# 𝗥𝗔𝗛𝗢𝗥𝗔𝗞, a study into : loving and being loved, being the chosen one, the fight for a better future, and martyrdom. / A private and selective, canon divergent Leona from Riot Games' League of Legends. First established April 15th, 2020 under the url Sunszenith. Re-established July 9th, 2022 with the current url.
Headcanon based, and putting special effort into making the muse a multi-dimensional person with flaws and virtues both. Above all, this Leona is kinder, gentler, and she does not wish to hunt the Lunari ━ on the contrary, she wishes to make peace with them. She is a defender, not an attacker.
Somewhat trigger heavy ( Violence, war, death, possession, religion, blood and gore, corruption, sexual content and more applies. ) 𝘽𝙍𝙊𝙒𝙎𝙀 𝙊𝙉𝙇𝙔 𝙄𝙁 𝙔𝙊𝙐 𝘼𝙍𝙀 𝙊𝙁 𝘼𝙂𝙀 𝘼𝙉𝘿 𝘾𝙊𝙈𝙁𝙊𝙍𝙏𝘼𝘽𝙇𝙀 𝙒𝙄𝙏𝙃 𝙏𝙃𝙀 𝘼𝙁𝙊𝙍𝙀𝙈𝙀𝙉𝙏𝙄𝙊𝙉𝙀𝘿. Minors, dni.
Cherished by 🌿𝗥𝗨𝗡𝗔 / 26 / She/her / Scandinavian. Please read my rules before following and my dossier before interacting, both can be found on my carrd. Any important notes on my portrayal can also be found below the cut.
Pinned graphics + carrd header was made by the lovely Lune.
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i am so back on my bs,,, but i think rather than staying on this blog and risk it crashing or being shadowbanned or whatever, i might move to my alt blog and archive this one. i'll spend today moving and such!
hi there, just wanted to get some clarification on what sort of sharp/pointy objects you want tagged? is this just things like knives or is it the sharpness and shape in general like glass or spikes or texture ? also , just real-life images? or would you like art and/or mentions in writing to be tagged as well? and how would you like it tagged so it is picked up by your filters? hope this doesn't offend—i want to make sure i am tagging correctly for you :>
Hey anon! THANK YOU for reaching out to me about this, it means a lot to me because my aichmophobia can get really bad sometimes! I'll even link back to this ask in my rules and such once I finish revamping them. 🙏
I hope you don't mind me taking a couple of days to respond; I had to be in the right mindset to properly explain!
It's basically anything sharp and pointy, yeah. Knives and any kind of needle are the real hard hitters, but if it's got an edge and it's like positioned in such a way that it's pressed against skin or, heavens forfend, pointed at an eye — that shit can throw me into quite a state.
A knife on its own is usually good if it's an image taken from a side view and it's just by itself. But the whole eye thing also extends towards myself as the viewer — so if the knife is pointed outwards from the screen ( Towards where I am sitting. ) it's also bad. Needles are never really something I am great with, though.
Spikes, glass shards, anything solid mostly. If it's not solid, it's usually good! And it goes for real life images as well as art and animation, as well as graphic descriptions! My tag is just a plain:
#Runa don't look
or
#aichmophobia
if you'd rather!
Once again, thank you for this. I hope it makes sense, I know it's a bit of a confusing trigger to have but it means the world to me that people care!
Tell us more about Kayle+Leona, please and thanks.
Alright, I'll start by offering up some resources off the top of my head for these two, because I am just so normal about them. Literally I'm so sorry for this absolute unit of a post.
My Kayleona playlists, one and two, are the newest additions.
Once upon a time I started an Eclipse / Coven AU fic for them, now discontinued... Unless?
There's this list of headcanons / plots I wrote semi-recently, too.
I'll take this as a chance to share ( Most of. ) anything and everything I've ever thought of about them more or less, this post being brought to you by me with snippets of Moon's thoughts on certain matters especially surrounding Kayle. But I'll specify when it's Moon's words and not mine. Also, if toxic ships puts you off, I'd recommend skipping this one. I won't go into excruciating detail but this is, at its core, a pretty dysfunctional pairing. These are just ideas, and nothing is set in stone.
Welcome to my white board. I'm gonna hyper-analyze my OTP now.
