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I want everyone to note, that this account is meant to be a healthy way to journal and express toxic or negative emotions. This account in of itself is a healthy coping mechanism, and I recommend everyone find their own, because at the end of the day yes it's normal to be sad, it's normal to want to feel numb, it's normal to feel human emotions. That's part of being human, but you can't let it control you or your life. You can't let it stop you from living and loving life and you can't let it keep you apart from others.

Here are some things that I've found work for me:

Journaling, again this account is my journal.

Meditation, taking time to simply breathe and focus only on breathing can really help destress.

Cutting off social media, I love tiktok and Instagram as much as the next person but cutting off toxic platforms or even doing something as simple as selecting "not interested" on negative videos and limiting your time on these apps can really help.

Exercise, going on a 15-30 min walk when you feel your emotions may be overwhelming. If walking isn't your thing try lifting weights, it makes you feel good about yourself and gives you a safe space to let out anger.

Setting up a good sleep schedule, this one was hard for me. I'm an insomniaic, it's hard for me to fall asleep and stay asleep, but I still set up the sleep setting on my phone. Made it to where I couldn't open certain apps after certain times, and have learned that in that last hour before I go to sleep, to avoid my phone and any blue light screens. I've found reading a book before bed will put me to sleep quicker than any medication.

These are just things that have helped me, they're not meant to be an end all solution, and they're not going to work for everyone. Of course if you do feel suicidal as a result of these negative feelings, reach out to someone, ask for help, I know thats easier said than done. But trust me no one wants to see you gone. Don't abuse substances either, whether that be a medication you take or something like weed to cope with your feelings, as much as I hate to say it, we as humans need to actually live and experience our feelings to get better at dealing with them. Putting them off will only make things worse. Stay safe.

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some WHA stuff

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I hate how it's always "stop letting your teenagers drink energy drinks!!!" And never "stop letting energy drink companies put dangerous amounts of caffeine into their drinks and stop letting them market to teenagers" or "stop forcing teenagers to be at constant sleep deficits because of early wake ups and absurd homework and stress loads" but hey who cares why not blame the literal child for trying to stay awake enough to match the absurd expectations y'all have for us now

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*Scrolls past*

*reluctant sigh*

*scrolls back up*

*rebogs*

To love is to hurt, this is the law of the world. For loving is a choice, and like any choice it leads to actions. Sometimes these actions are out of our control, and we are left with scars and bruises. Sometimes they are within our being, and we leave a place torn to shreds. Either way, too love is to hurt. But I'd rather love a million times over, and be hurt, and covered in the scars and bruises of each, then to sit on the side wondering what love might truly feel like. To love is to hurt, and that's okay, because we can't wrap ourselves in bubble wrap and expect to live our best life.

#3am thoughts #mental health #relationships #3am minds

And maybe had I known this is how we were gonna end. I would have never given you that note. But that's the beauty of it all isn't it? You gave me some of the happiest memories, despite our time together being short. And you were the hardest thing I've ever had to let go of. But that's my lesson isn't it. Learning to let go, let go of you so that I may get better. Maybe months from now we'll meet again, maybe even years. I can hope. But for now, I'll cherish the memories I have of you, keep them guarded safe. Knowing that I knew a version of you, not many get to see, and that no one will probably ever see again, not even myself. And that's okay. I'll miss you, I'll always miss you, but I can miss you and still move forward. That's a lesson I'll have to remind myself of everyday. I hope you find the peace you're looking for, even if it isn't with me. And I hope you sleep soundly, knowing that I'm attempting to find mine as well. I love you, so so much.

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I hate that you're in my head. I hate it. I should be over this by now. You've been gone for a month, you've shown me your true colors time and time again. I've seen every red flag. So why are you still in my head. Why can't I just let you go. Why am I so stuck on you. You offer me nothing I can't do myself, you never bought me flowers, my friends are there just as much as you were. So why am I so caught up in you. I've gotten over men in a matter of days, men I was with way longer. So why are you still around? I just want you out of my head if you aren't coming back. Maybe that's the issue, I keep thinking you'll come back. I've tried pushing the idea out of my head a million times. It never goes away. I wish I could get you out of my head. I wish we had never met at all.

