I thibk I was on a date...well I bought a moped and the tall guy helped me
well I now I had a reason to ask him for dinner,I dont know what he thought about it thou but I’m about to fall in love and it scares me becouse I know that he dosent like me...
so I made him pick me up from home and I was so happy to see that he chaned his closes as I like to belive it was for me. We went to that place we ate, had a really awckward conversation and ots only been like 1 hour and he was like ok lets go home
It made me sad ,am I that boring? we wit on the back of his moped and told him I dont wanna go home he laught and said that if I say this to a korean guy it means that youu ready for intercorse haha and also joked about going to motel room (such a jerk)
we were serching for karaoke foreverand I could felt that he really wanted to go too. By the time we were searching for karaoke I was thinking about how to hug him and i put my hends around his waist and ask if it’s ok he didnt make such a big deal of it...but for me it was so magical I could feel his smell.
I dont know why but as soon as my body is touching his I just want to sleep emidietly. We went to ktv and couldnt figure out forever how to choose songs
I think he was trying to impres me with his singing but hi voise wouldnt come out hahah and persomaly I think he sings just great he’s tember really touches something in my heart and as I said this stupid mothafaca dosent have a slightly idea that I like him and everytime I stare at him when he sings he would just get emerest and repeat: why?why? such a dumbass....
after few songs he sat near me and put hes hand on my knee(not like in a sexual way just squeezing it or tapping) also he was leaning his giant body on my like he usualy does...somehow he just lays on me that my lips would touch his neck idk is he even noticed it but fir me it was the closest interaction with a guy and his hair could touch my face and I could smell his smell. sometimes I was just puting my chin on his sholder and he would lean his ear and hair on my face(I swear I left all my make up on his hair and clothes lol)
when he drroped me off infront of my dorm I thought I probably never going on a date with him again and when he was going away I stoped him and becouse when it comes to things like this he is dumb and slow as fuck i pretended that I forget something on his moped so he would take his hand off the wheel and then hugged him and he was like :why?why? and I didnt reply just hug him harder and said: Im just givin you a hug and he was like:give me what me: a HUG....and i was so emberessed i didnt looked at his eyes i just run to the door like a loser....ha..ha why Im so sad....
everytime I remember his neck or hands or smell I just get this rush and I think about it like 20 hours per day...
