˚˖ 𓍢ִ໋. ❀ ִֶָ. ..𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ🪽་༘࿐
when you tell them you love them for the first time
We sang (yelled) our favorite song in unison as we coasted down the highway. My arm sways rhythmically in the wind in wave-like motions outside the car window. Seongil extended his hand microphone towards me continuing to belt out the chorus. He doesn’t care how badly i sing, he doesn’t care when my voice cracks, and he most definitely doesn’t care how loud i sing when we’re at a stoplight with the windows rolled all the way down. A silly laugh escapes my lips, i keep singing as I look over at my boyfriend sitting in the drivers seat with his swim shorts scrunched up on his legs, and his damp tank top sticking to his tanned skin. His eyes stay fixated on the road a small smile tattooed to his face. “Why’d you stop,” he frowns as he noticed my brief moment of silence. Tearing his eyes away from the road for a quick second, he glanced at me. He carefully placed his hand on my knee sending a shiver down my spine. “I dunno,” my lips melt into a toothy smile. “I love you,” and i really mean it. I don’t need or expect an answer but i get one anyways, “I love you too.” He pats my knee continuing to sing, saying those words like it was the most natural thing in the world, and it was.
I shifted the pillow behind my head to get a better view of the screen. Weekends for Yechan and I usually turn out like this, we both end up sprawled out on the couch in our pajamas watching whatever stupid show we can find. On today’s menu is all the home makeover shows you could dream of, “Oh please her budget is way too low she’s delusional,” Yechan blurts as he shoves another chip in his mouth. His other hand rests on my blanket covered leg. I can tell yechan is already on the hunt for another chip as i hear the bag on his lap crinkle, “This one has hellaaa powder you have to take it,” he shoves the chip caked in seasoning near my general direction. My face melted into an ‘aww shucks’ kind of expression. “well don’t just stare at it, eat it,” he stares mindlessly at the tv as they paint the walls of the previously deteriorating house. While he waves the chip around a bit, a sweet and subtle, “i love you…,” escapes my lips. Followed by an affectionate, “weirdo,” I take the chip from his hand and settle back into the couch. “I love yo- wait weirdo?” he mocks offense placing his hand theatrically over his heart. “How rude! i gave you the good chip! give it back,” he dives towards me. “Too late it’s already in my stomach,” i giggle uncontrollably. “Oh you-“ he can’t even try to fight back his smile. He slumps his body over mine acting as a weighted blanket. “Oh you big baby,” i tease, patting his back. He tightens his arms ever so slightly around me, we continue on with our very important and interesting show hardly moving from our current position for the rest of the day.
“Mo stop that tickles,” i say in between breathes. He doesn’t respond but i can feel his lips curve upward into a smile as he peppers kisses all over my face. “What happened to the aloof guy i first met.. and what have you done to him?” i giggle as he places his lips against my temple before pulling away. “Would you prefer i act like that,” Seongmo pouts comically. “Nooo” i coo as i snake my arms loosely around his neck, “i much prefer you like this,” i say as i place a light kiss on the tip of his nose earning a bashful smile from him. “Good,” he murmurs leaning forward as i pull him down with me in to a hug, “because i’m not changing.” “Good,” i mimic his tone from before… “I love you mo,” i whisper in his ear as i pull my arms tighter around him. “… well you’re in luck, because i happen to love you too,” seongmo teases, intertwining his fingers with mine.
Seongbin slid a note across the tabletop towards me. ‘ur pretty :)’. I looked up at him to catch his nervous gaze. I tear a piece of paper out of my notebook book and whip my pen out of my bag. ‘ooo you like me ;)’ i write in the corner before sliding the paper towards him. He skims it, i can see his lips droop in to an upside down smile. ‘oh no! how’d you know?’ he wrote under it. ‘idk i’m just a genius i guess? < 3’ i snicker. ‘you’re beautiful and smart? wow i’m a lucky guy ’ ‘can i tell you a secret?’ he looks up at me and nods. I place my hands on the table and lean over towards him. I dip past his face towards his ear, “i love you, Hwang Seongbin,” i linger for a bit before retreating a bit to take in his expression. His mouth falls open for a moment… and then another moment.. and then another- “i love you too, F/n L/n.” “I knew it… you like me,” i whispered as i sat back down in my seat across from him. “Love,” he corrects. “Love,” i mimic.
“F/n M/n L/n, will you make the happiest man alive and marry me?” he wiggles his eyebrows at me but quickly stops as catch the attention of the people sitting around us. “Oh- Joon of course!” i fan the crocodile tears fleeing from my eyes. Was this Seokjoon’s idea? Yes. Did i go along with it because i wanted free desert? Also yes. The small restaurant erupted in applause as i jumped into his arms. After a couple moments our waitress approaches with a large slice of chocolate cake accompanied by two forks. “Congratulations,” she smiles before retreating back- to whatever she was doing. “Thank you,” i call after her. We settle back into our seats One hand intertwined with his, the other armed with a fork. “Great idea Joon,” i speak with a mouthful of cake. “i know right,” he has chocolate on his upper lip. I reach over our small table running my thumb along his mouth. “You’re a mess,” i cackle giggle. “So are you!” he whines defensively as he points at my face reaching across the table to wipe chocolate off of me. After he pulls away our eyes meet- then we burst out in uncontrollable laughter. “I love you Seokjoon,” i whisper. “I love you too,” he smiles. “There’s cake in your teeth,” i grin mischievously. “Oh come on!”
“You should win me a stuffed animal after this,” i smirk as i wiggle my eyebrows at my boyfriend. We’re standing in line for our last stop, the biggest rollercoaster at the theme park. The sun’s already set but i can see every feature on his face illuminated by the amber lights surrounding the waiting area. “okay,” he tilts his head shooting my a lopsided smile. “so willing? no ‘what’s in it for me’?” i cock an eyebrow at him. “Ide do anything for you… if all you want is a stuffed animal ide get you fifty,” he crosses his arms over his chest as he leans against the railing. My bottom lip puffs out, “d’awwww.”He slides is hand down my wrist in into mine as we approach the end of the line. An employee directs us to our seats. We settle into the two person cart and pull the harness down over ourselves. “Ready?” he looks over at me with a giddy smile on his face.I nod rapidly, “mhm mhm.” A woman comes by pulling on each of our harnesses to make sure we were strapped in. After a couple moments of anticipation we slowly move out. Dogyun flips his hand over, the back of his hand against his jeans. I reach down taking his hand back in mine. As we slowly climb the tallest peak in the amusement park i look over at the view. The stars twinkling against the midnight blue backdrop. Then i turn to look at Dogyun- who was already looking right at me. “Dogyun I-“ and then we drop- so does my stomach. We both shoot our hands up simultaneously yelling bloody murder. “Dogyun!” i scream. “Yeah!” he yells matching my tone as we go around a loop. “I love you!” i holler. “What?!” we shoot down again off another hill, “I . LOVE . YOU.” “YOU WHAT?” he heard me this time i can tell by the way his head shot in my direction. I smile stupidly as we finish the roller coaster. “That was fun-“ “i love you too,” he huffs, out of breath from screaming. My stupid smile just got even more stupid.