immediately while grabbing your hands before you can hit him again.
“You almost made me emotional for nothing!”
“I was being sincere!”
“You sounded like you were about to propose!”
Jimin grins shamelessly.
“Maybe someday.”
Your entire face burns instantly.
He notices.
The smile on his face softens afterward while his forehead rests lightly against yours beneath artificial stars and city lights and the same observatory ceiling that watched both of you fall in love.
“Not yet though,” he whispers softly.
You blink.
“Why?”
His eyes warm immediately.
“Because first…” He squeezes your hand gently. “I want us to live.”
Seven years after surviving orbit, humanity asks both of you to leave Earth again.
This time, the mission is Mars.
Not a repair mission.
Not emergency recovery.
Not survival.
History.
The first manned interplanetary mission ever attempted.
When the official offer first arrives, both of you sit quietly at the kitchen table long after midnight while Seoul rain taps softly against apartment windows. The documents remain untouched between cooling mugs of tea while city lights blur gold outside.
Neither of you answers immediately.
Because surviving space once changes people permanently.
Some astronauts return more fearless.
Others never look at the sky the same way again.
You and Jimin became something stranger somewhere in between.
For a long time after coming home, both of you promised yourselves there would never be another mission.
Never another countdown.
Never another goodbye spoken beneath launch towers.
You remember panic attacks inside dark bedrooms.
You remember waking from nightmares reaching desperately toward empty sheets before realizing the other person was still alive beside you.
You remember hospital hallways.
Radiation treatments.
The way your mother cried quietly every time news helicopters flew above the apartment building too low afterward.
You remember all of it.
So when Mars enters the conversation for the first time, fear enters too.
The kind that sits heavily in your chest at three in the morning while staring at someone you love asleep beside you wondering whether ambition is worth risking happiness again.
At first, you say no.
Firmly.
Absolutely not.
Mars feels too far.
Jimin agrees immediately.
For almost three months, both of you ignore follow up meetings from international aerospace agencies while life continues peacefully instead.
The kind of life younger versions of yourselves never imagined surviving long enough to reach.
You get married quietly near the ocean during early autumn.
No televised ceremony.
No sponsorships.
No magazine exclusives despite desperate media offers worth millions.
Just family.
Close friends.
The sound of waves crashing softly behind vows.
And before the ceremony begins, you sit in front of an old piano near the reception hall and play for him.
Jimin cries first.
You expect it honestly.
He denies it afterward for six straight months despite photographic evidence.
Your mother laughs harder during the wedding than you have heard since childhood. Jimin dances during the reception while dragging you across the floor anyway because he said being a former pilot automatically grant rhythm.
The wedding photographs later spread across the internet against your will after one guest accidentally leaks them.
Humanity loses its collective mind again.
The astronauts who survived death got married.
People call your relationship fate.
You call it stubbornness and emotional damage.
Jimin calls it the best thing that ever happened to him.
Then slowly, quietly, something changes.
The fear that once followed space begins softening around the edges.
Therapy helps. Time helps more. But honestly Love helps most.
Because eventually you stop associating space only with grief.
Space also becomes observatory nights with Jimin laughing softly beneath artificial stars. Space becomes floating tea packets drifting toward your station while Earth glowed outside orbit. Space becomes the moment both of you survived impossible silence together and still chose tenderness afterward.
One evening nearly a year after the wedding, you sit beside Jimin on the apartment balcony wrapped in blankets while summer wind moves softly through the city below.
Mars mission updates play quietly from the television inside.
Projected launch window: eighteen months.
Projected crew announcement pending.
Jimin stares toward the skyline for a long time before speaking carefully.
“I think I understand your father now.”
The confession surprises you enough to look up immediately.
Jimin rarely talks about your father directly.
Because he knows how complicated the grief still feels sometimes.
You watch him quietly.
“When I was younger,” he continues softly, “I thought astronauts were fearless people.” A faint smile touches his mouth. “Turns out most of us are terrified constantly.”
A quiet laugh escapes you.
“Accurate.”
He glances toward you afterward.
“But we go anyway.”
The city glows softly beneath distant traffic lights while realization settles slowly inside your chest.
“You want to go,” you whisper.
Jimin exhales quietly.
“I don’t want fear deciding our lives forever.”
Emotion catches painfully somewhere behind your ribs hearing that.
Because suddenly you understand your father differently too.
Not as a man who loved space more than his family.
A man who simply loved discovery enough to keep going despite fear.
You lower your eyes toward the blanket over your lap.
“I’m scared.”
“I know.”
“What if something happens again?”
Jimin reaches for your hand immediately.
“Then we face it together again.”
Silence settles gently afterward.
The soft kind.
The kind built from years of surviving each other’s grief honestly.
Then eventually Jimin grins slightly.
“Also,” he says casually, “if humanity gets to Mars and we stay home watching documentaries about it, I’ll become unbearably annoying.”
You laugh despite yourself.
“There it is.”
“There what is?”
“The emotional manipulation.”
“I learned from professionals.”
Months later, both of you accept the mission together.
The public reaction becomes absolute chaos.
Every news outlet on Earth covers the announcement for weeks.
Some people celebrate.
Others criticize the decision immediately.
Psychologists debate publicly whether trauma survivors should return to deep space exploration. Former astronauts defend both of you passionately during interviews. Humanity argues endlessly online about courage versus recklessness.
Meanwhile, both of you sit on the apartment floor eating takeout while pretending not to read comment sections anymore.
Training begins again after that.
Different this time.
Mars preparation requires years of simulations, isolation endurance, medical conditioning, interplanetary navigation systems, psychological evaluations.
Harder.
Longer.
But strangely calmer too.
Because now, no part of your relationship remains uncertain.
Jimin still teases you constantly during simulations.
You still argue over flight calculations.
He still leaves handwritten notes inside your training folders just to annoy you.
One afternoon during zero gravity endurance testing, you discover a folded paper hidden inside your helmet bag.
Please survive Mars. We already paid wedding deposits once. Very inconvenient to do funerals afterward.
You laugh so hard mission control hears it through comm systems.
The night before launch, both of you stay awake inside astronaut housing unable to sleep.
Moonlight spills softly across the room while launch preparations continue somewhere beyond the facility walls outside.
Jimin lies beside you quietly tracing circles against your wrist.
“You know,” he murmurs softly, “after this mission, I’m officially retiring.”
You glance toward him.
“You’ve said that before.”
“I’m serious this time.”
“Why?”
His expression softens immediately.
“Because I want a different future with you too.”
Emotion stirs quietly inside your chest.
Jimin rolls onto his side facing you fully afterward.
“I want mornings at home,” he admits softly. “I want grocery shopping arguments and school pickups and you yelling at our future kids for inheriting my personality.”
Your heart nearly stops.
Jimin notices immediately.
“What?”
“You say that very casually for someone discussing children.”
“I’ve been emotionally preparing for years.”
“You’re unbelievable.”
“No, listen.” He grows weirdly serious suddenly. “Imagine tiny versions of us running around.”
“That sounds exhausting.”
“They’d be adorable.”
“They’d be stubborn.”
“They’d be geniuses.”
“They’d destroy the house.”
Jimin grins immediately.
“Worth it.”
Warmth spreads painfully through your chest while looking at him there beneath soft moonlight.
Because years ago, both of you were certain space would become the place you died.
Now somehow the future exists again.
Family.
Children.
Home.
You reach forward brushing your fingers carefully against his face.
“Okay,” you whisper softly.
Jimin blinks.
“Okay what?”
“When we come back,” you murmur, smiling faintly now, “we build a family.”
The silence afterward feels enormous.
Jimin stares at you like his soul temporarily leaves his body.
Then suddenly:
“Oh my God.”
You immediately burst into laughter.
He grabs your face dramatically.
“You cannot say life changing things that calmly.”
“You’re literally going to Mars tomorrow.”
“Yes but now I’m emotionally overwhelmed.”
His eyes shine so brightly it almost hurts to look at him.
“I’m serious,” you whisper softly.
Jimin kisses you immediately after that.
Slow.
Full of wonder.
Like every terrible thing both of you survived somehow led here instead.
Not just survival.
A future.
The next morning, launch day arrives beneath clear skies and global anticipation.
Millions watch from Earth.
Inside the spacecraft, systems hum softly around both of you while Mars waits impossibly far beyond darkness.
Commander Y/N.
Pilot Park Jimin.
Married.
Still in love.
Still choosing each other anyway.
The countdown begins while Earth glows blue outside reinforced cockpit glass.
Jimin adjusts navigation controls before glancing toward you through the comm system.
“You know,” he says casually, “our future kids are definitely going to think we’re cooler than everyone else’s parents.”
You stare at him flatly.
“We have not even left Earth yet.”
“Still true though.”
“You’re insufferable.”
“You married me willingly.”
Unfortunately true.
The engines begin rumbling harder beneath the spacecraft.
Outside, humanity holds its breath.
Inside, Jimin reaches toward you instinctively one last time before launch.
His gloved hand closes carefully around yours.
Warm even through layers. Real. Home.
And as Earth falls slowly beneath both of you while the spacecraft rises toward the terrifying silence between stars, you realize something your younger self never understood.
Space was never the thing you were searching for.
It was always the person beside you while facing it.
Sypnosis: She never dreamed of space. If anything, she spent most of her life resenting it.
Y/N is the daughter of a legendary astronaut the world still mourns, a man remembered for the stars while his family learned how to live with his absence. To everyone else, he was history. To her, he was every birthday missed and every empty seat at home.
Joining the international space program was never about passion. It was about proving she could survive the same sky that took him away.
Then she meets Park Jimin.
A former pilot turned mission specialist, Jimin is everything she isn’t—warm, patient, endlessly easy to love. While she keeps people at a distance, he somehow slips past every wall she builds.
They compete. They clash. They slowly become inseparable.
Until a catastrophic mission failure leaves them stranded beyond Earth with failing systems, no rescue in sight, and impossible choices waiting in the dark between stars.
Because in space, survival always costs something.
And not everyone gets to come home.
Chapter 5
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For the first twenty four hours after finding Park Jimin alive, you barely let yourself sleep.
Because every time you close your eyes, part of you still expects to wake up alone again.
The fear stays lodged painfully inside your body. Like grief has not fully realized it no longer owns you completely.
The Cold War station drifts quietly through orbit while both of you slowly relearn the shape of survival together instead of separately. The station itself feels ancient compared to modern aerospace systems. Narrow corridors lined with obsolete analog controls. Thick reinforced walls designed during an era when governments believed space would eventually become another battlefield.
Half the systems barely function. But enough remain alive to keep both of you breathing.
You transform the central operations module into a temporary medical bay using salvaged emergency kits from both stations. Jimin protests weakly the entire time while you force him to stay seated during wound treatment.
“I’m fine.”
“You almost died in a classified floating coffin.”
“I survived though.”
“You survived out of pure spite.”
A faint smile appears against his mouth.
“There’s the flight engineer I missed.”
Your throat burns unexpectedly hearing that.
Missed.
Such a small word for something that nearly destroyed both of you.
You carefully replace the bandaging near his shoulder while he watches you quietly beneath the dim station lights. The radiation burns climbing partway across his neck already look less angry now after treatment, though exhaustion still hollows shadows beneath his eyes.
He lost weight. Too much. The realization hurts every time you notice it.
“How long were you alone here?” you ask softly.
Jimin leans his head back carefully against the wall behind him.
“Seventeen days before your station intercepted the emergency beacon.”
Seventeen days.
In this dead forgotten place.
Injured.
Believing Earth declared him dead.
Believing you probably did too.
You lower your eyes briefly toward the medical kit in your lap.
“I heard the memorial transmission.”
Silence settles between both of you.
Jimin already understands which one.
“The one with your mom?”
You nod slowly. Emotion flickers briefly across his face before softening.
“She sounded proud of you.”
The words hit somewhere painfully deep inside your chest. Because your entire life with your father felt tangled in resentment and unfinished conversations and anger too complicated to explain properly.
You joined the astronaut program trying to outrun his shadow. Then space trapped you long enough to realize how much of yourself already resembled him anyway.
You finish securing the fresh bandages carefully before finally speaking again.
“I thought I watched you die.”
Jimin’s eyes close briefly.
“I know.”
The quiet guilt in his voice nearly breaks you.
You move closer without thinking. Your fingers slide gently through his hair while he rests against the station wall looking more exhausted than you have ever seen him.
Outside the small observation window nearby, Earth drifts slowly beneath both stations wrapped in cloud systems glowing silver beneath distant sunlight.
Alive. Still waiting.
Eventually Jimin opens his eyes again.
“There’s something I need to tell you.”
Something about his tone changes the air instantly.
You sit back slightly. “What?”
He studies your face carefully for several seconds before answering.
“The rescue vessel.”
Your brows pull together immediately.
“What rescue vessel?”
Jimin exhales slowly.
“The reason I survived the radiation exposure.”
Confusion spreads slowly through your chest.
“You said you drifted here after decompression.”
“I did.”
His gaze lowers briefly toward his injured shoulder.
“But I shouldn’t have survived long enough to reach the station.”
A strange feeling creeps suddenly beneath your ribs.
“What are you talking about?”
Jimin pushes himself upright slightly despite visible exhaustion.
“After the solar storm hit, I lost consciousness during decompression.” His voice remains steady but quieter now. “The next thing I remember… I woke up inside another spacecraft.”
You stare at him.
“What?”
“It wasn’t a standard rescue shuttle.”
Your pulse begins climbing slowly.
The abandoned station suddenly feels colder somehow.
Jimin continues carefully.
“It looked military. Autonomous navigation systems. No crew onboard.” His expression darkens slightly remembering it. “Most of the identification markers were scrubbed from the interior.”
A hollow feeling opens slowly inside your stomach.
“That doesn’t make sense.”
He looks toward the dim station window briefly before continuing.
“The vessel stabilized my radiation exposure temporarily and rerouted emergency life support.” His voice lowers further. “Then it transported me near this station before failing completely.”
You blink trying to process the information.
“A secret rescue program?”
“More like an abandoned one.”
Silence stretches heavily afterward. Because neither of you is naïve enough to misunderstand what that implies.
Governments do not place experimental autonomous recovery systems in orbit accidentally. Especially not hidden ones. Jimin watches realization slowly reach your face.
Then quietly says: “Earth knew about the vessel.”
Your heart stumbles instantly.
“What?”
“The telemetry logs inside the craft still had partial transmission records active.” His jaw tightens slightly before he catches himself and exhales. “Someone on Earth remotely activated the recovery protocol after the solar flare.”
Cold moves through your body slowly now.
“If they knew you survived…”
“Then they also knew they officially declared us dead anyway.”
The words settle violently between both of you.
You think about the memorial broadcasts. Your mother mourning you publicly. The global statements confirming crew fatality probabilities. The world grieving two astronauts while one remained alive drifting through orbit. Your stomach turns.
“Why would they hide that?”
Jimin goes quiet for several seconds.
Then finally: “Because the rescue system was never supposed to exist.”
The station hums softly around both of you while your brain struggles piecing together the implications.
Illegal orbital programs. Hidden autonomous vessels. Experimental technology buried beneath official mission operations. Something about it feels horrifyingly believable.
Space agencies survive on public trust and international treaties. A classified autonomous retrieval system operating secretly in orbit could violate dozens of global agreements especially if militarized. You stare at him carefully.
“How do you know all this?”
Jimin hesitates. And suddenly something shifts in his expression again.
“Because I found the original design files inside the vessel database.”
Your pulse slows strangely.
“There was a creator signature attached to the system architecture.”
He looks directly at you now. And softly says “Han Yejun.”
The world stops. You genuinely think your brain misheard him at first.
“What?”
“Your father.”
The words barely process. Jimin continues quietly while your entire body goes numb.
“The autonomous rescue system was originally designed years ago after a classified orbital disaster almost happened during one of the earlier lunar programs.” His eyes search yours carefully. “Your father helped build the recovery protocols.”
You stare at him speechless.
“He believed astronauts needed emergency extraction systems independent from Earthside politics or delayed rescue approvals.” Jimin’s voice softens further. “The program was apparently buried after budget hearings and treaty violations.”
Your breathing turns uneven.
“My father built the vessel that saved you?”
Jimin nods slowly. Emotion rises violently into your throat. Because suddenly memories begin rearranging themselves painfully inside your mind.
Your father missing birthdays because he stayed locked inside aerospace facilities for weeks. Your mother crying downstairs while interviews praised his dedication endlessly. The resentment you carried for years because he always chose space first.
And now, now somewhere hidden beneath all that absence and obsession and impossible ambition, your father built something designed to save stranded astronauts long after everyone else gave up on them.
Something that eventually saved Park Jimin. The boy you love. The man who sacrificed himself for you. Your eyes burn instantly.
“No,” you whisper weakly.
Jimin reaches carefully for your hand.
“He didn’t know me.”
That realization destroys you hardest of all. Your father never met Park Jimin. Never heard his laugh. Never watched him float hot tea toward someone crying quietly in orbit. Never saw the way he loved people so gently it felt unreal sometimes. And still, without knowing him, your father saved his life.
Tears spill silently down your face before you can stop them. Jimin’s thumb brushes softly across your knuckles.
“You spent your whole life believing your father only knew how to leave people behind.”
The station lights flicker dimly around both of you. Then quietly: “But maybe loving space was always his way of trying to bring people home.”
By the third day inside the abandoned station, you begin noticing his hands tremble sometimes when he reaches for tools. He grows exhausted too quickly during even simple repairs. The radiation burns spreading faintly beneath his collar darken instead of healing properly despite treatment. And every now and then, when he thinks you are not looking, pain flashes briefly across his face hard enough to hollow the breath from your lungs.
You hate how familiar it feels. Because your father used to do the exact same thing after returning from missions. Pretend exhaustion was nothing. Pretend pain could simply be managed quietly until it disappeared. You wonder now how much suffering your mother noticed that nobody else ever did.
The station remains unstable around both of you. Several systems fail intermittently every few hours and orbital drift continues pulling the structure gradually farther from optimal rescue trajectories. Long range communication still barely functions even after combining working equipment from both stations.
Earth still believes you are dead. Neither of you fully understands whether revealing the classified rescue vessel will save you or bury you permanently inside political disaster. So survival remains entirely your responsibility.
You throw yourself into engineering calculations almost obsessively because focusing on numbers feels easier than acknowledging fear.
The original escape pod attached to your damaged station still cannot support two people safely during atmospheric descent.
Not alone. Not with compromised fuel stabilization. Not with the degraded thermal shielding. But the abandoned Cold War station still contains one thing your station does not.
Mass. Reinforced radiation shielding. Auxiliary life support reserves. And slowly, after hours buried inside ancient station schematics and orbital calculations, an impossible idea begins forming.
Use the escape pod’s navigation and descent guidance software. Use the reinforced shelter module from the abandoned station as supplemental life support and thermal protection during reentry.
It is reckless. Experimental. Probably insane. Which means it might actually work.
You spend two straight days modifying structural connectors manually while Jimin rests nearby pretending he is not struggling simply to stay awake.
“You know,” he murmurs weakly from the corner one afternoon, “most people flirt normally.”
You glance up briefly from the exposed guidance panel you are rebuilding.
“This is flirting.”
“Threatening atmospheric death together?”
“You seem into it.”
A faint tired smile appears against his mouth.
“There she is.”
The sight hurts unexpectedly. Because even smiling clearly exhausts him now.
That night, while running another simulation across patched navigation software, you notice movement beside the operations console.
Jimin sits curled beneath a thermal blanket in the dim light, one arm wrapped loosely across his stomach while exhaustion drags visibly at every movement. He looks pale again. You immediately stop typing.
“Did you take the medication?”
“Mhm.”
“You’re lying.”
“I took most of it.”
“Park Jimin.”
He sighs softly.
“You sound hot when you’re angry.”
Normally the comment would annoy you. Tonight it only scares you.
You move toward him quickly kneeling beside the chair. The second your fingers brush his forehead, panic flashes cold through your body.
Burning. His temperature is dangerously high.
“Jimin.”
His eyes lift toward yours slowly. That is when you realize he is struggling to focus properly. The radiation poisoning is worsening faster now. You curse quietly under your breath before pulling the portable medical scanner closer.
Blood oxygen dropping. Cellular degradation indicators elevated again. Heart rate unstable. Fear climbs sharply into your throat.
“No no no…”
Jimin watches your expression carefully.
“You’re doing that thing.”
“What thing?”
“Where you panic silently.”
You ignore him immediately grabbing fresh treatment injectors from the medical compartment nearby. The station suddenly feels too small.
You administer the medication carefully into the IV port attached near his wrist while your brain races violently through worst case scenarios.
Acute radiation syndrome progression. Bone marrow suppression. Neurological deterioration. You studied these conditions during astronaut emergency response training. Reading about them academically never prepared you for loving someone suffering through them.
Jimin’s breathing grows uneven as the medication enters his system. His head tilts back against the chair slowly.
“Tired,” he murmurs.
Your chest aches hearing it.
“Sleep for a little while.”
He nods weakly.
You help him toward the sleeping compartment afterward because he nearly loses balance trying to stand alone. That terrifies you more than anything so far.
Park Jimin was always movement. Warmth. Energy. The idea of him fragile enough to collapse feels fundamentally wrong.
You settle him carefully onto the narrow sleeping restraints while dim station lights glow softly overhead.
For a while he says nothing. Just watches you quietly while you adjust thermal blankets around him.
Your fingers brush gently through his hair without thinking. The moment softens unexpectedly. Then his hand catches weakly around your wrist.
You look down immediately. His eyes remain half closed now. Exhaustion pulling him under gradually. Still, his grip tightens slightly against your skin. And softly, so softly it nearly destroys you, “don’t leave me alone.”
The words hit harder than any scream could. Because suddenly you hear it. The fear underneath everything. Not the charming astronaut everyone loved. Not the mission specialist who flirted through disasters and smiled through pain.
Just Jimin. Terrified. Human.
A man who woke up injured inside a dead station believing the universe abandoned him completely.
Your throat burns instantly.
“Hey.”
You sit beside him immediately.
“I’m right here.”
His eyes stay closed.
“You disappeared.”
The confession barely sounds conscious. Like something pulled directly from fear instead of thought.
“I thought…” His breathing stutters faintly. “I thought maybe I imagined you.”
Your vision blurs painfully. Because this entire time you focused so hard on your own grief that you forgot he suffered too.
Alone.
In darkness.
Believing you were gone forever.
You lean closer carefully brushing your forehead against his temple.
“I’m not leaving.”
Jimin’s fingers tighten weakly around your hand.
“Promise.”
“I promise.”
The station hums softly around both of you while Earth glows faint blue through distant observation glass somewhere beyond the corridor.
He finally falls asleep afterward still holding your hand loosely against his chest.
But even sleeping, tension never fully leaves his body. Like part of him still expects to wake up alone again.
You stay there for a long time watching him breathe. Watching exhaustion hollow shadows beneath his eyes. Watching someone who spent weeks pretending he was okay finally reveal how frightened he truly is beneath all the smiles.
And something inside you hardens quietly into certainty.
No.
You are not losing him again. Not after finding him. Not after surviving all this. Not after discovering your father unknowingly built the thing that kept him alive long enough for you to reach him.
You look toward the scattered engineering schematics covering the nearby console.
Escape pod guidance systems. Shelter module structural integration. Atmospheric descent calculations. The plan is dangerous. Experimental. Probably impossible by every official aerospace standard. But impossible stopped mattering somewhere around the moment you crossed orbit searching for someone the world already buried.
You carefully untangle your hand from Jimin’s sleeping grip before standing slowly beside the bed. Then you walk back toward the operations console and work for hours.
Through exhaustion. Through fear. Through every terrifying possibility waiting during reentry.
Because somewhere beneath the stars and damaged stations and classified secrets drifting silently around Earth, one truth remains stronger than all of it:
You are bringing Park Jimin home.
The problem reveals itself at 03:14 station time. And once you see it clearly, everything inside you goes cold.
You rerun the calculations seven times anyway. Then eight. Then manually by hand across old navigation sheets scattered beside the console because denial suddenly feels easier than acceptance. But every result arrives identical.
The return capsule can survive atmospheric descent. The shelter module can support extended life support during reentry. The guidance integration works. The thermal shielding holds. The fuel ratios barely stabilize within survivable margins.
Everything should function. Except for one catastrophic flaw. The capsule’s final landing control system still only supports one fully operational pilot station.
One seat. One manual descent interface. One person capable of controlling atmospheric entry once automatic stabilization inevitably fails during reentry stress.
Because the automated landing system was damaged weeks ago during the debris collision. No backup exists anymore.
The capsule will require continuous manual correction through descent. Without it, rotational instability will tear the craft apart before lower atmosphere deployment.
One pilot. One seat. One survivor.
“Fuck.”
You shove away from the console hard enough the chair slams backward into the wall.
The abandoned station hums softly around you while panic floods through your veins again.
You stare at the descent schematics until the numbers blur together. There has to be another solution. There always is. You force yourself back toward the controls and begin rebuilding the calculations again from the beginning.
Docking mass, fuel distribution, center of gravity compensation, life support redundancy, nothing changes.
The capsule physically cannot sustain dual manual operation during descent. Even if both of you survived the heat shielding phase, only one person can safely perform atmospheric stabilization and landing correction from the pilot harness.
And Jimin, your stomach twists violently. Jimin is getting worse too quickly. He sleeps more now. Moves slower. Sometimes he loses entire stretches of conversation because fever drags him somewhere foggy and distant for minutes at a time.
Three hours earlier he nearly collapsed simply walking from the medical compartment toward the operations module. You caught him before he hit the wall. He laughed weakly afterward trying to pretend it was nothing.
You almost screamed at him. Instead you helped him sit down and quietly adjusted his oxygen line while pretending your hands were not shaking.
Now he sleeps again inside the small sleeping compartment nearby while you stare at impossible numbers glowing across dead station screens.
The station lights flicker dimly overhead. Earth turns slowly outside the observation glass beyond the corridor. You rub both hands over your face trying to think through exhaustion clawing at your brain.
There must be a way.
Your eyes drift absently toward the old archive drives stacked near the abandoned station console.
Ancient mission recordings. Cold War engineering logs. Half corrupted historical training databases. You already searched most of them for structural integration data earlier.
Still, something pulls at your memory suddenly.
A voice.
Your father’s voice.
You freeze.
Then move instantly.
The archive terminal takes agonizingly long to boot fully while your pulse hammers violently beneath your ribs.
Search results flood slowly across the monitor after several attempts.
HAN YEJUN
ORBITAL DESCENT RECOVERY TRAINING
CLASSIFIED FLIGHT MANEUVERS
You open the file immediately.
Static floods the old recording before stabilizing into grainy video footage decades old. And suddenly, your father appears on screen. You stop breathing completely.
He looks younger than you remember. Because he still looks untouched by the exhaustion that eventually followed him home from every mission later in life.
The footage shows him seated inside a flight simulator wearing old aerospace training gear while explaining manual atmospheric recovery procedures to unseen trainees.
You stare frozen at the screen. You have not heard his voice in months. Not since the funeral. Not since the memorial broadcast replayed launch footage while the world called him heroic and you sat there too angry to grieve properly.
Now suddenly he exists again. Alive inside old static recordings.
“Automated descent systems create dependence,” your father says calmly through the speakers. “And dependence kills astronauts when systems fail.”
His hands move confidently across ancient flight controls. The recording quality crackles softly.
“Most pilots trust stabilization software too much during atmospheric stress.”
You move closer slowly. Your father continues speaking while simulation graphics shift across the screen beside him.
“In catastrophic system failure scenarios, survival depends entirely on instinct and manual vector correction.”
Something sharp moves through your chest. Because you remember this. You are twelve years old sitting half asleep at the kitchen table while your father sketches descent trajectories on napkins during one of his rare nights home.
You barely understood aerospace physics back then but he kept teaching anyway.
“This part matters most,” he told you quietly once while drawing angles across paper. “When everything starts shaking, pilots panic and overcorrect. That’s what kills them.”
Onscreen, your father adjusts the simulator controls carefully.
“You guide the atmosphere. You don’t fight it.”
The recording cuts briefly through static before continuing into emergency descent demonstrations.
Manual rotational stabilization.
Heat shield compensation.
Atmospheric glide correction.
Every movement precise.
Every adjustment subtle.
And suddenly realization crashes violently through you.
The maneuver. This exact maneuver could compensate for the damaged landing system manually. Your pulse spikes instantly.
You launch toward the navigation console pulling up descent schematics beside the archived recording.
Hands shaking. Mind racing.
If you reroute stabilization through direct atmospheric vector correction instead of damaged auto guidance, the capsule might survive descent.
Barely.
But only with continuous manual control through reentry. And only someone trained enough could perform it. Your eyes drift toward the sleeping compartment.
Toward Jimin.
Radiation poisoned.
Barely strong enough to stand.
Your stomach sinks slowly. Because you already know the truth before fully admitting it. You are the only one capable of flying the descent. Because your father unknowingly trained you for this years before you ever entered the astronaut program.
Your breathing grows uneven. The room suddenly feels too small again. You stare at the old recording still playing softly beside the console. Your father continues demonstrating emergency recovery vectors with calm terrifying confidence.
For years you believed he chose space over your family.
Maybe he did. Maybe he failed your mother in ways neither of you fully healed from.
But now, his voice guides you through the exact maneuver that might save Park Jimin’s life.
Behind you, soft movement breaks the silence.
You turn instantly.
Jimin stands weakly in the corridor entrance holding the wall for balance. His face looks pale beneath the dim lights.
He studies the old recording quietly. Then your expression. Understanding reaches him almost immediately.
“What are you planning to do?” he says softly.
Your chest caves inward.
“Jimin—”
“Tell me.”
His voice sounds rough from exhaustion but firmer now.
You look away first. Because you cannot survive seeing him understand this too quickly.
The recording continues behind both of you while your father’s voice echoes softly through the station.
“You guide the atmosphere. You don’t fight it.”
Jimin watches you silently for several painful seconds.
Then quietly asks:
“You found a way home?”
Tears sting instantly behind your eyes.
“A way for one of us.”
Silence crashes through the station. Outside the observation glass, Earth waits beneath endless cloud systems glowing blue against darkness.
Home. So close now. And somehow still impossibly far away.
The survival probability is five percent. You stare at the number for a very long time after the calculations finish processing.
Five percent. Not even enough odds for mission control to officially approve an attempt under normal circumstances.
Most aerospace agencies would classify the maneuver as suicidal.
Improvised atmospheric descent.
Manual vector stabilization.
Partial thermal shielding.
Emergency separation during reentry.
One damaged capsule carrying two people through conditions it was never designed to survive.
Five percent.
And somehow it still feels like hope. Because after everything space already stole from both of you, hope itself became something terrifyingly precious.
The abandoned station drifts silently beside the modified return capsule while final preparation checklists glow across surrounding monitors.
You have not slept properly in nearly forty hours. The station smells faintly metallic now from overheating systems and recycled air pushed beyond operational limits. Every surface around you is covered in open tools, wiring panels, handwritten calculations, and discarded emergency manuals from both stations. It looks less like aerospace engineering and more like desperation held together by sheer refusal to die.
Still, the system works. At least on paper.
The shelter module now functions as external life support mass connected directly to the return capsule through improvised structural locks. During upper atmospheric entry, the additional shielding should absorb enough thermal stress to keep cabin pressure stable long enough for descent.
Should.
The capsule itself will never survive fully intact. Not with the damaged landing systems. Which means manual guidance becomes everything.
You sit strapped into the pilot harness running through descent vectors for the hundredth time while old recordings of your father’s emergency maneuvers replay beside the console.
Your corrections must remain precise within fractions of a second. Too shallow and the capsule skips atmosphere entirely. Too steep and thermal overload burns both of you alive before lower descent.
And then comes the worst part.
At approximately forty kilometers altitude, structural stress will begin tearing apart the external shelter module automatically.
Before that happens, you must manually separate from the capsule. Because the pilot harness and stabilization controls occupy the only structurally reinforced section capable of surviving primary atmospheric load.
Jimin remains inside the protected descent chamber afterward while you transfer into the emergency EVA descent rig you spent eleven straight hours modifying from old orbital maneuver equipment. It barely qualifies as a survival system.
A heat resistant glide harness with partial parachute deployment and limited stabilization thrusters. No astronaut has ever attempted atmospheric descent using anything remotely like it.
The calculations predict catastrophic failure almost immediately.
Five percent.
You keep coming back to that number. Because somehow it still means possible.
Jimin watches you quietly from across the module while you secure another tether connection along the descent assembly.
He has barely spoken for almost twenty minutes now. That scares you more than arguments would.
Normally he jokes when afraid. Teases when stressed. Finds ways to make disasters feel survivable simply because his voice exists inside them.
Now silence hangs around him heavily.
“You need to rest,” you murmur without looking up.
“You need a better survival plan.”
You tighten another connector manually.
“This is the better survival plan.”
Jimin laughs softly. Because hopelessness sounds funny sometimes.
You finally look at him. His skin still appears too pale beneath the station lighting while exhaustion shadows every part of his face. The radiation poisoning medication helps temporarily, but not enough. He knows he cannot survive manual reentry control in his condition. You know it too. That truth sits painfully between both of you now.
“You’re not leaving the capsule.”
Your hands pause briefly against the connector harness. Then continue working.
Emotion burns dangerously behind your ribs. You force yourself to stay focused.
“The descent chamber protects you during atmospheric stress. The guidance controls keep the capsule stable long enough for lower deployment.” Your voice sounds clinical now. Detached. “Once I separate, the autopilot carries you through final descent.”
“And you?”
You finally meet his eyes fully. Silence answers first. Because there is no comforting version of the truth.
The emergency glide rig might survive long enough for ocean impact. Or maybe the atmosphere tears you apart before parachute deployment even triggers. Or maybe you burn alive somewhere above the clouds while Jimin lands safely without you.
Five percent.
You swallow hard.
“I’ll figure it out.”
His face crumples instantly hearing that obvious lie.
“No.”
The word comes out sharper this time. He pushes himself up from the wall despite visible weakness and crosses toward you slowly.
“You are not doing this.”
“You can barely stand.”
“I don’t care.”
“You’re sick.”
“I don’t fucking care.”
Emotion finally cracks through your composure.
“Well I do.”
The station falls silent afterward. Outside the observation glass beyond the module, Earth slowly rotates beneath darkness while the first edge of sunlight begins emerging faintly along the horizon.
Orbital sunrise.
Your final one together maybe.
Jimin reaches you carefully then. One hand lifting shakily toward your face.
“You said there was never a version of this story where you didn’t come back for me.”
His thumb brushes softly beneath your eye.
“Why do you think there’s a version where I survive losing you?”
You break then. Just enough for tears to finally slip free while the station drifts quietly around both of you. Because this entire mission began with anger, with grief, with a desperate need to outrun your father’s shadow.
And somewhere between near death and orbit and loneliness brutal enough to hollow your soul apart, Park Jimin became home.
You lean your forehead carefully against his.
“I’m trying to get you back to Earth.”
“I know.”
His voice softens impossibly.
“But I want you there too.”
Silence wraps around both of you while sunlight slowly begins spilling across Earth’s curved horizon outside the glass.
Then suddenly the darkness below starts glowing.
Blue first.
Then gold.
Cloud systems ignite softly beneath rising sunlight while entire oceans shimmer alive across the planet below.
Earthrise.
You both turn instinctively toward the observation window and stop breathing. No matter how many times astronauts describe it in documentaries and interviews and mission reports, nothing prepares you for the reality of seeing sunrise spill across an entire planet at once.
Earth looks fragile from here. Beautiful in a way that physically hurts. A living thing wrapped in light.
Beside you, Jimin exhales softly. And for the first time in weeks, neither of you speaks. Because words feel too small for this moment.
Sunlight slowly washes gold across both your faces while orbit carries the station gently into morning. Home glows beneath both of you now.
Jimin reaches for your hand quietly. You hold on immediately. And standing there together watching sunrise bloom across Earth, something shifts painfully inside your chest.
For the first time since the disaster began. You truly believe you might actually make it home.
You force yourself back toward the console pretending to focus on navigation inputs.
“Jimin—”
“No.”
This time louder. You turn immediately because raising his voice costs him visible effort now. His breathing shakes unevenly beneath the oxygen support line attached beside the chamber restraint. One trembling hand grips the harness across his chest while anger and fear fight visibly across his face.
“You’re talking about throwing yourself out of a burning spacecraft.”
“I’m talking about getting you home.”
“I don’t care about home if you’re not there.”
The words hit hard enough your chest physically hurts. You look away first. Because you cannot survive seeing that expression for too long.
Outside the viewport, sunlight slowly spills across Earth’s horizon in soft gold curves while thin clouds drift across entire continents below.
Home.
Waiting.
So close now.
Jimin watches you quietly. Then softer this time: “You said we were both coming back.”
Emotion climbs painfully into your throat.
“I’m trying.”
“No.” His breathing stutters faintly. “You’re sacrificing yourself.”
You move quickly toward him before frustration turns into panic.
“You can barely stay conscious,” you whisper harshly. “Your radiation levels are worsening every hour. You know you can’t survive manual descent controls in this condition.”
“And you think I’m supposed to sit here while you—”
His voice cuts sharply as pain suddenly crosses his face. Your stomach drops immediately.
“Jimin?”
He squeezes his eyes shut briefly breathing through whatever wave just hit him. The monitor beside the chamber flickers warning indicators across the screen.
Heart rate elevated.
Oxygen instability.
You kneel beside him instantly.
“Hey.”
His head leans weakly against the restraint behind him.
“I’m okay.”
“You’re not.”
Silence again. The kind that admits truths neither of you wants spoken aloud.
Your fingers move carefully checking the line attached near his wrist while he watches you through exhausted eyes. Then suddenly he grabs your hand weakly before you can pull away. His fingers tighten around yours with what little strength remains. And very quietly “please don’t leave me.”
The words nearly destroy you.
Because this is Park Jimin.
The boy who smiled through disasters. The astronaut who comforted you while both of you drifted untethered above Earth believing death waited beneath every failed system. The man who locked you inside a radiation shelter while he stayed outside smiling through the glass. And now he looks terrified.
Not of dying.
Of losing you.
Tears sting immediately behind your eyes. You lean closer carefully resting your forehead against his.
“I don’t know how to save both of us.”
His breathing shakes softly.
“Then let me choose too.”
“You already did.”
Your voice breaks this time despite trying to stop it.
“You chose me the second you locked that shelter door.”
Pain flickers across his face hearing that memory again.
You close your eyes briefly trying to steady yourself.
“When your heartbeat flatlined…” Your throat burns violently now. “I thought I lost you forever.”
Jimin’s grip tightens weakly around your hand.
“You found me.”
The simplicity of it almost ruins you completely.
You found me.
Like surviving impossible things was suddenly natural because both of you existed together inside them.
The capsule hums softly around both of you while reentry countdown systems continue running automatically in the background.
T minus eighteen minutes.
Time is disappearing now. You inhale shakily before forcing yourself upright again. If you let yourself fall apart now, neither of you survives this.
You begin securing the final chamber restraints carefully around him while he watches every movement silently.
Thermal harness locked.
Pressure seals stable.
Emergency oxygen engaged.
Your hands tremble only once while tightening the restraint near his shoulder.
Jimin notices anyway.
“You’re scared.”
The honesty in his voice undoes something painful inside you.
You nod before you can stop yourself.
“Yeah.”
The word barely comes out.
For a moment neither of you speaks. Then suddenly Jimin lifts one trembling hand slowly toward your face.
You lean into it immediately without thinking. His fingertips brush softly against your cheek. Warm despite everything.
“You know what’s horrible?” he whispers weakly.
You shake your head slightly.
“I was never scared of space before you.”
Your vision blurs instantly.
“Jimin—”
“Because before you, if something happened to me…” He exhales unevenly. “It would’ve just been me.”
Tears spill before you can stop them.
