♡ skin & bones ♡

lw: 36kg ♡ cw: 54.3kg ♡ gw: 47kg ♡

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The pretti rexi diet i made hehehe ♡♡♡ i cant follow as my bfs on my back constantly about eating so unfortunately i cant follow, but maybe u cuties can try it ! ♡♡♡

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.⋆｡⋆☂˚｡ Things to do instead of binging ｡˚☽˚｡⋆.

Draw the food i want to binge on !!! ♡

Continue any form of art ! ♡

Play my switch and my new disney game ! ♡

Online shopping for clothes for lw ! ♡

Make a cup of tea and watch youtube ! ♡

Look at thinspo ! ♡

Chew some gum ! ♡

Make beaded jewellery ! ♡

Paint my nails ! ♡

Have a nice shower ! ♡

Do my makeup ! ♡

Look at low cal recipies for the future ! ♡

If anyone has any suggestions let me know !!! 🥺🎀🧸

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After 5 days of b/p i gained like 4 kilos which is absolutely gut wrenching, anyways im back to restricting to try and get out of that fucked cycle bc i want to lose weight so bad. Ive made a cute little note page and im gonna write a list of things to do instead of binging to distract myself if needed ! Both me and my bf have decided no more binging bc we both hate our bodies LMAO

Its tuesday morning and im now at 56.7 EW

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Fuck fuck fuck my brain is just so obsessed and addicted to binging, like wtf is controlling my intake gonna do if i lose control the second i consume a fear food

Like yesterday i had a litre of gelato, tiny cakes, and like PASTA and ive woken up today and already had 4 pieces of toast

This always happens at my partners house too, never at my own

Im too scared to weigh myself holy shit

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Ugh yesterday i went to this show/carnival thing and mum made me eat fries for lumch and gosh it lead me to eating like 3 kinder eggs and some licorice with my bf at his house later after i finished work + chilli and corn chips FUCK Im gonna say it was around 1600 - 1800 for the day, although i burnt around 375 im still MAJORLY pissed off, argh fuck im too scared to even weigh myself too

to make it even WORSE ive had takeaway for lunch today which has added up to like 1050, and i also have work tonight so i get a free scoop of gelato on my break 😭 im gonna gain so much weight RIGHT AFTER ID REACHED 53.8

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｡*ﾟ◜+.*.｡⑅ Tuesday 06*09*22 ｡*ﾟ◜+.*.｡⑅

Calories consumed: 🥿 609 🥿

Calories burnt: ✨️ 20 ✨️

Net calories: 🎀 589 🎀

Breakfast: 1 slice of cinamon sugar and maple syrup toast ! 47 cals ! ♡

Lunch: scrambled egg whites with tomato, mushroom, bits of bread, and capsicum with maple syrup ! 51 cals ! ♡

Dinner: spaghetti bolognaise with veggies ! 511 ! ♡

Today has been reasonably okay! I had my psych appointment and it went pretty well! Shes specialised in EDS so it was easy to talk to her! I guess if im forced into psychology then it may as be with someone who knows stuff HAHA but oh my god im SHITTING MYSELF bc im paranoid that i could be pregnant??? Like my stomach, thighs and tits are getting bigger BUT LIKE im not even eating to gain??? The only possible reason for this would be due to my binging episodes ive had in the recent weeks? IDK HELP, im gonna take a test tomorrow AHH!!!!! Im content with my cals for today, i mean not too happy that my parents made me have spaghetti and made me have cheese on top of it but ugh its whateverrrr

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︶꒦꒷♡꒷꒦︶ Monday 05*09*22 ︶꒦꒷♡꒷꒦︶

Calories consumed: 🕯 551 🕯

Calories burnt: 🧸 31 🧸

Net calories: 🐮 520 🐮

Breakfast: skipped !!! ♡♡♡

Lunch: 2 slices of tiger bread with sf maple syrup and cinamon sugar ! ♡ 120 cals !

Dinner: pita bread pizza with weighed cheese, ham, mushroom, tomato, capsicun and onion ! ♡ 431 cals !