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➤ㅤMAIN VERSE
I'm such a sucker for the sheer devotion you can have with these two. Kayle, being such a self-righteous character by default, believing that her cause is greater than anything else, but what if she poured that same amount of dedication into her relationship? I can see her being a highly devoted and loyal partner. And Leona? She's already such a loving and giving person ━ she would give Kayle space to make the necessary choices she needs to make, to figure out what she wants in life, hoping, praying that she would have a place in Kayle's life when all is said and done. She would never force Kayle to change her ways, but she would encourage her to do the right thing.
And it is that exact good influence stemming from Leona's love, that I can see being the reason that Kayle would start to see reason ━ or stray further from it, depending. If Kayle loves Leona, she's either going to be willing to make adjustments to be with her, or she'll be scared of the fact and withdraw from her.
Their relationship is inherently angsty, because they can be so in love with each other, yet so different from one another. And their view points ( Kayle's scorching righteousness, her inability to see past people's sins, her hunt for justice. And Leona's moral compass that allows little room for injustice ━ but her leaning ultimately more towards compassion, her willingness to put others before herself that may well lead to her downfall one day. Her martyr syndrome. ) might just be too different for them to ever sort it out.
Maybe Leona reminds Kayle of her sister, Morgana, in the sense that she wants to see the good in people. Maybe that, too, will scare her. Leona sacrificing herself, again and again, for the sins of others may be something Kayle abhors, or it could be something that puts her in a thinking position.
Because the very act of falling for Leona would be such a sign that, yes, Kayle does see some sort of sense in keeping a woman like that around. I think there's something beautiful about the way these two could want to change for the better. How they'd push each other to be the best versions of themselves, because they both would rather die than let the other down, and that could lead to them both growing for the sake of themselves too. I think both of them, with their different view points, can co-exist so long as they do not condemn the other.
You can have so many different outcomes with them, and it's just so juicy tbh.
➤ㅤTHE GOOD ENDING
Ideally they would each let the other shine in their own way. Leona would need to put aside her desire to see Kayle change ━ or at the very least, she'd need to support Kayle no matter what Kayle decides to do, rather than only supporting her if she makes the decision to loosen up a bit on her ideals. She'd have to understand that, just because she wants Kayle to be the best version of herself, doesn't mean that that's what Kayle wants for herself or that she's ready to take those steps at all.
Kayle could, however, if encouraged by Leona and shown support enough through the tough times in between, begin letting people atone for their own sins more. She doesn't need to be like Morgana, a complete 180 of her own view points ( For the most part. ) because there is righteousness in letting people live with what they've done too. Sometimes, people can be redeemed, but the road to redemption is often very painful and difficult and Kayle could come to see the value in letting people sort out their own lives, if she so wished.
Leona would have to learn that she cannot fix everything and everyone, and that it's okay for her to not be the perfect protector. In a sense, they both have to accept their flaws for this all to happen. And I think that is so beautiful? Like hello, growing with the person you hold dearest? I can see it getting to a point where their bond only grows stronger, this way. After all, who understands you better than the person who's seen you at your lowest?
➤ㅤTHE BAD ENDING
But Leona could also push too hard. She could essentially have the opposite effect on Kayle, and they would both spiral deeper into this toxic dynamic that has been looming over them. Pushing each other away only to feel drawn back together ━ just like magnets. The emotional torment of wanting to be everything your beloved needs, but the reality is that you are so bad for each other. And like, maybe there would be times in between where things weren't all bad. Like a clearing where the light shines down. A few brief moments where they can feel the way the other's heart beats for them and only them. But that wouldn't change the fact that the majority of the time is just them fighting and arguing and getting upset because of the other.
Because Leona in Kayle's eyes, would be a flawed being. And if she can't see past that, it'd make it pretty hard to both accept her, but also to accept the fact that she loves her. And Kayle in Leona's eyes, would be the same but for completely different reasons.
Mix in a bit of "if I can't have you, no-one can" and it's a nuclear cocktail of just toxic angst.
➤ㅤANGST HEADCANONS
Now, they are an inherently toxic ship. Leona would love Kayle unconditionally, while Kayle would for the most part, for the longest time, be incapable of showing her the same love. Talking to Moon, she said that Kayle would be downright horrible to Leona especially in the beginning / before she comes to terms with her own feelings for Leona. And without going into too much details so as to avoid having to tag this post too much, believe me when I say that the emotional turmoil she'd put them both through is off the charts.
Which is only further amplified by Leona's willingness to put up with nearly anything for the sake of preserving the thread of love she has for Kayle. They are essentially both at fault, Kayle obviously more so than Leona, but where Kayle's hands are tied by her own inability to connect with her emotions, Leona willingly puts up with these things ━ out of love, yes, but not for herself.