Now suddenly you understand.
Love changed fear.
Love gave both of you something unbearable to lose.
The reentry alarm begins sounding softly across the capsule.
Atmospheric alignment approaching.
Final preparation window.
You stare at each other for several seconds longer while Earth glows brighter through the viewport beside you.
Then slowly, you lean forward and kiss him. Like both of you are trying to memorize exactly how the other person feels before gravity and fire and atmosphere separate you again.
Jimin kisses you back weakly but completely. One hand still cradling your face while his breathing shakes unevenly between every second.
When you pull away, neither of you moves immediately afterward.
Foreheads touching.
Eyes closed.
Breathing shared.
“I love you,” he whispers first.
The words break apart inside your chest so beautifully it hurts.
You smile through tears finally slipping down your face.
“I know.”
A tiny exhausted laugh escapes him.
“You’re supposed to say it back.”
You kiss him once more. Soft. Shaking.
“I love you too.”
Outside the capsule, Earth waits beneath sunrise.
And somewhere between terror and hope and five impossible percent—
Both of you prepare to fall home together.
Chapter 7
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Sypnosis: She never dreamed of space. If anything, she spent most of her life resenting it.
Y/N is the daughter of a legendary astronaut the world still mourns, a man remembered for the stars while his family learned how to live with his absence. To everyone else, he was history. To her, he was every birthday missed and every empty seat at home.
Joining the international space program was never about passion. It was about proving she could survive the same sky that took him away.
Then she meets Park Jimin.
A former pilot turned mission specialist, Jimin is everything she isn’t—warm, patient, endlessly easy to love. While she keeps people at a distance, he somehow slips past every wall she builds.
They compete. They clash. They slowly become inseparable.
Until a catastrophic mission failure leaves them stranded beyond Earth with failing systems, no rescue in sight, and impossible choices waiting in the dark between stars.
Because in space, survival always costs something.
And not everyone gets to come home.
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Chapter 4
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The worst part about grief in space is that nothing stops moving.
Earth still turns beneath you every ninety minutes. Sunrise still spills gold across the station windows whether someone died or not. Systems still require maintenance. Oxygen still needs monitoring. Power still needs rationing carefully if you want to survive long enough for rescue that may never come.
The universe does not pause for heartbreak. It simply leaves you alone inside it.
The radiation storm passes fourteen hours after Park Jimin dies. At least, that is what your brain calls it now.
Dies.
Even thinking the word feels impossible. Your body still refuses to fully believe it happened. Because how can someone exist so completely beside you one moment and then suddenly become silence?
The shelter door unlocks automatically once radiation levels finally stabilize.
You do not move immediately. You remain curled inside the cramped reinforced chamber staring blankly at the biometric monitor that still displays the flatlined signal from his suit.
The line never changes again.
You keep waiting for it to.
Some irrational part of you expects the monitor to suddenly spike back to life.
A miracle.
A mistake.
Anything.
But the line remains still.
Eventually the oxygen warning forces you to move.
Your limbs feel disconnected from your body as you push the shelter hatch open manually.
The station greets you with silence.
Machines still hum weakly somewhere deeper inside damaged modules.
Emergency fans still circulate recycled air unevenly through surviving corridors.
But his silence is everywhere now.
You float slowly into the corridor outside the shelter.
And stop breathing.
Jimin is gone.
The wall where he sat beneath the radiation storm stands empty now.
No body.
No suit.
Nothing.
For one second, panic flashes violently through you.
Then training answers automatically.
Solar flare impact likely destabilized the damaged station structure. Depressurization from surrounding modules probably triggered emergency exterior venting systems during the storm.
His body could have been pulled into orbit hours ago.
The thought nearly destroys you all over again.
You grip the nearest stabilizer rail hard enough for your fingers to ache.
No funeral.
No goodbye.
No grave.
Just endless space.
The station suddenly feels unbearable.
Every corridor carries traces of him now.
His handwriting still remains across maintenance notes attached beside damaged control panels.
One of his drink pouches floats slowly near the observation module where both of you kissed less than two days earlier.
A sweater he left tethered beside the sleeping compartment drifts gently through recycled airflow like a ghost refusing to leave.
You almost throw up seeing it.
The first week afterward barely feels real.
Your body continues functioning entirely through astronaut conditioning and survival instinct.
Wake.
Check oxygen reserves.
Ration power.
Repair systems.
Attempt communication with Earth.
Sleep for short unstable stretches.
Repeat.
You do not cry much after the first two days.
The grief becomes too large for crying.
Instead, it settles somewhere deep inside your body like permanent cold.
Sometimes you catch yourself turning toward empty corridors expecting him to appear.
Sometimes you still hear his laugh.
Not hallucinations exactly.
Memory.
Your brain still has not learned how to exist in orbit without him beside you.
You keep reaching for him automatically.
During meals.
During repairs.
During long silent stretches staring at Earth through the observation glass.
Every time reality hits again, it feels fresh.
Cruel.
Like losing him repeatedly instead of once.
The station deteriorates slowly around you.
Several outer modules remain permanently unusable after the debris collision and solar storm damage. Power conservation forces you to shut down entire sections completely, leaving long corridors swallowed in darkness.
The silence grows heavier every day.
There are moments where you stop speaking entirely for hours.
Then eventually days.
Because words themselves begin feeling pointless.
Until one night you accidentally say his name out loud while fixing a damaged relay panel.
“Jimin, pass me the—”
The sentence dies instantly.
Your hands stop moving.
The wrench floats silently beside you.
Reality crashes back so violently your entire body folds inward.
You press both hands over your mouth trying not to make noise.
Trying not to completely lose control.
Because saying his name still feels like summoning something alive.
After that, the loneliness changes.
It becomes sharper somehow.
The human brain was never designed for this kind of isolation.
Not endless orbit.
Not grief without interruption.
Not surviving the death of the only other person in the universe who understood exactly what you were experiencing.
By the third week, you begin talking simply to hear another voice.
Small comments during repairs.
Complaints about failing station systems.
Mutters under your breath while calculating oxygen consumption manually.
“You’re annoying,” you mumble once while struggling to reconnect a damaged panel.
The words leave automatically.
Because normally he would answer with something sarcastic immediately afterward.
Silence responds instead.
You stare at the panel for several seconds before laughing weakly at yourself.
The sound unsettles you instantly.
Later that same night, you drift into the observation module carrying reheated tea.
Without thinking, you place a second pouch beside the empty seat across from you.
The realization hits only afterward.
Your chest hurts so badly you almost cannot breathe.
Still, you leave the tea there anyway.
Earth glows beneath the station windows beautifully unaware of your grief.
You stare toward the empty chair beside you for a long time.
Then quietly whisper:
“You would’ve complained about the flavor.”
Silence.
You answer it anyway.
“I know. It still tastes terrible.”
The conversation lasts eleven minutes.
You realize afterward what you are doing.
And still continue the next night.
Then the next.
Because loneliness in space becomes something physical eventually.
It presses against your ribs.
Wraps around your throat.
Follows you through every dark corridor.
Some nights you wake suddenly convinced you heard footsteps outside the sleeping module.
Other nights you dream he is still alive somewhere inside the station and spend twenty seconds searching before reality settles back in again.
Those moments hurt worst.
Hope becomes painful now.
You stop checking the biometric archive after week four because seeing the flatline repeatedly begins making your hands shake uncontrollably.
Instead, you throw yourself harder into survival routines.
The shelter module and escape pod integration still needs final calibration before atmospheric descent becomes possible. Orbital decay calculations continue shifting daily. Food supplies shrink steadily despite aggressive rationing.
You should focus entirely on getting home.
But grief keeps interrupting survival.
One afternoon you float into the galley compartment holding a repair tablet while absentmindedly speaking before fully entering the room.
“You know what I miss most?”
The words stop halfway out of your mouth.
Because you suddenly realize you are asking a question to an empty chair again.
The chair stares back silently tethered beside the dining wall.
You laugh once.
Then whisper:
“Your stupid space coffee.”
Tears finally come afterward.
Silent crying in zero gravity while the station drifts endlessly through darkness around you.
You cover your face with both hands and let grief consume you completely for the first time since the shelter door closed between both of you.
Because surviving him feels unbearable now.
And somewhere deep inside yourself, a terrifying thought begins growing louder every day:
Maybe the cruelest part was not losing Park Jimin.
Maybe the cruelest part was surviving long enough to remember exactly how much he loved you before he disappeared.
The transmission reaches Earth on a Thursday.
Fragmented.
Corrupted.
Barely recognizable beneath radiation damage and orbital interference.
But the final line comes through clearly enough to change everything.
CREW STATUS: DECEASED.
By the time mission control fully reconstructs the damaged telemetry packets from the destroyed station, the world already believes both astronauts aboard the Artemis repair mission are dead.
The official statement releases fourteen hours later.
Carefully worded.
Measured.
Clinical in the way organizations speak when trying to compress human tragedy into understandable paragraphs.
Loss of communication following catastrophic orbital debris collision.
Severe solar radiation exposure.
No further life signs detected.
Recovery probability statistically negligible.
The world mourns two astronauts lost somewhere above Earth.
One becomes a global tragedy.
The other becomes history repeating itself.
Because suddenly every news outlet begins replaying your father’s face beside yours again.
The daughter of legendary astronaut Han Yejun lost in orbit after following his footsteps.
The headlines write themselves before anyone even learns who you truly were.
Interviews flood every network.
Former aerospace officials.
Retired astronauts.
Flight instructors.
Psychologists discussing isolation trauma and mission risk.
People who never met you suddenly speak about your life like they understood it intimately.
Meanwhile, somewhere above the same planet mourning you, you remain very much alive.
Alone.
Mission control continues trying to reestablish contact for several days after the official declaration despite pressure from international agencies preparing memorial proceedings.
But the damaged station drifts beyond stable communication range repeatedly due to orbital instability and solar interference.
Every silence becomes another confirmation.
Another funeral nail hammered carefully into public belief.
On Earth, candlelight vigils begin appearing outside aerospace centers.
People leave flowers beneath giant screens replaying your launch footage over and over again.
Children draw pictures of stars beside handwritten notes thanking both of you for your bravery.
Entire documentaries reappear online analyzing the doomed mission frame by frame.
The world romanticizes space best when astronauts die beautifully.
Nobody talks enough about how lonely it actually is.
Your mother watches all of it unfold from the same quiet house you grew up inside.
The same house where she once waited through endless nights while your father orbited somewhere unreachable above the planet.
History circles back cruelly.
Except this time she is alone.
The media camps outside her neighborhood for nearly two weeks.
Reporters linger beside gates hoping for grief dramatic enough to broadcast live.
Former colleagues of your father send flowers daily.
People keep calling him heroic again.
Your mother stops answering the phone after the third day.
At night she sits alone in the living room watching muted news coverage replay your launch endlessly across the television screen.
The footage becomes unavoidable.
You in the white pressure suit walking toward the transport vehicle beside Park Jimin beneath floodlights.
You smiling nervously during final crew interviews.
The last publicly recorded moment anyone saw you alive.
At first, she cannot bear watching the actual launch itself.
The ignition sequence makes her physically ill.
The sound reminds her too much of your father.
Too much of loss.
Too much of all the times space took people she loved and returned only memories afterward.
But grief changes people strangely.
Eventually the footage becomes the only thing she has left.
So every night after the news coverage ends, she rewinds the launch replay manually and watches it again from the beginning.
The engines ignite beneath the rocket in violent gold light.
Crowds cheer from observation areas.
Mission control applauds successful ascent milestones.
Commentators speak excitedly about history and exploration and human advancement while your mother sits alone on the couch staring at the screen like maybe if she watches carefully enough this time, something will change.
Maybe she will notice a sign.
Maybe she will somehow know before the launch even happens that she should stop you.
Sometimes she pauses the footage right before the shuttle doors close around you.
Your face remains frozen on the television screen smiling politely toward cameras.
She touches the screen once during those moments.
Very gently.
Like touching your face through glass.
Then always whispers the exact same thing afterward.
“You look so much like your father there.”
Because both of you carried the exact same expression before leaving Earth.
Wonder mixed carefully with fear.
Your mother recognizes it now.
That terrible beautiful kind of hope people carry before space changes them forever.
Across the world, Park Jimin becomes mourned just as fiercely.
Former flight crews speak publicly about his kindness during rescue operations years earlier as a pilot.
Training footage circulates online showing him laughing during simulations while instructors praised his composure under pressure.
People call him charming.
Brilliant.
Beloved.
Entire edits of his interviews spread endlessly across social media accompanied by soft piano music and captions about stars taking back one of their own.
None of it captures the real him.
Not the version who floated hot tea toward you because he noticed you crying in orbit.
Not the version who kissed you inside a dying station like love itself could keep both of you alive.
Not the version who smiled through reinforced glass while sacrificing himself so you could survive.
The world grieves symbols.
You grieve a person.
Weeks later, during another failed attempt to repair long range communications, you accidentally intercept part of an Earthside memorial broadcast drifting weakly through damaged frequencies.
The signal crackles violently.
Half static.
Half audio.
Still enough.
You freeze beside the transmission console immediately when you hear your own name.
Then his.
A woman’s voice speaks softly through interference.
“…remembered not only for their extraordinary service but for the courage they showed during humanity’s darkest orbital disaster in modern history…”
Your blood turns cold.
Another voice follows.
“…survived by family, friends, and millions inspired by their sacrifice…”
The transmission distorts again.
Then suddenly your mother’s voice cuts faintly through static.
You stop breathing.
“…she always pretended she hated space…”
Her voice sounds exhausted.
Older somehow.
“She said she only joined because she was angry at her father.”
Silence crackles briefly through the feed.
Then softly:
“But I think maybe she loved the stars more than she wanted anyone to know.”
The transmission dies immediately afterward.
Static floods the station again.
You stare at the dead speaker without moving.
Something inside your chest caves inward slowly.
Because for the first time since orbit trapped you alone, the reality fully settles into place.
Earth already buried you.
Your mother thinks she lost you.
And somewhere down there beneath clouds and oceans and entire continents spinning quietly beneath the station, humanity mourns both of you while you drift endlessly through silence carrying the unbearable truth that one of you never made it home at all.
The station has been silent for thirty one days when the signal appears.
By then, loneliness has already changed shape inside you.
It no longer feels sharp all the time.
Sharp pain requires energy.
This grief becomes quieter eventually.
Like carrying an entire ocean inside your ribs while pretending your body still remembers how to function normally.
You survive through routine now.
Wake.
Check oxygen levels.
Monitor orbital decay calculations.
Repair failing systems.
Attempt communications with Earth even though nobody answers.
Sleep in fragmented stretches haunted by dreams of sealed shelter doors and flatlining monitors.
Repeat.
Some days you forget what your own voice sounds like until you accidentally speak aloud during repairs.
Other days you talk to Jimin anyway.
Because silence became unbearable weeks ago.
The station drifts through orbital night while you work alone inside the communications module reconnecting another damaged relay board for the fourth time this week.
Most systems barely function anymore.
Power fluctuations worsen daily and several external antenna arrays remain permanently damaged after the debris collision.
Still, you keep trying.
Because hope is difficult to kill completely.
Even now.
The monitor beside you flickers weakly while diagnostic code scrolls slowly across the cracked screen.
Nothing unusual.
Signal noise.
Dead satellite reflections.
Background interference from Earth based military transmissions occasionally bleeding upward into low orbit frequencies.
You almost stop paying attention entirely.
Then static spikes suddenly across the console speakers.
Your hands freeze instantly.
A sound cuts through the module.
Weak.
Distorted.
But undeniably artificial.
Not station noise.
Not interference.
A transmission.
Your pulse stumbles violently.
You launch toward the console so quickly your shoulder slams painfully into the wall panel beside it.
“Come on…”
The signal crackles again.
Faint.
Broken.
Like someone transmitting from impossibly far away.
You reconnect the audio gain manually with shaking fingers while the station drifts silently around you.
The waveform flickers weakly across the monitor.
Human voice pattern detected.
Your breathing stops completely.
No.
That is impossible.
Every surviving communication array within range already declared the mission lost weeks ago. No rescue vessels reached orbital proximity during the solar storm aftermath. No surviving crew telemetry ever returned after Jimin’s biometrics flatlined inside the shelter.
You watched him die.
The memory hits instantly.
The glass.
The radiation alarms.
The monitor screaming one long continuous tone.
Your stomach twists painfully.
The signal sharpens briefly.
Then a voice finally breaks through the static.
Male.
Exhausted.
Barely audible.
But devastatingly familiar.
“…Commander…”
Your entire body goes still.
The audio distorts violently again before stabilizing weakly for half a second longer.
Then—
“…you still owe me dinner.”
The world stops.
Everything stops.
Your lungs forget how to work.
The wrench slips from your hand and floats soundlessly through the module while you stare at the monitor in complete disbelief.
Your brain refuses to process the voice correctly because it cannot possibly belong to him.
Not after the flatline.
Not after the shelter.
Not after thirty one days of grieving someone you physically watched disappear.
The transmission dissolves back into static immediately afterward.
Gone.
You launch toward the controls desperately.
“Repeat transmission!”
Nothing answers.
You reroute the antenna array manually.
Recalibrate signal gain.
Search every active frequency.
Your hands shake so violently you mistype command inputs twice.
“Come on…”
Static floods the speakers endlessly.
No voice.
No signal.
Nothing.
Your heart pounds so hard it physically hurts.
Hallucination.
It has to be.
Isolation induced auditory distortion is a documented psychological risk during long duration space confinement. You know that. You studied it during training.
Sleep deprivation.
Grief.
Extreme loneliness.
Your brain finally breaking after weeks trapped alone in orbit.
That explanation should comfort you.
Instead it terrifies you more.
Because the voice sounded real.
Real enough that your entire body still reacts to it instinctively.
Commander… you still owe me dinner.
The exact teasing tone he used during training.
The exact kind of stupid joke he would make while bleeding or exhausted or trying to stop you from panicking.
Your breathing grows uneven.
You grip the edge of the console hard trying to steady yourself.
The shelter monitor flatlined.
You saw it happen.
Radiation exposure levels outside the chamber were unsurvivable.
There is no scenario where Park Jimin should still be alive.
And yet—
Your eyes drift slowly toward the transmission monitor again.
One unread data packet blinks weakly in the corner of the screen.
Your pulse spikes instantly.
You open it manually.
The system struggles processing corrupted information for several painful seconds before finally displaying partial transmission metadata.
ORIGIN SOURCE: UNKNOWN.
SIGNAL STRENGTH: CRITICAL.
LOCATION: UNIDENTIFIED DRIFT VECTOR.
A second smaller line appears beneath it.
LIFE SUPPORT TELEMETRY DETECTED.
Your knees nearly give out.
You magnify the waveform data with trembling hands.
The signal source drifts beyond standard station range somewhere within nearby orbital debris fields created during the missile collision.
Small.
Weak.
Mobile.
Like an emergency beacon attached to a damaged survival unit.
Your entire body floods with adrenaline so violently it almost hurts.
Because suddenly memories begin rearranging themselves differently inside your mind.
No body found outside the shelter.
Station destabilization during solar impact.
Emergency venting procedures.
Missing external modules.
Your chest tightens painfully around hope so sharp it feels dangerous.
Hope nearly killed you already.
You know better now.
But still—
You replay the transmission again.
Static floods the speakers.
Then his voice returns weakly through interference.
“…you still owe me dinner.”
This time you hear it clearly.
The exhaustion in his breathing.
The tiny smile hidden beneath the words.
God.
It sounds real.
Your vision blurs instantly with tears.
A broken laugh escapes your throat before you can stop it.
Then another.
Half sob.
Half disbelief.
You cover your mouth with trembling hands while emotion crashes violently through your chest all at once.
Relief.
Terror.
Confusion.
Hope so overwhelming it physically hurts.
“Jimin?”
The empty station says nothing back.
But for the first time in over a month, silence no longer feels endless.
Somewhere beyond the drifting wreckage orbiting Earth, hidden inside darkness and debris and impossible survival odds—
Park Jimin might still be alive.
You replay the transmission forty three times before allowing yourself to believe it might be real.
Forty three.
The signal always arrives fractured beneath static and radiation interference, weak enough that entire syllables disappear depending on orbital position.
But his voice remains there.
Every replay destroys you differently.
The first few leave you frozen in disbelief staring at the monitor like your brain physically cannot process what it is hearing.
The next ten make you cry so hard you nearly lose control of your breathing.
After that comes fear.
Because hope becomes terrifying after grief already convinced you someone was gone forever.
You stop trusting your own mind in orbit weeks ago.
Isolation changes people.
Loneliness reshapes reality slowly.
Part of you still wonders if this is the moment your brain finally breaks completely.
But hallucinations do not generate telemetry data.
Hallucinations do not produce drifting signal vectors and intermittent life support readings across damaged radar systems.
And hallucinations definitely do not use Park Jimin’s exact stupid teasing tone while sounding half dead.
So you work.
For the first time in over a month, exhaustion no longer feels heavy enough to crush you.
Adrenaline burns through your body instead.
You barely sleep.
Barely eat.
The station transforms from graveyard back into survival machine overnight as you throw yourself violently into repairing every remaining navigation and tracking system still capable of functioning.
You reroute emergency power through dead communication arrays.
Patch damaged signal processors manually.
Cannibalize inactive station modules for wiring and backup relay hardware.
Some repairs require hours floating inside dark maintenance tunnels with only helmet lights guiding your hands through exposed circuitry.
You work until your fingers bleed once after catching your knuckles against broken panel edges.
You do not notice until later.
Nothing matters except the signal.
Find the signal.
Find him.
The possibility alone becomes oxygen.
The intermittent beacon appears only every few hours depending on orbital alignment. Each transmission lasts under ten seconds before dissolving back into static.
Still enough.
You begin mapping the drift pattern manually across orbital debris trajectories left from the missile collision weeks earlier.
At first the calculations make no sense.
The signal moves irregularly.
Too controlled for random wreckage.
Too unstable for intact spacecraft.
You spend nineteen straight hours cross referencing abandoned orbital infrastructure records from the station archives before finally finding something buried deep within declassified Cold War era aerospace files.
An old station.
Forgotten decades earlier after military orbital programs shut down internationally.
Minimal public documentation.
No active registration.
No modern transponder codes.
Your pulse climbs immediately while scanning the archived schematics.
The station was originally designed as an emergency reconnaissance outpost capable of autonomous orbital survival during communications blackouts.
Shielded heavily against radiation.
Small.
Primitive.
But technically capable of maintaining life support.
The exact kind of structure someone could accidentally drift toward during catastrophic orbital displacement.
You stare at the coordinates without breathing.
No.
No way.
Then another fragment of the signal arrives through the speakers.
Weak.
Barely there.
You hear coughing this time.
Then static.
That is enough.
You stop doubting afterward.
The docking maneuver nearly kills you.
The abandoned station drifts silently through darkness nearly eighty kilometers from your current orbital path hidden among debris fields and inactive satellite wreckage.
Ancient.
Dark.
Almost invisible against the stars.
Its exterior structure looks skeletal beneath centuries of micrometeorite damage and fading insulation panels. Half the station remains without power entirely while old Cold War insignias barely remain visible across portions of the hull.
It looks like a ghost.
And somewhere inside it—
Maybe him.
Your hands shake so badly during manual navigation adjustments you nearly miss the first alignment window completely.
Focus.
You force yourself through docking procedures carefully despite the adrenaline threatening to overwhelm your concentration.
One mistake out here still means death.
The abandoned station does not respond to automated docking requests.
No active systems.
No guidance control.
You perform the final approach manually through auxiliary thrusters while your breathing echoes violently inside the helmet.
Distance closing.
Fifteen meters.
Ten.
Five.
The station grows enormous outside the viewport now.
Dead.
Silent.
Waiting.
Contact.
The docking clamps engage with a heavy metallic shudder that echoes through your entire spacecraft.
For one terrible second you cannot move afterward.
Because suddenly fear crashes through the hope.
What if you are wrong?
What if the signal belonged to debris playback?
What if you open the hatch and find nothing except darkness?
Or worse—
A body.
Your throat burns painfully.
Then you remember his voice again.
You move.
The interior hatch opens with horrible resistance.
Ancient emergency mechanisms groan loudly while stale air spills slowly into the docking corridor.
Your helmet light cuts through darkness revealing narrow metallic passageways coated in decades of dust and floating debris particles.
The station smells wrong.
Old.
Recycled air mixed with rust and something electrical burning faintly somewhere deeper inside.
No movement.
No sound.
Your pulse hammers violently.
“Jimin?”
Nothing answers.
You push farther into the station carefully.
The gravity here fluctuates weakly from partial rotational systems still somehow functioning after decades abandoned in orbit. Your boots occasionally brush against surfaces before drifting upward again.
The corridors narrow deeper inside.
Emergency lights flicker dim orange through sections still receiving auxiliary power.
Your breathing grows louder.
“Jimin!”
Silence.
Then—
A sound.
Faint metal scraping somewhere ahead.
Your entire body goes still.
The noise comes again.
Weak.
Unsteady.
Human.
You almost run.
The central module appears around the next corridor bend.
And suddenly—
You stop breathing.
Park Jimin sits slumped against the far wall beneath flickering emergency lights.
Alive.
The sight hits so hard your knees nearly collapse underneath you.
For one second your brain refuses to connect the image in front of you with reality.
Because grief already buried him.
You spent weeks mourning someone your body accepted as gone forever.
And yet—
He is there.
His face turns slowly toward the sound of your movement.
The first thing you notice is how thin he looks.
His skin appears pale beneath the emergency lighting while radiation burns climb faintly across part of his neck disappearing beneath the collar of his thermal layer. One arm remains wrapped tightly in makeshift medical bandaging stained dark near the shoulder.
His oxygen line connects to an ancient portable life support unit beside him barely still functioning.
But his eyes—
God.
His eyes are still him.
Even exhausted.
Even half conscious.
You make a sound that does not even feel human anymore.
Somewhere between a sob and shattered relief.
His lips part slightly seeing you standing there frozen in the doorway.
For a second he looks almost confused.
Like maybe he thinks he hallucinated you too.
Then very weakly—
He smiles.
The exact same smile through the shelter glass.
Your vision blurs instantly.
You cross the module so fast you nearly lose balance in the fluctuating gravity field.
“Jimin.”
His name breaks apart in your mouth.
You fall beside him grabbing his face with shaking hands like you need physical proof he exists.
“Oh my God.”
Tears spill uncontrollably down your face while you touch him everywhere at once trying to convince yourself this is not another cruel dream.
“You’re alive.”
Jimin exhales a weak broken laugh.
“Took you long enough.”
The stupid joke destroys you completely.
You collapse against him sobbing openly before you can stop yourself.
Your hands clutch the front of his jacket desperately while his arms wrap around you slowly with what little strength he has left.
And suddenly weeks of grief explode out of you all at once.
“I thought you died.”
The confession tears violently from your throat.
“I thought you were gone.”
Jimin’s breathing shakes unevenly against your hair.
“So did I.”
You pull back immediately looking at him through blurred vision.
His face tightens slightly from pain.
“You idiot,” you cry. “Your heartbeat monitor flatlined.”
He swallows hard.
“The radiation surge overloaded the biometric systems.” His voice sounds rough from dehydration and exhaustion. “The station decompressed during the storm and threw me through one of the outer maintenance locks before exposure fully hit.”
Your chest aches listening to him force the explanation through exhausted breaths.
“I found this station drifting afterward.” His eyes close briefly. “Barely made it inside before passing out.”
You stare at him horrified.
Alone.
In this dead forgotten station.
Injured.
Believing nobody knew he survived.
Tears fall harder.
Jimin lifts trembling fingers toward your face weakly brushing beneath your eyes.
“You’re crying really hard for someone who threatened me with a wrench during training.”
A laugh breaks through your sobbing helplessly.
Even half dead in an abandoned orbital graveyard, he still sounds like himself.
The realization nearly ruins you all over again.
You press your forehead carefully against his.
“I hate you.”
“No you don’t.”
“No,” you whisper brokenly. “I really don’t.”
Silence wraps around both of you afterward.
The kind filled with breathing and warmth and impossible second chances.
Jimin studies your face quietly for several long seconds.
Then very softly asks:
“You came back for me?”
The question shatters whatever remains of your composure.
You kiss him before answering.
Desperate.
Crying.
Relieved enough it physically hurts.
His hands shake against your face while kissing you back weakly like he still cannot fully believe you are real either.
When you finally pull away, both of you are breathing unevenly.
You rest your forehead against his carefully.
“There was never a version of this story where I didn’t.”
Chapter 6
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Sypnosis: She never dreamed of space. If anything, she spent most of her life resenting it.
Y/N is the daughter of a legendary astronaut the world still mourns, a man remembered for the stars while his family learned how to live with his absence. To everyone else, he was history. To her, he was every birthday missed and every empty seat at home.
Joining the international space program was never about passion. It was about proving she could survive the same sky that took him away.
Then she meets Park Jimin.
A former pilot turned mission specialist, Jimin is everything she isn’t—warm, patient, endlessly easy to love. While she keeps people at a distance, he somehow slips past every wall she builds.
They compete. They clash. They slowly become inseparable.
Until a catastrophic mission failure leaves them stranded beyond Earth with failing systems, no rescue in sight, and impossible choices waiting in the dark between stars.
Because in space, survival always costs something.
And not everyone gets to come home.
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Chapter 3
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The damaged escape pod loses heating twelve hours later.
The emergency systems continue flickering weakly throughout the cramped compartment while the two of you work through repair calculations in exhausted silence. Outside the small circular window beside the control panel, Earth drifts endlessly beneath darkness and cloud systems, heartbreakingly beautiful despite everything happening above it.
The pod itself is barely larger than a closet.
Two people were never meant to stay inside it this long.
Especially not two people surviving on partial oxygen and unstable power reserves.
You sit curled near the navigation console wearing thermal emergency layers over your flight suit while Jimin works beside the exposed power systems on the opposite side of the compartment.
Or tries to.
His hands are slower now.
Both of you are exhausted.
Neither of you says it aloud.
The pod lights dim again suddenly.
A warning pulse flashes red across the ceiling.
POWER CONSERVATION MODE ACTIVATED.
Temperature levels begin dropping almost immediately afterward.
You exhale slowly against the cold creeping through the compartment walls.
Jimin notices instantly.
“We need to shut down nonessential systems.”
“They’re already mostly off.”
He leans back against the wall afterward, eyes closing briefly while condensation fogs faintly against the edges of his breathing mask.
The silence inside the pod feels heavier tonight. Full of things neither of you wants to say aloud yet.
The oxygen transfer line still connected between your suits.
The terrifying possibility that only one of you might survive this.
You stare down at your hands instead. Your fingers brush absentmindedly against the folded note Jimin gave you before launch, still tucked safely into your inner suit pocket.
The memory hurts now. Because suddenly nothing feels guaranteed anymore.
Another warning pulse flickers overhead.
Temperature decreasing.
Jimin opens his eyes slowly before glancing toward the monitor.
Then toward you.
“We need body heat conservation.”
Your stomach flips instantly.
The words themselves are clinical. Practical. Survival based.
Still, heat crawls immediately into your face anyway.
“You’re blushing during a near death experience,” he says quietly.
“You’re annoying during a near death experience.”
“That’s how you know I’m still emotionally stable.”
Despite everything, a weak laugh escapes you. The sound softens something in his expression immediately.
Then more gently: “Come here.”
The pod suddenly feels much smaller.
You move carefully across the narrow compartment until you sit beside him against the insulated wall panel. The space between your bodies disappears almost instantly in zero gravity.
Too close.
Your shoulder presses lightly against his. His leg brushes yours. Every point of contact feels amplified inside the silence.
Jimin adjusts the thermal blanket around both of you carefully before leaning back against the wall again.
For a while, neither of you speaks.
The only sounds are quiet system hums and breathing.
Your body remains painfully aware of him beside you.
The warmth of him. The steady rhythm of his breathing. The way exhaustion stripped away some of his usual energy, leaving something softer underneath tonight.
You stare toward the small circular window instead.
Earthlight spills faint blue across the compartment walls while stars burn endlessly outside.
Beautiful. Cold. Infinite.
“You okay?” Jimin asks quietly after a while.
You nod automatically.
Then shake your head honestly afterward.
“I don’t know.”
The truth settles heavily between both of you.
Jimin shifts slightly beside you. His hand brushes yours during the movement. Both of you go still immediately. It is ridiculous how something so small suddenly feels enormous.
Your pulse stumbles traitorously inside your chest.
Jimin slowly turns his hand palm upward beside yours without fully touching you again. An offering. Careful. Like he is giving you the choice.
You stare at it for a second too long before finally sliding your fingers against his.
Warmth rushes instantly through your chest. His hand closes around yours gently. The intimacy of it nearly destroys you.
Because nothing about this feels casual anymore.
Not after orbit. Not after surviving together. Not after realizing how terrifying the idea of losing him actually is.
Jimin exhales softly beside you.
“You know what’s funny?”
You glance toward him.
“What?”
“If someone told me a year ago that I’d end up trapped in space holding hands with the angriest engineer alive, I probably would’ve still fallen for you anyway.”
Your breath catches slightly.
“You fell for me before space?”
He looks genuinely offended.
“You thought almost dying together created all this?”
A weak smile finally reaches your face.
Jimin watches it carefully.
Then quieter: “I think I started falling for you the night I found you asleep over simulation reports with highlighter marks on your face.”
Mortified disbelief flashes across your expression.
“Oh my God.”
“You looked cute.”
“I hate you.”
“No you don’t.”
The problem is he says it softly. Confidently. Like he already knows the answer. And maybe he does.
The pod lights dim lower again while the temperature continues falling gradually around both of you.
Instinctively, you shift closer beneath the thermal blanket without thinking.
Your bodies press more fully together now.
Your breathing catches immediately once you realize how close his face suddenly is.
Too close. Close enough to feel the warmth of his breath against your skin. Close enough that if either of you moved slightly—
Your heartbeat becomes unbearable.
Jimin notices. You know he notices because his breathing changes too.
Slower suddenly. More uneven. Neither of you looks away.
The tension inside the tiny pod thickens painfully. His fingers tighten slightly around yours. Your eyes drop briefly toward his mouth before immediately lifting again.
Jimin sees that too.
The air between both of you feels electric despite the freezing compartment.
Every small movement suddenly matters. Your knee brushing his. His thumb moving slowly against your hand. The way your bodies instinctively keep leaning closer searching for warmth neither of you wants to fully admit is no longer just physical.
“You have no idea,” he says quietly, voice rougher now, “how hard it is pretending to stay calm around you.”
Your breath shakes softly.
“Jimin…”
The way he looks at you afterward nearly ruins your ability to think. Like wanting you has become something heavy and impossible to hide anymore. Like surviving space somehow stripped both of you down to the truth.
Outside the pod window, Earth continues turning silently beneath endless stars. Inside, neither of you sleeps.
By the second night inside the damaged escape pod, reality begins slipping at the edges.
The human brain was never designed for this kind of exhaustion. Too little oxygen. Too much stress. No proper sleep. Constant adrenaline crashing through the body for nearly forty eight straight hours.
Mission training warned you about cognitive distortion in survival conditions.
Hallucinations.
Delayed reactions.
Memory confusion.
You just never imagined it would feel this real.
The pod lights flicker weakly overhead while emergency systems hum unevenly around both of you. Most nonessential functions remain shut down to preserve power for navigation and life support, leaving the compartment dim except for soft instrument glow reflecting against metal walls.
Jimin sleeps beside you eventually. His head rests lightly near your shoulder while exhaustion finally drags his body into unconsciousness despite the cold and discomfort surrounding both of you.
You should sleep too.
Instead, you stare silently through the circular pod window watching Earth drift endlessly beneath orbit.
Your oxygen mask feels heavier tonight.
Breathing takes more concentration.
The emergency reserves you stabilized earlier bought both of you additional time, but not enough to fully relax. Every hour still matters. Every calculation still feels fragile.
You close your eyes briefly.
Then hear footsteps.
Your entire body freezes immediately.
Soft against metal flooring somewhere beyond the pod hatch.
Your pulse spikes instantly.
That is impossible.
The damaged station is abandoned.
Most of it destroyed.
You slowly lift your head.
The footsteps stop.
Silence settles heavily throughout the compartment again.
You glance toward Jimin instinctively.
Still asleep. Breathing shallow but steady.
You tell yourself exhaustion is playing tricks on your brain.
Then the hatch door creaks softly.
Your heart nearly stops.
The sound is unmistakable.
Metal shifting.
Movement.
You stare toward the darkened hatch entrance while every instinct inside your body screams that something is wrong.
And then—
A figure appears beyond the doorway.
Tall.
Familiar.
Your breath catches violently.
Your father stands in the corridor outside the pod.
For one horrifying second, your brain accepts it completely.
The same broad shoulders from old mission footage. The same calm eyes. The same flight jacket he used to wear during training interviews when cameras followed him through space facilities your entire childhood. He looks exactly like memory.
“You’re exhausted,” he says quietly.
Real enough that emotion crashes through your chest before logic catches up.
You stare at him frozen.
Your father leans lightly against the corridor wall like this is normal. Like seeing dead astronauts inside damaged orbital stations happens every day.
“You always overwork yourself when you’re scared,” he says softly.
Tears burn suddenly behind your eyes.
“You’re dead.”
The words leave your mouth barely above a whisper.
His expression changes slightly.
“I know.”
Your breathing grows uneven instantly.
This is not real. It cannot be real. You know that.
But grief does terrifying things to the human mind.
Especially in orbit. Especially when oxygen levels are falling and exhaustion peels reality apart piece by piece.
Still, your body reacts anyway.
Because part of you spent your entire life wanting one more conversation.
One more chance to ask why space always mattered more.
Your father glances toward the pod systems behind you.
“You’re running out of time.”
You wipe quickly beneath your eyes.
“This isn’t real.”
His gaze shifts toward the damaged corridor outside.
Then back toward you.
“You’re still missing something.”
You frown slightly.
“What?”
“The secondary reserve system.”
Confusion flashes across your face immediately.
“The escape pod only has one emergency reserve.”
Your father says nothing.
Just watches you quietly.
Then repeats:
“You’re missing something.”
The lights flicker violently overhead.
For a second, his figure blurs slightly against the darkness beyond the hatch.
You blink hard.
And suddenly the corridor is empty.
Your pulse pounds painfully inside your ears.
No one there. No footsteps. Nothing.
The hatch remains sealed exactly the way it was before.
Silence floods the compartment again.
Your hands shake slightly while you stare toward the doorway trying to force your brain back into logic.
Hallucination. It had to be.
Low oxygen mixed with trauma and exhaustion.
You know this.
Still, your father’s words echo relentlessly through your head afterward.
Secondary reserve system.
Beside you, Jimin suddenly stirs awake sharply.
His breathing sounds uneven. Like he woke from something terrible. You turn immediately.
“Jimin?”
For a second, his eyes look unfocused. Lost somewhere else entirely. Then he whispers quietly: “She used to sing that song when I couldn’t sleep.”
“I could hear her,” he says softly. “I swear I could hear her singing.”
The vulnerability in his voice nearly breaks you apart.
You move closer instantly, gripping his hand tightly between both of yours.
“Jimin. Look at me.”
His gaze finally focuses slowly.
Confusion flickers across his expression once reality settles back in.
For several seconds neither of you speaks.
Because now both of you understand how bad things are becoming.
Oxygen deprivation. Cognitive instability. Your brains are beginning to fail.
Fear crashes heavily through the compartment again.
Then suddenly—
Secondary reserve system.
Your eyes widen instantly.
Wait.
You pull away from Jimin abruptly enough to startle him.
“What?”
“The docking bay.”
Your thoughts begin racing rapidly now.
“The old station design.”
Jimin frowns slightly trying to follow.
“What about it?”
Your engineering training suddenly crashes into place all at once. The damaged station was originally built from older orbital infrastructure modules before later expansions added the communications array. Older generation stations often included secondary emergency oxygen storage separate from primary pod systems in case of docking depressurization.
