turntable casket

gee. writer. weirdo. mxgeetv on threads/insta/TikTok. 40. genderqueer. they/them. pan. leo. infj. i'm nobody! who are you?

[arkashas]

Carmen Maria Machado in Queer for Fear: A History of Queer Horror

[asexualbookbird]

reblog to EVIL BOOP the person you reblogged from >:3

[mtfoss]

Disabled people have to live somewhere poor people have to live somewhere you cant just exclude us from everywhere

[mtfoss]

"What if theyre dirty" is it worth killing us over?

"What if theyre loud" is it worth killing us over?

"What if it would inconvenience me" is it worth killing us over?

People die without housing.

[mtfoss]

People have been mentioning it so I want to explicitly say this includes addicts

[insearchofanexit]

long time, no see, please leave (jk)

hi friends. it's been 84 5 years. a lot has changed since then. I've:

become a published author

gotten engaged

broke off said engagement

gotten my heart broken twice more after that

been diagnosed with autism and ADHD

learned a lot about myself and my actions/inactions

normally, I would avoid things that make me feel uncomfortable emotions like anger or fear or sadness. these days, I'm getting better at acknowledging those feelings and pushing thru them.

my instinct was, upon signing in to look at a post from Halsey, to burn everything from my past down with a flamethrower and pretend it never happened. but what does that really do for me? not much tbh.

past me got hurt a lot via this here Tumblr, but I also hurt a lot of ppl. not intentionally - never intentionally. but it happened, and it sucks, and I did a poor job of trying to explain myself and mitigate hurt. all bc I didn't understand a goddamn thing I was going thru at the time. it's difficult to understand a lot when you're autistic and don't know it. but I now know. and I try to do better now.

for anyone from the wayback times who wants to reconnect, I'm on board! and if you don't, I respect. I think I'll be posting more than just BTS and kpop and cows here. more than likely, I'll do more posts about kidlit and writing and AuDHD. but please stick around, if you want! I'd like to creep back in if y'all will have me. 💜

[rapmonphile]

[insearchofanexit]

*waves briefly* I’m still over on twitter if you wanna keep up with me. @inoraebangbang for regular updates, @attaboyjeon for NSFW shit. K bye.

[insearchofanexit]

hello you are cute have a nice day gdbye

Oh pshaw. Thank you!

[insearchofanexit]

*screams* Stupid cupid is my favourite Hanahaki disease fic. Its absolutely adorable and I wanna yell out loud at how cute it is!!! I absolutely love the way you portrayed all your characters especially Yoongi (how he says one thing but it means something else and Jungkook knows). But tbh the main hero of the fic is Jihoon cause the kid asked for more time with Mac and I would too.

Thank you very much! I appreciate this. :)

[glimmerofhob]

Prompt Your Hearts Out!

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[insearchofanexit]

Okay entirely random but i recced Stress Manifest to my friends and they laughed so hard and loved it! Haha just to let you know i guess. I love you cara~

YEEEEEE! My first Bangtan fic. 😄 I'm glad people find it funny. And thank you for the rec! I appreciate it!

[insearchofanexit]

Hi I still exist, I'm still pretty exclusively on Twitter, come that way if you wanna talk, I'm @/jeontaegiseok there okay bye love y'all!

[insearchofanexit]

♥~ BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD! Once you are given this award, you're supposed to paste it in the ask of 8 people who deserve it. If you break the chain nothing will happen, but it’s sweet to know someone thinks you're beautiful inside and out. ~♥

I'm crying thug tears, thanks Anon.

[insearchofanexit]

hello, i'm going through the lmiolmd asks you've answered because Nostalgia and i feel as though i have to tell you how much..you inspire me?i guess? in the sense that something about the way you talk about writing and the entire fic itself makes me want to brace myself and try and write despite the lack of inspiration/excess of insecurities i have at the moment just so i could be even the tiniest bit as good as you. so thank you for that!! and for writing lmiolmd, that fic took my heart places

Oh wow, thank you for this message! I'm glad I could get you into trying to write. Honestly if you publish anything, send it my way so I can tell like a proud mom about it!

[insearchofanexit]

As mentioned earlier, fic commissions are here! If you have something you’re dying to see me write, now’s your chance! I’ll leave commissions open for a while until I think I have a decent load, then I’ll close them to avoid overwhelming myself. If you have any questions, please email me! Thanks guys, and please reblog this!

