ROCK BOTTOM

tales of my broken heart.

[insert-xx]

I'm overreacting I know.

I know I am.

I hope I am,

Because when you start to delete shit

That when your hiding shit from me.

Fuck me.

[insert-xx]

I'm sorry I'm feeling this way

I'm sorry I'm jealous

But it's swallowing me whole

It's leaving a lump in my throat

& I don't know what to do.

[insert-xx]

It's hard, I'm holding it all in.

For the sake of you & the sake of her.

I've never seen this side of you before

The side that shows so much love for her.

Jealousy has started to consume me

I try to stop it

I trust you both

I love you both.

But this is different

It's hard to see you love someone else

Someone who is not me.

I hold it, I try to pretend it's not there

But I see it.

I see it well

She's sad

So your sad

We promised we'd never hold our feelings from each other

But here I am

Swallowing mine

While you spill yours to her

I didnt even know you were feeling sad.

[wordsnquotes]

You want my opinion? We’re all a little weird. And life is a little weird. And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall into mutually satisfying weirdness — and call it love — true love.

Robert Fulghum, True Love (via wordsnquotes)

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12.16.16

I avoided eye contact, I avoided your touch. I erased you from my mind. And yet you come to me in dreams? You come when I least expect it, When I feel all wounds have healed. You come to rip them open again. Stupid dreams.

[insert-xx]

I secretly hope one day I get drunk & pour my heart out to you. I secretly hope I tell you I still love you And I secretly hope you'd say it back to me. I secretly hope to cry and to hear you cry. I secretly hope to hear you laugh. But I know that will never happen. Because I am a coward.

[insert-xx]

It's been a year & something months Since I've last heard your voice, Since I've last seen you. I miss you still. I'm moving on too you know. But I still miss you. I miss our adventures. I miss a lot of things. But I'm moving on.

[reynabiddy]

sometimes you have to let people go because they’re toxic for you. you have to let people go because they mean you no good. sometimes you have to sacrifice the temporary happiness that people will give you - in convenience.. and you have to chase an unconditional happiness only you can give you. you have to let them go because you’ve forgotten your worth and you have to regain a sense of self. let them go because they continuously take - always leaving you empty.. always leaving you uncertain. let them go because while you’re learning yourself & seeking fulfillment - they’re unapologetically draining you.

Reyna Biddy (via reynabiddy)

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[misplayedmermaid]

i am confident i am over you. so much that some mornings i wake up with a smile on my face and my hands pressed together thanking the universe for pulling you out of me. thank god i cry. thank god you left. i would not be the empire i am today if you had stayed.  but then.  there are some nights i imagine what i might do if you showed up. how if you walked into the room this very second every awful thing you’ve ever done would be tossed out the closest window and all the love would rise up again. it would pour through my eyes as if it never really left in the first place. as if it’s been practicing how to stay silent so long only so it could be this loud on your arrival. can someone explain that. how even when the love leaves. it doesn’t leave. how even when i am so past you. i am so helplessly brought back to you.

one of my favoruite poems from Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur (via misplayedmermaid)

[obliviouslylost]

[jodiejuo]

It’s easy to say you’re over someone if you aren’t seeing them. The real challenge is looking them in the eye to see their smile and hear their voice and still being able to say, “This is not what I want anymore.

(via jodiejuo)

[holdaseccarla]

It was worth it, you know?  Being loved, and loving you. I’ll never regret it.

9:32 am. 4/30/15 (via holdaseccarla)

[insert-xx]

Do we ever stop loving someone? Do we ever stop missing someone? I don't think so. I think i will forever miss you. I will forever love you.

[insert-xx]

You are like a drug that I've gone long without. Leaving a lingering taste in my mouth Even though i haven't kissed you in a year.

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Withdrawal

Even after almost a year, I feel the symptoms of withdrawal. From you, from you laughter, from everything. But we all know you don't think of me. We all know you're promises we're lies. And i know i shouldn't think of you. But i do. How sad is real life.

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