Hidden reserve tanks. Not attached directly to escape pods. Stored deeper inside maintenance sectors. Your pulse spikes.
“No fucking way.”
Jimin stares at you immediately. “What?”
“There might be backup oxygen reserves still inside the station.”
His expression sharpens instantly.
“You’re sure?”
“No.” You already begin pulling yourself toward the systems console again. “But I think we missed an entire lower maintenance section during the first scan because power was dead.”
Hope enters the compartment so suddenly it almost feels painful.
Jimin moves beside you immediately despite exhaustion still visible across his face.
Together, both of you begin rerouting emergency diagnostics manually through partial station schematics still stored inside the pod systems.
The process takes agonizingly long.
Damaged servers. Corrupted files. Partial blueprints only. Then finally, a blinking section appears beneath the lower docking ring.
EMERGENCY ENVIRONMENTAL STORAGE.
Jimin stares at the screen silently for half a second before laughing once in disbelief.
“You found it.”
Emotion slams through your chest so hard you almost cry. Because for the first time since the collision, survival suddenly feels possible again.
Your father saved you.
Maybe years spent obsessively studying stations and mission systems because of him stayed buried somewhere inside your brain until the exact moment you needed it most.
The realization hurts beautifully.
Jimin squeezes your hand once. “You just saved both of us.”
Outside the pod window, Earth glows softly beneath darkness while two exhausted astronauts cling desperately to survival somewhere above the world. And for the first time in days, hope finally returns to orbit.
For the first time since the debris collision, your breathing finally stabilizes without panic clawing constantly beneath your ribs. The fresh oxygen cycling through your system clears the lingering haze from your thoughts slowly, painfully, like your brain is waking from underwater.
The hallucinations stop.
Mostly.
Exhaustion still drags heavily through your body, but reality feels solid again.
Jimin notices the difference immediately.
“You’re thinking normally again,” he says quietly while helping secure the transfer regulators between reserve tanks and the pod systems.
You glance toward him from the floor panel you are recalibrating.
“That sounds insulting.”
“You spent twenty minutes earlier trying to open a locked compartment with a spoon.”
“In my defense, I was severely oxygen deprived.”
“You also apologized to the spoon afterward.”
You stare at him blankly.
“I hate that you remember everything.”
His laughter echoes softly through the damaged module.
You missed that sound.
The environmental storage section becomes your temporary shelter while you continue repairing what remains of the emergency pod systems. The compartment is cramped and dimly lit, filled with old maintenance equipment bolted against the walls alongside reserve oxygen tanks and emergency battery arrays.
It smells metallic. Burned. Like overheated machinery and recycled air.
Still, compared to drifting helplessly through open orbit, it feels almost safe.
Almost.
The problem with damaged stations is that systems failures never happen alone.
One broken structure affects another. Then another. Then everything begins collapsing together.
You are halfway through rerouting auxiliary power toward navigation controls when the first warning alarm pulses sharply overhead.
Jimin immediately looks up from the diagnostics console.
“That’s not good.”
Before you can answer, the lights flicker violently.
Then smoke bursts suddenly from the far electrical panel beside the module wall.
“Oh my God.”
Sparks explode outward instantly.
The compartment alarms ignite at once while emergency systems scream warnings through the corridor.
Electrical fire detected.
Electrical fire detected.
Your stomach drops.
Fire in space is terrifying in ways Earth could never fully understand.
No gravity means heat and smoke move unpredictably. Flames spread differently in microgravity, forming violent floating spheres that consume oxygen faster inside enclosed environments.
And enclosed environments are the only thing keeping human beings alive up here.
“Power down the main circuit!” Jimin shouts immediately.
You launch toward the emergency panel while smoke begins spilling rapidly through the compartment. The smell hits seconds later. Burning plastic. Melted wiring.
Your hands shake while trying to override the damaged controls.
“It’s not responding!”
Another burst of sparks erupts violently from the electrical unit.
The fire spreads fast across exposed wiring overhead.
Too fast.
Jimin pushes himself toward the burning panel immediately.
“Jimin, wait—”
“We need to kill the current manually!”
Smoke thickens rapidly throughout the compartment while warning sirens pulse endlessly around both of you. Your eyes burn instantly even through filtration support.
Jimin reaches the damaged panel and yanks open the maintenance cover manually.
A shower of sparks explodes outward.
You flinch hard.
“Jimin!”
“I’m fine!”
He is not fine.
You can already see heat scorching through parts of his protective glove while he fights to disconnect the overloaded systems before the fire reaches nearby oxygen regulators.
If the reserve tanks ignite—
Your brain refuses to finish the thought.
You force yourself back toward the secondary controls instead, desperately trying to reroute emergency suppression systems.
Come on.
Come on.
Nothing responds.
The fire grows larger.
Smoke rolls heavily across the ceiling now while heat spreads through the tiny compartment at terrifying speed.
Then suddenly one burning cable snaps loose overhead.
You barely register movement before the live wire whips violently toward you.
Everything happens too fast afterward.
Jimin sees it first.
“Y/N!”
He launches toward you instantly.
The impact slams both of you sideways against the module wall just as the burning cable crashes into the exact place where your head had been seconds earlier.
A violent burst of sparks explodes through the compartment.
Jimin jerks sharply beside you.
Then sucks in a sharp breath.
Your stomach drops instantly.
His hand.
The exposed current had caught his glove during the impact.
“Jimin.”
He pulls back immediately, hiding the injured hand against his chest automatically.
But not before you see it.
Burn damage already spreading across the fabric.
Your pulse spikes violently.
“Oh my God.”
“I’m okay.”
“You are literally on fire!”
The compartment lights flicker again.
Smoke thickens.
But all you can see is him.
Jimin breathing harder now while pain flashes visibly across his face despite how hard he tries hiding it.
Rage and fear crash together inside your chest instantly.
“Why would you do that?”
Before you can say anything else, the emergency suppression system finally activates overhead. Thick white extinguishing foam bursts across the burning electrical panels while alarms continue screaming through the compartment.
The fire begins dying almost immediately.
You stare at Jimin breathing hard beside the wall while smoke drifts weakly through the dim emergency lighting.
Then you grab his injured hand carefully despite his protest.
“Don’t move.”
“It looks worse than it is.”
“It smells burned.”
The glove comes off slowly.
Your chest aches immediately seeing the damage underneath.
Red blistered skin across part of his palm and fingers where the electrical current burned through protective layers during impact.
Not catastrophic.
But painful enough that your stomach twists anyway.
Jimin watches your expression quietly while you begin cleaning the injury with emergency medical supplies.
“You’re upset,” he says softly.
“You almost electrocuted yourself.”
"You're overreacting."
You glare at him through suspiciously burning eyes.
“This isn’t funny.”
His expression softens immediately afterward.
“I'm sorry.”
The gentleness in his voice hurts worse than panic did.
You wrap the burn carefully while trying very hard not to think about what almost happened.
Because if he had reacted even one second slower—
Your hands begin trembling slightly.
Jimin notices instantly.
Without hesitation, he reaches up with his uninjured hand and lightly touches your wrist.
“Hey.”
You look at him.
Exhausted.
Burned.
Still trying to comfort you instead of himself.
“You saved my life.”
The words come out smaller than intended.
Jimin’s eyes hold yours quietly for a second.
Then the corner of his mouth lifts faintly.
“Well,” he says softly, “I owe you dinner on Earth for that.”
A broken laugh escapes you before you can stop it.
Emotion crashes painfully behind it.
“You are unbelievable.”
Your vision blurs slightly from sheer overwhelmed exhaustion and relief and something dangerously close to heartbreak.
Jimin watches you carefully.
Then quieter now:
“We’re getting home.”
The certainty in his voice feels different this time.
Not blind optimism.
Promise.
Outside the damaged station, Earth turns endlessly beneath darkness while two astronauts sit surrounded by smoke and failing systems and impossible odds.
Still choosing each other anyway.
The station feels haunted after the fire.
Although exhaustion and lack of sleep still leave both of you occasionally staring too long into dark corridors expecting movement that never comes.
But something about the damaged module changes afterward.
The walls carry the smell of burned wiring permanently now. Emergency lights pulse weakly through drifting smoke residue while entire sections of the station remain dark and silent beyond the compartments both of you still have access to.
Every sound feels temporary.
Every functioning system feels borrowed.
Still, both of you keep working.
Because surviving space leaves no room for emotional collapse.
Not for long, anyway.
The reserve oxygen system stabilizes overnight, giving both of you enough breathable air for several more days if consumption remains carefully controlled. It is not comfortable survival. The air tastes metallic and dry from old filtration units while temperature regulation barely functions anymore.
But you are alive.
And right now, alive is enough.
You float beside the central systems console early the next orbital morning while manually rerouting emergency communications through damaged relay hardware. Nearby, Jimin works one handed despite the burn injury wrapped across part of his palm.
You already yelled at him twice about overusing it.
He ignored you twice.
The station rotates slowly through orbital sunrise outside the fractured observation panels. Gold light spills weakly across damaged corridors while Earth emerges beneath darkness again, massive and heartbreakingly beautiful through cracked glass.
You used to think space looked peaceful.
Now you understand it better.
Space is not peaceful.
It is simply indifferent.
“Try channel six again,” Jimin says quietly while reconnecting another panel near the navigation systems.
You switch frequencies manually.
Static answers immediately.
Again.
Nothing.
Your stomach sinks harder with every failed attempt.
The communication screens work now.
That part took almost six straight hours to restore after the debris collision.
The monitors flicker normally. Signal pathways respond. Internal station systems partially reconnect across emergency power reserves.
But there is still no outbound signal reaching Earth.
No confirmation mission control can hear you.
No rescue updates.
No voices.
Just silence.
You lean back against the console tiredly.
“Maybe the transmission array is too damaged.”
Jimin shakes his head slightly without looking up.
“No. The signal should still bounce through emergency relay satellites.”
“Unless the missile debris destroyed those too.”
The possibility settles heavily between both of you.
Because orbital collisions this severe create chaos across surrounding infrastructure for days. Maybe longer.
Jimin finally glances toward you.
“We keep trying.”
You nod slowly.
Because what else can you do?
Hours pass inside routines that almost begin resembling normalcy again.
Repair.
Diagnostics.
Battery preservation.
Repeated transmission attempts toward Earth that dissolve endlessly into static.
The familiarity becomes dangerous.
Like your brain wants to believe survival alone means safety.
But every few hours reality crashes back into place again.
The one seat.
The damaged escape pod remains docked near the lower station ring exactly where you left it after restoring partial navigation controls. One functioning restraint system. One atmospheric reentry harness.
One person.
Not two.
The problem sits between both of you constantly now even when nobody says it aloud.
You notice Jimin staring too long at descent calculations.
He notices you avoiding rescue probability estimates entirely.
Neither of you brings up sacrifice anymore.
Because both of you already know how that conversation ends.
The station lighting flickers suddenly around midday.
You sigh immediately.
“I’m starting to take that personally.”
Jimin laughs softly from across the module.
“You say that about every mechanical failure.”
“Because they’re attacking me specifically.”
“You do have aggressive engineer energy.”
“I don’t even know what that means.”
“It means I saw you threaten a navigation panel yesterday.”
“It was underperforming.”
His smile appears briefly before fading again into concentration.
You study him quietly afterward.
The exhaustion beneath his eyes has deepened over the past two days despite how hard he tries hiding it. The burn injury clearly hurts more than he admits too. Every few movements, tension flashes across his expression before disappearing almost immediately.
Still working.
Still focused.
Still somehow making space feel survivable simply by existing beside you.
The realization scares you more now.
Because loving someone in orbit feels terrifyingly fragile.
You push away from the console before your thoughts spiral too far and float toward the archive terminal instead.
“What are you doing?” Jimin asks.
“Looking for station blueprints.”
“You already memorized half the station.”
“I’m looking for things we missed.”
He watches you carefully for a second.
Then returns quietly to repairs.
The station archive system responds slowly under emergency power limitations. Corrupted files flicker constantly while older engineering records load piece by piece across the damaged monitor.
Most of it is useless.
Maintenance reports.
Docking procedures.
Obsolete hardware schematics.
Then suddenly—
You freeze.
Your eyes narrow toward the screen.
Wait.
A partially corrupted archive file loads beneath the older station infrastructure map.
RADIATION SHELTER MODULE.
Your pulse stumbles instantly.
“What?”
Jimin notices your expression immediately.
You zoom closer toward the file.
The radiation shelter module was part of the station’s original emergency design decades earlier before upgrades replaced most long duration survival systems. During severe solar storm events, astronauts could temporarily shelter inside reinforced sections equipped with independent life support and minimal propulsion capabilities.
Not escape pods exactly.
More like survival capsules.
Your breathing quickens slightly.
“Jimin.”
He pushes away from the repair panel immediately.
“What happened?”
You turn the monitor toward him.
His eyes scan rapidly across the file.
Then widen slowly.
“No way.”
The shelter module sits hidden behind a sealed maintenance corridor beneath the station’s lower structure.
Independent oxygen reserves.
Manual propulsion thrusters.
Basic atmospheric shielding.
Small.
Cramped.
Not designed for long travel.
But technically capable of orbital transfer maneuvers.
Your brain begins moving faster instantly.
“If the propulsion still works…”
Jimin catches on immediately.
“We could use the escape pod for controlled descent guidance.”
“And the shelter module for additional life support mass.”
His eyes sharpen further.
“We dock them together.”
Your pulse climbs rapidly.
The idea sounds insane.
Dangerously improvised.
Nothing about it falls within approved mission survival procedures.
But survival procedures stopped mattering the second a missile tore your station apart.
You turn back toward the archive schematics quickly.
“The shelter was designed for temporary occupancy during radiation storms. That means reinforced thermal shielding already exists.”
“And if we reroute auxiliary power from the pod…”
“We might stabilize atmospheric entry long enough for two people.”
Silence floods the compartment afterward.
Because both of you understand what this means.
A possibility.
Tiny.
Risky.
But real.
Not one person surviving.
Both.
Jimin stares at the screen for several seconds before laughing softly in disbelief.
“You just found us another way home.”
Emotion crashes unexpectedly through your chest.
Not relief exactly.
Hope.
Hope feels more dangerous somehow.
Because hope means there is suddenly something to lose again.
You look toward him slowly.
“We’d have to manually stabilize reentry together.”
“I know.”
“The module was never tested for combined descent loads.”
“I know.”
“There’s a very real chance this completely fails.”
Jimin steps closer toward the terminal until only a small space remains between both of you in the dim emergency lighting.
Then quietly:
“But there’s also a chance it works.”
The way he says works feels unbearably gentle.
Like he is talking about more than surviving now.
Your eyes burn suddenly from exhaustion and adrenaline and the terrifying possibility that maybe the universe is not done with both of you yet.
Jimin studies your face softly.
Then the corner of his mouth lifts slightly.
“Also,” he adds quietly, “if we survive this, I’m expecting a ridiculously expensive dinner.”
A breathless laugh escapes you instantly.
“In what world are astronauts rich?”
“In the world where you emotionally owe me after almost getting me electrocuted.”
“You chose to do that.”
“And I remain committed to the consequences.”
You shake your head weakly while smiling despite yourself.
God.
You love him.
The realization arrives suddenly this time.
Clear.
Certain.
Not hidden beneath fear or adrenaline or near death confessions.
Just truth.
You love Park Jimin somewhere above Earth inside a dying space station while both of you desperately search for impossible ways home.
And somehow, impossibly, he looks at you like he feels the exact same way.
The station finally goes quiet sometime after orbital midnight.
The damaged structure still groans softly around both of you every few minutes while failing systems struggle against limited power reserves. Emergency lights continue flickering weakly through narrow corridors and half the station remains dead beyond the modules you managed to stabilize.
Earth still turns impossibly far beneath you.
The risk of dying here still exists in every breath.
But for the first time in days, there is a plan.
You and Jimin spend nearly fourteen straight hours preparing the radiation shelter module for possible descent integration with the damaged escape pod. Every system requires manual rewiring. Every propulsion sequence must be recalculated by hand because none of this was ever designed for two people trying to survive catastrophic orbital failure.
Your shoulders ache from exhaustion.
Your hands shake occasionally from fatigue.
Jimin’s burn injury keeps worsening no matter how much he insists it is manageable.
Still, neither of you stops.
By the time the last diagnostic sequence finishes, the station clocks read 02:13.
Artificial night.
Artificial silence.
You sit floating near the observation module afterward too exhausted to move for several long minutes. The curved glass panel beside you reveals Earth glowing beneath darkness in endless blues and silver cloud systems touched faintly by moonlight.
Beautiful enough to hurt.
Your body feels heavy despite zero gravity.
Jimin drifts into the compartment a few minutes later carrying two reheated drink packets from the emergency food storage.
“That legally qualifies as tea if we lower our standards enough,” he says quietly.
You accept the floating pouch with tired fingers.
“It tastes like warm battery acid.”
“Luxury battery acid.”
A weak laugh escapes you.
Jimin settles beside you near the observation glass afterward. Your knees brush lightly in zero gravity while silence wraps softly around both of you.
Outside the station window, lightning storms flicker silently across one side of Earth’s atmosphere. Entire continents glow faintly beneath drifting darkness.
You stare too long.
Jimin notices.
“You’re doing the existential staring thing again.”
You smile faintly against the drink pouch.
“I think space permanently altered my brain chemistry.”
“It definitely altered your patience levels.”
“I was never patient.”
“That’s true. You threatened a screwdriver during training once.”
“It knew what it did.”
His laughter fills the quiet compartment softly.
The sound settles somewhere deep inside your chest.
For a while, neither of you says anything afterward.
You simply exist beside each other while orbit carries the station endlessly above Earth.
And slowly, exhaustion begins peeling away the emotional walls both of you spent months carefully maintaining.
You glance toward him eventually.
Jimin already looks back.
The eye contact lingers this time.
Longer than normal.
Long enough that something shifts quietly between both of you again.
Because suddenly you realize this might be the first moment since the debris collision where neither of you is actively fighting to survive.
No alarms screaming.
No fires.
No failing oxygen.
Just silence.
And him.
Jimin studies your face softly in the dim station lighting.
“You know something terrifying?”
You raise an eyebrow slightly.
“What?”
“I think this is the longest you’ve ever sat still.”
You roll your eyes.
“I’m exhausted.”
“Mhm.”
“And emotionally traumatized.”
“That too.”
The corner of his mouth lifts faintly.
Then his expression softens afterward.
“I’m glad you’re here,” he says quietly.
The words hit harder than they should.
Maybe because nothing feels casual in space anymore.
Not after almost losing each other fifteen different ways.
You lower your eyes briefly toward your hands.
“You almost died because of me twice this week.”
“Three times technically.”
You shake your head weakly.
Then whisper before you can stop yourself:
“I was so scared.”
Jimin goes still.
The vulnerability in your voice changes something instantly.
Your throat burns suddenly with exhaustion and emotion.
“When the station exploded…” You swallow hard. “I thought I lost you.”
The confession hangs heavily in the quiet module.
Jimin watches you carefully.
Then very slowly reaches toward your hand floating beside you.
His fingers slide between yours gently.
“You didn’t,” he says softly.
Something inside you breaks a little anyway.
Because almost feels unbearable too.
You stare at your joined hands for several seconds before finally looking back toward him.
He is so close tonight.
Close enough to see exhaustion beneath his eyes.
Close enough to notice the tiny scar you never stopped thinking about after training.
Close enough that your breathing begins changing again.
Jimin notices immediately.
His thumb brushes slowly against your hand.
The movement feels devastatingly intimate in the silence.
“You know what the worst part about all this is?” he asks quietly.
You shake your head slightly.
“I spent my entire life loving space.” His eyes drift briefly toward Earth outside the glass. “I thought if I ever died up here, at least it would happen somewhere beautiful.”
Your chest aches hearing that.
Jimin’s voice lowers further.
“But when everything started falling apart…” His gaze returns slowly to yours. “I wasn’t thinking about stars.”
Your heartbeat stumbles.
“I was thinking about how badly I wanted more time with you.”
The air leaves your lungs completely.
For a second, neither of you moves.
The station hums softly around you while Earth glows endlessly outside the glass and somewhere in the middle of orbit your entire world narrows down to the way Park Jimin is looking at you.
Like you matter more than fear.
More than space.
More than survival itself.
You don’t realize you’re crying until he lifts his free hand toward your face carefully.
His fingertips brush softly beneath your eye catching the tear before it drifts away in zero gravity.
The tenderness of it nearly ruins you.
“If I die here, I don’t want my last memory to be fear,” he whispers.
Emotion climbs painfully into your throat.
Your voice comes out smaller than intended.
“What do you want it to be?”
Jimin’s hand remains against your face.
Warm.
Careful.
Like touching you still feels precious somehow even after everything.
Then quietly, impossibly honestly:
“You.”
The word destroys whatever distance still existed between both of you.
You kiss him before your brain fully catches up.
And maybe that sounds reckless.
Maybe it is reckless.
But after days trapped between survival and death and longing and almost losing him over and over again, the kiss feels less like a decision and more like finally breathing after nearly drowning.
Jimin responds instantly.
Like he has been holding himself back for too long too.
His hand slides gently into your hair while your bodies drift closer together weightlessly inside the observation module.
Careful mouths learning each other through exhaustion and relief and everything both of you never said aloud before now.
Then emotion crashes harder.
Your fingers grip the front of his flight suit instinctively as he pulls you closer against him.
The lack of gravity changes everything.
There is no grounding.
No stable floor beneath you.
Only his body anchoring yours in the middle of endless orbit while the station lights flicker softly around both of you.
The kiss deepens slowly after that.
The kind of kiss shared by two people who genuinely thought they might die before getting the chance to say what they felt.
You can taste exhaustion and recycled air and relief.
Jimin kisses you like he is trying to memorize you.
Like he is terrified this moment could still disappear.
And maybe that is exactly what makes it beautiful.
Your forehead rests against his afterward while both of you breathe unevenly in the dim observation module.
Neither of you pulls away completely.
You stay tangled together floating gently beside Earthlight pouring through the curved glass.
Jimin closes his eyes briefly against yours.
Then whispers softly enough that it almost disappears into the silence:
“I love you.”
The words hit harder than the collision ever did.
Because somewhere along the way, you already knew.
You touch his face carefully.
The burn near his hand.
The exhaustion beneath his eyes.
The boy who searched for his mother in the stars and somehow found you instead.
And with Earth glowing beneath both of you like something fragile and temporary, you finally whisper back the truth that had been living inside your chest for weeks now.
“I love you too.”
Outside the station window, the world keeps turning.
But inside the silence of orbit, for one impossible moment, it feels like time stops just for both of you.
The warning arrives thirty seven minutes after you kiss him.
Thirty seven minutes after Park Jimin tells you he loves you while Earth glows beneath both of you.
Thirty seven minutes after you begin believing survival might actually be possible.
The universe does not care.
The station alarms ignite suddenly across every remaining operational module.
Violent.
Sharp.
The sound tears through the quiet observation room hard enough to make both of you jerk apart instinctively.
Jimin pushes immediately toward the systems console while you grab the nearest stabilizer rail to stop your drifting momentum in zero gravity.
“What happened?”
The emergency monitors flicker rapidly across the screen.
At first, the data barely makes sense.
Radiation spike detection.
Solar activity surge.
Magnetosphere disruption warning.
Then your blood turns cold.
Jimin stares at the monitor silently for half a second too long.
That silence terrifies you more than the alarms.
“What is it?”
His face loses color slowly as he continues reading the incoming emergency telemetry finally reconnecting through weakened orbital relays.
Then quietly:
“There’s been a solar eruption.”
Your stomach drops instantly.
“How bad?”
Jimin’s eyes lift toward you.
And suddenly you know.
Before he even speaks.
You know.
Because astronauts spend years training for orbital fires, decompression failures, mechanical breakdowns, oxygen loss.
But solar radiation events remain different.
A catastrophic coronal mass ejection strong enough to hit exposed astronauts with lethal radiation within minutes if shielding fails.
The kind of event space agencies build entire emergency protocols around.
The kind your father used to mention during interviews with the same careful tone people use discussing natural disasters.
Rare.
But terrifying when they happen.
The alarms continue screaming throughout the station.
Estimated impact: twenty one minutes.
Your pulse stumbles violently.
“The shelter.”
The words leave your mouth immediately.
Because both of you already know.
The old radiation shelter module.
The reinforced chamber beneath the station originally designed for solar storm protection decades earlier.
You push away from the console instantly.
“Come on.”
Jimin does not move.
Something about that freezes you immediately.
“What?”
His eyes drop briefly toward the monitor again.
Then toward you.
The silence stretches too long.
Your stomach twists.
“Jimin.”
The way he finally looks at you afterward nearly destroys you before he even speaks.
The shelter module was never designed for permanent habitation.
Only temporary emergency protection.
Small space.
Minimal oxygen.
Minimal shielding range.
Enough protection for one astronaut during short duration radiation exposure.
One.
Not two.
Your body goes cold instantly.
“No.”
Jimin finally moves then.
Fast.
Purposeful.
Already heading toward the lower maintenance corridor leading beneath the station.
You follow immediately.
“No.”
Your voice shakes this time.
“You said we could use it for descent support.”
His silence answers you anyway.
The station lights flicker violently overhead while emergency warnings pulse across every corridor.
SOLAR IMPACT IMMINENT.
Estimated arrival: eighteen minutes.
You grab his arm hard enough to stop his movement through zero gravity.
“We’ll both fit.”
His expression changes instantly.
“Y/N.”
“No.”
You hate how desperate your voice sounds now.
You hate that fear is already climbing into your throat because somewhere deep inside yourself, you realize exactly what he is thinking.
“We can share oxygen reserves.”
“The radiation shielding won’t hold for two.”
“You don’t know that.”
“I do.”
The certainty in his voice breaks something inside you.
You follow him through the narrow maintenance corridors anyway while panic crashes harder through your chest with every passing second.
“No.”
The word keeps leaving your mouth uselessly.
Like repetition alone might rewrite reality.
“We’ll figure something else out.”
“There isn’t time.”
“There has to be.”
“Y/N.”
“You don’t get to decide this!”
The station groans faintly around both of you while distant warning sirens continue echoing through damaged corridors.
Seventeen minutes.
Sixteen.
Your breathing grows uneven.
Because you know him now.
You know the exact kind of person Park Jimin is.
The kind who would burn his own hand without hesitation to save you.
The kind who would transfer oxygen knowing it endangered him.
The kind who loves quietly and completely and without ever asking what it costs him in return.
And suddenly terror floods through you for an entirely different reason.
He already decided.
The realization nearly knocks the air from your lungs.
The shelter hatch appears at the end of the lower corridor moments later.
Small.
Reinforced.
Barely large enough for one person seated inside.
The sight of it makes your vision blur instantly.
“No.”
Jimin moves toward the control panel quickly while emergency systems begin activating automatically around the chamber.
Radiation shielding online.
Life support active.
Occupancy limit: one.
You physically shove him away from the controls.
“Stop!”
Your voice cracks violently through the corridor.
“We are not doing this!”
Jimin grabs your wrists before you can hit the override panel again.
“Listen to me.”
“No!”
Tears finally spill freely down your face now.
You do not even notice them floating away in zero gravity.
“We can survive this together.”
He looks at you like you are breaking his heart too.
“That shelter only has enough lead lined protection for one body mass safely inside.”
“We’ll risk it.”
“I’m not risking you.”
The words hit like physical pain.
Your breathing turns ragged instantly.
“You think I care about surviving if you die?”
Something shatters visibly across his expression hearing that.
For one horrible second, he almost looks uncertain.
Then the station alarms pulse louder.
SOLAR IMPACT ETA: THIRTEEN MINUTES.
Reality crashes back into place again.
Jimin closes his eyes briefly.
And when he opens them again, the decision is already made.
“No matter what happens,” he says quietly, “you are going home.”
Your entire body shakes now.
“Please.”
The word leaves you broken.
Small.
Nothing like yourself.
You hate it.
But you cannot stop.
“You promised me we were both coming home.”
Jimin’s hands slide carefully against your face.
Warm despite the freezing station.
His forehead rests lightly against yours while both of you drift in the dim emergency lighting surrounded by screaming alarms and dying systems and the unbearable reality of time running out.
“You know what my mother used to say?”
You cannot answer.
Tears blur everything now.
“She said loving someone means wanting them to see every tomorrow you won’t get.”
His voice almost breaks on the last word.
That hurts worst of all.
Because Park Jimin is still trying to comfort you while preparing to die.
You grip the front of his flight suit desperately.
“I love you.”
The confession leaves your mouth like prayer.
Like pleading.
Like maybe love itself could still save him somehow.
Jimin smiles then.
And somehow that smile makes everything infinitely worse.
Because it is not scared.
Not angry.
Just full of love.
Pure devastating love.
“I love you too,” he whispers softly.
The station trembles faintly beneath another wave of solar interference.
Ten minutes.
Jimin kisses you before you can speak again.
The kind of kiss people give when they are trying to memorize each other forever.
You can taste tears.
Feel his shaking breath against your mouth.
His hands tremble slightly where they hold your face and that destroys you because it means he is afraid too.
He is just choosing you anyway.
You cling to him desperately.
Trying to hold on.
Trying to stop time.
Trying to somehow physically prevent what is happening.
But space does not care about love stories.
The kiss breaks slowly.
Painfully.
Jimin rests his forehead against yours one final time.
Then quietly says:
“Stay alive for me.”
Before you realize what he is doing, he suddenly pushes you backward toward the shelter entrance.
Your stomach drops instantly.
“Jimin—”
The hatch seals the second you stumble inside.
Heavy reinforced locks slam shut automatically.
“No!”
You throw yourself against the thick glass window immediately.
Your palms hit the barrier hard.
“Open it!”
Jimin remains outside the shelter breathing unevenly in the flashing red emergency lights.
You can still hear each other through internal comms.
He reaches toward the external control panel calmly despite your screaming.
“Jimin, please!”
His eyes close briefly hearing your voice break apart.
Then he looks at you again.
Smiling.
The sight destroys you.
Because he looks exactly like the boy who floated hot tea toward your station window pretending not to notice you crying over Earth.
Exactly like the boy who teased you through training simulations.
Exactly like the man who kissed you like he wanted forever.
“I need you to listen carefully now,” he says softly.
You slam your fists against the glass again.
“I can't!”
“You’re going to get home.”
“I don’t care!”
“Yes you do.”
“I don’t want Earth without you!”
The words echo violently through the tiny shelter chamber.
Jimin’s smile falters finally.
Just slightly.
Enough for you to see how much this is costing him too.
Then softly:
“You once told me you joined this program because you spent your whole life trying to outrun your father’s shadow.”
Tears blur your vision completely.
“You don’t have to prove anything anymore.”
Your chest feels like it is collapsing inward.
“You already became someone extraordinary.”
The station alarms intensify.
SOLAR IMPACT ETA: FOUR MINUTES.
Radiation warnings flood every remaining screen.
Jimin glances briefly toward the failing corridor lights before looking back at you one final time.
And suddenly he looks impossibly young.
Not astronaut.
Not mission specialist.
Just Jimin.
The boy who searched the universe for something worth staying alive for.
And found you.
“I was never scared of dying in space,” he admits quietly.
Your breath catches painfully.
“I was only scared I’d never get the chance to love someone this much.”
A sound breaks from your throat that does not even feel human anymore.
You press both hands desperately against the glass separating you from him.
He mirrors the gesture slowly from the other side.
Palm against palm.
Almost touching.
Not enough.
Never enough.
The emergency lights flash violently red across his face while Earth glows faintly through the ruined station behind him.
Beautiful.
Cruel.
Unforgettable.
“I love you,” he whispers.
Then the external communication systems begin failing under solar interference.
Static tears through the connection violently.
You scream his name anyway.
Over and over.
Begging.
Crying.
Hitting the sealed shelter door until your hands ache.
But outside the reinforced glass, Park Jimin only keeps smiling softly at you through the collapsing station lights.
Like he wants the last thing you remember to be love instead of fear.
Chapter 5 — May 24, 10PM (PH Time)
A/N: Beyond Earth is already completed and available in full on my Ko-fi for readers who want early access to the entire story ♡
Sypnosis: She never dreamed of space. If anything, she spent most of her life resenting it.
Y/N is the daughter of a legendary astronaut the world still mourns, a man remembered for the stars while his family learned how to live with his absence. To everyone else, he was history. To her, he was every birthday missed and every empty seat at home.
Joining the international space program was never about passion. It was about proving she could survive the same sky that took him away.
Then she meets Park Jimin.
A former pilot turned mission specialist, Jimin is everything she isn’t—warm, patient, endlessly easy to love. While she keeps people at a distance, he somehow slips past every wall she builds.
They compete. They clash. They slowly become inseparable.
Until a catastrophic mission failure leaves them stranded beyond Earth with failing systems, no rescue in sight, and impossible choices waiting in the dark between stars.
Because in space, survival always costs something.
And not everyone gets to come home.
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Chapter 2
The first few days in orbit pass with terrifying precision.
Every hour aboard the Artemis spacecraft is scheduled down to individual minutes. Mission control sends updated timelines constantly while diagnostics stream endlessly across surrounding monitors. Sleep cycles, oxygen regulation, orbital adjustments, repair sequencing, equipment maintenance. Nothing is left to chance.
You quickly learn that space is less romantic than people imagine.
Beautiful, yes.
But mostly technical.
Human survival up here depends entirely on routines done correctly every single time.
As flight engineer, your responsibilities consume almost every waking moment from the second orbital operations officially begin. System integrity checks become muscle memory within hours. You monitor thermal controls, communication pathways, power distribution grids, propulsion calibration, navigation synchronization. Every blinking warning light immediately pulls your attention toward worst case scenarios before your brain even consciously catches up.
There is comfort in the work.
For the first time in years, your mind becomes quiet simply because there is no room left for anything unnecessary.
No grief.
No comparisons.
No memories waiting downstairs after midnight.
Only tasks.
Only numbers.
Only survival.
Beside you, Jimin settles naturally into his role as mission specialist like he was built for this environment from the beginning. He handles orbital repair coordination, EVA preparation, external diagnostics, mission communication procedures. Watching him work in zero gravity feels unfairly mesmerizing sometimes.
Even floating upside down halfway through equipment inspections, he still somehow looks calm. Controlled. Annoyingly beautiful beneath soft instrument lighting.
The spacecraft itself becomes its own strange little world after several days in orbit.
The constant low hum of onboard systems eventually fades into background noise your brain stops registering completely.
Weightlessness begins feeling less unnatural too. Your body slowly adapts to drifting instead of walking, learning how to stabilize movements carefully without accidentally launching yourself across the cabin every time you reach for something.
Jimin adapts faster than you.
Obviously.
“You move through space like a confused shopping cart,” he tells you during your third morning onboard after watching you bounce gently off a storage panel.
You glare at him while grabbing onto a support rail.
“At least I don’t flirt with mission control operators out of boredom.”
“I was being friendly.”
“You called the communications officer pretty.”
“She has incredible bone structure.”
“You’re unbelievable.”
“And yet you kissed me anyway.”
That shuts you up instantly.
Jimin smiles victoriously before pushing himself effortlessly toward the next workstation while you try very hard not to stare at the way his shirt lifts slightly from his waist in zero gravity.
Space is becoming a problem for entirely different reasons now.
The repair mission itself begins smoothly during orbital day four.
The damaged communications array sits several kilometers from the primary station platform, rotating slowly against the endless darkness of space like abandoned machinery drifting through eternity.
Mission control estimates five days maximum before the damage begins affecting broader lunar relay operations.
Five days to repair a system worth billions.
Five days suspended above Earth relying entirely on each other.
No pressure.
The first EVA prep morning arrives quietly.
You float beside the engineering station reviewing final repair schematics while Jimin runs external maneuver calibrations nearby.
Neither of you speaks much because both of you know this part matters.
Outside the observation panels, Earth glows brilliantly beneath sunlight while stars remain sharp and endless beyond it.
You glance toward the mission timer again.
Thirty seven minutes until deployment.
Jimin notices immediately.
“You’re overthinking.”
You keep reviewing diagnostics.
“I’m literally an engineer. That’s my job.”
“You checked the same panel six times.”
“Seven.”
“That’s worse.”
Despite yourself, a smile pulls briefly at your mouth.
Jimin sees it instantly.
His expression softens afterward.
Then more quietly:
“You know you’re allowed to trust yourself now, right?”
The words settle unexpectedly deep.
Because trust has always been difficult for you.
Trusting people.
Trusting success.
Trusting happiness enough to stop preparing for it to disappear.
You finally glance toward him.
“I do trust myself.”
Jimin raises one eyebrow slowly.
“You color coded repair manuals.”
“That’s called organization.”
“You highlighted the highlights.”
“That was strategic.”
His laughter fills the cabin softly.
Warm enough that something inside your chest loosens immediately.
That has become the dangerous thing about Jimin lately.
He calms you without trying.
Like your nervous system learned him accidentally.
The actual repair work is exhausting from the very beginning.
Hours disappear into orbital maneuver calculations and external systems stabilization while both of you work in synchronized routines refined through months of training together. Every movement outside the spacecraft requires precision because mistakes in orbit are unforgiving in ways Earth never is.
You become hyperaware of each other constantly.
Jimin’s breathing through comm systems during EVA procedures.
The exact timing of his responses during external diagnostics.
The way he always checks your tether connection twice even when protocol only requires once.
Nobody tells you how intimate survival becomes in space.
How much trust it requires to place your life physically in another person’s hands.
Back inside the spacecraft after nearly eleven straight hours of repair operations, exhaustion settles heavily through your body.
Your shoulders ache.
Your hands feel numb from repeated calibration work.
You float tiredly toward the food storage compartment while Jimin removes external equipment restraints nearby.
“Please tell me we have real food left,” you mumble.
Jimin immediately looks offended.
“Excuse you. Space cuisine is an art form.”
“You ate cold tortillas wrapped around scrambled eggs yesterday.”
“And I enjoyed every bite.”
The food situation onboard becomes increasingly tragic the longer you stay in orbit.
Packets of dehydrated soup.
Vacuum sealed vegetables.
Compressed protein cubes somehow engineered to taste simultaneously salty and disappointing.
Coffee pouches floating through the cabin like emotional support beverages.
Nothing smells normal in space either because fluid distribution changes affect your senses in zero gravity. Most foods require extra seasoning just to taste halfway recognizable.
You spend ten minutes fighting with a floating packet of spicy rice before giving up entirely.
“This is inhumane.”
Jimin drifts beside you carrying his own meal pouch.
“You’re just weak.”
“I miss noodles.”
“I miss gravity.”
You sigh dramatically before squeezing another bite from the packet.
The rice immediately floats sideways toward the ventilation system.
“Oh my God.”
Jimin bursts into laughter watching you chase escaping grains through the air.
“You’re so terrible at this.”
“You’re not helping.”
“I’m helping emotionally.”
“You’re watching me lose a fight against dinner.”
“And you’re losing badly.”
Eventually he reaches over gently, catches the drifting food packet with one hand, then steadies you lightly by the waist before the two of you accidentally collide against the storage wall.
The laughter softens slowly afterward.
Neither of you pulls away right away.
Floating this close to him in the dim cabin lighting feels strangely dangerous now.
Jimin still smiles at you the same way.
Still teases you constantly.
Still looks at you like you are simultaneously impressive and impossible.
But now there is something else underneath all of it too.
Something that feels terrifyingly close to love.
His hand remains lightly against your waist for another second before he finally lets go.
“You know,” he says softly, “for someone who claims not to like space, you’re adapting suspiciously well.”
You look down at the food packet between both of you.
“I think I just stopped feeling alone up here.”
The words slip out honestly before you can stop them.
Jimin goes still for a moment.
Then his expression changes into something unbearably gentle.
“You were never alone,” he says quietly.