And what happens, then, when Kayle finally cracks you might ask? When reality catches up with her? Moon has the answer,
To be wrong is a confronting feeling, especially to someone that deems themselves righteous, someone that brings justice. Kayle, upon facing that gnawing feeling, would likely not only have to face the fact that she was wrong, but also that she unrightfully damaged thousands… millions of innocents. Which, by her own faulty logic, is something deserving of punishment, of justice. To be faced with that much amount of guilt (and yes, including the death of her father) a mental breakdown would likely be the beginning stage of her downfall in a self-punishing thought process. As for how it'd look, well… explosions of emotions, devastating usages of her power all around and onto herself (think azula after fighting zuko maybe?), that all being in the climax of her emotions. As she regains some semblance of rationality, she'd likely go into deep depression, pick at her wings (much like stressed birds), and insist on being alone. She'd also likely have some explosive bouts of anger if Leona tries to calm her down or tell her to forgive herself, as a being of merciless justice, she'd be deploying that upon herself. The guilty deserve no forgiveness.
As for Leona, she'd want nothing more than to help Kayle through this. She'd try to respect when Kayle needed space, but she'd be worried sick. She'd feel helpless at times, feeling as if Kayle was going places she could not follow, and it would break her heart seeing her beloved like that. Gods, I cannot even begin to describe how much her heart would bleed. But she'd pull it together when Kayle was near, and in the rare moments they'd spend together, she'd do her darndest to just provide for Kayle anything she'd need in that moment.
Even if the only times they'd share would be when Kayle's depression numbs her out temporarily, I can see Leona once again doing the heavy lifting here and just staying by her side. Because to her, it wouldn't be a chore to see Kayle through her hardships. It'd be an honor if she was the only person Kayle felt comfortable enough around, even subconsciously, to come back to.
And maybe her just staying around would eventually prompt the question to spill from Kayle's lips, as Moon said, "Why are you still here?" ...
... To which Leona's answer would be simple, "Because I want to be here. Because I love you." And hear me out, what if they've never ever said anything like that. It'd be a confession, one which would surely make Kayle sink even deeper into her spirals. As Moon said,
it'd simply confirm to kayle how human she's becoming, which to her is revolting, but at the same time, she wouldn't find a reason to push leona away. because in the end, she wants her to be there. depending on the situation she could very well push her away though, try to prove to her she shouldn't stay. the push and pull of kayle wanting leona to be there but also trying desperately to take back the reins would torment her.
It'd be a downward spiraling cycle of Kayle fighting her demons, essentially.
➤ㅤFLUFF HEADCANONS
...At least, until the day comes where Leona's persistence pays off and Kayle lets her walls down for her. She doesn't need to let them down far, just enough that she lets Leona know that she wants her to stay, that she appreciates her efforts or that she's tired of waging this war against herself. It can be as small as her whispering to Leona when she is sitting next to her, that she's tired. And from that moment, the ball would be rolling.
I can see Leona cooking for Kayle, and Kayle liking the taste of what she makes whether she needs to eat or not, but more than that she'd enjoy it because it's something Leona made for her. Leona being the one person who understands her, and sees her for more than just an Aspect. It'd make her feel seen but probably not always in a good way... Regardless, I can see Kayle slowly, over time, giving back to Leona and trying to make up for the time she's spent pushing her away ━ after all, loving Leona, as scary as it is, is not something she can help. But she can make it a focal point.
Kayle might even view her love for Leona as a vow of sorts, the kind a knight makes to their queen. She might swear, audibly or not, to protect Leona. And Leona might take a bit to get used to Kayle's at times odd way of loving her, but she'd do it, because it's Kayle.
A few smaller things I can think of are,
Leona loves Kayle's wings, and she'd spend no small amount of time tending to them. Helping Kayle preen and apply oils to them, making sure that each feather is taken care of and any new feathers growing out are healthy and such. It might be a good way for them to bond.
Leona, upon waking up next to Kayle, would always rest by her side for a little bit before getting up to make them breakfast. Maybe the concept of breakfast in bed would be alien to Kayle, and she wouldn't understand why you'd eat in the same place you sleep. But after a few bites she'd get that it's comfortable and safe.
Leona's touch would be so gentle from the moment she fell for Kayle. She'd have the Lesbian Softness™ whenever she touched Kayle, and she'd always go at her pace. Especially during their first few kisses.