My bf went home today so ive been able to restrict a bit more!!! Mums been on my back like crazy and shes now booked me in for an assessment at a new psychology place tomorrow EWWW, she thinks my current psychologist is still too new to eating disorders and apparently im able to manipulate her?? This new psychology clinic is fully ED specialized and alot of the psychs there have migrated from working at the ED clinic in my city that i got kicked out of the books from for being resistent HAHAHA but other than that, great day cals wise !

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˚̩͙⚛ ͙*̩̩̥˚̩͙⚛ ͙ Sunday 04*09*22 ⚛ ͙*̩̩̥˚̩͙⚛ ͙*̩̩̥

Calories consumed: 🦭 829 🦭

Calories burnt: 🪶 45 🪶

Net calories: 🤎 784 🤎

Breakfast: 2 slices of tiger bread with sf maple syrup and cinamon sugar ! ♡ 134 cals !

Lunch: low calorie cocoa and cinamon pancakes with sf yogurt, sf maple syrup, sf choc syrup and cinamon sugar on top ! ♡ 149 cals !

Dinner: small serving of shephards pie with veggies and salad ! ♡ 468 cals !

Snacks: mini tiger bread sandwich with sf maple syrup and cinamon sugar ! ♡ 78 cals !

Was a pretty good day and im content with my intake ! I weighed myself monday the morning after and ive dropped to 54.3 ! The cinamon toast was my bfs idea and its actually pretty low in calories and its so satiating to eat so i can fulfill my sweet tooth ! Heres a photo of them hehehe !

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.⋆｡⋆☂˚｡ Saturday 03*09*22 ｡˚☽˚｡⋆.

Calories consumed: 🐏 1,217 🐏

Calories burnt: 🧸 120 🧸

Net calories: 🥞 1,097 🥞

Breakfast: 2 slices of tiger bread with no sugar vanilla yogurt ! ♡ 113 cals !

Lunch: a sandwich with tiger bread and half a low fat cheese slice and ham ! ♡ 148 cals !

Dinner: a large pita bread pizza with weighed out cheese, ham, mushroom, and tomato ! ♡ 431 cals !

Snacks: some yogurt and then ALOT of unplanned chocolate with my boyfriend ! :(( 526 cals ! :((

It would have been such a good day without the chocolate ugh ! We went to get grocerys for dinner from the supermarket together and he wanted chocolate so he wanted me to get a snack bar so i chose crunch WHICH IS SUPER YUMMY and i figured if im gonna get chocolate i may aswell get one i enjoy right?? But then he ended up buying himself a block and gave me a couple rows of it! Im glad i didnt binge tho! :(((

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Fuck i want gelato SO BAD IT HURTS MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY bc im craving it that bad

I work at a gelato store and our flavours are just SOOOOO good but they are so high in calories i want to scream

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Fuck i miss this so bad why cant i have this control anymore

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‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾　friday 02*08*22　☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

Calories consumed : ✨️ 906 ✨️

Calories burnt : 🥟 175 🥟

Net calories: 🤎 731 🤎

Breakfast : Honey and almond oats w sf maple syrup ! ♡ - 115 calories

Lunch: 2 slices of tiger bread with sf vanilla yogurt and maple syrup, and 1 slice with sf strawberry jam! ♡ - 122 calories

Dinner: lasagne with winter veggies and a garden salad ! ♡ - 441

Snacks: 2 rows of kit kat chunky cookie ! ♡ - 229

Was feeling pretty good for the days intake until my boyfriend gave me the kit kat that he bought for me at the supermarket before he came over to sleep at mine ! I felt too bad to not eat it since he told me it was a treat for me and he knows how much i love that flavour kit kat ! 🥺

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⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚ about me　˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆

Hi !!! Im Shylah and im 19 and im currently relapsing into my anorexia ! I was diagnosed may 2021, and reached my first lw of 36 kg but was then sent for my first treatment at a daypatient at the ed clinic! I then relapsed and was medically unstable and had a hospital admission and then months later went inpatient at the hospital for 6 weeks! Since coming out of hospital i had lost weight from 55kg to 49kg but then i got with my partner and i became addicted to binging whilst high and then using laxatives and ive recently gained a CHUNKKK of water weight ! So ive made this account to get back on track heheh

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Currently absolutely HATING myself rn bc i keep binging when im at my bfs house so im creating this account to hold myself accountability by posting my intake daily and weight loss progress hehehehe ! ♡