Emotion rises unexpectedly in your throat.
Outside the observation panels, Earth turns slowly beneath endless stars while the spacecraft drifts silently through orbit.
And somewhere between repair schedules and floating food packets and exhausted midnight conversations, space begins transforming into something you never expected it could become.
Home.
You and Jimin spend most of the morning outside the spacecraft continuing repair operations along the damaged communications array while Earth glows brilliantly below. The orbital sunrise had passed less than twenty minutes earlier, washing the station in gold light so bright it almost hurt through your visor.
Mission control sounded relaxed during the morning briefing.
Repair progress ahead of schedule.
External systems stabilizing.
One final calibration sequence before relay testing.
Everything normal.
Everything smooth.
You float beside the array carefully reconnecting thermal routing panels while diagnostic streams scroll across your wrist display. Nearby, Jimin secures a stabilizer arm several meters away, movements controlled and familiar after days working together in orbit.
The two of you have developed an almost frightening rhythm up here.
You barely need full instructions anymore.
Half finished sentences.
Small gestures.
Breathing patterns through comm systems.
Your bodies learned each other’s timing somewhere between survival and routine.
“You missed breakfast again,” Jimin says through comms while tightening the final lock on the stabilizer panel.
“I had coffee.”
“That’s not breakfast.”
“It emotionally counts.”
“That’s not how nutrition works.”
You smile faintly inside your helmet while reconnecting another cable line.
“You sound like my mother.”
“She sounds intelligent.”
“She’d love you.”
The words leave your mouth accidentally.
Silence follows instantly.
Your stomach drops.
Because you did not mean to say that aloud.
Several meters away, Jimin goes unusually quiet.
Then softly: “Yeah?”
Heat floods your face despite the cold regulated air inside the suit.
You focus aggressively on diagnostics instead of answering immediately.
“I mean…” you mumble awkwardly. “She likes people who annoy me.”
“That’s the nicest thing you’ve ever said to me.”
You roll your eyes automatically even though he cannot see it properly through the visor.
Then suddenly—
Static cuts violently through your comm system.
Your entire body stills instantly.
The line crackles sharply in your ears before dissolving into fragmented noise.
“Hous—” static “repeat—”
You frown immediately.
“Mission control?”
No response.
Only static.
Several meters away, Jimin’s posture changes immediately too.
“Did you lose comms?”
“Yes.”
A warning pulse suddenly flashes across your wrist monitor.
Then another.
Then all external station alarms ignite at once.
Sharp.
Violent.
Every emergency sensor aboard the array begins screaming simultaneously through your suit systems.
Your pulse spikes instantly.
“What the hell is happening?”
Before Jimin can answer, mission control finally breaks through the static in shattered fragments.
“Unidentified debris field approaching station—”
The rest cuts out completely.
Your blood turns cold.
Debris.
In orbit, debris means death.
Even something the size of a screw traveling at orbital velocity can tear through metal like paper.
Then you see it.
Tiny flashes of reflected sunlight far beyond the station structure moving impossibly fast across darkness.
Too fast.
Your stomach drops instantly.
“Jimin—”
“I see it.”
His voice changes immediately.
Calm.
Focused.
“Retract tether line now.”
You move instantly, hands shaking slightly while securing equipment toward the retrieval system.
Another burst of static tears through comms.
Then finally one clear transmission reaches both of you.
Your mind cannot process the words fast enough before the first impact happens.
The explosion is soundless.
That is what makes it horrifying.
No thunder.
No warning.
Just violent destruction unfolding silently against space.
One side of the communications array erupts outward instantly as debris tears through the structure with catastrophic force. Metal panels explode into spinning fragments while entire support sections collapse away from the station in slow motion.
Your body jerks violently as shockwaves travel through connected structures.
Warning alarms scream inside your helmet.
The station lights flicker once.
Then die completely.
“Oh my God—”
Another impact hits.
Closer this time.
A massive piece of debris slams through part of the repair platform, tearing directly through external systems beside you.
The force launches your body backward instantly.
You scream involuntarily as your tether yanks hard against your harness while the destroyed platform collapses into open space around you.
“Y/N!”
Jimin’s voice cuts sharply through comms filled with static.
You spin violently through darkness, disoriented immediately as shattered debris drifts everywhere around you.
Earth flashes across your visor.
Then stars.
Then darkness again.
Your body rotates uncontrollably while alarms pulse red across your helmet display.
Tether integrity compromised.
Communications unstable.
Oxygen systems active.
Your breathing becomes ragged instantly.
“Jimin!”
No response.
Only static.
Panic crashes through your chest hard enough to feel physical.
You force yourself to stabilize manually, grabbing desperately for the tether line still attached to your suit while debris spins endlessly around you.
The station is gone.
Not fully destroyed.
But shattered.
Half the communications array drifts away in broken sections while pieces of metal tumble endlessly into orbit.
And somewhere in the middle of it—
“Y/N!”
Your head snaps sharply toward the sound.
Jimin.
Relief slams through you so suddenly your eyes burn.
He spins several meters away in open space, tether line stretched tightly between both of you as debris continues drifting violently around the destroyed station.
Your bodies rotate slowly together through orbit connected by a single cable.
Nothing else.
No stable platform.
No station beneath your feet.
Only endless space.
“Are you hurt?” he asks immediately.
You check your suit diagnostics frantically.
“No. I don’t think so.”
“Okay. Okay.”
His breathing sounds uneven now too.
Not panic.
Adrenaline.
You understand the difference now.
Your comm system crackles violently again before cutting almost completely silent.
No mission control.
No station systems.
Nothing.
“Jimin…” Your voice shakes slightly. “Comms are dead.”
He checks his systems quickly.
“I know.”
The words settle heavily between both of you.
Because silence in space is terrifying.
No guidance.
No rescue instructions.
No confirmation Earth can still hear you.
Just endless black surrounding two human beings drifting dangerously far from safety.
Your bodies continue rotating slowly together through open orbit while the destroyed station tumbles silently in the distance.
And beneath all of it—
Earth.
Beautiful.
Massive.
Terrifyingly far away.
Everything down there continues normally while your entire world has just shattered apart.
The contrast makes your chest ache.
You suddenly understand how small human beings really are.
How fragile.
Jimin grips the tether line tighter between both of you.
“Look at me.”
You do immediately.
His helmet visor reflects Earthlight softly while tension flickers visibly beneath his controlled expression.
But his voice remains steady.
“We’re okay.”
You almost laugh from fear.
“We are literally floating into open space.”
“And panicking won’t help.”
Another violent piece of debris spins past both of you close enough to make your pulse stop completely.
Instinctively, Jimin pulls the tether harder, dragging your drifting body closer toward his until only a few feet separate you in orbit.
“We stay together,” he says firmly.
Your breathing still shakes slightly inside the helmet.
Earth rotates endlessly below both of you while silence surrounds the wreckage drifting nearby.
No mission control.
No spacecraft.
No certainty anyone can even reach you now.
Only Jimin.
Connected to you by one cable in the middle of infinite darkness.
And for the first time since launch, space finally becomes terrifying again.
Your suit systems still hum faintly around you while oxygen circulates through regulated airflow and warning alerts pulse quietly beneath the chaos.
Your own breathing becomes painfully loud inside the helmet while you and Jimin drift together through orbit connected by one tether line and pure instinct.
The damaged station rotates slowly several hundred meters away now, half its structure shattered from the debris collision. Pieces of metal and broken solar panels continue drifting endlessly through space around it like the remains of something already dead.
Your pulse refuses to slow down.
You force yourself to focus on your suit display again.
Navigation unstable.
External propulsion compromised.
Oxygen levels—
Your stomach drops violently.
43%.
No.
No no no.
Your oxygen should not be falling that quickly.
You scan the diagnostics again with shaking hands before finally seeing it.
A thin fracture warning flashes near the lower right side of your suit systems.
Micro puncture damage.
One of the debris fragments must have sliced partially through your external oxygen line during the collision.
Cold fear spreads instantly through your body.
“Jimin.”
He turns toward you immediately.
“What happened?”
“My oxygen’s leaking.”
His face changes instantly behind the visor.
“How bad?”
You hesitate for half a second too long.
“Y/N.”
“Forty three percent.”
The silence afterward feels unbearable.
Because both of you understand orbital survival math perfectly.
At your current leak rate, forty three percent is not enough.
Jimin checks surrounding debris patterns quickly before looking back toward the damaged station.
“There has to be an emergency pod still intact.”
“What if there isn’t?”
“There is.”
You hear the firmness in his voice immediately.
He activates propulsion thrusters carefully and begins pulling both of you toward the station remains through controlled bursts while debris continues drifting around the wreckage.
Your breathing grows shakier the longer you stare at the oxygen countdown.
40%.
39%.
Your thoughts begin spiraling despite yourself.
Your mother.
Earth.
The piano sitting untouched in your apartment.
The stupid handwritten letter folded safely inside your storage compartment aboard the spacecraft.
Jimin’s voice cuts sharply through your panic.
“Talk to me.”
You blink hard.
“What?”
“Keep talking.”
He sounds focused now. Professional in a way you rarely hear outside simulations.
“I need you alert.”
Another piece of debris spins past nearby.
You force yourself to breathe slower.
“I hate this."
“I know.”
“I’m serious, Jimin.”
“So am I.”
He adjusts trajectory again while scanning damaged station sections for structural stability.
“You’re not dying.”
The certainty in his voice almost hurts.
Because you suddenly realize he believes it harder than you do right now.
The closer you drift toward the destroyed station, the worse the damage becomes.
Entire support sections hang broken against orbit while electrical systems spark silently into darkness. One side of the array has completely collapsed inward from impact.
It looks less like machinery now.
More like a graveyard.
Jimin stabilizes both of you against a damaged access rail near the emergency docking section before manually overriding a broken maintenance hatch.
The metal door resists at first.
Then jerks open violently.
Darkness waits inside.
Emergency lights flicker weakly somewhere deeper in the structure.
Your oxygen drops again.
35%.
Jimin sees it immediately.
His eyes darken behind the visor for one brief second before he looks away toward the interior corridor.
“We move fast.”
The inside of the damaged station feels claustrophobic compared to open orbit.
Narrow corridors.
Emergency alarms flashing red.
Loose wires floating weightlessly through darkened sections while smoke particles drift slowly in zero gravity.
Everything smells metallic through your filtration system.
Your breathing sounds worse now.
Too fast.
Your head begins aching faintly from declining oxygen levels.
Jimin notices every symptom immediately.
“Slow your breathing.”
“I’m trying.”
“Try harder.”
His tone cuts through the panic sharply enough to steady you.
You move deeper through the damaged corridor together while he manually checks emergency escape systems through portable diagnostics.
One pod destroyed.
Another unresponsive.
Another depressurized completely.
Your stomach sinks harder with every failed result.
Then finally—
“There.”
One emergency escape pod remains attached near the far docking section.
The relief nearly makes your knees weak.
Until Jimin pulls open the damaged hatch panel and both of you see the interior status lights.
Half operational.
Life support functioning.
Navigation unstable.
Only one crash seat still active.
Silence floods the corridor instantly.
No.
Your eyes scan the pod again desperately like the second seat might magically repair itself if you stare hard enough.
But the impact damage is catastrophic.
One restraint system completely destroyed.
One control harness functional.
One seat.
For a long moment, neither of you speaks.
The reality settles slowly and horribly between both of you.
Then your oxygen alarm pulses sharply again.
31%.
Jimin looks toward your display.
Then very calmly reaches toward his own suit connection port.
Your stomach drops immediately.
“What are you doing?”
He removes an auxiliary oxygen transfer line from his emergency pack.
“No.”
His eyes stay focused on the connection system.
“Jimin.”
“Your leak rate’s getting worse.”
“No.”
He grabs your suit port gently but firmly.
“You need more time.”
“You need oxygen too!”
“I have enough.”
“You don’t know that.”
His voice sharpens instantly.
“I know exactly how much I have.”
Before you can stop him, he manually locks the transfer line between your suits.
Your oxygen levels begin stabilizing slowly.
His begin dropping.
Rage crashes through your chest immediately.
You shove hard against his arm.
“What is wrong with you?”
“I’m keeping you alive.”
“You can’t just decide that!”
“I absolutely can.”
“Jimin!”
Your voice cracks violently through the corridor.
For the first time since the collision, fear finally explodes out of you fully.
“You are not sacrificing yourself for me!”
The words echo harshly through the damaged station.
Jimin goes still for half a second.
Then suddenly his entire expression changes.
The same terrifying calm instructors used to praise during high pressure simulations.
He grabs both your shoulders firmly through the suit restraints.
“Listen to me carefully.”
The tone shocks you into silence instantly.
His eyes lock onto yours through the visor.
“You are a flight engineer. Which means right now I need you thinking like one.”
Your breathing stutters unevenly.
Jimin continues quickly.
“We have partial power. Partial navigation. Partial oxygen. That means this situation is survivable if we stop emotionally collapsing for five minutes.”
The bluntness snaps through your panic hard enough to clear your head slightly.
“You understand me?”
You stare at him.
Then slowly nod.
“Good.”
He immediately releases you and turns toward the damaged pod systems.
“Now help me.”
Something inside your brain finally shifts back into training.
Into procedure.
Into work.
You wipe quickly beneath your eyes even though the tears never fully formed in zero gravity anyway.
Then move beside him toward the exposed navigation panel.
Jimin works beside you with terrifying efficiency while debris continues colliding softly against the damaged station exterior somewhere beyond the walls.
Your oxygen stabilizes slightly from the transfer line.
His drops gradually instead.
You notice every percentage decrease.
He notices you noticing.
“Eyes on the navigation system,” he says firmly.
You hate him a little for sounding calm.
And love him terrifyingly for the exact same reason.
Minutes blur together while both of you work desperately through emergency repairs.
Then finally—
A flicker of life pulses through the pod systems.
Navigation partially restored.
Entry controls functional.
The pod hums softly as emergency power activates across the interior.
Relief floods your chest instantly.
Until reality crashes back again.
One seat.
Only one functioning restraint system.
Your eyes drift slowly toward Jimin.
He already knows what you are thinking.
The silence between both of you becomes unbearable.
Chapter 4
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Sypnosis: She never dreamed of space. If anything, she spent most of her life resenting it.
Y/N is the daughter of a legendary astronaut the world still mourns, a man remembered for the stars while his family learned how to live with his absence. To everyone else, he was history. To her, he was every birthday missed and every empty seat at home.
Joining the international space program was never about passion. It was about proving she could survive the same sky that took him away.
Then she meets Park Jimin.
A former pilot turned mission specialist, Jimin is everything she isn’t—warm, patient, endlessly easy to love. While she keeps people at a distance, he somehow slips past every wall she builds.
They compete. They clash. They slowly become inseparable.
Until a catastrophic mission failure leaves them stranded beyond Earth with failing systems, no rescue in sight, and impossible choices waiting in the dark between stars.
Because in space, survival always costs something.
And not everyone gets to come home.
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Chapter 1
Chapter 2
By the time dinner rolls around, the training facility cafeteria is louder than usual.
Because exhaustion has started turning into a kind of chaotic energy. People laugh too loudly at things that are not that funny. Chairs scrape across the floor more often than they should. Forks clatter against trays in uneven rhythm like nobody can fully settle into stillness after a full day of simulations.
You and Jimin end up at your usual table without discussing it.
It has become automatic now, the way both of you drift toward the same place like it is the least complicated option available.
You sit down across from him with your tray, noticing immediately how he already looks half asleep but still somehow alert enough to be watching everything happening around the room at the same time.
He glances up when you arrive.
“Late,” he says.
“I had to survive an instructor who thinks yelling improves oxygen consumption.”
“That sounds like a personal problem.”
You sit down and begin eating without responding, pretending not to notice how naturally this has started feeling. How sitting across from him is no longer something you think about.
It just happens.
Somewhere across the cafeteria, a group of candidates laugh too loudly at something on a phone. A few tables over, someone drops a tray and curses under their breath. The normal chaos of shared exhaustion fills the space between everyone.
Then a voice cuts through it.
“Jimin.”
You do not look up immediately.
There is a shift in the air when people approach him. Not obvious, but noticeable if you have been paying attention long enough.
A woman from the advanced pilot cohort walks up to your table with an easy confidence, the kind that comes from knowing she will not be ignored. She is smiling already before she even reaches him.
“I saved you a seat earlier,” she says, leaning slightly closer than necessary.
Jimin swallows a bite of food before responding.
“That is impressive considering I was already sitting somewhere else.”
She laughs like he said something charming instead of mildly sarcastic.
“You should come sit with us next time,” she continues, resting one hand lightly on the back of his chair. “We were talking about post training rotations. I think we might get assigned to the same orbital prep group.”
“That is a coincidence,” Jimin replies casually, taking another sip of water.
The woman tilts her head slightly, clearly undeterred.
“It could be a good one.”
You keep your eyes on your food. You absolutely do not care. That is the thought you repeat. You take a sip of soda. It tastes too sweet tonight for no reason.
Across from you, Jimin glances between both of you briefly but says nothing.
The woman continues talking to him like you are not sitting there at all, leaning closer as she explains something about training schedules, her voice softer now in a way that does not match the noise of the cafeteria.
You grip your soda can a little tighter without realizing it.
Jimin answers her politely. Not interested. Not encouraging. Just… there.
But she is not picking up on that. Or maybe she is, and she simply does not care.
She laughs again, lightly touching his arm while speaking.
Something inside your hand tightens. The aluminum can suddenly dents slightly under your fingers. You do not notice at first. You are too focused on pretending you are not listening.
“She is really persistent,” Jimin says lightly, still talking to her but now glancing briefly in your direction.
You do not respond. The can in your hand creases further. A small sharp crack echoes from it. Jimin looks at you properly now. So does she. You realize only then that you are holding the soda can like it personally offended you. The aluminum is visibly crushed inward. You slowly loosen your grip, placing it down a little too carefully on your tray.
“I was adjusting my grip,” you say flatly.
Jimin’s mouth twitches.
The woman, still smiling, does not seem to notice anything unusual.
She continues talking to him, completely unbothered by the tension you are pretending does not exist.
Jimin leans back slightly in his chair.
Then, very quietly, just for you, he says,
“You’re jealous.”
It is not loud enough for anyone else to hear.
But it lands directly where it should not.
You freeze for half a second.
Then slowly look up at him.
He is watching you now with that infuriating expression he gets when he is about to enjoy whatever reaction you give him.
There is no accusation in his voice.
Only amusement.
You stare at him for a long moment.
Then, without warning, you pick up your spoon.
And in a motion that is absolutely not controlled, you fling a small amount of mashed potatoes directly in his direction.
It lands on his tray. Not his face. Disappointing.
The cafeteria goes briefly silent in the exact way it does when something mildly entertaining happens but no one is sure if they should react.
Jimin blinks slowly.
Then looks down at the mashed potatoes.
Then back at you.
A pause stretches. And then he laughs.
Just that low, amused sound that always makes you want to either argue with him or walk away entirely.
“Oh,” he says, leaning forward slightly again. “That was definitely jealousy.”
You set your spoon down carefully.
“I was aiming for your face.”
“I noticed.”
The woman finally looks between both of you, slightly confused now, as if she is only just realizing she is no longer the center of this conversation.
Jimin turns back to her briefly.
“I’ll talk to you later,” he says politely, tone smooth, gentle enough that it does not feel dismissive but firm enough that it clearly ends the interaction.
She hesitates for a moment, then smiles again and walks away.
When she is gone, the noise of the cafeteria slowly returns.
Jimin turns back to you.
“You know,” he says casually, picking up his fork again, “you are very transparent when you are irritated.”
“I am not irritated.”
“You crushed a soda can earlier.”
“I was recycling.”
“That is not how recycling works.”
You glare at him.
He smiles.
It is unfair how easily he smiles after things like this.
You expect him to keep teasing you.
Instead, he tilts his head slightly, studying you for a moment that feels longer than it should.
Then he says, quieter now,
“You do not have to pretend you do not care.”
For a second, you do not respond.
Because the truth is annoying.
And worse, it is accurate.
So you do what you always do when something feels too close.
You reach for your drink again, realize it is already crushed, and set it back down.
“I do not care,” you say anyway.
Jimin hums lightly, unconvinced.
“Of course you don’t.”
Then he goes back to eating like nothing happened.
Like he did not just read something in you you have not admitted to yourself yet.
And somehow, that is worse than if he had kept teasing you.
Because as the conversation drifts back into normal noise and clattering trays, you become painfully aware of one thing you absolutely did not want to notice.
You were watching him the entire time she was talking.
And you are still watching him now.
The parabolic aircraft is nothing like the simulators. No matter how many times you are warned, nothing properly prepares you for the moment gravity simply decides to stop existing.
One second, your feet are planted firmly on the floor of the cabin, straps secured across your shoulders while instructors run final checks through headsets and clipped voices. The next second, the plane tips into its descent arc, and your body lifts without permission.
Then it happens. Weight disappears completely. Your stomach follows a second later. For a brief moment, everything is beautiful in a way that makes no sense.
Pens float. Straps drift. Loose hair spreads like threads in water. Even sound feels softer, delayed, as if the entire aircraft has been separated from the normal rules of reality.
Then panic arrives.
It hits suddenly, sharp and immediate, because your body has spent its entire life believing it will always have something beneath it. Something stable. Something certain.
Now there is nothing.
You try to adjust instinctively, reaching for the harness that is no longer pulling you down, but the movement is wrong. Your coordination is off. Your brain refuses to fully accept the lack of gravity, and that confusion turns quickly into something worse.
Disorientation.
Your breathing changes without permission.
Shorter.
Faster.
You attempt to stabilize yourself, but your body drifts too easily, spinning slightly in midair as your orientation loses meaning entirely.
Somewhere behind you, instructors are speaking calmly through comms.
“Control your breathing.”
“Use your core adjustments.”
But their voices feel distant, almost irrelevant.
The cabin tilts slightly again in the parabolic arc, and suddenly you are floating sideways, unable to tell where the floor is supposed to be.
Your hand reaches out instinctively for something solid.
There is nothing.
That is when it happens.
A sharp wave of panic floods through your system so fast it feels physical.
Your chest tightens with air you cannot properly control, and your movements become more erratic as your mind tries and fails to reestablish order in a space where order does not exist.
You turn too quickly.
That is your mistake.
Your body drifts further than intended, spinning slightly in the air, and suddenly the entire cabin becomes a blur of floating objects and rotating lights.
Your breath catches. Your vision narrows.
And for the first time since training began, you are not thinking like an astronaut candidate.
You are just reacting like someone who forgot how to exist without gravity.
A hand suddenly grabs your wrist.
Jimin.
He is there without hesitation, moving through weightlessness like he has done it before in his bones. His grip is steady, not pulling you harshly but stopping your spin instantly.
For a second, everything shifts.
The rotation slows.
The world stops tumbling.
And suddenly there is only him.
His face is closer than you expect because in zero gravity, distance means nothing.
Your body is still drifting slightly, but his hold keeps you stable, preventing you from spinning further into panic.
“Breathe,” he says.
Your eyes flicker to him, still disoriented, still struggling to process the absence of weight.
“I can’t,” you manage to say, though it comes out uneven.
“You can,” he replies immediately.
His other hand reaches for your shoulder harness, adjusting your position gently, guiding your body into alignment with practiced precision.
The aircraft continues its arc, and everything around you shifts again, but Jimin does not let go.
Instead, he pulls you slightly closer so your orientation stabilizes relative to his.
You hate how quickly your body responds to that.
Slowly, your breathing begins to even out. The panic does not disappear completely, but it loses its grip. Your vision clears gradually. And that is when you realize something you were not prepared for.
You are close. Too close.
Jimin’s face is only inches away now because of the way weightlessness has eliminated normal spatial awareness.
His hair floats slightly around his forehead, soft and unrestrained in a way you have never seen before. His eyes are focused entirely on you, calm in a way that feels almost unreal in contrast to your earlier panic.
The aircraft shifts again gently, and your bodies drift even closer for a brief moment.
Too close to ignore.
Your breath catches for an entirely different reason now.
Not fear.
Something else.
Jimin notices the change in your breathing immediately.
His gaze flickers briefly across your face as if checking your stability again, but something in his expression changes when he realizes you are no longer panicking.
You are just looking at him.
He does not move away immediately.
Neither do you.
The aircraft continues its smooth parabolic arc, and everything else in the cabin feels distant now. Floating instruments. Drifting straps. Instructor voices fading into background noise.
It is just the two of you suspended in weightless silence.
Jimin’s grip on your wrist loosens slightly, but he does not let go.
“You’re okay,” he says quietly.
You nod once, slowly.
But neither of you moves apart.
There is a strange awareness in the space between you now, something that was not there before the panic started. Something heavier than zero gravity should allow.
Your eyes stay on his for longer than necessary.
His expression shifts slightly.
Not teasing. Not smiling.
Just watching you in a way that feels different from before.
The aircraft tilts again as the parabola continues, and your bodies drift even closer without intention.
This time, there is no panic.
Only awareness. Too much awareness.
Jimin finally speaks again, voice lower now.
“You always act like you are fine until you are not.”
You swallow slightly, still floating.
“I was fine.”
A faint almost-smile touches his mouth.
“You were spinning in midair.”
You glare at him weakly, but there is no real force behind it anymore.
The tension that used to exist between you in arguments feels different here, softened by weightlessness and proximity that neither of you can fully control.
For a brief moment, his gaze drops to your wrist where he is still holding you.
Then back to your face.
And something in the air changes again.
Enough that it feels dangerous in a way neither of you acknowledge.
The aircraft begins descending out of the parabola, and gravity slowly starts returning.
It is gradual at first.
Then heavier.
Your body begins to feel weight again, pulling you downward, reintroducing the sensation of solid ground.
Jimin steadies you one final time before letting go.
Only when your feet finally reconnect with the cabin floor does the moment break properly.
He steps back first. You follow a second later. Neither of you speaks immediately.
Instructors begin giving post flight instructions through comms, voices returning to normal training tone, but you barely hear them.
Because your mind is still stuck in the space between weightlessness and gravity.
Between panic and calm.
Between you and him.
Jimin adjusts his sleeves casually like nothing happened.
But when he glances at you again, there is something quieter in his expression now.
Less teasing than before. More careful. Like he has seen you in a way he did not expect.
The problem with growing closer to someone is that eventually they begin noticing the parts of you that do not fit together properly.
Jimin notices too much.
He notices when you skip meals during stressful evaluations and quietly leaves protein bars beside your notes without mentioning it afterward. He notices when your headaches start before you admit them out loud. He notices when your mood shifts after calls from home even if you spend the next hour pretending everything is fine.
Lately, he has also started noticing the moments when you look at space like it personally betrayed you.
It happens during training lectures most often.
While other candidates stare at orbital projections with excitement glowing openly across their faces, you sit quietly beside him taking notes with almost clinical focus, as if space is merely another difficult equation to solve instead of the dream everyone else spent their lives chasing.
Jimin does not understand it. But he keeps trying to.
Tonight, the facility is quieter than usual after an eighteen hour simulation cycle left most candidates unconscious before midnight. The dormitory lounges are nearly empty, lights dimmed low while rain taps softly against distant windows again.
Houston has been raining for days.
You sit alone near the back balcony outside the common room with your knees drawn loosely toward your chest, wrapped in one of the oversized academy hoodies you accidentally stole from Jimin two weeks ago and never returned.
You tell yourself he has not noticed.
He definitely has.
Your phone vibrates against the table beside you.
Mom.
You stare at the screen for several seconds before answering.
“Hi.”
Your mother’s voice immediately softens.
“You sound exhausted.”
“I am exhausted.”
“You should sleep more.”
“You sound exactly like someone who raised me.”
A quiet laugh comes through the speaker, warm and familiar enough to make something inside you ache unexpectedly.
For a while, the conversation stays easy. Your mother talks about ordinary things first. Grocery prices rising again. A neighbor adopting another stray cat. The piano students she still teaches twice a week despite constantly threatening retirement.
You let her talk mostly because hearing normal life feels strangely comforting after weeks spent buried inside astronaut training.
Then her voice shifts carefully.
“Have you been eating properly?”
You sigh immediately.
“Oh my God.”
“I am serious.”
“So am I. You are becoming terrifyingly parental lately.”
“That happens when your child decides to voluntarily train for lunar missions.”
Your smile fades slightly at that.
Silence lingers briefly between both of you.
Your mother notices.
“Are you okay?” she asks more softly this time.
You look out toward the rain soaked city beyond the balcony railing before answering.
“I do not know.”
The honesty surprises even you.
Inside the common room behind you, footsteps approach quietly, though you barely register them at first.
Jimin.
He stops near the doorway after noticing you on the balcony, clearly intending to leave again when he realizes you are on the phone.
Then he hears your next words.
And freezes.
“I still don’t even know why I’m here sometimes,” you admit quietly into the phone.
Your mother says something too muffled for him to hear.
You laugh once, but there is no humor in it.
“No, Mom,” you say softly. “That’s the problem. I don’t even like space.”
The words settle into the night heavily.
Inside the doorway, Jimin goes completely still.
Something inside him drops so suddenly it almost feels physical.
Because space has always been the center of his life.
Not just work. Not just ambition.
Love. Wonder. Meaning.
It carried memories of his mother. His admiration for his father. Every dream he ever built for himself began somewhere beneath stars.
And hearing you say you do not even like it feels strangely devastating in a way he cannot immediately explain.
Because suddenly he realizes you have been carrying this entire journey differently than everyone else around you.
You continue speaking quietly into the phone, unaware he can hear.
“I’m good at this, but that’s not the same thing.”
Rain taps softly against the balcony railing.
Your voice lowers further.
“Sometimes I feel like everyone here belongs except me.”
Jimin looks away instinctively after hearing that, guilt creeping unexpectedly through him for listening at all.
He should leave. Instead, he stays frozen in place.
Your mother speaks again through the phone, voice too faint to make out clearly.
You close your eyes briefly before answering.
“No,” you whisper. “I haven’t told anyone.”
A pause. Then softer:
“I don’t want people treating me differently because of Dad.”
Jimin’s gaze lifts immediately.
There it is. The truth everyone technically knows but no one fully talks about.
You are the daughter of Commander Han Yejun.
Even before arriving at training, your name carried weight because of him. Candidates whispered about it during orientation week. Instructors recognized your surname instantly.
But you never used it.
Never leaned into it.
If anything, you spent every day trying to outrun it completely.
Your voice breaks his thoughts quietly.
“I’m trying so hard not to become someone people only remember because of him.”
Something about that sentence hurts to hear.
Because suddenly all your relentless perfectionism makes sense to him.
The overworking. The refusal to accept help. The way you react whenever anyone implies you had advantages.
You are terrified of becoming a legacy instead of a person.
Your mother says something gentle through the phone.
You laugh softly again, tired this time.
A few minutes later, the call ends.
You stay sitting there staring out into the rain for several seconds before noticing movement near the doorway.
Your entire body stills immediately.
Jimin stands there awkwardly, one hand still loosely holding a coffee cup he clearly forgot about minutes ago.
Your stomach drops.
How much did he hear?
His expression answers immediately.
Enough.
Embarrassment floods through you so fast it almost feels like panic.
“You were listening?”
Jimin exhales quietly.
“I wasn’t trying to.”
You look away instantly.
Of course this would happen. Of course the one person you least wanted hearing that conversation is standing there now.
The silence between both of you stretches painfully.
Then Jimin steps out onto the balcony slowly.
Rain cooled air slips around both of you while city lights blur beyond the railing.
“You really hate space that much?” he asks carefully.
The question should sound judgmental.
Instead, he sounds genuinely hurt.
You stare down at your hands for a long moment before answering.
“I don’t hate it.”
“Then why say it like that?”
You laugh quietly under your breath.
Because explaining this feels impossible.
“My father loved space more than anything,” you say eventually. “More than birthdays. More than anniversaries. More than being home.”
Jimin stays quiet beside you.
You continue before losing courage.
“When people talk about astronauts, they always talk about sacrifice like it’s noble.” Your voice grows softer. “Nobody talks about the families who spend years being second place to a mission.”
Rainwater slides slowly down the balcony railing.
You keep your eyes fixed there instead of looking at him.
“He missed my graduation because of launch prep.” A bitter smile touches your mouth briefly. “Do you know what he told me afterward?”
Jimin does not answer.
“He said he watched the livestream.”
The memory still hurts enough to make your throat tighten slightly.
You swallow hard before continuing.
“The entire world loved him. They called him inspiring.” Your voice lowers further. “I just wanted him home.”
Silence follows. Heavy silence. The kind filled with things too honest to interrupt.
When you finally glance toward Jimin, his expression has changed completely.
The hurt is still there. But now there is understanding mixed into it too.
Because unlike everyone else who saw your father as a legend first, Jimin suddenly sees him the way you did.
As someone human enough to fail the people he loved while chasing something bigger than himself.
“You know,” you say quietly, “everyone here grew up dreaming about space.”
Your fingers tighten slightly around your phone.
“I grew up competing against it.”
Jimin looks at you for a very long time after that.
Then finally, softly:
“That sounds exhausting.”
The simple sincerity in his voice nearly undoes you.
You laugh weakly.
“It was.”
Another silence settles.
This one gentler somehow.
Eventually Jimin leans back lightly against the balcony railing beside you.
“For what it’s worth,” he says carefully, “I don’t think anyone here sees you as just his daughter.”
You look toward him skeptically.
“They absolutely do.”
“Maybe at first.” His mouth curves faintly. “Then they met you.”
You stare at him.
Jimin shrugs slightly.
“You work harder than everyone else here combined. It’s actually kind of terrifying.”
Despite yourself, you smile a little.
He notices immediately.
Then his expression softens again.
“You know what I think?” he asks quietly.
“What?”
“I think you’re trying so hard not to become your father that you forgot you’re allowed to become yourself instead.”
The words hit somewhere painfully deep.
You look away quickly before he notices how much.
And standing there beneath the rain cooled night sky, closer to him than usual, you realize something quietly dangerous.
Park Jimin understands you in ways you never intended to let anyone try.
The announcement happens on a Thursday morning during advanced mission assignment briefing.
Nobody breathes normally inside the room. Even the candidates pretending not to care sit straighter when senior instructors enter carrying sealed tablets and finalized crew evaluations. Months of training have led to this point. Every simulation, every psychological assessment, every survival test and orbital systems exam has been narrowing toward one thing.
Crew pairing. Mission placement. The possibility that this might finally become real.
You sit near the middle row beside Jimin, both of you unusually quiet for once.
The massive screen at the front of the room glows softly with mission insignias rotating one after another while instructors prepare final assignments.
Someone across the aisle mutters a nervous curse beneath their breath.
Jimin leans slightly toward you.
“If they separate us after all this suffering together, I’m filing a complaint.”
You keep your eyes forward.
“You complain recreationally already.”
“It builds character.”
“It builds migraines.”
He smiles faintly beside you, but you can tell he is nervous too.
Most people would never notice.
But you know him better now.
You notice the subtle bouncing of his knee beneath the table. The way he rolls his pen between his fingers whenever anticipating something important.
The room finally quiets completely when Commander Alvarez steps forward.
“Final pair assignments for the Artemis orbital repair mission have been approved.”
Your stomach twists immediately.
The Artemis mission is not a lunar landing.
This is preparation for it.
A high risk orbital repair operation involving damaged communications infrastructure and station maintenance beyond standard low Earth orbit operations. Dangerous enough to matter. Prestigious enough to change careers permanently.
The screen changes.
Names begin appearing.
Candidates inhale sharply throughout the room while assignments populate one after another.
Then yours appears.
MISSION SPECIALIST
PARK JIMIN
FLIGHT ENGINEER
Y/N
For a second, you stop hearing everything else.
Beside you, Jimin turns immediately.
“Oh, we’re definitely surviving this now.”
You should probably respond professionally.
Instead, relief crashes through you so suddenly it feels embarrassing.
Because the truth is simple.
You cannot imagine doing this beside anyone else anymore.
The following weeks become brutal. There is no other word for it.
Mission specific training consumes every hour of your lives almost immediately. Orbital repair procedures. Emergency decompression drills. Advanced EVA synchronization exercises. Endless simulations designed specifically around two person coordination.
By the second week, you know the rhythm of Jimin’s movements almost instinctively.
You know when he is about to adjust trajectory calculations before he even reaches for controls.
You know the exact tone his voice takes when he is stressed but pretending otherwise.
You know how his breathing changes slightly during difficult simulations.
The instructors notice too.
“You two move like you’ve worked together for years,” one of them comments after a successful emergency docking drill.
Jimin grins immediately.
“That’s because she’s obsessed with me.”
You elbow him hard enough to make him stumble sideways.
The instructor laughs.
You pretend not to notice how warm your face feels afterward.
Training becomes your entire world. Mornings begin before sunrise with endurance conditioning and medical evaluations. Afternoons disappear into mission simulations and engineering procedures. Nights become hours of studying orbital repair schematics until your vision blurs from exhaustion.
And somehow, through all of it, both of you keep finding each other.
Always.
At the end of every day, no matter how exhausted you are.
Sometimes it happens naturally.
You walk into the observatory at one in the morning and find Jimin already there surrounded by floating holographic repair maps and empty coffee cups.
Sometimes it is accidental.
You both arrive at vending machines simultaneously after twelve hour simulation cycles looking half dead from exhaustion.
Sometimes neither of you says anything at all.
You simply sit together in silence while the day slowly leaves your bodies.
It becomes routine in the most dangerous way possible.
Because now your exhaustion reaches for him automatically.
And his reaches for you too.
One night after EVA training, both of you end up outside the facility long after everyone else has gone to sleep.
The Texas air feels warmer tonight after days of rain, soft wind moving quietly through the empty training grounds surrounding the complex.
You sit side by side on the roof access platform above the dormitory building, legs dangling over the edge while the city glows faintly in the distance.
Far above you, the moon hangs impossibly bright.
Jimin leans back on his hands beside you with a tired sigh.
“I think my body is beginning to forget what sleep feels like.”
“That explains your personality lately.”
“My personality has always been excellent.”
“You cried over expired pudding yesterday.”
“It was tragic.”
You laugh softly before you can stop yourself.
Jimin turns toward you immediately after hearing it.
Like your laughter has become something he listens for without realizing it.
The moment stretches longer than expected.
You look away first.
The wind shifts softly around both of you.
For a while, neither speaks.
The silence no longer feels uncomfortable between you. It feels lived in now. Familiar in the way certain songs become familiar after hearing them enough times.
Eventually Jimin breaks it quietly.
“Are you scared?”
You know immediately he is not talking about simulations.
Launch day is getting closer.
You stare up at the moon before answering honestly.
“Yes.”
“What part?”
You think about it carefully.
“The possibility of failing.”
Jimin nods slowly beside you.
Then after a moment:
“I’m more scared of surviving and realizing it changed me permanently.”
You glance toward him.
The honesty in his voice catches you off guard again.
“How would it not?” you ask softly.
His eyes stay fixed upward.
“My father said Earth looks different after space.” A faint smile touches his mouth. “Like once you see how small everything really is, you never fully belong to normal life again.”
You watch him quietly for a moment. Moonlight spills across his face gently tonight, softening every sharp edge exhaustion usually leaves behind. His hair moves slightly in the wind while his expression stays distant and thoughtful.
Beautiful.
Like something warm enough to hurt.
Jimin glances toward you unexpectedly.
“What?”
You realize too late you have been staring.
“Nothing.”
“Liar.”
You roll your eyes immediately.
“There’s your ego again.”
“There’s your inability to answer basic questions.”
You smile despite yourself.
Jimin watches it happen.
And something in his expression changes slowly afterward.
The teasing fades first.
Then the distance.
Until suddenly the air between both of you feels quieter than before.
The wind moves softly around you while the moonlight spills silver across the rooftop.
Neither of you looks away now.
Your heart begins beating strangely hard beneath your ribs.