[insearchofanexit]

Hey. How are you? Did your ankle get better? How's your financial situation? If you're still in need of mones did you think about selling your writing? Like a certain amount of words for a certain amount of money and the buyer can chose the topic (if it's not something that makes you uncomfortable of course) Have a nice day

Hi! I'm still in recovery for my ankle, I have just over a week left of no weight bearing, then it's back to the doctor for an assessment and if everything looks okay, I start physical therapy. Fingers crossed it's all good.Financial situation is still shit. I actually posted a crowdfunding link for people who want to help out till I land a new job and am moderately more stable, it's here: https://www.youcaring.com/caradavis-810843You know, it's funny, the idea of setting up commissions came up yesterday when a friend suggested it. So I think perhaps today I'll figure out pricing and guidelines. I was also thinking of starting up a patreon account but I'm not sure how many people would be interested in that. Anyhow thank you for your concern! I really appreciate it. And for anyone reading wondering why I haven't been posting here - I'm not really using Tumblr much anymore, but you can find me on Twitter at girlnumberthree! Or on kkt at poshcy!

[insearchofanexit]

So. Here's the situation.

Most of you all know that I broke my ankle last month (the day before the Bangtan concert sigh). And a few of you know my hours got cut significantly at work before that. What I haven't really mentioned is that, a few days after breaking my ankle, my job terminated my contract. The universe loves me. So in the midst of worrying about my ankle, surgery, etc., I've also been worrying about a lack of employment. It hasn't been fun. I've cried a lot. With the anxiety and asperger's, working from home has been perfect for me for the last six years. And with a broken ankle and being unable to walk, I kinda need a work from home position. I'm trying really really hard to find one but am facing a steady stream of rejections and it's… It's really taking a toll on me. I hate having to come to people this way. It's embarrassing and I feel like a useless failure of a human being but I have two dollars to my name and a lot of past due bills and I absolutely have to pay the insurance bill or else I'll be way, way more screwed financially. So I'm turning to you guys for some help. Please, please don't feel obligated to donate if you're struggling yourself. A retweet or reblog or prayers or whatever is help enough. But if you're able I'd certainly appreciate the help. If you've ever enjoyed any of my fic or my edits or my tweets and wanted to do something in support, here ya go. Thank you guys, and I'm sorry to bug you like this. The link to donate is here: https://www.youcaring.com/caradavis-810843

[insearchofanexit]

so here’s the deal.

I haven’t felt comfortable with this tumblr for a while. I’ve kind of tried to suck it up, but at the end of the day, a lot of my issues re: feeling shitty about myself, my place in the fandom, my relationships with other people, etc, is exacerbated by tumblr. And I thought it’d get better after the most recent break.

It got worse.

So, I’m not going to be frequenting this tumblr much at all. I’m taking several steps back - I think I overextended myself, tried to push my way into too many circles, felt too terrible when shit didn’t pan out the way that I want. That’s not to say that I hate everyone and everything that tumblr’s brought my way, quite the opposite - I’ve made some awesome friends! But ultimately my writing’s what brought people around, and I will still be writing, so I don’t have any worries there.

I want to have a space where I feel happy and comfortable and I don’t open the site with knots in my stomach or I don’t feel like I have to be a certain way or say certain things to make sure I don’t step on toes or that I keep people interested in me or entertained by me. I don’t want fun spaces to feel like a chore. And that’s why I’m backing away.

But fear not! I’m only (semi) leaving tumblr! If you really, REALLY want to talk to me, to keep up with my bangtan feelings (there are a lot of them), there are several ways to do so - I’m on twitter screaming about headcanons as girlnumberthree and now chubs has a twitter too at chubnumberthree. I have a curiouscat account now - noraebangbang. If you want to chat on kkt, feel free to send in an ask (I’m not answering messages, sorry) and I’ll give you my ID, but it’ll have to be off anon so I can answer privately. And of course you guys know how to find me on ao3, one day I’ll work through all the comments and finally reply to them.

Thank you to all of you for being awesome and supportive and just plain great. I’ll still pop in from time to time, probably just to update about new fic, so this isn’t the end of the line if you choose not to follow me in other areas. But my presence will be much more limited here, and I hope no one holds that against me. Sorry, and thank you.