#3am minds #3am thoughts #mental health #relationships

I hope you know I'll wait for you. Maybe you don't want me to, but that isn't really your choice to make anymore is it. Now it's mine. And I've chosen to wait for you, until the day you don't choose me. I'll wait. Until the day you disappear from my life, and I'll sit here in my room, and cry all the tears I can while I wait for you to come back to me. I want you back in my arms, and I'm willing to wait for it. Maybe I shouldn't, how does the song go 'waiting drives you crazy'. But being without you drives me crazy. So I'll wait, I'll be right where you left me. I hope you know that.

#3am thoughts #mental health #relationships

Some nights I do miss you. You know that. I know I know, you're not ready for a relationship, they scare you, you need a friend more than a lover. But damn do I miss you. You're not gone, not really. But I miss you like you were. I miss the late night calls, the smell of you, the sound of your voice. I miss our talks. I miss you. The you who would pull me close when I moved away when we cuddled at night. The you who would get upset when the cats wanted out because it meant letting go of me. The you who always asked how work was going. The you who actually seemed excited to talk to me. The you who always wanted me over or around, and constantly missed me when I was gone even for a moment. I miss you, so much. And I feel like I can't even tell you, because you're still around. You're still in my life, but you're different. I miss you so much some nights it feels like it's killing me. I miss you.

#3am thoughts #mental health #relationships

And now I'm reading, in my room. In silence. No one home, no friends asking where I am or what I'm doing, no lover chatting in my ear as I giggle on the other side of my phone. I had that all once. But that seems so long ago, and now it feels like I'll never be happy again. I know logically I will be, at some point. But till you come back, it feels like a wall of fog has fallen in front of me, with barely even the branches of happiness being visible. Maybe some day I'll see beyond it, but today as I read in silence in my room. I'm blind.

I wish you would have ignored that note, I should have asked you to throw it in the trash. I was prepared for rejection then, prepared to be ignored or unwanted. I was prepared for that disappointment. No instead you got my hopes up, wait for me to let my guard down and then let the disappointment hit. That hurt the most, the knowledge of what I could have had, I wish I had never known to begin with. I should have told you that my stupid little note was trash.

#3am thoughts #relationships #mental health

I despise you right now. Sitting there thinking that video may have been for me, just to find out it was for someone else. I was there, I would've loved you, I was waiting to love you, just for you to go crawling back to someone who doesn't even want you. Fine, crawl back to her, get left on read and be upset about it. See how I felt when one day your text slowed down and suddenly I was waiting all day for you to text me back. Crawl back into whatever hole you came out of and stay there in your regrets. I'm going back to who I was before you, before this whole thing. I'm going back to being me, the confident me who was unapologetic in her opinions and passions, who didn't worry about what someone else may think. I'm going back to the women who walked confidently in every outfit she wore, never worrying if it was too much or would upset someone's son. I'm going back to the woman who laughed and talked loudly for any man to handle, who did things for herself and felt the need to hide it from no one. While I'm shining, you can sit there in the darkness and wonder about what could have been.

#3am thoughts #relationships #mental health

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New snitch line just dropped for reporting clinics that support gender affirming care: www.hhs.gov/protect-kids/index.html

It requires a "first name", "last name", and "cell phone number" as contact information but does no verification. Theoretically anyone could type fake info in there, which would be terrible. Presumably your IP address & browser cookies are tracked.

Please do NOT spam this site via your VPN with realistic but false leads, made up clinics, and the names of fictitious healthcare providers like Dr. Frank N Furter or Gregory House, MD.

Doing this in the past has led to the sites becoming overwhelmed & shut down! It is imperative that you spread the word to prevent this resource from being overloaded.

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Update! Luigi's Attorney Dickey confirms that his "outburst" where he tells the cameras that this is unjust, was because he was never read his miranda rights and was under the impression at that time that he was being denied the right to a fair trial, an attorney, or any legal representation.

He is angry and terrified in that footage because they have failed to follow basic procedure to inform him that he has any rights at all. This is a major red flag of police corruption. This is UNACCEPTABLE and further means any interrogation they did of him is unlawful, and inadmissible in court.

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God I hope this is true because that alone can get this entire case thrown out. I hope the judge laughs the entire prosecution out of the court.

Judge: let me get this straight. You didn't DNA test him because New York sidewalk is too contaminated, didn't fingerprint him because you don't have usable fingerprints at the scene, you have no way of knowing he's even the right guy, no one can identify that it's him in the footage, even fbi facial recognition software can't recognize him as the cctv suspect, AND you interrogated him under duress, and that's the ONLY thing you have on him? The thing that's defacto null and void because none of you can follow even basic procedure?