Jimin’s gaze flickers briefly downward.
To your mouth.
Then back to your eyes.
The movement is tiny.
Barely noticeable.
But it changes everything.
Your breathing catches slightly.
Neither of you speaks.
You can hear the distant hum of the city below. The soft rustle of wind against rooftop fencing. Your own pulse suddenly far too loud in your ears.
Jimin shifts closer without seeming to realize he is doing it.
Or maybe he realizes completely.
You cannot tell anymore.
All you know is that he is close enough now for you to notice details you should not be noticing.
The faint scar near his jaw from flight training years ago.
The warmth lingering beneath his hoodie sleeves.
The way his eyes soften every time he looks at you when he thinks you are not paying attention.
Your entire body feels unbearably aware suddenly.
Of him.
Of the space between you.
Of how easily it could disappear.
Jimin speaks first, voice quieter than usual.
“You know something terrifying?”
Your throat feels dry.
“What?”
“I think I started looking for you in every room without realizing it.”
The confession lands softly but completely.
You stare at him.
His expression shifts slightly afterward, almost like he cannot believe he admitted that aloud.
But he does not take it back.
The moonlight catches against his eyes while he looks at you like you are something impossibly important.
And suddenly you understand.
This is no longer harmless.
Whatever exists between you stopped being harmless a long time ago.
Your voice comes out softer than intended.
“I look for you too.”
Jimin exhales quietly at that.
Almost like the words physically affect him.
Then very slowly, carefully, he lifts one hand toward your face.
Close enough for warmth to exist between skin.
Your breath catches again.
He hesitates.
You realize suddenly that Park Jimin, who teases everyone effortlessly and walks through life smiling like fear never touches him, is nervous.
Because of you.
The realization nearly breaks your heart.
Your eyes drift briefly to his mouth before you can stop yourself.
The space between both of you disappears slowly after that.
Just two exhausted people beneath moonlight moving toward something inevitable.
Your eyes begin closing instinctively.
And then—
A loud metallic alarm suddenly echoes across the training grounds below.
Both of you jolt apart immediately.
Mission curfew alert.
Jimin stares at the sky for one second before groaning dramatically.
“You have got to be kidding me.”
You burst into laughter so suddenly neither of you can stop it.
Breathless from adrenaline and ruined timing and whatever almost just happened between you.
Jimin drops his head into his hands briefly.
“I’m filing another complaint.”
“You file complaints about everything.”
“This one is justified.”
Your laughter softens slowly afterward.
But the warmth remains. The awareness remains.
And as both of you sit beneath the moon trying unsuccessfully to act normal again, one thing becomes painfully obvious.
Neither of you is pretending anymore.
Launch day arrives too quietly.
You always imagined it would feel loud. You thought there would be some overwhelming moment where reality finally settled heavily onto your shoulders and announced:
You are about to leave Earth.
Instead, the morning begins in silence.
The astronaut crew quarters are dim when you wake up at 3:47 a.m., the digital clock glowing pale blue in the darkness while the rest of the building hums softly with distant preparation. Outside your small window, the sky is still black. No sunrise yet. Just floodlights surrounding the launch facility far in the distance like another artificial moon glowing against the horizon.
You lie there for a few seconds staring at the ceiling.
Today changes everything.
Enough that your life before this morning already feels far away.
Your phone vibrates beside you.
Mom.
You answer immediately.
For a second, neither of you speaks.
Then your mother exhales softly through the speaker.
“You’re awake.”
“You sound surprised.”
“I raised you. I expected at least three more alarms before consciousness.”
A weak laugh escapes you despite the knot sitting inside your stomach.
Her voice sounds tired.
Emotionally.
You can hear it in the careful way she speaks, like every sentence is being handled gently so it does not break apart before reaching you.
“Did you sleep?” you ask quietly.
“A little.”
That means no.
You know your mother well enough to hear what she avoids saying.
Outside your room, muffled footsteps pass through the hallway. Technicians. Medical personnel. The entire facility has been awake for hours preparing for launch procedures.
Your mother goes quiet for a moment before speaking again.
“I need to tell you something before you leave.”
Your chest tightens slightly.
“What is it?”
Another pause.
Then softly:
“I can’t watch the launch.”
The words hurt even though you expected them.
You close your eyes briefly.
“Oh.”
“I tried,” she says quickly, almost apologetically. “I really tried. They replayed old footage from your father’s missions last night and I…” Her voice catches faintly before steadying again. “I couldn’t do it.”
You stare down at the blanket twisted loosely around your legs.
Your entire childhood flashes unexpectedly through your mind.
Watching your father disappear behind security barriers.
Watching countdowns on television.
Watching your mother pretend she wasn’t terrified every single time.
“It’s okay,” you whisper.
“No, sweetheart.” Her voice softens painfully. “It isn’t.”
Silence settles between both of you.
Then quieter:
“I spent years convincing myself space would always give him back safely.” A small shaky breath escapes her. “I don’t think I can survive watching it take you too.”
Your throat burns suddenly.
You press your fingers harder against the phone.
“I’ll come home.”
“I know you will.”
But she sounds like someone trying to believe it rather than someone certain.
Outside the hallway speakers crackle softly with launch prep announcements.
Crew wake protocol beginning in thirty minutes.
Your mother hears it too.
“I’ll watch the landing,” she says immediately, like she needs you to know that part matters. “Every second of it.”
Something inside your chest aches so deeply you almost cannot speak.
“Okay.”
Then softly:
“I wish Dad were here.”
The confession slips out before you can stop it.
Silence answers first.
Then your mother laughs quietly through what sounds dangerously close to tears.
“He’d be insufferable today.”
You smile weakly.
“He’d already be giving interviews.”
“He’d somehow make your launch about himself.”
“That’s true.”
Another silence.
Gentler this time.
Then your mother’s voice lowers.
“You know what he told me before his first orbital mission?”
You shake your head automatically before realizing she cannot see you.
“What?”
“He said the bravest astronauts are the ones who still love Earth enough to come back to it.”
The words hit somewhere impossibly deep.
You look toward the dark window.
Toward the planet you are about to leave.
“I think,” your mother whispers softly, “that’s why he loved you so much. Because no matter how fascinated he was by space, you always reminded him what waited here.”
Your eyes sting immediately.
Before you can answer, someone knocks gently against your door.
“Five minute medical check.”
You inhale shakily.
“I have to go.”
“I know.”
Another pause.
Then your mother says quietly:
“Come back to me.”
Your throat tightens painfully.
“I will.”
The call ends.
You sit there for several seconds afterward staring at the dark phone screen while emotions crash heavily through your chest all at once.
Fear.
Grief.
Excitement.
The strange loneliness of becoming someone the world watches publicly while still feeling painfully human underneath it.
By the time you enter the press corridor an hour later dressed in partial launch gear, the entire facility feels electric.
Media crews line the secured pathways leading toward the launch transport vehicle while giant digital screens count down above the crowd.
T minus two hours, sixteen minutes.
Cameras flash constantly the second you appear beside Jimin.
Because there are only two of you.
Only two seats aboard the Artemis orbital repair mission.
Mission Specialist Park Jimin.
Flight Engineer Y/N.
The world has become obsessed with that fact.
The cameras love the narrative already. Two elite astronauts. Young. Brilliant. Months of training footage showing synchronized simulations and impossible compatibility scores.
You hate how much attention it brings.
Jimin seems mostly amused by it.
Questions fly instantly from every direction.
“Jimin, how confident are you in the orbital repair timeline?”
“What are the risks of extended EVA operations?”
“How prepared is the crew psychologically for deep orbital isolation?”
Then another voice cuts through the noise sharply.
“Y/N! How much pressure comes with carrying Han Yejun’s legacy into space?”
Your stomach sinks immediately.
Another reporter pushes forward.
“Do you think comparisons to your father are fair considering his historic achievements?”
And there it is.
Again.
Not your name first.
His.
People nearby begin turning toward you expectantly while cameras zoom closer.
The daughter of Han Yejun.
Not the engineer who ranked highest in orbital systems.
Not the astronaut candidate who survived every evaluation.
Just legacy.
Your pulse begins climbing fast beneath your suit.
Another voice follows quickly:
“Some critics believe you were fast tracked because of your father’s reputation. How do you respond to people saying you may never reach his level of success?”
The question lands like a slap.
For one horrible second, the entire corridor feels too bright.
Too loud.
You stop walking slightly.
Beside you, Jimin notices instantly.
Without hesitation, his hand brushes lightly against yours.
Tiny contact.
Barely visible.
But grounding enough that you inhale properly again.
Security personnel continue guiding both of you forward while reporters shout more questions behind barriers.
Only after the doors close behind you into the quieter preparation hall does the noise finally disappear.
Silence rushes into its place.
You stare ahead without speaking.
Jimin walks beside you quietly for several seconds before finally saying:
“They don’t deserve access to you.”
You laugh weakly under your breath.
“That sounds dramatic.”
“I’m serious.”
You glance toward him.
His expression is softer than usual now.
Just angry on your behalf.
“They talk about you like you’re competing against a ghost,” he says quietly. “Meanwhile you’re one of the best engineers this program has ever had.”
Your throat tightens unexpectedly.
“I’m tired of people looking at me and seeing him first.”
Jimin stops walking.
You stop too.
The hallway around both of you is empty now except for distant technicians moving farther ahead near prep stations.
For a second, he simply looks at you.
Then softly:
"When I look at you, I don’t see the daughter of a famous astronaut."
You blink slowly.
“I think about the girl who nearly crushed a soda can because she got jealous during dinner.”
Mortified disbelief flashes across your face instantly.
“Oh my God.”
“I think about the person who works harder than anyone else in this facility because she’s terrified of being underestimated.” His voice lowers gently. “I think about the astronaut who stayed awake thirty hours fixing a simulation problem nobody else could solve.”
Emotion rises suddenly in your chest.
Jimin steps closer.
“And honestly, I think your father would be proud that the world sees his daughter,” he says softly. “But I think he’d be even prouder knowing how hard you worked to become more than that.”
The words almost undo you completely.
Before you can respond, a launch coordinator calls for final crew prep from farther down the hall.
Jimin glances toward the sound briefly.
Then back at you.
His expression shifts slightly afterward.
Nervous now.
Which somehow affects you more than anything else.
He reaches into the pocket of his jacket slowly.
“What?”
“I wrote something,” he admits.
You stare immediately.
“You wrote something?”
“I’m capable of literacy occasionally.”
Despite everything, you laugh softly.
First of all, you owe me one real date after this mission. Second, promise me you will play piano for me someday. Most importantly…Come home with me, okay?
Underneath, scribbled smaller:
Also if you die before our date, I’ll be genuinely offended.
Your vision blurs slightly reading the last line.
You look up slowly.
Jimin is already watching you carefully, like your reaction genuinely matters too much to him now.
“You can’t ask for promises before space,” you whisper.
“I know.”
His honesty destroys you a little.
Because beneath all the teasing and flirting and warmth, you suddenly see it clearly.
He’s scared too.
Not of orbit.
Of losing you before whatever this became between both of you had the chance to fully exist.
Your fingers tighten slightly around the note.
“Okay,” you whisper back.
Jimin exhales softly.
“Okay?”
“We both come back.”
Relief flickers visibly across his face.
Then he smiles slightly.
“Good. Because I already planned our date.”
You blink.
“You did not.”
“I absolutely did.”
“What is it?”
“I’m not telling you.”
“That’s annoying.”
You stare at him for another second too long.
So does he.
The hallway suddenly feels smaller somehow.
Your heartbeat begins climbing again for entirely different reasons now.
Jimin’s gaze drops briefly toward your mouth before returning to your eyes.
Neither of you moves away.
Then softly, almost like confession:
“I don’t think I can leave Earth without doing this first.”
Your breath catches.
And then he kisses you.
Warm and careful and real enough that the entire world seems to disappear around it.
His hand slides gently against your face while your fingers instinctively grip the front of his jacket to steady yourself against emotions suddenly too big for your body.
The kiss deepens slowly.
Tenderly.
Like both of you are memorizing each other before space gets the chance to change anything.
When he finally pulls back, your forehead rests lightly against his for a second.
Neither of you speaks immediately.
Then overhead speakers interrupt the moment completely.
“T minus ninety minutes to launch.”
Jimin closes his eyes briefly.
“You know,” he murmurs softly, “that announcement felt deeply personal.”
A laugh escapes you before you can stop it.
He smiles after hearing it.
And standing there beside him while the countdown toward orbit continues above your heads, one thing becomes terrifyingly clear.
For the first time in your life, Earth no longer feels like the only thing worth coming back for.
The walk toward the launch tower feels unreal. The air outside is cool against your skin despite the heavy launch suit wrapped around your body. Floodlights illuminate the massive structure ahead while the Artemis spacecraft stands waiting beneath the dark sky like something built by ambition alone.
For a second, you stop breathing properly.
You are really doing this.
Beside you, Jimin walks quietly alongside the transport crew, unusually calm compared to his normal teasing energy. Cameras follow every movement from a distance while mission personnel guide both of you through final procedures.
Somewhere beyond the secured perimeter, thousands of people are watching.
Inside homes.
Inside classrooms.
Inside crowded control rooms.
Waiting for the countdown.
Waiting for history.
Your pulse pounds harder with every step toward the elevator platform.
The rocket looks impossibly enormous up close.
You spent months training for this mission. Years studying orbital systems and engineering. Entire simulations built to prepare your body and mind for launch conditions.
None of it compares to standing beneath the actual spacecraft knowing it is about to carry you beyond Earth.
Jimin notices your silence immediately.
“You’re thinking too loudly again,” he murmurs softly beside you.
You glance toward him weakly.
The corner of his mouth lifts slightly.
Then quieter: “You okay?”
You inhale carefully before nodding. “I think so.”
“That’s reassuringly confident.”
A small laugh escapes you despite the terror climbing slowly through your stomach.
Jimin smiles after hearing it.
And somehow, stupidly, that helps more than breathing exercises ever could.
The elevator ride upward feels endless.
Metal hums softly beneath your boots while the launch tower disappears farther below with every passing second. Through narrow openings in the structure, you can see floodlights reflecting against distant water beyond the facility.
The entire world looks strangely peaceful from up here.
Like Earth has no idea you are about to leave it.
When the hatch platform finally opens, reality settles heavily into your chest all over again.
Technicians guide both of you carefully toward final boarding procedures while communication chatter fills your headset.
“Artemis crew beginning ingress sequence.”
“Environmental systems stable.”
“Fueling complete.”
“T minus eighteen minutes.”
Your heartbeat stumbles slightly hearing the countdown aloud.
Jimin steps ahead first before pausing near the hatch entrance. Then he turns back toward you.
Even through layers of mission gear and helmets, you still recognize the softness in his eyes immediately.
“You remember the promise?” he asks quietly.
You nod once. “We both come home.”
He smiles gently. “Good.”
Then both of you climb inside.
The spacecraft cabin feels smaller than expected once fully sealed.
Every surface filled with switches, monitors, restraints, and glowing indicators designed to keep human beings alive somewhere they were never naturally meant to survive.
Technicians strap both of you securely into launch seats while final diagnostics stream rapidly across surrounding displays.
Your gloves feel too tight suddenly.
Your breathing too loud.
Jimin notices immediately through the comm channel. “Hey.”
You glance sideways toward him.
His helmet reflects soft instrument lights while his expression stays calm despite the tension building around both of you.
“Look at me for a second.”
You do. And somehow that steadies you again.
“You’re okay,” he says softly through comms. “You survived astronaut training with me. This part should be easy.”
You laugh weakly.
“That’s actually the least comforting thing you’ve ever said.”
“Wow. Mean before launch.”
The familiarity of his teasing settles your nerves just enough to keep panic from fully arriving.
Outside the spacecraft, the world continues preparing around you.
Inside mission control, hundreds of personnel monitor systems in tense silence. Massive screens display live telemetry while commentators broadcast updates across the globe.
The camera feed cuts briefly to mission headquarters where applause erupts after final weather confirmation clears the launch window completely.
“Artemis orbital repair mission remains go for launch.”
Across observation decks and crowded viewing areas, people cheer.
Back on Earth, your mother sits alone in a quiet living room with the television turned off.
Unable to watch the launch.
But still awake. Still listening for updates anyway.
Inside the spacecraft cabin, the countdown continues.
“T minus sixty seconds.”
Your pulse becomes deafening. The entire vehicle vibrates faintly beneath you now. Jimin’s voice reaches you quietly through comms again.
“You know something embarrassing?”
You blink slightly, “What?”
“I forgot to eat breakfast because I was nervous.”
A startled laugh escapes you.
“You’re nervous?”
“Deeply.”
That confession affects you more than expected. Because Jimin always seemed fearless during training. Effortless. Like space belonged naturally to him. Hearing fear in his voice suddenly makes yours feel survivable too.
“T minus ten.”
Everything narrows. The cabin lights dim slightly. Your hands tighten instinctively against restraints.
“Nine.”
The engines begin awakening beneath the spacecraft with a low violent rumble.
“Eight.”
Your entire body feels electrically aware.
“Seven.”
Jimin glances toward you one final time.
“Six.”
You nod slightly toward him.
“Five.”
Mission control falls completely silent.
“Four.”
The engines ignite.
“Three.”
The entire spacecraft shakes violently.
“Two.”
Your heart stops.
“One.”
And suddenly Earth lets go. The force of launch slams through your entire body instantly. The spacecraft roars upward with terrifying acceleration while vibration tears violently through the cabin structure around you. Your chest feels pinned against the seat while the world outside disappears beneath cloud and fire and unbearable speed.
Every sound becomes thunder. Every breath becomes effort.
Mission control voices blur through static filled communications while altitude climbs impossibly fast across displays overhead.
The atmosphere begins thinning. Gravity fights harder. Then weaker. Then suddenly,
Silence.
Strange softened stillness of orbit.
The violent shaking disappears almost instantly.
Your body lifts slightly against restraints as weightlessness returns gently this time.
The spacecraft cabin glows softly beneath instrument lights while objects begin floating slowly around the interior.
For several seconds, neither of you speaks.
Mission control finally breaks the silence.
“Artemis crew, this is Houston. You are successfully in orbit.”
Applause erupts loudly through distant comm channels.
You hear cheering faintly in the background from mission control staff unable to contain their excitement.
Goosebumps rise across your arms instantly.
Because you did it.
Beside you, Jimin exhales shakily through a laugh.
“We’re in space.”
The words feel impossible.
You turn slowly toward the observation window nearest your station.
And then you see Earth.
Not through simulations. Not through photographs.
Not through your father’s archived mission footage playing endlessly across documentaries your entire childhood.
Real Earth. Alive beneath you. Blue beyond comprehension.
The planet stretches endlessly against black space like something sacred. Oceans glow beneath sunlight while clouds swirl softly across continents. Storm systems move slowly over water. The atmosphere itself looks heartbreakingly thin from up here.
Your breath catches immediately. Without warning, tears fill your eyes. Just silent overwhelming emotion arriving too suddenly for your body to process properly. Because for the first time in your life, space does not feel distant anymore. And somehow, terrifyingly, neither does your father.
You understand him suddenly.
Enough to realize why people kept returning here despite everything they sacrificed to do it.
You wipe quickly beneath your eyes before anyone notices.
Beside you, Jimin says nothing.
He continues running post launch checks beside his station calmly, focused entirely on mission procedures like he sees absolutely nothing unusual.
You love him a little for that.
Hours pass slowly afterward while the spacecraft settles fully into orbital trajectory.
The adrenaline fades. Exhaustion arrives quietly in its place.
Earth continues turning endlessly outside the windows while darkness and sunlight cycle across the cabin in surreal intervals.
You float alone beside the observation station later that night staring silently down at the glowing curve of the planet when something gently bumps against your arm.
You blink in surprise.
A drink pouch floats beside you.
Hot tea. Still warm.
You turn slowly.
Across the cabin, Jimin pretends to be extremely focused on a systems tablet while one foot hooks casually beneath a restraint bar to keep himself anchored.
“You looked cold,” he says without glancing up.
Emotion rises unexpectedly through your chest again.
Because there are cameras inside the spacecraft.
Protocols. Mission logs.
No privacy anywhere.
And still somehow he found a way to take care of you quietly.
You hold the tea pouch carefully between your hands. “Thank you.”
Jimin finally glances toward you then. His eyes soften slightly after noticing the lingering redness around yours.
But he still does not mention the crying.
Instead, he smiles gently. “Pretty unbelievable, right?”
You look back toward Earth slowly.
At the oceans.
The storms.
The sunlight spreading gold across the edge of the atmosphere.
“I think this is the first time space hasn’t felt like something stealing people away from me.”
The cabin grows quiet afterward.
Jimin watches you carefully for a moment before answering softly:
“Maybe because this time, you’re not being left behind.”
The words settle weightlessly between both of you while Earth spins silently below.
Chapter 3
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The kiss leaves both of you standing there for a few quiet seconds afterward, close enough to hear each other breathe. Rain crashes endlessly outside the apartment windows, soft thunder rolling somewhere over the city, but inside everything feels strangely still. Like the world paused long enough to let both of you finally arrive at the same place after years of missing each other by inches.
Seokjin keeps his forehead resting lightly against yours. Neither of you speaks immediately. There is too much feeling sitting between you now for words to come easily. You can still feel the warmth of his mouth against yours. Still feel the way he held you during the kiss like someone terrified this moment might disappear if he loosened his grip even slightly. When he finally opens his eyes again, the look on his face almost undoes you completely.
Soft. Relieved. A little overwhelmed. Like loving you openly is still something he is learning how to survive.
“You okay?” he asks quietly.
You let out a small laugh at that.
“You just kissed me like a man in the final scene of a romance movie and now you’re asking if I’m okay?”
A grin appears slowly on his face.
“I need confirmation.”
“You’re unbelievable.”
“You kissed me back pretty enthusiastically.”
Your face warms immediately. Seokjin notices. The smile on his face grows even wider.
“There she is.”
“What does that mean?”
“That embarrassed look.” He tilts his head slightly while looking at you. “I missed it.”
You look away before he can see how badly your heart is reacting to every little thing he says tonight. That turns out to be impossible anyway because his fingers gently catch your chin, guiding your attention back toward him.
“You know,” he says softly, “I used to wonder if you still looked at me the same way.”
Your expression falters slightly.
“And now?”
His thumb brushes lightly against your cheek.
“Now I think you do.”
The honesty in his voice leaves the room quiet again. Full of everything both of you stopped pretending not to feel.
Another loud crack of thunder shakes faintly outside. You glance toward the windows automatically. The rain somehow looks even heavier now, water rushing down the glass in endless silver lines.
“You picked the worst possible night to drive to Busan,” you murmur.
Seokjin finally steps back enough to shrug off his soaked jacket.
“I wasn’t really thinking logically.”
You laugh quietly while taking the jacket from him.
“It’s raining hard enough to flood half the city.”
He smiles while watching you hang his jacket near the kitchen.
“I’m trying to win my girl back.”
The words hit you harder than they should.
My girl. As if some part of him already decided you belonged beside him long before tonight.
You busy yourself straightening random things around the apartment just to calm down a little. Seokjin notices immediately. He notices everything about you. Even now. Especially now.
“You nervous?” he asks gently.
“A little.”
“About me?”
You glance back at him honestly.
“About how easy this still is with you.”
Something shifts in his expression after that. Like he has spent months thinking the exact same thing. He walks closer slowly until he is standing beside the kitchen counter while you pretend to focus on absolutely nothing important.
“You know what I kept thinking during the drive here?”
“What?”
“That if you opened the door smiling at me, I’d probably fall in love with you all over again.”
You scoff softly.
“All over again?”
“Mhm.”
He looks around your apartment quietly before returning his eyes to you.
“Turns out I never really stopped.”
The silence stretches comfortably after that. And suddenly you realize he probably has not eaten properly after driving for hours through the storm.
“You hungry?” you ask.
Seokjin blinks once.
“A little, yeah.”
“I was going to cook before you got here anyway.”
“You cook for every man you kiss dramatically in your apartment doorway?”
You stare at him flatly.
“There have been so many.”
“That’s devastating news for me.”
You laugh again and point toward the dining table.
“Sit down before I change my mind.”
His entire face softens hearing your laughter. Like that sound still means more to him than anything else.
Cooking together turns out to be too natural. Like this is something the two of you could have been doing years ago if fear had not ruined the timing. Seokjin stands beside you while you rinse vegetables, occasionally stealing pieces of food from the cutting board when he thinks you are not looking.
“You literally have the reflexes of a raccoon,” you tell him while slapping his hand away from the mushrooms.
“I’m helping.”
“You ate half the ingredients already.”
He looks genuinely thoughtful for a second.
“That explains why the bowl still seems empty.”
You shake your head while laughing under your breath. You forgot how much fun he is when he is comfortable. At some point you hand him an apron just to stop him from ruining his clothes further. Watching Kim Seokjin standing in your kitchen wearing an oversized apron while seriously stirring soup like his life depends on it almost sends you into another fit of laughter.
“What?” he asks immediately.
“You look ridiculous.”
He glances down at himself.
“I look domestic.”
“You look like someone’s husband.”
The second the words leave your mouth, both of you go silent. Your eyes widen slightly. Seokjin stares at you. Then slowly, very slowly, a smile spreads across his face. The dangerous kind.
“Oh?”
“Forget I said that.”
“Absolutely not.”
“It slipped out.”
“I’m actually never recovering from that sentence.”
You groan while covering your face briefly.
“This is humiliating.”
“You called me husband material.” He points toward himself proudly. “I’m framing this moment mentally.”
“You’re so annoying.”
“And yet you kissed me.”
“I hate that you remember everything.”
“I remember every single thing involving you.”
The softness in his voice near the end changes the mood again immediately. Because suddenly the teasing disappears and all that remains is truth. He really does remember everything. Every late-night conversation. Every version of you he almost lost.
Dinner ends up simple. Kimchi jjigae, rice, egg rolls slightly burnt because Seokjin got distracted staring at you while you cooked. You eat together at the small table near the window while rain pours endlessly over the city outside. The apartment glows softly under warm kitchen lights. And somewhere in the middle of Seokjin rambling about Yoongi accidentally spoiling choreography again during practice, you stop for a second just to look at him. The man you spent years loving quietly. The man who once broke your heart without realizing how badly. The same man now sitting in your apartment smiling at you like he still cannot believe you are giving him another chance to exist this close to you again. He catches you staring almost immediately.
“What?”
You shake your head softly.
“Nothing.”
“No, tell me.”
You hesitate briefly before answering honestly.
“I think this is the happiest I’ve seen you in a long time.”
His expression softens instantly.
“That’s because I’m here.”
The sincerity in his voice makes your stomach flip.
“You say things too easily now.”
“No.” He leans back slightly in his chair while watching you carefully. “I think I wasted too much time not saying them before.”
Neither of you speaks for a moment after that. Rain taps steadily against the windows. The soup simmers softly on the stove behind you. And for the first time in a very long time, silence between you feels peaceful instead of painful.
Later, after dinner, Seokjin helps wash dishes despite being objectively terrible at it. He somehow splashes water onto the counter, the floor, and himself within minutes.
“You’re banned from kitchen duties,” you inform him.
“You’re being extremely unsupportive right now.”
“You almost drowned the sponge.”
“That sponge started it.”
You laugh so suddenly that you have to lean against the sink for balance. And Seokjin just watches you with that same look again. That unbearably soft expression. Like making you laugh is becoming his favorite thing in the world. Maybe it always was.
The rain grows heavier near midnight. Thunder hums low across the city while the windows fog faintly from the warmth inside your apartment. Seokjin stands near the couch checking the weather on his phone before glancing toward you carefully.
“I should probably stay until the rain calms down.”
You raise an eyebrow.
“Probably?”
“I’m trying to sound respectful while secretly hoping you say yes.”
A laugh escapes you quietly.
“You drove three hours through a storm. I’m not making you leave tonight.”
Relief flashes across his face so openly it almost makes you emotional.
“Okay,” he says softly.
By the time dinner ends, Busan is nearly drowned in silver and shadow outside your windows. Water rushes endlessly down the glass while distant headlights smear across flooded streets below like streaks of watercolor under the storm. Inside your apartment, everything feels warm. The kind of warmth that slowly slips beneath your skin until you stop realizing how close the two of you have become again.
Seokjin finishes drying the last plate while you wipe down the counter beside him, both of you moving around the kitchen carefully, naturally, like this is not the first time he has stood inside your apartment late at night wearing your clothes and smiling at you like you are the only peaceful thing left in his world. At some point, he starts humming quietly under his breath. You glance toward him immediately.
“That song again?”
He looks up innocently.
“What song?”
“The one you keep humming every five minutes.”
“It’s catchy.”
“You wrote it.”
“Exactly. Very talented guy.”
A laugh escapes you before you can stop it. Seokjin’s eyes soften instantly hearing it. You move toward the sink to wash your hands, but before you can reach it, Seokjin lightly catches your wrist. When you look back at him, his expression has changed completely. Quieter now. More serious beneath the softness.
“What?” you ask quietly.
For a second he only looks at you. Like he still cannot believe this night is real. Then his thumb brushes lightly over your wrist before he answers.
“I’m trying really hard not to ruin this by wanting too much.”
Your heartbeat stumbles. “Too much?”
A faint smile appears on his face, tired and honest all at once.
“You. Tonight. Tomorrow.” His eyes stay on yours. “Everything.”
The sincerity in his voice makes the apartment feel smaller somehow. Dangerous in the gentlest way possible.
Thunder rolls softly outside again. You glance toward the windows instinctively. The rain is somehow worse now than it was hours ago.
“You definitely can’t drive back tonight,” you murmur.
“I figured.”
“You can sleep here.”
Seokjin looks at you carefully.
“On the couch?”
You hesitate for half a second.
Then quietly: “My bed’s bigger.”
The silence afterward feels endless. Seokjin stares at you like he is trying not to react too strongly, but you still see it happen. The slight inhale. The softness entering his eyes immediately.
“You sure?” he asks gently.
You nod once. And somehow that tiny moment feels more intimate than every kiss tonight combined.
Your bedroom feels different with him inside it. Like some hidden part of your heart had already imagined him here long before tonight ever happened. Rain taps softly against the windows while warm lamplight fills the room in gold. Seokjin stands awkwardly near the edge of the bed for a second, hands in the pockets of your sweatpants, looking strangely nervous despite everything. The sight nearly melts you completely.
“You’ve performed in stadiums,” you point out softly. “Why are you acting shy now?”
He lets out a quiet laugh, “That's different.”
You hand him an extra towel and turn away slightly while fixing the blankets just to give yourself a moment to breathe. But then his voice comes quietly behind you.
“You still sleep with three pillows.”
You glance back.
“And you still notice everything.”
When the lights finally dim, both of you settle carefully beneath the blankets. At first there is space between you. Not much. Just enough to pretend this is normal. Then thunder shakes softly through the apartment again, followed by rain hitting harder against the windows. And sometime during the silence afterward, Seokjin quietly says: “Can I hold you?”
The question alone nearly ruins you. Because he asks it so softly. So carefully. Like your comfort still matters more to him than his own longing.
You turn slightly toward him beneath the blankets. And before you can overthink anything, you whisper: “Yes.”
The moment his arm slides around your waist, something inside you finally gives up trying to resist him. You move closer instinctively until your forehead rests beneath his chin, your body fitting against his like this is still the safest place in the world for you. Seokjin exhales softly above you. Like he has spent months missing this exact feeling. His fingers move slowly along your back beneath your shirt, absentminded and warm. And for a while neither of you says anything. You simply lie there listening to the storm together. Wrapped around each other in the middle of a night neither of you wants to end.
“You know what I missed most?” he murmurs eventually.
“What?”
“This.”
You tilt your head slightly.
“Lying in bed?”
He smiles softly.
“No.” His hand tightens lightly at your waist. “Feeling close to you without pretending I shouldn’t.”
Your eyes sting unexpectedly. Because there were so many years of that. Years of almost touching. Almost confessing. Almost becoming something real. Your fingers slide slowly against his chest beneath the oversized shirt he borrowed from you earlier.
“You were so frustrating,” you whisper.
A quiet laugh vibrates through him.
“I know.”
“You’d look at me like you wanted to say something and then never say it.”
“I was scared.”
“Of me?”
His hand moves gently into your hair.
“Of how badly I loved you.”
The room falls quiet again after that. Only rain filling the space around you. Only his heartbeat steady beneath your hand. When you look up at him this time, the distance between your faces disappears naturally. Slowly. Like neither of you wants to rush anymore. Seokjin brushes his nose lightly against yours before kissing you again. And this kiss feels entirely different from the earlier ones. Softer. Sleepier. More dangerous somehow because now you are wrapped together beneath warm blankets while the city disappears beneath rain outside your bedroom windows.
Your fingers curl lightly into his shirt while his hand cups your face carefully, kissing you with the kind of tenderness that almost hurts. Every movement unhurried. Every touch full of feeling. Like he spent too long missing you to rush through any moment now that he finally has you again.
The kiss deepens slowly. Emotional enough to leave your entire body warm beneath his hands. Seokjin kisses you like he still cannot believe you are real. Like he still expects to wake up and find this entire night gone. And somewhere in the middle of it, he pulls away slightly just to look at you again. Like loving you is no longer something he is trying to hide.
“You’re so beautiful,” he whispers quietly.
Your face warms immediately. Then his lips return to yours before the sound fully fades. The room grows quieter after that.
Kisses becoming lingering touches. His fingertips tracing slowly along your arm. Your hand brushing through his hair while he rests against you with eyes half closed. At some point you realize neither of you is even trying to stop this anymore. And when Seokjin kisses down your jaw slowly before resting his forehead against your shoulder, his voice comes out rough with emotion.
“I thought I lost this forever.”
You close your eyes briefly.
“So did I.”
The love between you changes shape that night. It becomes gentler. Open. No more pretending friendship is enough when both of you already know the truth. And beneath the sound of rain and dim golden light, wrapped together beneath tangled blankets, Seokjin touches you like someone cherishing every second he almost never got back.
Kissing your forehead between whispered confessions. Tracing your skin slowly while telling you things he should have said years ago. How he replayed your old voice notes during sleepless nights. How he still remembered every detail about the first night he kissed you. How he hated himself for acting unaffected afterward when the truth was he went home terrified by how deeply he already loved you.
“You made me happy in a way that scared me,” he admits quietly against your skin.
Your fingers brush softly through his hair.
“You scared me too.”
He lifts his head slightly.
“Why?”
“Because when you touched me, I knew I’d never love anyone the same way.”
The look in his eyes after that almost breaks your heart open completely. Then he kisses you again. Slow. Deep. Like he is trying to make up for every year you spent loving each other too carefully instead of honestly. And somewhere outside your bedroom, the storm keeps raging across Busan while inside, tangled together beneath warm blankets and quiet confessions, both of you finally stop running from what has always existed between you.
You wake slowly to warm blankets tangled around your legs. Warm air lingering beneath the comforter. Warm skin pressed against yours so naturally that for a few quiet seconds, you forget where reality ends and the dream begins. Rain still falls softly outside the apartment windows, gentler now than last night, the storm reduced to a quiet drizzle washing over Busan in pale gray morning light. And Seokjin is wrapped around you like he fell asleep afraid you might disappear before morning came.
Your eyes open fully little by little. The room smells faintly like rain, fabric softener, and him. One of his arms rests securely around your waist beneath the blankets while his face is half buried against your shoulder, slow breathing brushing softly across your skin every few seconds. You stay still. Just looking at him. Looking at the man you spent years loving quietly. The man who once stood at the center of every hope you tried so hard not to have. And now here he is. In your bed. Bare skin against yours beneath tangled sheets after a night neither of you will ever forget.
The memory returns all at once. His hands holding your face carefully. The way he kissed you slower after every confession, like he wanted to memorize not only your body but every feeling hidden beneath it. The way he kept stopping just to look at you. Like he still could not believe this was real.
Your cheeks warm instantly. You really slept with Kim Seokjin again. And somehow this time feels even more dangerous than the first. Because now both of you know exactly how much love exists between you.
You shift slightly beneath the blankets. The movement wakes him almost immediately. Seokjin lets out the softest sleepy sound before pulling you closer instinctively, his face pressing deeper against your neck.
“No,” he mumbles half asleep. “Too early.”
A laugh escapes you quietly.
“You don’t even know what time it is.”
“I know it’s not enough.”
His voice is rough from sleep, low and warm enough to send heat crawling beneath your skin again embarrassingly fast. You feel him slowly wake up against you, realizing exactly how close your bodies still are beneath the blankets. The realization makes both of you go quiet for a second. Then Seokjin lifts his head slightly. His hair is messy. His lips pink from sleep and last night’s kisses. And the look in his eyes when he sees you watching him nearly ruins you completely. There is so much softness there. So much open affection. Like loving you no longer frightens him at all.
“Hi,” he whispers.
You smile sleepily.
“Hi.”
For a moment he just stares at you. Then his hand slides gently against your waist beneath the blankets while he exhales softly.
“You’re really here.”
“You sound surprised.”
“I think part of me still expects to wake up alone after every good thing.”
The honesty in his voice hurts in the gentlest way possible. You move closer automatically, fingers brushing softly through his hair.
“Well,” you murmur, “you’re not alone.”
Seokjin’s eyes close briefly at that. Like those words reached somewhere deep inside him. The rain taps softly against the windows while both of you remain tangled together beneath the blankets, unwilling to move yet. You cannot remember the last time morning felt this peaceful. No anxiety. No pretending. No trying to bury feelings before they become too obvious.
Just him. Warm against you. Holding you openly like this is where he belongs now. And maybe he does.
“You know,” Seokjin says quietly after a while, “this is exactly how I imagined waking up beside you would feel.”
You raise an eyebrow lazily.
“You imagined this often?”
“All the time.”
Your face warms instantly.
“You’re admitting that very casually.”
“I spent years pretending I didn’t love you properly.” His fingers trace slowly along your arm beneath the blankets. “I think I deserve to be dramatic now.”
You laugh softly. Then he kisses you again before the sound fully disappears.
Morning kisses feel different. Sleepy. Slow. The kind that linger without urgency because neither of you wants to rush reality back into the room yet. His hand slides gently into your hair while your fingers rest against the bare skin of his shoulder, feeling the warmth of him beneath your touch.
And God. You missed this more than you realized. Not only the physical closeness. The tenderness too. The quiet intimacy of someone looking at you first thing in the morning like you are still the most beautiful thing they have ever seen.
“You’re staring again,” you whisper against his lips.
“I can’t help it.”
“You’ve seen me plenty already.”
“Not like this.”
The way he says it makes your stomach flip softly.
“What’s different?”
Seokjin studies your face carefully before answering.
“You’re looking at me like you finally believe I’m yours too.”
Your heart almost stops. Because maybe he is right. Maybe that is the difference. Last night no longer felt like borrowed happiness. It felt real.
The peacefulness lasts until a loud ringtone suddenly cuts through the room. Both of you freeze. Then Seokjin groans dramatically before reaching blindly toward the nightstand for his phone. You laugh quietly while hiding your face against the pillow.
“Reality found you.”
“I’m declining society.”
The screen lights up. Manager Hyung. Seokjin stares at it for a second like personally betrayed by the universe before answering reluctantly.
“Hyung.”
You watch his expression change little by little while he listens. Then his eyes widen slightly.
“What do you mean moved earlier?”
A pause. Another groan.
“I’m in Busan.”
You try not to laugh while he rubs his face tiredly.
“Yes, I know the photoshoot starts in four hours.” He sighs dramatically. “I’m leaving now.”
Another pause. Then quieter:
“Yes, I’ll drive carefully.”
He hangs up slowly before collapsing backward onto the mattress again. You burst into laughter immediately.
“You’re in trouble.”
“They moved the schedule earlier,” he mutters into the pillow. “This is discrimination against happy people.”
“You should probably leave soon.”
“I reject that idea entirely.”
But eventually reality wins. Even if neither of you wants it to.