Kisses are actually interesting because Kayle would have likely seen others kissing, but if she's never kissed anyone herself, she might not know how to convey to Leona if she'd want this. Fortunately for her, Leona is a big kisser and would definitely be the one to initiate.
Hand kisses, as well. I can see them being HUGE on hand kisses.
➤ㅤSMUT HEADCANONS
So... They fuck nasty.
Leona living among mortals is no stranger to sex, whereas I can see Kayle being quite the opposite. And yet, I can see this being an important ingredient in their dynamic, perhaps even the very thing that kicks off their romance! Leona could offer Kayle a place among her people for a time, to take shelter among the Solari and this could give Kayle a unique opportunity to see how they live, how they trade items at the market, how they pray within the sacred halls dedicated to their deity, how they laugh and cry together and how they love one another. And should there be some sort of attraction between them, Leona would offer Kayle an evening spent together.
Kayle may or may not understand mortal desires in full, but I think this could be one thing that she'd be able to wrap her head around. And Leona would be all too happy to provide, and teach should she need to. I also think Kayle would match Leona's complete and utter devotion in bed, and they'd make very passionate lovers.
Few things I can think of are,
Leona loves Kayle's wings, yes, we've established this. In sexual context she likes to give them special attention, often in the form of caressing or rubbing them gently, kissing them and especially touching Kayle's back between where they connect to her body. Kayle, in turn, can use her wings for balance and / or leverage if you get what I'm putting down.
Kayle is often depicted with pointy ears, in which case Leona would love nothing more than to dote on them in any way possible. Plus points if Kayle has very sensitive ears and has a love-hate relationship with the times Leona chooses to whisper in them in public.
So what if Leona gets mad turned on whenever Kayle does literally anything with her hands. So what!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can definitely see Kayle getting a kick out of riling Leona up to the point she is a flustered mess, because it makes her feel needed and wanted, where she has only ever felt feared and / or worshipped. But maybe that's just me.
Leona likes to mark Kayle, and perhaps over time Kayle will come to accept this because it only serves as proof of how deep their devotion runs.
➤ㅤALTERNATE UNIVERSES
I've written these two in so many AUs at this point. Pentakill, Eclipse / Coven, Soulmates, even Post-apocalyptic, Mecha Kingdoms / Pacific Rim, Void and Star Guardian AUs have been added to the mix. Allow me to dive into some of my favorites.
Pentakill is always fun to do because it pairs well with my bodyguard AU for Leona. I simply love this one so much because as I'm sure you've picked up on by now, devotion is a key word in their dynamic to me, and the bodyguard part allows for this to be very true here. Leona being willing to lay down her life for Kayle, at first because it's her job but it evolving into being because she loves her so dearly? Kayle feeling guilty for having feelings for someone who gets paid to protect her? S+ tier content.
Eclipse / Coven ( And Elderwood, Death Blossom technically ) is one that I have a huge soft spot for, too. Because as much as writing a word of dialogue in this AU murders me every time, bro I cannot even begin to unpack how well the themes of this AU fit them. Knights, sworn to their cause fighting together until Kayle decides to eat a god and bringing about the apocalypse, which leads Leona down a path of purging the shadows now very present in the light of the eclipse?? Good shit. You get the strong bond between Knight and Knight-Commander, sprinkled with Shakespearean English ( Or at least, a half-and-half attempt at it. Looking directly at you Riot. ) to further drive the point home. You get the angst of Leona coming to terms with what Kayle has done, and many a fight, won side by side. What's not to love?
But they also share Valkyrie skins. I wonder what would happen if they were both beings of great importance 😳 whose purpose was to ferry the souls of the dead into the afterlife 😳 and they were both girls 😳 what then
Honorable mention to this post-apocalyptic fic I was going to write once upon a time, too. You can have the outline I made for it along with the first chapter, actually, since I'll never pick it back up again I don't think. You're welcome. Please beware old writing though.
➤ㅤ“BURNING”
Speaking of fics, I do have one in the works currently. It's called “Burning” though it might change if I think of something better along the way. It's still in its early stages because piecing together the chapters is proving more of a challenge for me than usual, and I don't have as much energy as I used to for some reason. But, it will be done eventually because I am so normal about these two.
For now, have this cover ( NSFW link. ) for Act II of this fic, that I made a while ago!
also i'm back to feeling muse for all of my blogs so... gimme a follow and i'll see what i can do! currently trying ( and crying ) to make graphics for sejuani.