The apartment fills with sleepy movement afterward. Soft conversation. Shared smiles. Seokjin walking around your room searching for his shirt while you sit beneath the blankets laughing at him.
By the time both of you are finally dressed, the rain outside has softened into a light drizzle. The apartment suddenly feels too quiet already. Too aware of the goodbye approaching. Seokjin notices it too. You can tell from the way he keeps touching you absentmindedly every few minutes. A hand around your waist while you make coffee. His fingers brushing yours when you hand him a mug. Small touches like reassurance. Like he needs proof this is still real before he leaves.
When he finally stands near the doorway putting on his shoes, the mood shifts completely. The soft happiness remains. But underneath it now sits reluctance. Neither of you wanting the this day to end. Seokjin looks at you for a long moment before walking back over suddenly and pulling you into his arms again. This hug feels tighter than the others. Needier somehow. His face buries lightly against your hair while his arms hold you securely against him.
“I already miss you,” he murmurs quietly.
“You’re being dramatic again.”
“I’m serious.”
His hand slides slowly along your back.
“I’m going to hate driving back to Seoul.”
Emotion rises warm and heavy inside your chest. Because nobody has ever loved you this openly before. Not even him. Not until now.
“You know,” he says softly against your forehead, “I can just start visiting Busan constantly.”
You laugh quietly.
“You have a career.”
“I can multitask.”
“You say that now.”
“I mean it.” He pulls back slightly just to look at you properly. “Whenever I don’t have schedules, I’ll come here.”
Your heart melts hearing how sincere he sounds.
“Jin.”
“I spent too much time away from you already.” His thumb brushes gently beneath your eye. “I’m not doing that again if I can help it.”
Then he kisses you again. And this kiss feels dangerous because neither of you wants to stop. Slow at first. Then deeper the longer it lasts. Like every second apart already feels unbearable after finally having each other again. His hands cradle your face carefully while yours curl into the front of his jacket, pulling him closer instinctively. When he finally pulls away, both of you stay there forehead to forehead breathing softly.
“You have no idea how hard it’s going to be leaving you here today,” he whispers.
Your chest aches immediately.
“Then come back soon.”
His eyes soften completely hearing that.
“I will.”
And somehow, for the first time in years, you actually believe him.
Months change everything quietly. And somewhere between Seokjin driving four hours to Busan after exhausting schedules, falling asleep beside you on random Tuesday nights, and calling you from hotel rooms halfway across the world just to hear your voice before bed, the distance between Seoul and Busan slowly stops feeling like something temporary. It becomes your life together.
At first, his visits were planned carefully. He would text days ahead. Tell you exactly when his schedule ended. Ask what you wanted to eat. Ask if you missed him. Ask if you would still smile at him the same way when he arrived.
But eventually, months pass. And now Seokjin shows up at your apartment like he belongs there. Because maybe he does.
Sometimes you open your front door after work and find him leaning against the hallway wall wearing a cap and hoodie with takeout bags in his hands. Sometimes he arrives past midnight after filming and climbs into bed beside you so quietly he thinks you are asleep, only for you to feel him kiss your shoulder softly before whispering: “I missed you so much.”
And sometimes he calls you from different countries with messy hair and sleepy eyes while managers talk somewhere in the background.
London. Paris. Tokyo. New York. Different cities. Same voice asking: “Did you eat?”
“Are you sleeping enough?”
“Do you know how pretty you look right now?”
“You know I’m obsessed with you, right?”
Tonight, he arrives without warning again. You only hear the passcode at the door while standing in the kitchen making tea. At first you freeze. Then immediately smile because only one person enters your apartment like that now.
The door opens. A suitcase rolls softly against the floor. And there he is. Kim Seokjin fresh off an international schedule looking exhausted and beautiful all at once.
Dark coat. Black cap. Tired eyes that immediately soften the second they land on you. For one second neither of you says anything. Then Seokjin exhales deeply like the sight of you physically removed exhaustion from his body.
“There’s my favorite person.”
Your chest warms instantly.
“You were supposed to land tomorrow.”
“I finished earlier.”
His suitcase is forgotten near the entrance almost immediately because he walks straight toward you without another word and pulls you into his arms so tightly that your tea nearly spills. You laugh softly against his chest.
“Jin.”
“Mhm.”
“You smell like airport.”
“And you smell like home.”
You barely make it through dinner before ending up tangled together on the couch beneath blankets with rain playing softly outside again.
The apartment lights stay dim while London stories mix with kisses and sleepy laughter. He tells you about Taehyung getting lost near the hotel at two in the morning because he wanted snacks. You tell him about your coworker accidentally emailing the wrong client. He complains dramatically about airplane food while resting against your shoulder. Then somewhere between conversation and missing each other too much, talking slowly disappears altogether.
Now the apartment sits quiet except for rain and soft breathing. The blanket is tangled loosely around both of you on the couch. Seokjin lies half against your chest with one arm wrapped around your waist while your fingers move lazily through his slightly damp hair. The intimacy of moments after sex always affects you most. Seokjin presses a lazy kiss against your bare shoulder.
“I think my body forgot how tired it was the second I touched you.”
You smile softly while tracing small circles against his back.
“You need actual sleep.”
“I needed you first.”
The sincerity in his voice makes your stomach flip even after all these months. Because somehow he still sounds surprised by his own feelings sometimes. Still sounds amazed that loving you this much exists inside him.
Outside, headlights move faintly below your apartment while Busan settles deeper into night. Seokjin shifts slightly beneath the blanket until he can look up at you properly.
“You know what Yoongi said before I came here?”
“What?”
“He said if I kept driving between Seoul and Busan this often, I should just buy property here.”
You laugh quietly.
“Maybe you should.”
“I considered it for five minutes.”
His fingers slide slowly against your waist beneath the blanket. You stare at him quietly for a moment after that. At the exhaustion still lingering faintly beneath his eyes despite how happy he looks here. At the fact he came directly from the airport to you again without even properly resting first. At how naturally he rearranged his entire life around loving you.
The realization settles heavily in your chest. Because he really has been trying. Every single day. Without complaint. Without making you feel guilty for needing time.
“Babe,” you say softly.
“Mhm?”
“I’ve been thinking about something.”
His expression changes immediately. Concern first. Always concern when your voice turns serious.
“What happened?”
“Nothing bad.”
You brush your fingers lightly through his hair again before continuing.
“I’ve been thinking about moving back to Seoul.”
He goes still. Completely still. The rain outside suddenly sounds louder in the silence afterward.
“You mean visiting more often?” he asks carefully.
You shake your head slowly.
“No.” Your voice softens. “Actually moving.”
For a second Seokjin only looks at you. Like he is trying to make sure he heard correctly. Then slowly he pushes himself up slightly on one elbow.
“You’d leave Busan?”
“I think so.”
“Because of me?”
The question comes quieter than expected. Not arrogant. Almost worried. You smile faintly.
“Partly.”
His eyes search yours carefully.
“You don’t have to do that.”
“I know.”
“I mean it.” His hand slides gently along your arm. “If you’re happy here, I’ll keep coming. I’m not tired of it.”
Your chest aches hearing how honest he sounds.
“You drive hours every week.”
“And?”
“You barely rest sometimes.”
“I do it willingly.”
Your fingers brush softly against his cheek.
“That’s exactly why I’m thinking about it.”
Emotion flickers quietly across his face. Because Seokjin spent years believing loving someone meant eventually losing them. And now here you are considering rearranging your life simply to be closer to him.
“You really want to?” he asks softly.
You hesitate briefly. Then tell him the truth.
“When you leave lately, the apartment feels too quiet again.”
His eyes soften immediately.
“And I miss you in stupid little ways now.” A small laugh escapes you. “Like seeing couples at convenience stores and getting annoyed because you’re not there complaining about snacks.”
Seokjin smiles helplessly.
“You’re cute.”
“I’m serious.”
You exhale quietly before continuing.
“I think…” Your voice softens. “I think I spent so long protecting myself from loving you again that I forgot relationships are supposed to move forward eventually.”
The honesty hangs gently between you. Seokjin looks at you for a long moment after that. Then slowly, carefully, he lifts your hand to his lips and kisses your knuckles softly.
“You moving because you want to be near me feels close to making me emotional.”
“You’re always emotional.”
“True.”
You laugh softly. Then his expression changes again. More vulnerable now.
“I just don’t want you sacrificing things for me.”
“You drove from Seoul to Busan directly after a London flight.”
“That’s different.”
“How?”
“Because you’re worth it.”
The way he says it leaves no room for doubt. No hesitation. Just certainty. And maybe that is what finally breaks the last piece of distance still lingering between you. Because loving Seokjin no longer feels unstable now. It feels safe.
He shifts closer again beneath the blanket until your foreheads rest together.
“If you move,” he murmurs quietly, “I’m going to become even more unbearable.”
“You already act like my clingy husband.”
“I can get worse.”
His nose brushes lightly against yours while his fingers intertwine with yours beneath the blanket. Then softly, almost shyly somehow despite everything between you now, he whispers:
“I really like this life with you.”
Your heart folds completely at that. Because you do too. More than you ever expected. More than you tried to allow yourself to.
And somewhere outside, Busan disappears quietly beneath rain again while the two of you remain tangled together on the couch, building a future that no longer feels impossible.
Moving days never look the way people imagine them. Half sealed boxes, tangled chargers thrown into tote bags at the last minute, and standing in the middle of your apartment trying to remember where you packed your toothbrush while running on three hours of sleep. And yet somehow, this morning still feels important enough to remember forever. Maybe because it is not only about leaving Busan. Maybe because this is the first time your future with Seokjin feels fully real.
The night before stretched far longer than planned. Your coworkers insisted on one final dinner together before your move to Seoul, and somewhere between grilled meat, too many drinks, and endless teasing about your relationship, midnight slipped quietly into two in the morning. At one point Minseo raised her glass dramatically across the restaurant and declared:
“To the woman who survived heartbreak and ended up dating Kim Seokjin anyway.”
You nearly choked on your drink while everyone burst into laughter.
“You people are unbelievable,” you groaned, hiding your burning face in your hands.
“No,” Minseo corrected proudly. “We are emotionally invested.”
Then later, after the laughter softened and the restaurant emptied little by little, she looked at you quietly across the table.
“You really love him, huh?”
The question stayed with you longer than expected. Because months ago, you would have hesitated. Now the answer feels simple.
“Yes,” you admitted softly. And somehow saying it aloud no longer feels terrifying.
By the time you returned home last night, your apartment already looked unfamiliar. Half empty shelves. Closets standing open. Boxes lined neatly near the entrance waiting to leave with you tomorrow.
You stood in the middle of the living room for a long moment just staring around silently. This apartment held every version of you. The girl who cried herself to sleep after Seokjin left. The girl who tried convincing herself she could move on. The girl who slowly healed. And somehow, it also became the place where he returned to you.
Where he knocked on your door in the rain looking terrified you would never forgive him. Where he kissed you like someone finally brave enough to love honestly. Where both of you began again.
Morning arrives gently. Gray clouds still hang over Busan after days of rain, soft light spilling quietly through your apartment windows while the city wakes slowly outside. You stand in your kitchen wearing an oversized hoodie and fuzzy socks, staring sleepily at your coffee maker while trying to convince your body to function. Your phone buzzes.
Seokjin: Look outside.
You walk toward the window immediately. And there he is. Parked outside your building with hazard lights blinking softly near the curb, leaning casually against his black SUV while holding two iced coffees in one hand. Cap low over his eyes. Gray hoodie. And even from this distance, you can tell he is smiling the second he spots you at the window. Your stomach still flips every time.
When you finally make it downstairs, Seokjin opens his arms dramatically the moment you step outside.
“There’s my favorite Busan girl.”
You laugh tiredly while walking straight into his hug. The warmth of him instantly wakes you up more than the coffee probably would.
“You drove here early.”
“You’re moving to Seoul today.” He kisses the top of your head softly. “Of course I came early.”
His arms tighten around you for another second before he pulls back slightly to study your face.
“You look sleepy.”
“You kept calling me cute every ten minutes on videocall until two in the morning.”
“You were cute every ten minutes.”
“You’re impossible.”
“And deeply in love with you.”
The answer comes so naturally now that it leaves warmth spreading through your chest immediately.
Seokjin follows you upstairs.
“You are not lifting heavy things today,” he says firmly while grabbing two at once.
“You flew back from Paris two days ago.”
“And?”
“You’re exhausted.”
“I’m energized by romance.”
You stare at him. He grins proudly. Living with this man is going to be dangerous.
The apartment slowly empties little by little while soft music plays from your speaker in the background. Seokjin keeps getting distracted halfway through packing because he finds random objects and asks questions about them.
“What’s this?”
“My old camera.”
“You looked cute in your old photos.”
“You haven’t even seen the photos.”
“I know instinctively.”
At some point he finds an old hoodie of his shoved near the back of your closet and immediately gasps dramatically.
“You kept this?”
You freeze briefly before sighing.
“I forgot to throw it away.”
“That is emotionally significant actually.”
“You’re never letting this go, are you?”
“Absolutely not.”
By late morning, your apartment is finally empty enough that reality begins settling properly inside your chest. You are really leaving. Really starting over. And somehow, despite the nervousness, excitement keeps blooming stronger underneath it. Especially every time Seokjin looks at you. Like he still cannot believe this is happening either.
The last box disappears into the trunk eventually. Seokjin closes it carefully before turning toward you with his hands on his hips.
“Okay.”
“Okay?”
“Before Seoul.” He points toward the nearby road. “We’re stopping somewhere first?"
You blink.
“My parents.”
“Oh.”
Right. Your stomach immediately flips. Because your parents’ house sits only about twenty minutes away from your apartment in Busan. Close enough that leaving without visiting would feel wrong. But bringing Seokjin there suddenly makes everything feel terrifyingly real again.
“You’re nervous,” you notice quietly.
“Very.”
A soft laugh escapes you.
“You’ve performed at Wembley.”
“That was easier.”
“How?”
“At Wembley, nobody asked if my intentions toward their daughter were honorable.”
You burst into laughter. But honestly, your nerves are not much better. Your parents absolutely know who BTS are. Your father pretends not to follow entertainment news, but even he has mentioned their achievements before while watching television. And your mother definitely knows Seokjin specifically. Mostly because she once pointed at an ad during dinner months ago and said: “That handsome one always looks expensive.”
You wanted to disappear into the floor at the time.
The drive toward your parents’ neighborhood feels strangely intimate. Soft music plays quietly while Busan streets pass outside the windows beneath cloudy skies.
At some point your hand drifts naturally toward the center console. Seokjin immediately intertwines his fingers with yours without taking his eyes off the road. Small things like that still affect you embarrassingly hard. The ease of him now. The certainty.
“You know,” he says softly after a while, “I really want them to like me.”
You glance toward him.
“They will.”
He exhales quietly before smiling faintly.
“I’ve spent years having strangers think they know me.” His thumb brushes lightly against your hand. “But your parents actually matter.”
Emotion rises unexpectedly inside your chest hearing that. Because beneath all the fame and headlines and global success, Seokjin still worries about simple things like this. Being accepted. Being enough.
When the car finally turns onto your parents’ street, both of you go quieter.
Small houses. Flower pots outside gates. Laundry moving softly in the breeze. A place untouched by celebrity or schedules or flashing cameras. And suddenly Seokjin looks absurdly out of place here in his expensive hoodie and luxury SUV. Yet somehow also strangely perfect.
“You’re staring,” he says nervously.
“I’m imagining my mother’s reaction.”
“That bad?”
“She might cry.”
“Why is that scarier than hate?”
You laugh softly while squeezing his hand.
The moment your mother opens the front door, everything becomes chaos. Your name leaves her mouth first. Then her eyes land on Seokjin standing beside you carrying fruit and gift bags politely with both hands. And she freezes completely. Your father appears behind her seconds later. Then he freezes too. Silence fills the doorway. Seokjin immediately bows respectfully. “Hello, sir. Hello, ma’am.”
Your mother blinks rapidly. Then looks at you. Then back at him. Then quietly says: “Oh my god.”
You nearly die laughing right there.
The next hour somehow becomes surprisingly warm. Your mother fusses endlessly over Seokjin immediately. Your father asks polite questions while trying very hard not to look too starstruck. And Seokjin?
Seokjin handles everything perfectly. Respectful. Sweet. Charming without trying too hard. At one point your mother serves more side dishes onto his plate while saying:
“You’re thinner in person.”
You cover your face instantly.
“Mom.”
“What?” she asks innocently. “It’s true.”
Seokjin laughs so hard he nearly chokes on rice. Watching him sit comfortably at your family table affects you more than expected. Because this is not fantasy anymore. This is real enough to bring home. Real enough for your mother to ask him if he eats properly during tours. Real enough for your father to quietly tell him before leaving the table:
“Take care of each other.”
And the way Seokjin answers softly with complete sincerity stays with you the entire drive afterward.
“I will.”
By late afternoon, Seoul finally waits ahead of you beyond highways and cloudy skies. You lean sleepily against the passenger seat while Seokjin drives with one hand resting over yours again. Exhaustion slowly pulls at you after the emotional weight of the entire day. But beneath it sits something softer.
Peace. Excitement. Home.
“You okay?” Seokjin asks quietly.
You nod softly.
“Just tired.”
“Sleep if you want.”
You glance toward him. Then smile faintly.
"Wake me up when we’re home."
Seokjin looks at you for a second longer than necessary before lifting your hand to his lips briefly. Then softly: “Baby,” he murmurs, warm affection wrapping around every word, “you already are.”
By the time Seoul finally appears beyond the highway, evening has already begun settling over the city. The sky glows softly in shades of blue gray and gold while buildings flicker awake one by one beneath the darkening horizon. Cars move endlessly below overpasses, headlights stretching through the streets like rivers of light, and somehow the sight of Seoul still feels overwhelming.
“You nervous?” he asks softly.
You stare out the car window for another second before answering honestly.
“A little.”
His thumb brushes slowly across your knuckles. The closer you get to his apartment, the stranger it feels. Familiar. But unfamiliar too. Because you have been here before. Back when your relationship with Seokjin was still hidden inside almost confessions and unresolved tension. Back when you spent nights at the dorm laughing with the members in oversized hoodies while Taehyung stole food from everyone’s plates and Jungkook challenged people to games at two in the morning.
You remember sitting on those couches trying not to look at Seokjin too long because even then loving him already felt dangerous. And now somehow life has brought you back here again. Except this time, you are not visiting. You are coming home with him.
The car finally enters the private gates of his apartment. Luxury towers rise quietly against the evening skyline, elegant and intimidating all at once. Seokjin glances toward you briefly while parking underground.
“You’re thinking too loudly.”
You laugh softly.
“You can tell?”
“You get this wrinkle between your eyebrows.”
“I do not.”
“You do.” He reaches over immediately to smooth his thumb gently against your forehead. “There. Fixed.”
Your stomach flips stupidly. Even after all this time.
When the elevator doors finally open onto his floor, you freeze slightly stepping out. The hallway is quiet. Warm lighting glowing softly against dark walls. And somehow the silence feels heavier now because this place belongs to him. Not Kim Seokjin the idol. Not BTS Jin. Just him. The man who drives four hours just to sleep beside you for one night. The man who still kisses your forehead absentmindedly during conversations. The man you somehow found your way back to after everything.
He unlocks the apartment while glancing back at you. “You ready?”
“No.”
He laughs quietly before opening the door anyway. And immediately warmth spills out around you. Soft lighting. The faint scent of clean laundry and expensive candles. Floor to ceiling windows overlooking Seoul glowing beneath the night sky. The apartment is beautiful in the quietest way possible.
Modern. Elegant. Comfortable. It feels lived in.
You step inside slowly while Seokjin watches your reaction carefully.
“This is the one I bought last year,” he explains while removing his shoes. “The dorm building is two towers over.”
“I know. So close. ”
“Mhm.” He smiles slightly. “I liked staying near them.”
That sounds exactly like him. No matter how successful they become, the members still orbit each other like family.
You walk farther into the apartment quietly. The city stretches endlessly beyond the massive windows while warm ambient lights reflect softly across polished floors. There are little signs of Seokjin everywhere. Gaming consoles near the television. Neatly stacked wine bottles. A guitar resting near the corner. Photos with the members framed casually on shelves. And somehow seeing evidence of his everyday life makes this place feel even more intimate.
Seokjin stands beside you after a moment. Then clears his throat lightly.
“So.”
You glance toward him.
“You can choose any room you want.”
Your eyebrows lift slightly.
“Oh?”
“There are guest rooms.” He gestures vaguely down the hallway. “An office room. Another room I turned into basically a closet because apparently I have shopping problems.”
You laugh softly. Then his expression shifts slightly. More careful now.
“But,” he says quieter, “if you ask me… I want you in my room.”
The honesty in the way he says it nearly melts you immediately. Like sharing space with you means something deeply important to him.
“You really practiced saying that calmly, huh?” you tease softly.
“I actually rehearsed it in the car for twenty minutes.”
You burst into laughter.
“I hate you.”
“No, you don’t.”
Unfortunately, he sounds very confident about that.
Truthfully, this conversation happened many times already before today. Especially during the last month. Because your original plan involved finding your own apartment in Seoul after settling in and searching for work.
A normal plan. A logical plan. Seokjin hated it immediately.
“You are not paying ridiculous Seoul rent while I have empty rooms.”
You tried arguing several times. Tried insisting it would be too much too soon. But every conversation ended the same way. With Seokjin looking at you softly while saying:
“I just want to come home to you.”
And eventually, your heart lost the fight.
Now standing here inside his apartment, the reality feels strangely natural.
Like maybe this was always where both of you were heading eventually.
The next hour becomes filled with moving boxes and sleepy laughter.
Seokjin refuses to let you carry anything heavy.
“You drove all day too,” you argue while reaching for another box.
“And yet I remain strong and handsome.”
At some point he walks past carrying three boxes at once while dramatically flexing his arm.
You stare at him in disbelief.
“Are you showing off during moving day?”
“Yes.”
“You’re embarrassing.”
“You’re still looking though.”
God.
This man.
You are halfway through unpacking kitchen supplies when the front door suddenly opens.
Then loud voices immediately fill the apartment.
“Hyung, where do we put the chicken?”
“You bought too much food again.”
“Move, I’m carrying drinks.”
Your eyes widen instantly.
And seconds later, Taehyung appears first around the corner carrying bags of takeout before freezing dramatically the second he sees you.
Then his entire face lights up.
“There she is!”
Before you can even react properly, he drops the bags onto the counter and pulls you into a crushing hug.
And somehow the familiarity of it hits harder than expected.
Because Taehyung was there for everything.
The heartbreak.
The crying phone calls.
The nights you convinced yourself Seokjin never truly loved you.
Taehyung stayed through all of it quietly without ever forcing sides.
And now his arms tighten around you like he is genuinely relieved this ending finally changed.
“You have no idea how happy I am right now,” he says softly near your ear.
Emotion rises unexpectedly inside your chest.
“I missed you too.”
The rest of the members slowly fill the apartment afterward carrying enough food to feed an entire neighborhood.
Jungkook immediately starts unpacking snacks into Seokjin’s pantry like he lives there.
Namjoon hugs you warmly while asking about the move.
Yoongi gives you one quiet smile that somehow says everything.
Relief.
Approval.
Happiness for both of you.
And Hoseok nearly cries dramatically while looking between you and Seokjin.
“I waited years for this,” he complains loudly. “Do you know how exhausting your unresolved tension was for everyone else?”
You cover your face immediately while Seokjin laughs shamelessly beside you.
Eventually the apartment settles into warmth and noise.
Takeout containers spread across the dining table.
Music playing softly.
Conversations overlapping naturally.
And for the first time in years, being around them again feels easy.
Like finding your way back to family you accidentally lost for a while.
At some point later in the evening, you step quietly toward the windows holding a drink while staring out at Seoul glowing beneath the night sky.
The city looks endless from up here.
Beautiful.
Overwhelming.
Full of possibility.
Then suddenly Seokjin appears beside you silently.
His shoulder brushes yours lightly.
“You okay?”
You nod softly.
“Yeah.”
He studies your face carefully anyway.
Still checking.
Still making sure your happiness is real.
Then gently, almost absentmindedly, his fingers intertwine with yours.
“You know,” he murmurs quietly while looking out over the city with you, “I used to stand here wondering what it would feel like if you were beside me.”
Your heart softens immediately.
“And now?”
A small smile appears on his face.
“Now I’m wondering how I survived without it.”
Weeks pass so naturally inside Seokjin’s apartment that sometimes you forget there was ever a version of your life where you did not belong here.
Your things are everywhere now.
Your shampoo beside his in the shower.
Your favorite blanket permanently stolen by Seokjin because he claims it “smells like comfort.”
Your coffee order saved automatically on his delivery apps.
Even the kitchen slowly changes around you. More snacks you like. More fruits because you complained he ate like a college student living alone. More late night ramen because somehow both of you always end up hungry after midnight.
And Seokjin loves every second of it.
The first morning you leave skincare products beside his sink, he stares at them for a full minute before grinning to himself like an idiot.
The first time you fall asleep waiting for him on the couch, he takes a picture because apparently “you looked too cute to exist peacefully.”
The first time you casually say “our apartment” instead of “your apartment,” he almost drives into another lane.
“You said our,” he repeats immediately.
You blink from the passenger seat.
“What?”
“You said our apartment.”
“…Jin, please focus on driving.”
“No, this is important.”
“You are unbelievable.”
Life with Seokjin becomes soft in ways you never imagined.
Because both of you finally stopped fighting what exists between you.
And now that Seokjin has you beside him openly, he loves like someone trying to make up for every year he stayed silent.
He stays busy constantly.
There are days when he leaves before sunrise for schedules and returns close to midnight smelling like studio equipment, expensive cologne, and exhaustion.
Photoshoots.
Brand meetings.
Dance practice with the members.
Recording sessions that drag into early morning.
But no matter how busy he gets, he never lets you feel forgotten.
Not once.
He calls constantly.
If you leave for job interviews around Seoul, your phone rings the second you step out of the building.
“How did it go?”
“Did you eat yet?”
“Text me your location.”
“Do you want me to pick you up?”
At first you tease him for acting overprotective.
Then one rainy afternoon after an interview near Gangnam, you walk outside and find him waiting anyway despite insisting he had meetings all day.
You climb into the passenger seat laughing.
“You said you were busy.”
“I was.”
“Then why are you here?”
Seokjin shrugs casually while reaching over to squeeze your knee.
“I wanted to see you.”
“You saw me this morning.”
“I suffered terribly regardless.”
You genuinely do not know how this man survived being emotionally repressed for years because now he acts like affection physically leaks out of him every few minutes.
The relationship itself becomes deeply physical too.
God knows Seokjin has absolutely no self control around you anymore.
Like he spent too many years denying himself this and now refuses to waste another second.
Sometimes you barely make it through a conversation before he pulls you into his lap.
Sometimes you try cooking dinner and end up trapped against the kitchen counter because Seokjin decided kissing you mattered more than eating.
And the game room becomes especially dangerous.
Mostly because what starts as innocent competition never stays innocent for long.
One evening you beat him three times in a row at PlayStation racing games.
Seokjin stares at the screen in complete betrayal.
“This is suspicious.”
“You just lost.”
“No.” He points accusingly at you. “You distracted me psychologically.”
You laugh so hard you nearly drop the controller.
Then suddenly he reaches over, pulls you onto his lap, and kisses you until neither of you remembers the game still running in the background.
Hours later the controllers remain abandoned on the carpet while both of you lie tangled together on the couch in the game room laughing breathlessly at absolutely nothing.
And moments like that become your favorite.
Tonight, though, the apartment feels strangely quiet without him.
The clock nears midnight while Seoul glows beyond the massive windows, rain sliding softly against the glass outside.
You sit curled beneath a blanket on the living room couch wearing one of Seokjin’s shirts while waiting for him to come home.
His manager’s birthday dinner ran late.
You know that.
He texted updates earlier.
Still, part of you keeps glancing toward the front door every few minutes anyway.
Because loving Seokjin has turned waiting into instinct.
The passcode finally echoes through the apartment close to one in the morning.
Immediately your attention lifts.
Then the door opens.
And there he is.
Hair messy.
Cheeks slightly flushed.
Black coat hanging loosely from broad shoulders while the scent of whisky and cold night air follows him inside.
The second his eyes land on you curled up beneath the blanket, his expression softens so visibly it almost hurts your chest.
“Hi,” he says quietly.
Warmth spreads instantly through your body.
“You’re late.”
“I know, baby.”
His voice sounds rough tonight.
Lower than usual.
You notice immediately.
“You drank.”
Seokjin laughs softly while removing his shoes.
“Manager hyung kept pouring whisky.” He walks closer slowly afterward.
He reaches the couch and immediately bends down, pulling you into a kiss before you can say anything else.
Like the second he got home and saw you, his entire body relaxed at once.
Your fingers slide naturally into his hair while his hands cradle your face carefully.
The kiss tastes faintly like whisky and mint.
And when he finally pulls back slightly, his forehead rests against yours while his eyes stay closed for another second.
“I missed you so much,” he murmurs.
You laugh softly.
“You literally left this morning.”
“That was years ago.”
The way he says it makes your heart ache a little.
Because Seokjin always becomes softer when tired.
More open.
Like exhaustion lowers every wall he spent years building around himself.
You brush your fingers gently through his messy hair.
“Tired?”
“Mhm.”
“You should sleep.”
Instead of answering, he kisses you again.
Harder this time.
Enough to steal your breath completely.
Your body reacts instantly.
The kiss deepens slowly while his hands slide down your waist beneath the oversized shirt you are wearing.
And suddenly the atmosphere changes.
Because this man loves you now with his entire heart visible.
And every touch carries that truth inside it.
“Come here,” he murmurs softly against your lips.
You sink into the soft cushions beside him, naturally curling into his side as though your body already knows this is where it belongs. Seokjin’s arm rests around your shoulders with quiet ease, warm and protective, while his fingertips glide slowly along your arm in lazy circles that make your entire body soften against him. The room feels calm, filled only with his steady breathing near your ear.
Your pulse stumbles the moment his hand drifts lower, fingertips grazing the curve of your chest through the thin fabric of your tank top. Heat rushes through you so suddenly it leaves your thoughts scattered, your entire body growing painfully aware of how close he is. The slow touch sends warmth spiraling beneath your skin until the only thing you can focus on is him, the weight of his arm around you, the rough softness of his breathing near your ear, and the aching tension slowly unraveling low in your stomach.
His fingers curl gently beneath your chin, guiding your face upward until your lips meet his again. You fall back against the solid warmth of his chest while Seokjin kisses you with an intensity that steals the air from your lungs, deep and aching and full of everything he has been holding back all evening. The kiss turns messy almost immediately, his mouth moving against yours like he cannot get close enough, one hand tightening at your waist while the other remains cradling your face carefully despite the hunger between you.
A soft sound slips from you into the kiss, your fingers twisting tightly into the fabric of his shirt as you pull him even closer. You kiss him back with the same aching intensity, losing yourself in the warmth of his mouth and the faint trace of whisky lingering on his lips from earlier. The taste of it mixes with something unmistakably him, familiar enough to make your stomach tighten, and suddenly every thought in your head dissolves beneath the overwhelming feeling of being wanted this completely by the man you love.
His hands roam your body with urgent need, one sliding up to cup your tit, squeezing it roughly through the fabric until your nipple hardens into a tight peak, aching for more.
"Fuck, you're so hot," he growls against your lips, his voice gravelly with lust, and you feel his cock twitch against your hip, already straining in his jeans.
The kiss deepens, sloppy and wet, your tongues tangling as he nips at your lower lip, pulling a gasp from you that echoes in the quiet room. He shifts, pressing you back against his chest again, your body molding to his as his hands explore, one slipping under your top to pinch your nipple directly, rolling it between his fingers with just the right mix of pain and pleasure that makes you arch into him.
His other hand trails down your stomach, dipping beneath the waistband of your shorts, and you spread your legs instinctively, inviting him in.
"That's it, baby, open up for me," he whispers, his breath hot on your neck as his fingers find your pussy, already slick and swollen with need. He teases your clit first, circling it slowly with the pad of his thumb, the pressure light at first, building to a firm rub that has you whimpering and grinding against his hand.
Your nipple throbs under his relentless tweaking, the sensation shooting straight to your core, making your cunt clench around nothing. "God, you're so fucking wet already," he murmurs, his voice thick with approval, and you can hear the wet sounds as he works your clit faster, his fingers gliding through your folds with ease. The pleasure builds like a storm, intense and unrelenting, your back arching further against his chest as he holds you in place, one arm wrapped around you like a vice. You moan louder, then he slides a finger inside you, curling it just right to hit that sweet spot that makes your vision blur.
He adds another finger, stretching you open, pumping them in and out with a steady rhythm that has your pussy squelching obscenely, the sound mixing with your ragged breaths and his low grunts.
"Feel that? You're gripping my fingers so tight," he rasps, his thumb still working your clit in tight circles, the dual assault driving you wild.
Your body trembles, waves of ecstasy crashing over you as he fucks you with his hand, his fingers plunging deep, hitting that perfect angle that makes your hips buck uncontrollably. "Cum for me, baby," he commands, and you do, your orgasm ripping through you like a thunderclap, your pussy clamping down on his fingers as you scream, juices coating his hand in a hot, sticky mess. He doesn't stop, drawing out every shuddering aftershock until you're a quivering heap against him, your clit throbbing from the overload.
But he's not done with you yet. With a swift move, he flips you onto your stomach on the couch, your knees digging into the cushions as he positions himself behind you, yanking your shorts and panties down in one rough pull.
"I need to fuck you now," he growls, and you hear the rustle of his jeans as he frees his cock, thick and hard, the head already leaking precum that glistens in the dim light.
He lines up and thrusts into you from behind, burying his dick to the hilt in one go, stretching your cunt wide and filling you completely. "Fuck, your pussy's so tight, sucking me in like this," he groans, starting a punishing rhythm, his hips slamming into your ass with each deep thrust. The couch creaks under the force, your tits bouncing with every impact as he pounds into you, his balls slapping against your clit in a way that reignites the fire in your core. You push back against him, meeting his thrusts, the angle hitting deep inside, making you cry out with each stroke.
He pulls out suddenly, flipping you onto your back again, your legs wrapping around his waist as he enters you in one fluid motion, this time face-to-face so he can watch your expressions.
"Look at me while I fuck you," he demands, his eyes locked on yours as he drives in deeper, his cock throbbing inside your slick walls. The position changes the sensation, his dick rubbing against your G-spot with every withdrawal and slam, your pussy stretching around his girth, the fullness almost overwhelming.
Sweat beads on his forehead, dripping onto your chest as he leans down to suck on your tits, his teeth grazing your nipples while he fucks you harder, faster. "Your cunt feels amazing, so wet and hot," he pants, his thrusts growing erratic as he nears his peak. Finally, he pulls out, stroking his cock furiously over you, and with a guttural roar, he cums, thick ropes of hot jizz splattering across your breasts, coating your skin in warm, sticky streams that make you shiver with the raw intensity of it all. He collapses beside you, both of you breathless, the air thick with the scent of sex and satisfaction.
A while later, when the apartment finally falls quiet except for the sound of rain against the windows and both of your uneven breathing slowly calming, Seokjin presses one last lingering kiss against your shoulder before carefully untangling himself from you.
You groan softly the second his warmth disappears.
He laughs under his breath while brushing messy hair away from your face.
“I’ll be right back.”
“Where are you going?”
“To take care of you.”
The answer comes so naturally that your chest aches a little.
You watch him disappear briefly toward the bathroom wearing nothing except his boxers he barely bothered pulling on, and somehow even this version of Seokjin feels unfairly attractive. Hair disheveled. Lips swollen from kissing you. Sleepy eyes softened by affection instead of cameras.
A few moments later, he returns carrying a warm damp towel.
“Come here, baby.”
The tenderness in his voice nearly melts you.
You sit up slightly while he settles beside you again on the couch, carefully wiping your skin with slow gentle movements that make your entire body soften further into him.
“You okay?” he asks softly while brushing his thumb along your thigh afterward.
You nod immediately.
“Mhm.”
“You sure?”
You lean forward then, pressing a lazy kiss against his lips while your fingers slide softly along the side of his face.
“I’m okay,” you whisper.
Seokjin smiles against your mouth after that, small and relieved, before tossing the towel somewhere onto the floor and pulling you back against him.
Soon both of you end up tangled together beneath the blanket on the couch again, skin warm against skin while the city glows softly outside the windows.
Neither of you bothers getting dressed fully.
There feels no point anymore.
Not when the apartment is quiet.
Not when it is nearly three in the morning.
Not when his arms around you feel this good.
You rest lazily against his chest while Seokjin absentmindedly plays with your fingers beneath the blanket.
For a while neither of you says anything.
The silence feels comfortable now.
Then suddenly he speaks softly near your hair.
“You know what I realized recently?”
“Hm?”
“I really like this.”
You tilt your head upward slightly.
“This?”
“This.” He gestures vaguely around the room while smiling sleepily. “You stealing my blankets. Waiting for me at home. Talking about absolutely nothing at three in the morning.” His fingers squeeze yours gently. “I used to think love had to feel huge all the time. Dramatic. Intense.” He looks down at you quietly. “But this is my favorite part.”
Something warm spreads slowly through your chest.
Because once upon a time, loving Seokjin felt painful.
Now it feels peaceful.
You smile softly against his chest.
“You’re getting emotional because of whisky again.”
“I’m getting emotional because you moved into my apartment and somehow still haven’t gotten tired of me.”
“That’s true love honestly.”
He gasps dramatically.
“You hurt me.”
“You’re clingy.”
“And yet here you are. Naked on my couch.”
You burst into laughter immediately, hiding your face against his shoulder while he grins proudly above you.
“There she is,” he murmurs softly. “I missed your laugh today.”
Your heart does an embarrassing little flip.
“You saw me earlier.”
“I know.” His lips brush gently against your forehead. “Still missed you.”
Rain continues tapping softly against the windows while both of you drift deeper into comfortable conversation.
Small things at first.
Stories from his schedules.
A disastrous birthday speech Jungkook apparently attempted while drunk earlier.
You laugh so hard your stomach hurts listening to Seokjin imitate him.
Then eventually the conversation turns softer.
“You know,” Seokjin murmurs while tracing slow circles against your bare back, “there’s a café downstairs near the building I think you’d like.”
“Oh?”
“Mhm. It has terrible music choices but good pastries.”
“That sounds oddly specific.”
“I’ve been scouting boyfriend locations.”
You laugh quietly.
“Boyfriend locations?”
“Yes. Places where I can casually take you and pretend I’m not obsessed with you.”
“You fail at pretending.”
“I know.”
His honesty still affects you every single time.
A few moments later, he glances downward at you again.
“When you start working here in Seoul,” he says softly, “we should make routines.”
“What kind of routines?”
“Morning coffee together.”
“That sounds normal.”
“Late night convenience store dates too.”
“Very Korean drama of you.”
“I’m romantic. Accept it.”
You smile against his chest while listening to the steady rhythm of his heartbeat beneath your ear.
And suddenly you can picture it so clearly.
Days with him.
Normal days.
Messy mornings.
Late dinners after work.
Movie nights.
Arguments over what to order.
Falling asleep beside him like this over and over again.
“You know what scares me?” you admit quietly after a while.
Seokjin’s fingers pause briefly against your skin.
“What?”
You stare toward the city lights beyond the windows.
“That I’m this happy.”
The confession leaves your mouth before you can stop it.
For a second he says nothing.
Then his arm tightens slightly around you.
“You don’t have to be scared of being happy anymore.”
You lift your head slightly after that, looking at him properly beneath the dim apartment lights.
Hair messy.
Lips pink from kissing.
Eyes soft with exhaustion and love.
And suddenly it hits you all over again how deeply this man exists inside your life now.
Seokjin brushes his thumb slowly beneath your eye while looking back at you quietly.
“What?”
“You’re staring.”
“I’m thinking.”
“Dangerous.”
You laugh softly before kissing him again, slower this time.
Sleepier.
Full of affection.
And somewhere between quiet laughter, warm skin beneath blankets, future plans whispered carelessly at three in the morning, and Seokjin pulling you impossibly closer against him afterward, the storm outside fades into background noise completely.
Leaving only this.
Only him.
Only the overwhelming comfort of finally loving each other at the right time.
End.
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A/N: Hi lovelies! If you made it all the way here, thank you for sticking with this story. I know the updates took time and I appreciate your patience more than I can explain. This chapter (and honestly this whole story) means a lot to me, so I didn’t want to rush it even when life got busy. I hope you enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it.
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Sypnosis: She never dreamed of space. If anything, she spent most of her life resenting it.
Y/N is the daughter of a legendary astronaut the world still mourns, a man remembered for the stars while his family learned how to live with his absence. To everyone else, he was history. To her, he was every birthday missed and every empty seat at home.
Joining the international space program was never about passion. It was about proving she could survive the same sky that took him.
Then she meets Park Jimin.
A former pilot turned mission specialist, Jimin is everything she isn’t—warm, patient, endlessly easy to love. While she keeps people at a distance, he somehow slips past every wall she builds.
They compete. They clash. They slowly become inseparable.
Until a catastrophic mission failure leaves them stranded beyond Earth with failing systems, no rescue in sight, and impossible choices waiting in the dark between stars.
Because in space, survival always costs something.
And not everyone gets to come home.
Chapter 2 3 4 5 6 Final
AUTHOR’S NOTE
I honestly don’t even know where to start with this one.
Beyond Earth lived inside my head for months before I finally had the courage to write it. I worked on this story slowly in between updates of my main fics. I spent a lot of time researching while writing this. I watched interviews from astronauts talking about isolation, reentry, space psychology, survival training, and what Earth looks like from orbit. I also read articles and watched documentaries about NASA missions, EVA training, parabolic flights, orbital mechanics, communication delays, and survival protocols. Some parts were heavily inspired by real science, while others were fictionalized or simplified for storytelling purposes.
This is still fanfiction at the end of the day, not a scientific documentary, so if some things are not 100% realistic, please forgive me. I tried my best to balance emotional storytelling with believable space survival elements.
Main inspirations for this story:
• Gravity (2013)
• Interstellar (2014)
• Ad Astra (2019)
• The Martian by Andy Weir
• Apollo 13 documentaries
• NASA astronaut interviews and ISS mission videos
• Real EVA and underwater astronaut training footage
• Space psychology studies and isolation experiments
And of course, Park Jimin himself inspired so much of the heart of this story. I kept imagining someone warm enough to make even the cold emptiness of space feel survivable.
This story is already completed with around 52k words on my Ko-fi, but because Tumblr has word limits, I’ll be splitting the chapters into multiple parts here while posting. So if some chapters end abruptly, that’s the reason.
I think this might be one of the most difficult stories I’ve ever written, but also one of the stories closest to my heart.
I hope Beyond Earth stayed with you for a little while after the final page.
The first thing you notice is how carefully they rebuilt your father into someone easy to mourn.
Not a man but a legacy.
The memorial hall is enormous, cold in the overly air conditioned way expensive buildings always are, filled with politicians, reporters, astronauts, engineers, sponsors, military officials, old friends pretending they knew him best. Black suits. Polished shoes. Camera flashes. Soft classical music playing through hidden speakers.
Everything feels rehearsed.
Even grief.
At the front of the hall, a massive screen stretches from floor to ceiling, playing footage from one of your father’s most famous launches. The quality has been digitally restored for the ceremony. Every detail is painfully sharp. The silver reflection of the shuttle. The glow of floodlights against the dark sky. Your father walking toward the launch tower with his helmet beneath one arm while reporters shouted questions from behind barricades.
Commander Han Yejun.
The astronaut who spent more than four hundred days in orbit.
The man students wrote essays about.
The man the world called fearless.
The man strangers loved enough to cry over.
The man who forgot your seventeenth birthday because he was giving interviews from another continent after returning from a mission.
Applause erupts around the hall as the video shows him waving at the cameras before entering the shuttle.
You don’t clap.
You just sit there in the front row beside your mother, staring at the screen until your eyes begin to burn.
Everyone else sees history.
You only remember disappointment.
You remember being eight years old, standing in a school auditorium wearing a paper moon costume for a science presentation because your teacher told the class your father might come watch. You spent the entire afternoon searching every opening door with stupid hope blooming inside your chest each time footsteps echoed through the hallway.
He never came.
Later that night he called from another training facility halfway across the world and told you he was proud of you.
You remember hanging up before he finished talking.
The screen changes again.
Now it shows footage from inside the spacecraft. Your father floating weightlessly, smiling into the camera while Earth glowed behind him in impossible shades of blue and white. The audience watches in complete silence, captivated by the beauty of it.
You remember that exact documentary.
You were thirteen when it aired globally.
The entire world admired how devoted he was to exploration.
That same night, you walked downstairs for water and found your mother asleep at the kitchen table with unpaid bills scattered beside her and mascara dried beneath her eyes.
You stood there for a long time listening to the television replay your father’s interview from orbit while your mother quietly cried in her sleep.
People always talk about the sacrifice astronauts make.
Nobody talks about the families they leave behind on Earth.
A speaker walks onto the stage and clears his throat.
“He dedicated his life to humanity’s future.”
More applause.
Another speaker calls your father inspirational.
Another calls him courageous.
Another says his name belongs beside the greatest explorers in modern history.
Nobody says he missed your high school graduation because a launch schedule changed.
Nobody says your mother stopped asking him to stay years ago because hearing “I’ll try” hurt worse than silence.
Nobody says the last real argument you had with him ended with you screaming that space mattered more to him than his own family.
The guilt of those words still lives somewhere deep inside you, ugly and permanent.
Three months after returning from orbit, your father collapsed during an interview rehearsal.
Massive heart attack.
The doctors blamed prolonged stress on the cardiovascular system after extended exposure to microgravity.
The headlines called it tragic.
Heroic.
A man who gave everything to science.
You remembered standing in the hospital hallway staring at the vending machines because crying felt impossible at the time.
Even now, seated among hundreds of grieving strangers, you still don’t know if what you feel counts as grief.
The giant screen fades to black.
For a brief second, the hall becomes silent enough that you can hear camera shutters clicking in the back rows.
Then another video appears.
A polished promotional broadcast.
A woman in a sharp navy blazer smiles toward the camera.
“In honor of Commander Han Yejun’s lifelong contributions to space exploration, the International Aerospace Coalition officially announces recruitment for its Joint Lunar Program beginning this fall.”
The room immediately stirs with excitement.
People whisper.
Reporters begin typing.
The screen displays footage of astronauts training underwater, spacecraft prototypes, simulations of a future lunar station.
Your stomach turns.
You don’t know why anger suddenly floods your body so fast, but it does.
Maybe because they wasted no time turning his death into inspiration.
Maybe because even here, at his own funeral, space still comes first.
Not his wife.
Not his daughter.
Not the years he lost.
Not the family sitting in the front row trying to survive the aftermath of loving him.
Just the mission.
Always the mission.
Your mother reaches for your hand quietly, but you pull away before realizing it.
The guilt comes instantly after.
You stare at the screen while the announcer continues speaking about “the next generation of pioneers.”
And suddenly you remember every empty chair.
Every missed birthday.
Every delayed promise.
Every school event where other fathers showed up carrying flowers and cameras while your mother smiled too brightly beside you to make up for his absence.
You remember your graduation most clearly.
Rain poured the entire evening. Students ran around taking photos with their families while you searched through crowds anyway, even though you already knew he wouldn’t make it in time.
He called an hour later from an airport terminal.
“I watched the livestream,” he told you softly.
As if that counted.
As if screens had ever been enough.
You spent your entire childhood competing against something invisible.
Not another woman.
Not another family.
Space itself.
And space always won.
By the time the memorial finally ends, your head is pounding.
People stop you every few minutes near the exit.
“Your father changed the world.”
“You must be so proud.”
“He talked about you all the time.”
You nod politely until your face starts hurting from pretending.
Outside, rain drizzles softly over the city. Reporters crowd near the entrance waiting for statements. Camera lights flash against black umbrellas.
Your mother leaves with relatives.
You tell her you’ll take a taxi home later.
She looks exhausted enough not to question it.
So you wander the streets alone for almost an hour with your heels in your hand and rain soaking through your black clothes.
You end up at a convenience store just before midnight.
The fluorescent lights buzz overhead while old pop songs play quietly through speakers. Nobody recognizes you here. Nobody mentions your father. Nobody looks at you with pity.
You buy instant noodles and a canned coffee you don’t even want.
Then your phone buzzes.
A news notification appears across the screen.
Applications for the Joint Lunar Program officially open tonight.
You stare at it for a very long time.
Your first reaction is laughter.
Actual laughter.
Sharp and bitter and exhausted.
Of course they would open applications on the same day they buried him.
You should ignore it.
You should go home.
Sleep.
Move on with your life.
Instead, you sit alone beside the convenience store window while rain slides down the glass and something ugly begins unraveling inside you.
Because the truth is, your father spent his whole life chasing the stars while people worshipped him for it.
And no matter how hard you tried pretending otherwise, part of you always wondered what was so important up there that it mattered more than staying.
More than you.
Your fingers hover above the application link.
You think about your father teaching you calculus at the kitchen table during the few months he was actually home.
You think about him sneaking you astronomy books when your mother wasn’t looking.
You think about how furious you used to get whenever he looked happier discussing spacecraft than talking about ordinary life.
You think about the resentment you carried for years.
Then another thought slips in quietly beneath all the anger.
Maybe if you went up there yourself, you’d finally understand him.
Or maybe you’d prove he was never special at all.
Maybe space wasn’t worth what it took from people.
Maybe you could do everything he did and still come home better than him in the end.
The idea settles heavily inside you.
Not passion.
Not wonder.
Certainly not love for space.
Something far more dangerous.
You open the application.
And sometime around two in the morning, with rain still falling outside and your untouched noodles growing cold beside you, you submit it out of pure anger.
Because for the first time in your life, you want to beat your father at the one thing he loved more than his own family.
The apartment is dark when you get home.
Not quiet. Quiet would have felt comforting.
This feels hollow.
The kind of silence that settles inside places where people have spent too many years waiting for someone who rarely comes back.
You close the front door carefully so you do not wake your mother, though part of you already knows she is awake. Sleep stopped coming easily for her years ago. She mostly just lies in bed staring at the ceiling until exhaustion wins.
The hallway smells faintly like peppermint oil and old books. Your mother always rubs peppermint oil on her wrists whenever she has migraines, and lately the scent has become permanent inside the apartment.
You slip your heels off near the entrance and walk farther inside.
Everything looks exactly the same.
The framed magazines featuring your father still sit on the shelves untouched. Awards still line the living room cabinet. Mission patches. Photographs from launches. Signed memorabilia from astronauts who used to visit for dinner when you were younger.
The world always found your father inspiring.
You mostly remember him through voicemail messages.
Your eyes drift toward the wall beside the dining table.
Your graduation photo hangs there in a silver frame.
You almost look away immediately.
The picture was taken two years ago after your university commencement ceremony. You are wearing your honors sash and holding flowers while smiling beside your mother underneath pouring rain.
Only your mother.
You remember other graduates rushing around campus introducing relatives to professors while your mother fixed your hair with trembling hands because she knew exactly why you kept scanning the crowd.
Your father had promised he would make it.
Again.
Your phone buzzed thirty minutes after the ceremony ended.
Delayed launch preparations.
Emergency schedule changes.
You deleted the voicemail without listening to the end.
The memory still leaves something sour sitting inside your stomach.
You walk into the kitchen and grab a glass of water before leaning against the counter, staring blankly at the city lights outside the apartment window.
You still cannot believe you actually submitted the application.
The Joint Lunar Program.
Even thinking the words feels ridiculous.
Astronaut candidate selection was brutally competitive. Thousands applied every cycle. Most of them were military pilots, decorated scientists, engineers with impossible résumés, people who had dreamed about space since childhood.
People like your father.
Not angry daughters trying to outrun resentment.
You tell yourself nothing will come from it anyway.
You only applied because grief makes people impulsive.
Because anger needed somewhere to go.
Because maybe part of you wanted to understand what could possibly be worth sacrificing an entire family for.
That thought follows you into your bedroom.
The walls are still lined with old textbooks from university. Aerodynamics. Orbital mechanics. Systems engineering. Advanced propulsion structures. You spent years buried beneath impossible coursework while surviving on caffeine and stubbornness alone.
Your mother used to joke that you inherited your father’s brain and her inability to sleep.
You graduated top of your department with a degree in aerospace engineering and flight systems design. During your final year, you worked on experimental emergency stabilization software for low orbit aircraft, which unexpectedly earned attention from private aerospace companies.
You hated every second of the publicity.
Reporters kept mentioning your father during interviews.
“Following in his footsteps?”
You nearly walked out each time.
After graduation, you joined an advanced aerospace research program specializing in flight control systems and spacecraft structural failures. Most of your work involved simulations, emergency protocols, navigation systems, and mechanical troubleshooting for long duration orbital missions.
You became good at fixing problems before they killed people.
Maybe because deep down, you were still trying to fix something much older.
You place your bag down beside the bed and finally notice the blinking notification light on your laptop.
Probably spam.
You open it anyway.
Then freeze.
SUBJECT: JOINT LUNAR PROGRAM APPLICATION STATUS
Your heartbeat begins climbing before you even click it open.
You expect rejection immediately.
Instead, the email congratulates you for advancing into preliminary candidate evaluations.
Attached below are physical assessment schedules, psychological examinations, flight aptitude testing requirements, and relocation details for the astronaut training facility in Houston.
You stare at the screen for so long your vision starts blurring.
This has to be a mistake.
You reread the email three times.
Then fourth.
Still real.
Your first instinct is panic.
Your second is anger.
Because suddenly this is no longer some dramatic decision made in the middle of grief and rain outside a convenience store.
Now it exists.
Now it can actually happen.
A soft knock interrupts your thoughts.
Your mother slowly opens the bedroom door.
Her face looks smaller lately. Grief has a way of shrinking people little by little.
“You’re home late,” she says quietly.
You nod once.
Neither of you mention the funeral.
Neither of you mention him.
That has become normal.
Her eyes drift toward your laptop screen accidentally.
You move too slowly before she notices the program logo.
Silence fills the room.
Your mother looks at you for a very long time.
And somehow that hurts more than yelling would have.
“You applied,” she says softly.
You look away first.
“I probably won’t even pass evaluations.”
She steps farther into the room carefully, like she is afraid one wrong movement might shatter something fragile between you.
“You used to hate when he left.”
The words land harder because they are true.
You swallow.
“I still do.”
“Then why?”
You wish you had a better answer.
Something noble.
Something inspirational.
Instead, the truth comes out ugly.
“Because I’m tired of wondering what mattered so much more than us.”
Your mother’s eyes immediately fill with tears she tries not to show.
For a second you regret saying it.
Then she quietly walks toward your desk and picks up one of your old engineering notebooks.
She flips through pages filled with equations and system sketches.
“You know,” she says carefully, “your father kept every article written about your research.”
You blink.
“What?”
“He bragged about you constantly when he was away.” A small sad laugh escapes her. “The other astronauts probably knew your GPA better than their own mission data.”
The room suddenly feels too small.
Your mother closes the notebook gently.
“He loved space,” she whispers. “But he loved you too. He was just terrible at knowing how to hold both at the same time.”
You do not answer.
Because part of you believes her.
And another part is still angry enough not to forgive him.
Three months later, you arrive in Houston with two suitcases and absolutely no emotional preparation for what astronaut training actually looks like.
The facility is enormous.
Glass buildings. Simulation centers. Underwater training tanks deeper than some lakes. Engineers and pilots rushing through hallways carrying tablets and coffee cups while screens display orbital maps and launch schedules in real time.
Everything feels intimidatingly alive.
The first week nearly destroys you.
Physical endurance tests begin before sunrise. Rotational chair exercises leave half the candidates vomiting. Survival training pushes people until they collapse from exhaustion. Every instructor speaks with brutal efficiency because one mistake in space means death.
Nobody cares who your father was here.
Which is exactly how you want it.
Then Park Jimin ruins your peace almost instantly.
You first see him during orientation.
Or rather, you hear him first.
Laughter.
Warm, effortless laughter spreading across the room while exhausted candidates instinctively drift toward him like gravity itself shifted directions.
He sits casually on top of a table near the back of the training room wearing a dark academy jumpsuit half zipped at the collar. Soft blond hair falling into his eyes. Bright smile. Easy confidence.
The type of person strangers trust immediately.
You dislike him on sight.
Which becomes deeply inconvenient because apparently everyone else is obsessed with him.
Instructors know his name already.
Candidates gather around him during breaks.
Even the cafeteria staff seem charmed by him somehow.
Within two days, you learn several things about Park Jimin.
Former Air Force pilot.
Top percentile in flight adaptability testing.
Specialized in orbital maneuver operations.
Infuriatingly good at almost everything.
Also incapable of shutting up.
“You’re the engineer, right?” he asks during simulation prep while leaning against your station. “The one who built emergency stabilization software?”
You keep your eyes on your monitor.
“You’re blocking my screen.”
Instead of getting offended, he grins wider.
“Oh, you’re scary.”
You ignore him completely.
Unfortunately, Park Jimin seems to enjoy being ignored.
Over the next several weeks, he keeps appearing everywhere.
During centrifuge training where he somehow still jokes while everyone else looks seconds away from death.
During underwater simulations where instructors constantly praise his composure.
During navigation drills where he finishes problems absurdly fast before casually spinning pens between his fingers like this is all fun to him.
Meanwhile you work yourself into exhaustion trying to stay ahead.
And somehow he still keeps beating your scores.
Barely.
Always barely.
Which honestly feels worse.
Then comes the orbital emergency simulation that changes everything.
Candidates are placed individually inside full mission simulators designed to replicate catastrophic system failures during lunar descent.
Pressure leaks.
Communication blackouts.
Navigation collapse.
Everything happening at once.
You spend six brutal hours inside the simulator solving emergency sequences while instructors monitor every decision from behind observation glass.
When you finally emerge, exhausted and sweating through your uniform, one instructor looks genuinely impressed.
“Best stabilization recovery we’ve seen this cycle.”
Relief floods through you so suddenly you almost smile.
Almost.
Then another instructor glances down at his tablet.
“Well. Second best.”
Your mood instantly darkens.
You turn toward the digital ranking board.
At the very top:
PARK JIMIN
98.7%
Directly underneath:
Y/N
98.4%
You stare at the numbers in disbelief.
Point three.
Three miserable decimals.
“That’s impossible,” you mutter.
“Not impossible,” a familiar voice says behind you. “Just tragic.”
You turn sharply.
Jimin stands there holding two water bottles, annoyingly relaxed despite the six hour simulation everyone else barely survived.
He tosses one toward you.
You almost let it hit the floor out of spite.
“You almost had me, Commander,” he says with a teasing smile.
Commander.
The nickname drips with sarcasm.
Your eyes narrow immediately.
“You’re enjoying this way too much.”
“A little,” he admits easily.
You should hate how attractive he looks while smiling.
You especially hate the fact that he knows it.
The other candidates laugh nearby while Jimin walks beside you toward the locker rooms.
“You know,” he continues casually, “most people congratulate someone after they survive a catastrophic lunar crash simulation.”
“I would’ve survived better if your score didn’t exist.”
He laughs again.
Bright. Genuine. Completely irritating.
“You’re competitive.”
“You’re arrogant.”
“Ouch.”
“You think this is some game.”
That finally makes him quieter.
For the first time since meeting him, his expression softens slightly.
“No,” he says carefully. “I just think if we’re going to spend our lives preparing for terrifying things, we should still find reasons to laugh sometimes.”
The honesty catches you off guard.
And for one annoying second, you almost understand why everyone loves him so much.
Which honestly might be the most dangerous thing about Park Jimin.
By the fourth month of astronaut training, you learn that exhaustion can become a personality.
People stop introducing themselves properly because everyone is too tired to pretend they are functioning normally anymore. Candidates fall asleep in cafeterias with protein bars still in their hands. Someone throws up during centrifuge testing almost every week. Half the program walks around covered in bruises from impact drills and underwater simulations.
And somehow, Park Jimin still smiles through all of it like his body never learned the meaning of burnout.
You hate him a little for that.
Actually, no.
You hate the fact that part of you has started looking for him automatically in every room.
The realization irritates you enough to avoid him for nearly three days.
Unfortunately, avoiding Park Jimin is almost impossible.
Especially because the instructors keep pairing you together.
“Your problem,” Commander Alvarez tells both of you during briefing one morning, “is that you’re individually excellent and collectively unbearable.”
The room bursts into laughter.
Jimin looks delighted.
You look away before he notices you fighting a smile.
Today’s training takes place inside the Neutral Buoyancy Facility, a massive underwater simulation tank used to replicate zero gravity conditions for EVA operations. The pool is so enormous it feels endless, stretching beneath industrial lights and metal platforms high above the water.
Inside the tank sits a full scale mockup of part of the lunar orbital station.
Every astronaut candidate fears this training.
Underwater EVA exercises are physically brutal. The suits alone weigh hundreds of pounds outside the water. Movements are slow and suffocating. Visibility changes constantly. One wrong adjustment can disorient you completely.
The instructors call it controlled drowning.
You believe them.
Candidates move around the prep area checking suit seals and oxygen systems while technicians communicate through headsets. Everything smells like chlorine, metal, and machinery.
You sit on the edge of the platform while a technician secures your gloves.
“Vitals look good,” she says. “You nervous?”
“No.”
“A little nervous is healthy.”
“I said no.”
The technician raises her eyebrows slightly but says nothing else.
Across the platform, Jimin is already suited up.
Even buried beneath layers of equipment, he somehow still looks unfairly relaxed. His helmet rests beneath one arm while he talks to another candidate who looks seconds away from a panic attack.
You watch Jimin crouch beside him, speaking quietly until the candidate finally laughs.
Then Jimin notices you staring.
His mouth curves instantly.
You look away before he can wave.
Annoying.
Everything about him is annoying lately.
Especially because your body has started reacting to him in ways you absolutely refuse to examine too closely.
The way his voice settles into something softer whenever he talks directly to you.
The way he always reaches instinctively toward your elbow during difficult simulations.
The way he remembers tiny details without making a big deal about them.
Three nights ago, he left a cup of coffee outside your dorm room before a 5 a.m. endurance evaluation because he overheard you complaining about the cafeteria coffee tasting like melted batteries.
He did not mention it afterward.
You did not thank him.
That should have made things simpler.
Instead, it somehow made them worse.
“Ready, Commander?”
You glance up.
Jimin stands beside you now holding his helmet beneath one arm. There is amusement in his eyes already, like he knows exactly how much the nickname irritates you.
“You know if you keep calling me that sarcastically, I might start believing you’re obsessed with me.”
His grin widens immediately.
“There she is.”
You roll your eyes and stand.
The instructors begin final briefing procedures before the dive.
Today’s objective involves external station repairs during simulated communication failure. Candidates must navigate structural panels underwater while managing oxygen consumption and equipment troubleshooting simultaneously.
Simple in theory.
Terrifying in execution.
You descend into the tank alongside Jimin twenty minutes later.
The second your body slips beneath the water, the world changes completely.
Sound disappears first.
Then gravity.
Everything becomes slow and strangely dreamlike beneath the massive blue depth of the facility. Lights shimmer overhead while the station mockup stretches around you like some abandoned structure floating endlessly through space.
Your breathing echoes loudly inside your helmet.
You move carefully along the station exterior, securing cables and checking system panels while instructors monitor from above through underwater communication systems.
Jimin works several feet away from you.
Even underwater, he moves gracefully.
Efficient. Calm. Confident.
You hate noticing that too.
“Commander,” his voice crackles through comms, “you missed a latch.”
You glance over sharply.
“I absolutely did not.”
He points toward the panel beside you.
You freeze.
The latch is, unfortunately, unsecured.
Silence fills the comm line for two seconds.
Then Jimin laughs.
Soft at first.
Then louder.
“You were saying?”
“You’re insufferable.”
“And yet you’re still thinking about me.”
You mutter several things the communications team definitely should not hear.
The instructors sigh audibly through comms.
“Focus, both of you.”
Training continues.
You force yourself to concentrate on the repair sequence in front of you. Tools float tethered beside your suit while oxygen readings pulse steadily across your display.
Everything feels manageable again.
Until suddenly it doesn’t.
At first, it is subtle.
A strange resistance in your breathing.
You inhale once.
Then again.
The airflow feels thinner somehow.
Your brows furrow instinctively.
You check your oxygen gauge.
Numbers fluctuate strangely before stabilizing again.
Probably a sensor glitch.
You continue working.
Then your next breath catches halfway.
Your entire body immediately goes alert.
You inhale harder.
Nothing.
Not nothing exactly.
Just not enough.
Panic flashes hot through your bloodstream.
You tap the regulator twice.
Still restricted airflow.
Your breathing grows sharper inside the helmet.
“Control,” you say through comms, trying to keep your voice steady. “I think my regulator is malfunctioning.”
Static answers first.
Then broken audio.
“Repeat… signal weak…”
Of course.
Communication failure simulation.
For one terrible second, you forget this is training.
Your lungs begin working harder automatically, desperate for air that no longer arrives properly. The tank suddenly feels enormous around you. Endless. Suffocating.
You force yourself to stay calm.
Panic burns oxygen faster.
You know that.
You know every protocol.
Every emergency procedure.
But knowing something and surviving it are different things entirely.
You attempt manual override.
The regulator jams.
Your vision flickers slightly.
“Control,” you say again, breathing uneven now. “This isn’t part of the simulation.”
No response.
Water presses around you from every direction.
Your heartbeat becomes deafening inside the helmet.
You try moving toward the ascent line but dizziness hits halfway there. Your limbs feel strangely heavy. Thoughts begin slowing apart at the edges.
Then a hand grabs your wrist.
Jimin.
His eyes widen instantly behind his visor the moment he sees your oxygen display.
Everything about him changes at once.
No teasing.
No laughter.
Only terrifying focus.
He signals emergency ascent immediately while pulling you closer. You shake your head stubbornly and try reaching for the backup valve yourself.
He catches your hand before you can fumble the controls further.
You hate the fear visible in his expression.
Hate it because suddenly you realize he is genuinely scared for you.
Your breathing turns ragged.
Black spots creep into your vision.
Jimin switches to emergency oxygen transfer with quick practiced movements, connecting auxiliary airflow directly into your suit system.
Fresh oxygen floods your lungs.
The relief hurts.
Your body nearly collapses from it.
Jimin keeps one hand locked tightly around your harness while guiding both of you upward through the water. Instructors and safety divers descend rapidly toward you now, their voices distorted through the chaos flooding comm channels.
The ascent feels endless.
By the time they drag both of you onto the platform, your hands are shaking violently from adrenaline and oxygen deprivation.
Technicians crowd around immediately.
“Get her helmet off.”
“Vitals?”
“Easy, breathe slowly.”
Someone removes your gloves while another checks your pulse.
The entire room feels too bright.
Too loud.
Your lungs ache with every inhale.
Across the platform, Jimin rips his own helmet off hard enough that water sprays everywhere.
His hair is soaked, curls sticking messily across his forehead while panic still lingers openly across his face.
“Are you okay?” he asks immediately.
You nod automatically even though you are not.
The medical staff continue checking your vitals while instructors investigate the damaged regulator system nearby.
Apparently a valve failure caused oxygen restriction during pressure transition.
Rare.
Dangerous.
Almost catastrophic if unnoticed any later.
Everyone keeps talking around you.
You barely hear any of it.
Because suddenly embarrassment crashes over you harder than fear did.
You almost blacked out.
You lost control.
And worst of all, Jimin saw it happen.
You stand too quickly.
A medic reaches toward you.
“Careful, your oxygen levels are still recovering.”
“I’m fine.”
“You should sit down another few minutes.”
“I said I’m fine.”
Your voice comes out sharper than intended.
The medic backs away slightly.
Jimin watches you quietly from several feet away.
Still soaked.
Still breathing harder than normal.
Still looking at you like the thought of losing you terrified him.
And for some reason, that makes anger rise inside you immediately.
Because you do not want people worrying about you.
You do not want to become someone fragile.
You especially do not want Park Jimin looking at you like that.
So instead of saying thank you like a normal person, you hear yourself snap:
“I didn’t need help.”
The entire platform falls strangely quiet.
One instructor actually closes his eyes briefly like he physically felt the stupidity of that statement.
Jimin stares at you for a long moment.
Water drips slowly from his hair onto the floor.
You expect him to joke.
Or argue.
Instead, his expression changes into something much quieter.
Something disappointed.
“Yeah,” he says softly. “That’s your problem.”
The words hit harder than yelling would have.
Before you can respond, he turns and walks away toward the equipment corridor without looking back.
And for the rest of the day, the terrifying part is not almost drowning.
It is realizing how much you hated watching him leave angry.
After the water tank incident, something between you and Jimin changes.
The shift is subtle enough to make you question whether you imagined it in the first place.
He still smiles around everyone else. Still jokes during simulations. Still somehow becomes the center of every room without even trying. Candidates continue orbiting around him naturally during breaks while instructors praise his adaptability and composure during evaluations.
To everyone else, Park Jimin remains exactly the same.
Only you notice the difference.
He stops lingering beside your station during training.
Stops teasing you every five minutes.
Stops bringing you coffee before early evaluations.
The sarcastic “Commander” disappears completely.
At first, you tell yourself the silence is a relief.
Then three days pass.
And you realize you miss hearing his voice.
Which feels deeply humiliating.
The problem with Park Jimin is that he had somehow slipped into your routine without permission. You got used to hearing him laugh from across simulation rooms. Got used to catching him dancing in elevators when he thought nobody was looking. Got used to his constant commentary during training sessions.
Now the absence of it follows you everywhere.
You hate that too.
By the end of the week, Houston is drowning in rain.
Water streaks endlessly down the massive glass windows of the astronaut facility while thunder rumbles outside hard enough to shake the dormitory walls. Most candidates spend nights studying inside common lounges or passed out unconscious from exhaustion.
You should probably be asleep too.
Instead, you sit alone at your desk staring blankly at orbital navigation equations while rereading the same paragraph for nearly twenty minutes.
Your concentration has been terrible lately.
Every time your thoughts quiet down, they drift back toward the same person.
Annoying.
You shove your textbook away with a frustrated sigh and stand.
Maybe coffee will fix it.
The dormitory halls are mostly dark this late at night. Only emergency lights glow softly along the floors while rain lashes against distant windows. You walk toward the common kitchen half awake, rubbing exhaustion from your eyes.
Then you notice the observatory lights upstairs.
The facility observatory sits at the very top of the training complex, mostly used for navigation exercises and astronomical orientation classes. Candidates rarely visit it outside scheduled sessions because everyone is usually too exhausted.
Tonight, pale light spills quietly beneath the doorway.
You almost keep walking.
Then something stops you.
Maybe curiosity.
Maybe boredom.
Maybe the strange restless feeling sitting inside your chest ever since the argument by the water tank.
You head upstairs.
The observatory is nearly silent when you step inside.
Massive curved windows overlook the storm covered city below while digital star maps glow faintly across suspended screens. Rain taps softly against the glass dome overhead.
At first, you think the room is empty.
Then you hear it.
A woman’s voice.
Gentle.
Warm.
Distorted slightly through old audio speakers.
“You have to eat properly before flying, Jimin-ah. Last time you skipped breakfast and nearly fainted.”
A soft laugh answers the recording.
You freeze immediately.
Jimin sits alone near the far side of the observatory floor, leaning back against the wall beneath dim blue starlight projections. His knees are drawn slightly upward, one arm resting loosely across them while an old voice recorder plays quietly beside him.
His head tilts down.
Eyes closed.
For the first time since meeting him, Park Jimin is not smiling.
Something about that realization unsettles you unexpectedly.
Because until now, his happiness had always seemed effortless. Natural. Like sunlight. Like breathing.
Seeing the absence of it feels strangely intimate.
You should probably leave before he notices you.
Instead, you stay frozen near the doorway while the recording continues.
“You know your father worries when you fly too recklessly.”
A younger version of Jimin laughs softly through the speaker.
“He worries when I breathe too recklessly.”
His mother laughs at that.
The sound fills the observatory briefly before fading into static.
Silence settles afterward.
Jimin opens his eyes slowly.
“You can come in. You are not exactly good at being invisible.”
There was no teasing in it this time. Only a quiet tiredness that made the words feel less like a joke and more like an invitation he almost did not want to offer.
You stepped inside slowly, careful not to interrupt whatever space he had built around himself. The observatory door clicked softly behind you, and the sound felt too loud in the silence that followed.
For a while, neither of you spoke.
The city below blurred through sheets of rain, and the projected stars above kept drifting across the glass ceiling like they were unaware of anything happening on the ground.
Jimin finally reached over and paused the recording.
The woman’s voice disappeared mid sentence, leaving a strange emptiness behind it.
“My mother hated flying,” he said suddenly, like he had decided honesty was easier than avoidance.
You paused slightly, not expecting him to start there.
“She did not stop you from becoming a pilot?” you asked carefully.
A faint smile touched his mouth, but it was distant, almost nostalgic rather than amused.
“She tried,” he admitted. “More times than I can count. She was terrified of it, honestly. Every time my father had a flight scheduled, she would pretend she was fine, but she never slept properly until he came home.”
His fingers turned the recorder slowly in his hands, like grounding himself through motion.
You listened without interrupting.
“My father was a pilot too,” he continued after a moment. “Commercial and later rescue operations. He eventually moved into aerospace work, flight coordination, and later became involved in early orbital training programs. That was his world before I ever stepped into it.”
He exhaled quietly.
“They say I got into this because of him, and that is not wrong. I idolized him when I was growing up. I wanted to be exactly like him. Someone who could leave, do something important, and still come back like it was normal.”
His eyes drifted toward the dark glass of the observatory window.
“But my mother was the one who made everything feel like home.”
That sentence lingered longer than the others.
Jimin’s voice softened slightly as he continued.
“She was not part of aviation at all. She just lived in it because of us. She would be waiting at the door whenever my father came back from flights, always pretending she was not worried even when she clearly was. And when I started flying, she did the same thing with me.”
A small breath left him, almost like he was remembering something he did not usually say out loud.
“I became a pilot before all of this,” he added quietly. “Military flight training first, then rescue operations. I was already in active service when she died.”
That part landed differently.
“I was on rotation when it happened,” he continued, voice steady but lower now. “An aneurysm. It was sudden. No warning. I did not even get to say anything that mattered before I left that day.”
Silence settled again, heavier this time.
You did not realize you had gone still until he spoke again.
“After that, flying did not feel the same,” he said. “But I kept going. I think part of me thought if I stopped, it would mean I was leaving her too.”
His gaze lifted slightly toward the projected stars above.
“That is when I started applying for astronaut programs. Mission specialist track. My father was already involved in spaceflight development by then, working with international crews, training rotations, mission planning.”
He gave a small, almost absent smile.
You watched him carefully now, seeing something in him that did not match the version everyone else described.
Not effortless.
Not untouchable.
Just someone who had been carrying too many things quietly for too long.
Jimin leaned his head back lightly against the wall again, finally meeting your eyes for a moment.
“I did not come here because I was looking for something new,” he said more softly. “I came because I already knew what it felt like to lose people while still having to keep flying anyway.”
The words stayed in the air long after he stopped speaking.
And for the first time since you met him, you did not see Park Jimin as the smiling, effortless center of everyone’s attention.
You saw the son of a pilot who never really stopped flying.
A boy who learned too early what it meant to love people who were always halfway gone.
And somehow, that made him feel closer than ever before.
He notices your expression eventually and huffs softly.
“Wow. You look emotionally devastated right now.”
You roll your eyes automatically.
“There’s the annoying part again.”
“Comforting, isn’t it?”
A quiet laugh escapes you before you can stop it.
Jimin immediately looks toward you.
Like hearing you laugh feels rarer than it should.
The realization makes warmth creep embarrassingly into your face.
You clear your throat quickly.
“You never talk about yourself.”
“You never ask.”
“You never answer properly.”
“That’s because you interrogate people like a government agent.”
You almost smile again.
The storm outside begins calming slowly while silence settles more comfortably between both of you this time.
Eventually your eyes drift toward the framed aviation photographs stacked near his bag.
Pilot certification ceremonies.
Military flight awards.
Mission commendations.
One image shows Jimin beside a fighter jet looking impossibly young.
“You were an Air Force pilot before this,” you say quietly.
He nods.
“Rescue operations mostly. Then orbital flight specialization later.”
Jimin goes quiet for several seconds.
“I spent years chasing this feeling during flights.” He searches for the words carefully. “That moment when you’re high enough above the clouds that the world suddenly looks small and quiet and temporary.” A faint smile touches his face again. “Space felt like the next answer.”
You stare at him.
At the exhaustion beneath his eyes.
At the loneliness he hides beneath charm so naturally most people probably never notice it exists.
And suddenly the version of Park Jimin you built inside your head begins cracking apart.
Maybe he isn’t effortlessly happy.
Maybe he just learned early how to become the kind of person people never worry about.
The thought hurts more than expected.
Jimin notices you staring too long.
“What?”
You look away immediately.
“Nothing.”
“Liar.”
You ignore that.
But as rain continues sliding softly down the observatory glass, you realize something quietly terrifying.
Park Jimin is lonelier than you thought.
And somehow, against your better judgment, you think you might understand that loneliness better than anyone else here.
Friendship with Park Jimin happens so slowly you do not realize it is happening until it already feels permanent.
No sudden moment where both of you decide to stop fighting each other.
Instead, it begins with small things.
Annoyingly small things.
Like the fact that he starts saving you seats during lectures without asking.
You arrive late to orbital systems briefing one morning after oversleeping through two alarms and immediately notice an empty chair beside him near the center row. Your first instinct is suspicion.
Your second is irritation because several other candidates are already standing awkwardly nearby hoping to sit there.
Jimin looks up from his tablet the second you enter.
“There you are,” he says casually. “I was about to sell your seat.”
You slide into the chair beside him carefully.
“I didn’t ask you to save it.”
“That’s what makes me generous.”
You try not to smile.
Mostly fail.
After that, it becomes routine.
Lunches together happen accidentally at first.
Then constantly.
The training facility cafeteria serves food that somehow manages to taste aggressively mediocre no matter what cuisine they attempt, but meals become easier to survive when Jimin is sitting across from you making dramatic complaints about powdered eggs.
“These eggs feel emotionally hostile,” he says one afternoon while poking at his tray.
“You say that every morning.”
“Because they keep hurting me every morning.”
“You’re dramatic.”
He grins immediately.
There it is again.
That stupid smile.
The one that somehow makes him look warm even under fluorescent cafeteria lighting after twelve hours of training exhaustion.
You start noticing things about Park Jimin without meaning to.
Tiny details.
The way he unconsciously bites the inside of his cheek while concentrating during simulations.
The way his voice becomes softer whenever someone is nervous during evaluations.
The way he always stretches his shoulders after long training sessions because an old flight injury still bothers him sometimes.
The way he listens completely when people talk to him, like he genuinely believes every person deserves his full attention.
It would be easier if he were just charming.
But he is kind too.
Which feels significantly more unfair.
One evening during advanced navigation training, a younger candidate completely breaks down after failing a docking simulation three times in a row. The instructors move on quickly because astronaut training does not pause for anyone’s emotions.
You watch the candidate leave the room trying very hard not to cry.
Twenty minutes later, you pass the hallway outside and find Jimin sitting cross legged on the floor beside him sharing vending machine snacks while quietly explaining orbital calculations step by step.