@/clawleader, @/sanguineweave, @/firestarved, and my wip multis @/pactbinds, @/vengefought, @/herbindings !!
It got quiet after most of the staff went away to work on other things. She liked to stay behind to focus on her own thoughts, to have some time to properly organize things after the show and also to fix anything for the next one.
It wasn't normal by any means, Diana quite liked the sound of silence, but she found herself singing a song Leona showed her not too long ago. At first it was humming the melody she helped find, then the words just left her lips...
Stars cross paths but all I know is your light
Holding my heart, let me into your midnight
Should the shadows take the life from your eyes
I'd reach so far, pluck every star, for your night skies
I'd be at home in your nightlight
There was something about the lyrics that just explained her feelings perfectly, and it was bittersweet to sing it knowing this was likely directed at someone else, but alone... she could pretend-
It was only when she heard another voice disrupt her own that she did a full stop in everything she was doing, the hair on the back of her neck going up from the shock.
❝ Leona?! ❞ she nearly yelled as she turned around to face the bassist, ❝ What!- Why... are you still here...? The show ended hours ago. ❞
There was something to be said about hearing the one you loved sing the words your heart had scribbled onto sheets of paper. An almost affirming feeling spread through Leona's body in those seconds before Diana's attention snapped in her direction, causing a chill to run down her spine ━ not of dread, but of regret.
❝ I'm sorry! I didn't mean to startle you ━ I uh . . . I was just walking past and I heard your voice and I ━ ❞
Leona's mouth clamped shut, then. She was about to ramble and frankly, would rather spare Diana that. Since they were here, though, Leona cleared her throat and continued in a more collected manner, ❝ I didn't know you could sing, is all. ❞
Arms crossing casually under her chest, Leona moved over and leaned against the desk by the nearest wall. Her eyes didn't meet Diana's for a few heartbeats, not until she was certain her cheeks wouldn't gain color if she looked her way. Offering a warm smile Diana's way, she picked subtly at the sleeve of her shirt trying to calm her nerves.
It was awkward, no doubt, but within her chest she found that her heart was fluttering still.
i updated my ship tier list !! ocs not included but they are in my heart.
these are just dynamics i have a bias for, but i can see them getting along in many ways - not solely romantic !! and as always, verses / aus are up for grabs and if you count in all my verses there's even more characters i can see her with. :]
Drawn in by the familiar melody, and even more so the familiar voice, Leona soon found herself backstage. Few people lingered now, since the show had long since ended, but she couldn't have stayed away even if she'd wanted to. The song, barely finished yet, was of her own making ━ raw in its emotion, not ready to be released yet.
As she came to a stop in the doorway, her heart began to beat fast. There was no mistaking it, that was her song, currently sung by the very woman she had written it for. And Diana delivered every line so beautifully, Leona thought, so perfectly.
She had no idea Diana could sing, despite having pitched countless songs to her at this point. She also wasn't sure whether the other had taken notice of her presence, yet.
Should she say something? This was the first time she'd seen Diana in a while here. She didn't want to disturb her, nor did she wish for her to stop singing, but her heart . . . it was beating so fast, she was almost growing light headed.
Despite Leona's best efforts, her exhaustion must have been at least somewhat noticeable. Only a little embarrassing, really, for her principal to have taken notice of it and for them to have been the one to encourage her smoke break. Well, it was supposed to have been 'a breath of fresh air', but those were few and far between, these days.
Exhaling a puff of smoke, Leona equally let go of a soft sigh. So little made sense anymore, she could scarcely tell when the doubts had begun to creep in, let alone when they'd started to become this present ━ but they were. Always at the back of her mind, like some grinding noise that couldn't quite be ignored.
So lost in thought was she, that the approaching presence went nearly entirely unnoticed. At least, until the other drew close enough.
❝ Hm? Am I needed somewhere? ❞ She could only assume she was being summoned. Or, that she was being checked up on ━ the option she did not hope for. She'd embarrassed herself enough for one night.
@vulpesse swore an oath : 👄 + ahri :)
Does Leona find your muse attractive?
❝ Vexing as it is, yes, there is little about her that I don't find attractive. Alluring, even. There's an air of danger about her, and maybe . . . maybe that's not for me to delve into. Or perhaps it is. ❞
Leona releases a soft sigh, eyes lowering to the floor in a failed attempt to hide the slowly rising heat within her cheeks.
❝ She ━ there's just something about her that draws you in. It's that simple. ❞