You stand there longer than necessary watching them laugh about something before walking away unnoticed.
That night, you hate how warm your chest feels afterward.
You become study partners without officially discussing it.
Mostly because Jimin keeps appearing wherever you are already studying.
Library corners.
Simulation prep rooms.
Empty observatories at two in the morning.
At first, he distracts you constantly.
“You highlight textbooks like someone preparing for war.”
“You annotate your notes with smiley faces.”
“They improve morale.”
“They’re horrifying.”
He gasps dramatically every single time you insult him.
Then somehow three hours pass and both of you are still sitting there arguing over orbital descent equations while sharing cold coffee and exhaustion.
The strangest part is how easy silence becomes with him.
You are not used to easy silence.
Most people eventually grow uncomfortable around you because you are quieter than they expect. More guarded. Less willing to soften yourself for other people’s comfort.
Jimin never pushes too hard.
He teases.
Pokes.
Tries slipping through cracks in your walls constantly.
But whenever he notices you retreat emotionally, he eases back instinctively like he understands pressure only makes you run farther.
That realization unsettles you most.
Because he is learning you carefully.
And worse, you are learning him too.
Midnight conversations become your favorite part of the day before you even notice they matter.
Training schedules destroy normal sleep patterns for everyone, so candidates wander the facility at strange hours fueled entirely by caffeine and stress. More often than not, you find Jimin somewhere during those sleepless nights.
Sometimes in the observatory.
Sometimes sitting on rooftops outside dormitories with headphones around his neck.
Sometimes alone inside empty simulator rooms staring at stars projected across digital ceilings.
And somehow you always end up sitting beside him.
One night, both of you lie flat on the observatory floor while artificial constellations move slowly overhead.
The room is dark except for starlight projections glowing faint blue against your skin.
Jimin breaks the silence first.
“What did you want to become before aerospace engineering destroyed your social life?”
You snort softly.
“My social life was already dead.”
“Understandable.”
You think about the question seriously.
Then answer quietly.
“A pianist.”
Jimin turns his head toward you immediately.
“What?”
“My mother taught piano lessons when I was younger.” A faint embarrassed laugh escapes you. “I used to love it.”
“You still play?”
“Not really.”
“Why not?”
The answer takes longer.
Because it sounds stupid out loud.
“After my father became famous, every hobby started feeling pointless.” You stare up at the projected stars overhead. “Everyone expected me to become impressive too.”
Jimin stays quiet.
You continue before stopping yourself.
“I was good at math and physics. Aerospace engineering made sense.”
“But you didn’t love it.”
You hesitate.
Then shrug lightly.
“I liked understanding how things worked.”
“That’s not the same thing.”
His voice is gentle when he says it.
You glance toward him finally.
Jimin is already looking at you.
The dim artificial starlight softens his features strangely tonight. His blond hair falls messily across his forehead while exhaustion leaves his eyes quieter than usual.
For a second, something shifts painfully inside your chest.
You look away too quickly.
“What about you?” you ask. “Did you always want this?”
A soft smile touches his mouth.
“Since I was twelve.”
“That young?”
“My father took me to an air show.” His eyes drift upward thoughtfully. “I watched pilots disappear into the clouds and decided normal life would probably never feel enough afterward.”
“You make that sound poetic.”
He laughs softly beside you.
The sound settles warmly into the dark.
Later that same week, you realize something deeply unfortunate.
You start searching for him automatically.
It happens during training breaks first.
Your eyes drift instinctively through crowded simulation rooms looking for blond hair and familiar laughter before your brain catches up.
Then it happens during meals.
Then lectures.
Then random moments throughout the day when something amusing happens and your first thought becomes:
I need to tell Jimin.
The realization horrifies you.
Especially because you know exactly when he is absent now.
The facility feels different without him in it.
One afternoon, Jimin misses training after medical evaluations for his shoulder injury. The entire day feels strangely off balance afterward.
You become irritated more easily.
Distracted.
By dinner time, another candidate finally notices.
“You okay?”
You blink.
“What?”
“You’ve checked the door like eight times.”
Heat floods your face immediately.
“I have not.”
The candidate only smirks knowingly.
You spend the next hour pretending not to think about Park Jimin at all.
It fails miserably.
Meanwhile, Jimin is slowly falling apart over you in ways he never admits aloud.
It begins with details.
Your eyes first.
Brown in a way that changes depending on light. Warmer during sunsets. Darker during training simulations when you concentrate too hard.
He notices how beautiful they become whenever you forget guarding yourself for a few seconds.
He notices your hands too.
How your fingers move automatically while solving equations in notebooks.
How carefully you hold coffee cups during exhausted mornings.
How you unconsciously tap rhythms against tables whenever deep in thought.
The more time he spends around you, the more contradictions he finds.
Everyone at the facility thinks you are intimidating.
And you are sometimes.
Sharp tongued. Competitive. Difficult when angry.
But Jimin notices softer things hidden underneath.
The way you secretly leave corrected notes on struggling candidates’ desks anonymously.
The way you always thank cafeteria workers quietly even when exhausted.
The way your entire expression changes around children during public outreach events.
One afternoon during emergency response drills, a little girl visiting the facility asks nervous questions about spacecraft safety while the other candidates politely brush her off.
You kneel beside her for nearly twenty minutes explaining every answer patiently with hand drawn diagrams.
Jimin watches the entire thing silently from across the room.
Something dangerous settles inside him afterward.
Because suddenly he cannot stop imagining what you would look like loving someone openly.
And God.
That thought ruins him a little.
The worst part is that you have no idea.
You still think he flirts naturally with everyone.
Still think his smiles come easily.
Still think he is impossible to read.
Meanwhile, Jimin lies awake some nights replaying tiny moments with embarrassing precision.
The sound of your laugh when genuinely surprised.
The way you looked half asleep wearing his oversized hoodie after late study sessions because the observatory became freezing cold.
The quiet expression on your face whenever you think nobody is looking at you.
He wants to understand every version of you.
Because beneath every wall you built around yourself, Jimin keeps catching glimpses of someone gentle trying very hard not to be hurt again.
And for reasons he cannot explain yet, he wants to become someone safe enough for you to finally stop hiding around.
Even if it takes forever.
Chapter Two
A/N: This story is already completed with around 52k words and available for early access on my Ko-fi. Since Tumblr has words limits, I'll be splitting some chapters into multiple parts. Taglist is open if you'd like to be added. And please let me know your thoughts while reading because I love seeing your reactions, theories, favorite scenes, and emotional break downs with me.😭
Your life does not suddenly rearrange itself overnight. Instead, it begins quietly.
With a notification sound that starts becoming the first thing you look for in the morning.
With your hand instinctively reaching for your phone before your eyes are fully open.
With his name appearing so often throughout your day that eventually it no longer feels surprising.
The first text usually arrives before you even leave for work.
Sometimes earlier.
Sometimes when the sky outside your apartment window is still pale and quiet, the city only beginning to wake beneath soft morning fog rolling through Busan streets.
Jin: Did you sleep well?
Or—
Jin: Eat breakfast today. Don’t lie.
Sometimes he sends photos.
A badly made coffee from the company building.
Taehyung asleep in the practice room with his eyes open.
Jungkook stealing food in the background.
And somehow those tiny things settle into your mornings like they belong there.
You start smiling more without realizing it.
Your coworkers notice first.
“You’re checking your phone again.”
You look up from your desk to see Yuna leaning against the divider between cubicles, arms crossed, coffee in hand.
“I am not.”
“You literally smiled at your screen,” she says immediately.
You glance down at your phone again before locking it.
“I can smile at things.”
“Mhm.”
She narrows her eyes.
“Who is he?”
You nearly choke on your coffee.
“There is no ‘he.’”
“That reaction alone means there’s definitely a he.”
You roll your eyes, trying to ignore the warmth climbing your face.
But even after she walks away, your fingers unlock your phone again almost automatically.
Another message.
Jin: I survived practice. Barely.
Then another immediately after.
Jin: Yoongi told me I dance like my knees are filing for divorce.
A laugh escapes you before you can stop it.
And suddenly your day feels lighter.
That is the terrifying part.
Not how quickly he returned.
But how naturally he fits back into the spaces you spent so long trying to empty.
By afternoon, he usually checks in again.
Sometimes just one message.
Sometimes random thoughts that make no sense to anyone else.
Jin: Do you think fish get thirsty?
Or—
Jin: I just saw someone wearing socks with sandals. Society is collapsing.
You begin replying instantly without thinking about it.
You begin waiting for the messages without wanting to admit it.
And slowly, your days start revolving around someone again.
Like warmth returning to frozen hands little by little.
Then the voice notes begin.
The first one comes late at night.
You are already in bed, scrolling mindlessly through your phone after a tiring day when the notification appears.
A voice message from Seokjin.
You stare at it for a few seconds before pressing play.
His voice fills the quiet room immediately.
Low.
Tired.
Soft around the edges in a way text messages never capture.
“I was gonna text, but I’m too tired to type properly. We practiced for almost ten hours today and Jungkook somehow still has energy left. I think he’s secretly not human.”
You laugh quietly against your pillow.
Then his voice softens slightly.
“Anyway… I just wanted to hear myself talk to you for a second.”
Your chest tightens unexpectedly.
Not painfully.
Just enough to make you sit there replaying the message once it ends.
Then replaying it again.
And again.
After that, the voice notes become regular.
Sometimes short.
Sometimes long enough that you end up listening while getting ready for work.
He sends them from waiting rooms.
From cars.
From backstage hallways while staff rush around him.
And somehow, through all the noise surrounding his life, his voice always sounds calmest when he is talking to you.
One rainy evening, you stop by a convenience store on your way home from work.
The weather is cold enough that your fingers ache slightly around the umbrella handle.
You buy ramen, instant coffee, snacks you do not need.
And while waiting for the traffic light to change outside, your phone vibrates.
Another voice note.
You press play immediately.
You can hear faint music in the background.
A hotel room, maybe.
“I couldn’t sleep.”
You continue standing there beneath neon lights reflecting off rain soaked pavement.
His voice continues.
“I think I spent so much time trying to ignore how I felt that I forgot what honesty sounded like.”
You stop walking completely.
Cars pass in front of you.
People brush by your shoulder.
But all you hear is him.
“Do you know what scares me the most?”
A pause.
Long enough that you unconsciously hold your breath waiting for the rest.
“That I had you for so long and kept acting like I had more time.”
That night, you replay the message four times before sleeping.
The calls continue too.
Longer now.
More personal.
There are nights where neither of you wants to hang up first, so conversations stretch until exhaustion softens both your voices.
And in those hours, he starts telling you things he never used to.
Not the polished version of himself the world knows.
The real one.
The tired one.
The scared one.
“I used to sit in hotel rooms after schedules and wonder why everything felt empty even when my life was full,” he admits one night.
You lie quietly in bed listening to him.
“Did you tell anyone that?” you ask softly.
“No.”
“Why?”
He laughs quietly.
“Because I’m Kim Seokjin,” he says. “People expect me to make jokes and hold things together.”
The answer hurts more than it should.
Another night, he tells you about Hana.
“I kept trying to convince myself that relationship made sense because it was easy,” he says quietly. “But easy isn’t the same as right.”
You close your eyes for a moment.
“And us?” you ask before you can stop yourself.
The silence on the line lasts long enough that your heart starts pounding.
Then he answers softly.
“You were never easy.”
Your throat tightens.
“Is that a bad thing?”
“No,” he says immediately.
Then quieter—
“It just meant losing you was the first thing that ever actually scared me.”
And that is when the realization finally settles in.
Deeply enough that you cannot escape it anymore.
You are not falling back into love with him.
That would imply there was a moment you truly stopped.
But sitting there in the dark with his voice in your ear, listening to him laugh softly because you told him a story about your coworker burning microwave popcorn—
you realize something.
You never left him completely.
Even when you tried.
Even when you blocked him.
Even when you built an entire life around surviving without him.
A part of you still carried him quietly.
Hidden somewhere you refused to touch.
And now he is finding his way back into every corner of your life again.
That night after the call ends, you stare at your ceiling for a long time.
Your phone rests against your chest.
His last voice message still paused on your screen.
You press play again.
“Goodnight. Sleep well, okay? And… thank you for answering my calls lately.”
Your eyes close slowly.
And somewhere deep inside you, something begins opening again despite how hard you tried to keep it shut.
There is something dangerous about late-night conversations.
Maybe it is the exhaustion.
Maybe it is the way the world becomes quieter after midnight, leaving nowhere to hide from your own thoughts.
Or maybe it is because people stop pretending when they are tired enough.
Whatever the reason is, the calls between you and Seokjin begin changing after midnight.
During the day, things still feel manageable.
Light teasing. Random updates. Pictures of meals neither of you finishes properly. Complaints about work. Small moments stitched together through messages and calls until distance starts feeling less unbearable.
But late at night is different.
Late at night, honesty slips through the cracks.
It is almost one in the morning when your phone lights up beside you.
You are already half asleep, curled beneath your blanket with rain tapping softly against your apartment windows.
His name glows on the screen.
For a moment, you simply stare at it.
Then you answer.
His voice comes quietly.
“Did I wake you?”
“A little,” you mumble honestly, your voice still heavy with sleep.
A soft laugh leaves him.
“Sorry.”
You shift slightly against your pillow, turning onto your side.
Behind him, you can hear faint noise somewhere distant. A television maybe. Hotel air conditioning. The quiet sounds of someone who is alone but trying not to feel it too much.
“It’s okay,” you whisper. “Are you done with practice?”
“Hours ago.”
“Then why are you still awake?”
Silence lingers briefly.
Then—
“I wanted to hear your voice.”
Your eyes close for a second.
It should not affect you this much anymore.
And yet.
The call settles into silence after that.
You can hear him breathing faintly through the phone, slow and uneven like he is lying down already.
“Long day?” you ask softly.
“Mhm.”
“How bad?”
He exhales quietly.
“I forgot what city I woke up in this morning.”
That makes your chest ache unexpectedly.
You picture him moving endlessly from schedule to schedule, smiling in front of cameras, standing beneath bright lights while exhaustion settles deep into his bones.
“Did you eat properly?” you ask.
He laughs weakly.
“You sound like Namjoon.”
“That didn’t answer the question.”
“No.”
You sigh softly.
There is another pause.
Then his voice lowers slightly.
“But hearing you scold me feels nice.”
Your heart stumbles at the quiet sincerity in that sentence.
Outside, rain continues falling steadily against your windows.
The city feels far away tonight.
Muted.
Softened.
“Can I ask you something?” he says after a while.
“You already did.”
A sleepy laugh escapes him.
“See. This is why I called.”
“Because I’m funny?”
“Because you still sound like home.”
The words hit so suddenly you stop breathing for a second.
Silence follows immediately after, like even he realizes what he just said.
You stare at the darkness above you.
Your chest feels tight.
Warm.
Dangerously full.
“Jin…” you whisper.
“I know,” he says quietly. “Forget I said that.”
But neither of you forgets.
Minutes pass.
Maybe longer.
Neither of you hangs up.
At some point, you hear him shifting slightly.
Then his voice comes softer than before.
“Are you sleepy?”
“A little.”
“Then sleep.”
“You called me.”
“I know.”
“Then why are you telling me to sleep?”
He laughs quietly again, tired and low and familiar enough to hurt.
“Because I like listening to your sleepy voice.”
You cover part of your face with your blanket despite being alone.
“You’re annoying.”
“And you still answered.”
Your lips twitch slightly.
“You say that every time.”
“Because I still can’t believe you do.”
The rain grows heavier outside.
The room feels colder.
You pull the blanket closer to your chest.
And for a while, neither of you says anything.
But the silence no longer feels empty.
It feels full of things waiting to be spoken.
Then suddenly
Very softly
He says your name.
Like he is holding something fragile in his hands.
Your heartbeat quickens immediately.
“Yeah?” you answer quietly.
There is a long pause.
Long enough that you almost think he changed his mind.
Then finally,
“I miss you.”
The words are barely above a whisper.
And somehow that makes them hurt more.
Your eyes close tightly.
Because this is the thing you were trying not to reach again.
This exact feeling.
This exact ache.
“You see me all the time now,” you whisper weakly.
“Not like this.”
His voice sounds tired.
Honest in a way exhaustion only allows after midnight.
“I miss talking to you in person,” he admits quietly. “I miss looking for you in rooms. I miss hearing your laugh without a screen between us.”
Your throat tightens painfully.
And the worst part is,
You miss him too.
So much it terrifies you.
You try to steady your breathing.
“You shouldn’t say things like that so late at night.”
“Why?”
“Because people get emotional after midnight.”
A soft laugh escapes him.
“I think I’ve been emotional about you long before midnight.”
Your chest aches so badly now you almost want the call to end.
Because hearing him like this feels dangerous.
More dangerous than silence ever was.
Another pause.
Then his voice lowers further.
“So tell me to stop.”
You blink slowly.
“What?”
“Tell me to stop missing you,” he says quietly. “Tell me to stop loving you.”
Everything inside you stills.
The rain outside.
The hum of the air conditioner.
Your own breathing.
All of it disappears beneath those words.
You sit up slightly in bed now, pulse racing hard enough to hurt.
He said it so simply.
Just truth finally exhausted enough to stop hiding.
“Jin…” your voice shakes slightly.
And hearing that seems to break something open inside him too.
“I love you,” he says again, clearer this time.
The words land directly in the center of your chest.
“I think I always did. I was just stupid enough to think ignoring it would make it disappear.”
Your eyes sting immediately.
You press your hand against your mouth.
And suddenly all those years unfold inside your head at once.
Every moment you waited.
Every moment you hoped.
Every moment you convinced yourself to move on because he never chose you when he had the chance.
“I hate that it took losing you for me to understand what you were to me,” he whispers.
Your chest hurts.
Because this is all you ever wanted to hear once.
And now that it is finally happening, it feels almost unbearable.
“You can’t say things like this and expect me to know what to do with them,” you say shakily.
“I know.”
“Do you?” Your voice cracks slightly. “Because I spent so long trying to survive loving you.”
Silence.
Then softly,
“I know that now.”
You wipe quickly beneath your eyes, frustrated by the tears falling anyway.
And through the phone, his voice softens further.
“Are you crying?”
“No.”
A tiny laugh leaves him.
“You’re a terrible liar.”
“You made me emotional,” you whisper accusingly.
“I’m sorry.”
But he does not sound sorry for loving you.
Only sorry for how long it took him to say it.
The silence after that feels different.
Not uncertain anymore.
Just raw.
Open.
Two people standing in the middle of the truth with nowhere left to hide from it.
Nothing feels normal after that night.
Not the calls.
Not the messages.
Not even silence.
Everything between you and Seokjin changes the moment those words are finally spoken aloud.
I love you.
The sentence settles into your life quietly but completely, slipping into every conversation afterward like something alive.
And somehow, that makes everything more dangerous.
Before, there had always been uncertainty protecting you.
You could tell yourself you imagined certain moments.
You could pretend the lingering pauses meant nothing.
You could bury your feelings beneath distance, timing, fear, and every excuse the two of you hid behind for years.
But now there is truth sitting openly between you.
Now you know he loves you.
And knowing changes everything.
The calls become softer after that.
Not awkward.
Not forced.
Just different in a way neither of you knows how to navigate yet.
Sometimes one of you goes quiet suddenly, overcome by awareness.
Sometimes your conversations drift into silence where all you do is listen to each other breathe.
Sometimes he says your name so gently it makes your chest ache for hours afterward.
And sometimes you catch yourself smiling at your phone in the middle of work for absolutely no reason except he exists somewhere thinking about you too.
Three days after the confession, you are sitting cross-legged on your couch with laundry unfolded beside you when your phone rings.
Seokjin.
Your heartbeat still reacts embarrassingly fast every time.
You answer immediately.
“Hi.”
“Hi.”
His voice sounds lower tonight.
Tired.
Comfortable.
The sound settles around you instantly like warmth.
“What are you doing?” he asks.
“Trying to convince myself folding laundry builds character.”
A laugh slips out of him quietly.
“You’d hate living with me then.”
You smile faintly. “Why?”
“I leave clothes everywhere.”
“I already know that.”
Silence follows for half a second.
Then,
“You do know me too well.”
The sentence lands softly, but it stays.
Because that has always been the problem between you.
You knew each other too well.
Enough to become inseparable.
Enough to become terrifying.
Rain falls steadily outside your apartment windows tonight.
Busan looks blurred beneath the storm, city lights softened by water and fog.
You curl deeper into your blanket as you hold the phone closer to your ear.
“What did you do today?” you ask quietly.
“Practice. Meetings. Pretended I wasn’t exhausted.”
“You should rest more.”
“Mhm.”
“You never listen.”
“I’m listening right now.”
“You know that’s not what I mean.”
A sleepy laugh leaves him.
And for a while, the conversation continues like that.
Easy.
Familiar.
But underneath it now, there is awareness in every pause.
Every silence feels heavier than before.
Like both of you are constantly standing one step away from saying too much.
At some point, he grows quieter.
You notice immediately.
“What?” you ask softly.
“Nothing.”
“You’re thinking.”
“I am.”
You wait.
Rain taps steadily against the windows.
Somewhere on his end, you hear the faint rustle of fabric like he shifted positions.
Then finally,
“I almost got on a train today.”
Your fingers still against the blanket.
“To Busan?”
“Yeah.”
Your chest tightens instantly.
“Why didn’t you?”
A quiet exhale leaves him.
“Because I didn’t know if seeing you would make things harder for you.”
The honesty in his voice hurts.
Because this version of Seokjin is still unfamiliar sometimes.
The one who thinks before acting.
The one who considers your feelings instead of hiding from his own.
“You make everything harder already,” you whisper before you can stop yourself.
Silence.
Then softly,
“Is that bad?”
You close your eyes briefly.
You should say yes.
You should protect yourself better than this.
But the truth sits too heavily inside your chest now.
“No,” you admit quietly.
And hearing that seems to affect him too.
You can hear it in the silence that follows.
The kind that feels almost shaky.
The calls continue like this for another week.
Longer.
More personal.
You start falling asleep with the phone still beside you after hours of talking.
You begin expecting his good morning texts before your alarm.
And sometimes you catch yourself staring at old photos of him online longer than necessary because missing him has become physical again.
Like hunger.
Like ache.
Like longing settling beneath your skin where you cannot ignore it anymore.
Then the rainy weekend arrives.
Your day off.
Grey skies hanging low over Busan since morning.
You spend most of the afternoon cleaning your apartment while music plays softly in the background.
By evening, rain is falling hard enough to blur the view outside entirely.
You make coffee.
Wrap yourself in an oversized sweater.
And call him without thinking too much about it.
He answers almost immediately.
“I was about to call you.”
“You say that every time.”
“Because it’s true every time.”
You smile despite yourself.
For a while, the conversation stays light.
He tells you about Taehyung forcing everyone to watch a movie none of them understood.
You tell him about your coworker accidentally sending a voice message complaining about their boss directly to the boss.
He laughs harder than expected at that one.
And hearing him laugh like this still does dangerous things to your heart.
Then slowly, the conversation quiets again.
The rain grows louder outside.
The night deepens around both of you.
And somewhere between one silence and the next, his voice changes slightly.
Softer.
Careful.
“Can I ask you something?”
You pull your knees closer beneath the blanket.
“Okay.”
Another pause.
Long enough that your pulse begins quickening without permission.
Then,
“Can I come see you?”
The room goes completely still.
Rain crashes softly against the windows.
Your fingers tighten around your phone.
And suddenly every thought inside your head disappears beneath the sound of those five words.
Like he is standing at the edge of something important and waiting for permission to step closer.
“When?” you ask quietly.
“This weekend,” he says softly. “Or tomorrow. Or right now if you asked me to.”
Your chest aches so suddenly it almost feels unfair.
Because you realize immediately,
your heart already answered before your mind could.
Yes.
Yes, come here.
Yes, cross the distance.
Yes, let me see you again.
But fear still exists too.
Fear always exists with him.
You close your eyes briefly.
“Jin…”
“If you’re not ready, I understand.”
The gentleness in his voice almost destroys you.
No pushing.
No guilt.
Just patience.
And somehow that makes you want him more.
“What happens if you come here?” you whisper.
Silence.
Then honestly,
“I don’t know.”
His voice lowers further.
“But I know I miss you enough that hearing your voice doesn’t feel like enough anymore.”
Your throat tightens painfully.
Outside, thunder rolls faintly across the city.
And inside your chest, something begins unraveling quietly.
“You make me nervous now,” you admit softly.
A quiet laugh escapes him.
“Good.”
“Why good?”
“Because you make me nervous too.”
You stare down at your blanket, heart pounding.
Kim Seokjin.
The same man who once acted untouchable around feelings.
Now sounding uncertain over you.
Over this.
Over the possibility of standing in front of your door again.
“What if everything becomes complicated again?” you ask quietly.
His answer comes immediately this time.
“It already is.”
Silence follows.
You turn your head slightly toward the rain-covered windows.
Your reflection stares back faintly through the glass.
Tired eyes.
A heart trying desperately not to lose control again.
But somewhere beneath all the fear, another truth exists now too.
You want him here.
Not on a screen.
Not through late-night calls.
Here.
Close enough to touch.
Close enough to feel.
“When would you come?” you ask quietly.
The pause on his end is tiny.
Hopeful.
“Tomorrow morning.”
Your pulse jumps immediately.
“So you already planned this?”
“I’ve been planning it since the day I left Busan.”
Your eyes close slowly.
And somewhere inside yourself, the final wall begins cracking apart.
The rain starts before sunrise.
By afternoon, Busan is drowning in it.
Water races down crowded streets in silver rivers. Traffic lights blur against soaked windows. Neon signs flicker softly through the storm while thunder rolls somewhere far above the city like a warning neither of you listens to.
You spend the entire day pretending you are normal.
Pretending your hands are not shaking every time your phone lights up.
Pretending your heart is not counting hours.
Jin: Leaving now.
The message arrives at noon.
You stare at it too long.
Then type back
You: Drive safely.
Three dots appear instantly.
Disappear.
Return again.
Jin: I'm nervous.
You: Maybe because you’re driving three hours through a storm.
Another pause.
Then:
Jin: Maybe because you know what happens when I get there.
Your pulse stumbles hard enough that you lock your phone immediately after reading it.
As if hiding from the message changes anything.
As if your body has not already been reacting to him for weeks.
The apartment suddenly feels too small after that.
You clean things that are already clean.
Fold blankets twice.
Change your clothes three times before changing back into the first outfit anyway.
At some point, you catch your reflection in the mirror near the kitchen and stop completely.
Because your face looks different.
Softer.
Hopeful in a way you have not allowed yourself to be in a very long time.
And somehow that terrifies you more than anything else.
By evening, the storm worsens.
Rain crashes hard enough against your windows to drown the sound of the television playing quietly in the background.
Your phone rings around seven.
You answer too quickly.
“Hi.”
A soft laugh leaves him immediately.
“You answered before the first ring finished.”
“You’re driving. What if something happened?”
“Mhm,” he murmurs knowingly. “So you were worried.”
You ignore that.
“Where are you?”
“About forty minutes away.”
Your stomach twists instantly.
Forty minutes.
After months of distance.
After years of almosts and misunderstandings and heartbreak and longing and silence and second chances that came too late.
Forty minutes.
You sit down slowly on the edge of your couch.
Outside, lightning flashes faintly across the city.
“You should’ve waited until the weather got better,” you whisper.
“I tried.”
“What changed?”
The line goes quiet briefly.
Then softly:
“I missed you too much.”
Your eyes close.
God.
You still do not know how to survive hearing him say things like that.
The call stays connected while he drives.
Not constantly talking.
Just there.
You hear windshield wipers moving steadily.
The low hum of the road beneath tires.
Occasionally his voice asking what you ate today or whether you finally fixed the lamp near your couch.
The conversation feels strangely domestic.
Dangerously intimate.
Like this is what the two of you were always supposed to become if fear had not ruined the timing before.
“Are you nervous?” he asks suddenly.
You laugh weakly.
“That obvious?”
“A little.”
“You?”
A pause.
Then:
“I think my heart’s been beating wrong since I crossed into Busan.”
Your chest tightens painfully.
You look toward the rain covered windows again, suddenly unable to sit still anymore.
Thirty minutes later, he texts:
Jin: Parking.
Your entire body freezes.
And suddenly everything becomes real.
Not phone calls.
Not messages.
Not voices through speakers.
Him.
Here.
Close enough to touch again.
Your hands shake while walking toward the door.
You hate that they do.
You hate that after everything, after all the heartbreak and tears and trying to move on, he still affects you like this.
The knock comes softly.
Once.
Then again.
And for a second, you simply stand there staring at the door.
Unable to breathe properly.
Because this feels like standing on the edge of something life changing.
Again.
When you finally open it, the world stops.
Seokjin stands there beneath the dim hallway light soaked from the storm despite the umbrella hanging loosely from one hand.
His dark hair is damp, falling slightly over tired eyes.
His hoodie clings faintly from the rain.
And for a moment neither of you says anything at all.
Because no phone call prepared you for this.
No video call captured the reality of him standing here looking at you like you are the only thing he has thought about for months.
You feel it immediately.
The distance disappearing.
Completely.
Every mile between Seoul and Busan collapsing the second your eyes meet.
His gaze moves over your face slowly like he is making sure you are real.
And when he finally speaks, his voice sounds quieter than you have ever heard it.
“Hi.”
The single word nearly destroys you.
Because suddenly memories hit all at once.
The years of friendship.
The nights you cried over him.
The moment you blocked his number.
The song.
The confession.
Every version of both of you leading here.
To this doorway.
To this moment.
“Hi,” you whisper back.
And then neither of you moves for another second.
Like both of you are afraid the moment you touch, everything will become irreversible.
“You’re really here,” you say softly.
A faint smile touches his mouth.
“I was starting to think you’d never open the door.”
“You drove through a storm.”
“You would’ve done the same for me.”
The terrifying thing is—
he is right.
Rain pours heavily behind him.
Cold air slips into the apartment through the open doorway.
But neither of you notices anymore.
Because Seokjin is looking at you the same way starving people look at warmth.
And suddenly your chest hurts from missing him this much.
“You’re soaked,” you murmur quietly.
“So are you.”
You blink in confusion.
“What?”
His eyes soften.
“Your hair.”
You suddenly realize you rushed to the door before drying it completely after your shower.
And somehow the fact that he notices tiny things like that still makes your heart fold in on itself.
He laughs softly under his breath then shakes his head once.
“I had so many things planned to say when I saw you again.”
“What happened to them?”
“You opened the door.”
Your eyes sting unexpectedly.
Because that look on his face,
God.
No one has ever looked at you like that before.
Like finding you again feels unreal.
You step aside quietly.
“Come in before you catch pneumonia.”
A smile appears finally.
Small.
Real.
The one you missed most.
The moment he steps inside, the apartment changes.
It feels fuller instantly.
Warmer.
Like his presence settles into every corner at once.
He removes his shoes near the door while rainwater drips softly from his sleeves onto the floor.
And you stand there awkwardly for half a second because suddenly you do not know what to do with your hands.
With your heartbeat.
With him.
“You really came,” you whisper again like you still cannot believe it.
His expression softens instantly.
“I would’ve come sooner if I knew you’d let me.”
The honesty in his voice cracks something open inside you.
Before you can think too hard about it, you step closer.
So does he.
Slowly.
Carefully.
Like neither of you wants to scare the moment away.
And then suddenly his arms are around you.
Warm.
Strong.
The second he pulls you against him, the ache you carried for months finally breaks apart completely.
You grab the back of his hoodie immediately, holding him tighter than intended.
And Seokjin exhales shakily against your hair like he has been holding that breath since the day he lost you.
Neither of you speaks.
You just stand there holding each other while rain pounds endlessly outside.
His hand slides carefully against your back.
And quietly, almost painfully, he whispers:
“I missed you so much.”
Your eyes burn instantly.
You bury your face against his chest because hearing it in person feels unbearable in the best way.
“I know,” you whisper shakily.
“No,” he says softly. “I don’t think you do.”
His voice breaks slightly on the last word.
And that nearly ruins you.
You pull back just enough to look at him.
His eyes are already on you.
Close enough now that you notice everything.
The exhaustion beneath them.
The softness in them.
The love in them.
Open now.
Unhidden.
Then his fingers lift carefully toward your face.
Slowly brushing damp hair away from your cheek.
Such a small touch.
But your entire body reacts to it instantly.
Because this is Seokjin.
The man you loved quietly for years.
The man who broke your heart.
The man standing in front of you now looking at you like he finally understands exactly what you are worth.
“You have no idea how many times I imagined this,” he whispers.
Your voice comes smaller than intended.
“What part?”
His thumb brushes softly against your cheek.
“Coming back to you.”
And that is the moment you realize you are completely doomed for him again.
Rain continues crashing outside your windows, heavy enough to blur the entire city into silver and shadow, but inside the apartment, the world narrows into warmth, wet fabric, uneven breathing, and Seokjin’s arms still wrapped tightly around you.
Neither of you lets go immediately.
Because after months of distance, after years of wanting each other at the wrong time, holding him again feels less like affection and more like relief.
The kind that hurts.
Your cheek rests against his chest while his hand moves slowly along your back, almost absentmindedly, like he is still convincing himself you are actually here.
You can hear his heartbeat.
Fast.
Too fast.
And somehow that affects you more than anything else tonight.
Kim Seokjin was never nervous around people.
You had watched him walk onto stages in front of thousands without hesitation. Watched him charm entire rooms effortlessly. Watched him carry confidence so naturally that sometimes it felt unfair.
But now his heartbeat is racing because of you.
Because he came back to you.
“I forgot how small you are,” he murmurs softly against your hair.
A weak laugh leaves you despite the emotions clogging your throat.
“That’s your first thought after months apart?”
“It’s one of many thoughts.”
His voice drops lower near the end, roughened slightly by exhaustion and something warmer underneath.
Your fingers tighten unconsciously against the back of his hoodie.
Still damp from the rain.
Still cold beneath your hands.
You pull back slightly without meaning to, just enough to look at him again.
And that turns out to be a mistake.
Because Seokjin is already looking at you in a way that makes your entire chest ache.
Like every feeling he once buried has finally risen to the surface and stayed there.
“You keep staring at me,” you whisper quietly.
His mouth curves faintly.
“I missed your face.”
The answer comes so naturally that it almost knocks the air from your lungs.
Your eyes sting immediately.
You missed him too much.
The way his voice softened when he got tired.
The way he always noticed tiny things about you nobody else caught.
The way being near him made the world feel quieter somehow.
“You really drove all the way here tonight,” you say softly, almost like you still cannot believe it.
“I would’ve driven farther.”
“You have work tomorrow.”
“I know.”
“You barely slept this week.”
“I know.”
You shake your head helplessly.
“Jin…”
He looks at you for a long moment before answering.
“I spent too much time losing you already,” he says quietly. “I didn’t want another night pretending hearing your voice was enough.”
Your chest folds inward painfully.
Because there it is again.
That terrifying honesty.
The version of him you waited years for.
Silence settles between you after that.
The kind that changes the air completely.
You realize suddenly how close he is standing.
Close enough that you can see tiny droplets of rain still clinging near his lashes.
Close enough that his warmth has already started replacing the cold left behind by the storm.
Close enough that your body remembers him before your mind can stop it.
And Seokjin notices.
His eyes drift slowly across your face.
Like he is relearning every detail after being away too long.
Your forehead.
Your mouth.
The damp strands of hair still falling near your cheek from your shower earlier.
And when his gaze lingers there for a second too long, your heartbeat stumbles hard inside your chest.
Because suddenly the room feels different.
“You have no idea how many times I imagined seeing you again,” he says quietly.
Your voice comes softer than intended.
“Was it like this?”
A faint smile touches his lips.
“No.”
“Why?”
“Because somehow this hurts more.”
Your brows pull together slightly.
“Hurts?”
His eyes remain fixed on yours.
“I missed you so much I forgot what it felt like to stand this close to you.”
The confession settles directly beneath your ribs.
Deep enough to stay there.
Neither of you moves away.
If anything, the distance disappears even more.
His hand lifts slowly toward your face again.
And this time you do not pretend the touch does not affect you.
The moment his fingers brush your cheek, warmth spreads through your entire body so suddenly it almost embarrasses you.
Seokjin notices the tiny inhale you fail to hide.
His expression changes instantly.
Subtly.
But enough.
His eyes darken slightly while his thumb moves gently beneath your cheekbone.
And suddenly neither of you is breathing normally anymore.
Outside, thunder rolls softly above the city.
Inside the apartment, silence stretches between you so tightly it almost trembles.
One look lasts too long.
One touch becomes another.
Your hand slides slowly from his hoodie to his wrist, fingers curling there without thinking.
And Seokjin exhales quietly like even that small contact affects him too much.
The tension between you has been building for months.
In late-night calls.
In lingering silences.
In every “goodnight” neither of you wanted to say.
In every moment you almost admitted you still belonged to each other.
And now there is nowhere left for it to go.
“You’re shaking again,” he whispers.
“So are you.”
A tiny laugh escapes him, breathless and disbelieving.
“Yeah,” he murmurs. “I think you still ruin me a little.”
Your heart nearly gives out hearing that.
Because the truth is—
he ruins you too.
Still.
Maybe always.
His forehead lowers slowly until it rests lightly against yours.
And suddenly everything becomes unbearably intimate.
The sound of rain.
The warmth of his breath.
The way his hand tightens slightly against your waist like he is holding himself back from pulling you even closer.
Your eyes close for one dangerous second.
And that turns out to be enough.
When you open them again, his gaze drops briefly to your lips.
Then returns to your eyes.
Asking.
Waiting.
Still giving you a choice even now.
And that gentleness nearly destroys what little control you have left.
“Jin,” you whisper softly.
Not warning.
Not hesitation.
Just his name.
But he hears everything inside it anyway.
The missing.
The fear.
The love that never truly left.
His hand slides carefully into your hair.
And then Seokjin kisses you.
The kiss is nothing like the ones you remember from before.
Those had uncertainty inside them.
Hidden feelings.
Fear disguised as restraint.
This kiss has none of that.
This kiss feels like months of longing finally breaking apart all at once.
Warm lips against yours.
A quiet sound escaping him the second you kiss him back.
The way he pulls you closer immediately, almost instinctively, like distance itself has become unbearable now that he finally has you again.
And God.
You missed this too much.
Missed him too much.
The taste of rain lingering faintly on his mouth.
The softness that exists beneath all his confidence whenever he touches you like this.
The way he kisses like he feels everything too deeply and hides it badly once he stops trying.
Your fingers curl tightly into his shirt as the kiss deepens slowly.
Seokjin kisses you like someone terrified this moment could disappear if he is not careful enough with it.
Like he spent months replaying memories of you and finally broke under the weight of missing you.
And somewhere in the middle of it, your eyes sting unexpectedly because this is the cruelest part of loving him.
Even after everything, kissing him still feels like coming home.
When he pulls away slightly, neither of you gets very far.
Your foreheads remain together.
His hand still cradles your face gently.
Both of you breathing unevenly in the dim apartment light while rain crashes endlessly outside.
His eyes search yours slowly.
Almost nervously now.
Like he still cannot believe you let him back this close.
“I love you,” he whispers again.
Just honest in the simplest, most dangerous way possible.
And hearing it while his lips are still warm from kissing you nearly breaks your heart open completely.
Your fingers tighten around his sleeve.
“You make it really hard not to love you too,” you whisper back shakily.
A soft, disbelieving laugh leaves him then.
The kind pulled from somewhere deep inside his chest.
Relief.
Happiness.
Ache.
All tangled together.
Then he closes his eyes briefly and rests his forehead against yours again.
Chapter 11 of It’s Always You is now live on Ko-fi! I’m also working on Chapter 12 already, so expect it in around two days.
And happy Mother’s Day to all my fellow moms here. I hope today brings you even a little bit of rest, happiness, and love. You all deserve it so much.🤍