The Living Laughter Diary

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the Industry

Just got an internship M/W/F at a cool little  casting agency off Times Square and was recently cast as a extra in an interactive play !!! :)

Living!

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‘Straight Outta NYC’

People just set a car on fire in front my house. Seriously. Not fucking joking.

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Reflections on Painting the House

6/18/15 12:03 am It was one of those days that made me long for nostalgia. Memories of summers past blew through my mind as the wind swept through the house at irregular, yet glorious intervals. Its quiet ferocity released spores of ancient dust into the air sending the motes to dance in the sun beams by the windows. It could have been any summer. It could have been another day I walked to the park up the street to sit on the swings or ride my bike in a circle around a sprinkler that was never on. Yet somehow it was now, it was not then, although soon it would be and I had a feeling that in the future the nostalgia I felt during summer would be linked to the present I was living. So I tried to memorize the now. The way the trees shiver in the wind, our neighbors yelling and the tight dust mask I wore over my face. I had spent most of my life in that house. I had seen the walls painted 4-5 times; seen my mother arduously tape and Spackle every bump and bruise a trio of wild young’uns could manage. It was her way of finding perfection I think. I mean it still is her way. But what now? I am the one who is painting. Not my folks. Instead of the cacophony of the chaos of my house I hear only the music my Phone plays off Pandora. The music always reminds me of fireflies. They are both staples of summer but good only for a short while before disappearing into broken memories of dancing with them at the night. Today’s music doesn’t match the nostalgia I feel for yesterday’s. In times past it would have been smooth jazz blasting through the speakers, the neighbors kids (now mothers in their own rights) would listen to pop whilst the other family next door played the same collection of tired records they do while barbecuing on days like today. These noises would gather and rise streaming in a most unglorified manner through the open window at the back of the house to meld into the music of my memories. That old car alarm next door would eventually go off and in the distance an ice cream truck would slowly whine its way through the neighborhood. And just as it was then it will skip our house for I have never bought or had any from one. It makes me wonder if things ever change. I suppose they do. They must. I mean I paint the house now. Not my parents, they help but I paint. But the process, the process remains the same to this day. We want it to be perfect. We want to make it better, and we will spend hours attempting to cover scars that will never really fade, even under the plaster of Paris mom applies you still see them there. They look back at us and mock our attempts at that illusive ‘perfection’ while simultaneously attesting to the fact that they exist. Those scars –for better or worse- are still there beneath the layers of primer and paint. But at the same time I did not want to paint. I started painting because no one else would. And when I stopped no one else did. So it was left to me (like so many other things) to finish and to finish well and to finish without complaint. I don’t like painting much anymore. The repetitive process can be soothing after you become accustomed to it, but now my whole body is sore from the stress. From the fights and from hitting my shins on so many different things that just always seem to be in the way.

*Just a quick journal entry on my life today, I think I will post this on my other tumblr as well  although that is more for fashion. Enjoy!

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You Again?? aka WTF

Remember that guy? The one I was ‘obsessed’ with a year ago? Like three days ago he decided to drop me a line. This is after a) we have not spoken in a year b) I never really understood the nature of our relationship and c) I tried emailing him like two months after school ended and never heard back until now. A year later. And he says “sorry I was late responding....how are you”.

WHAT THE FUCK. no really WHAT THE FUCK. I blocked his ass without responding.

Ughh, the whole thing left a bad taste in my mouth

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Twinkle Twinkle

Periwinkle

Christmastime gives us all wrinkles.

-me

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I think this is from the Roosevelt Island tram.

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Who I want for President

I want someone who can do the job. Someone who is not run by money, corporations, personal agendas, nepostic, or religious ideals. I want someone who actually gives a shit about the millions that inhabit these hunks of rock we call the USA and who will fight to change injustices that have been put in place to f**K us millions over. I want a person in power that can deal with the broader world in a more understanding way who can see people as people and not targets for drone strikes. Who can see citizens as citizens and not inmates of an Orwellian apocalypse. I want someone who will stop soliciting me for money for their f*****g campaign and start going in depth on how they are going to ACTUALLY make a difference. I mean really, I don't care about how well you string together a speech or how provocative you look in front the flag. Get shit done. And do it well. So far no one in the GOP does that for me (or has ever.....maybe Lincoln is the exception???) So yeah. Long answer eh,?

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RNS. #10

Meeting old friend today... Kinda nervous. Haven't seen them in 2yrs. Bringing a bro along for support. Is that weird?

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Laptop #10/365

Still looking for a new laptop. Ughhhh the struggle is very real right now. Everything is ridonk-ulous expensive and as a student by default 'I be broke'!!! So I will sp end the night looking for something in my Puget that won't kill as a compromise or as a budget

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Fate #10

Just got this game FATE. Sooooo happy. Even tho my internet is out I can still get my RPG on . Also the search for a new CPU is going slower than ever. So much shit is on the market

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Bad Wifi #9/365

My CPU is reaching the twilight yrs 😞 neefld sla new one. It is breaking dwn

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Quest #8

Late but not forgotten. Been playing on the ps2 since I got a new controller.

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GPU #7\365

I spent most of today trying to find do good RPG games to play on my old laptop And u know what?? Impossible. Like seriously impossible. Every time I went to download nor buy a game the specs said my little graphics processor was not 80 not 50 not even flipping 20 percent of the min requirement. They said it was 6. My GPU meets 6 percent of the minimum requirement. Fine, said I. I will use my old ps2. Alas, after lifting a 50lbs TV into my room, the controller fails to work. Fine said I. Then I will download steam and get some games from them. Not enough flipping space on my CPU for that Ugggggghhhhh¡!!!!!!!!!!

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WOW #6/365

Been really bored lately and am beginning to look into the world of online games as a vice. I hear World of Warcraft is OK...

Can someone explain it to a newb like me?

Like I don't get its purpose is it an adventure game or a quest like game.... Ugh. You know what I kinda really want to play?

Fate. Remember that? It used to come on all the HP computers through their game store. That game was so much fun. And free to play. I would go into Best Buy just to play that fro a few hours instead of shopping with my mom.

But alas, my CPU is a Compaq :(

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Cavity #6/365

Got to drive myself to the dentist today and have a tooth filled.

Holy Shit! I can't feel 1/2 my face! So weird. Not much else going on today other than that. Will probably go for a walk since it is really chill outside. It almost feels like fall is here,

I found this amazing abroad program that travels all around Asia. I really would like to do it but it costs 10,000 plus initial and final airfare.

Something tells me that I am going to make it work

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Gluten #5/365

So I am meeting my friend next friday and we have run into a problem. We both want to grab lunch but we are both gluten free.

Next time you grab a snack read the label. I bet there is some form of either gluten or corn involved no matter what the product.

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The Heirs #4/365

I finished my new K-Drama at 3am last night. I probably could have posted this then but I waited for whatever reason.

It was a beautiful show. The actors were superb, the writing was fantastic. However, I was left feel that it was unfinished and a little sad.

Ever since I finished 'I See the Light' from Tangled has been replaying over and over and over in my head.

I think this is primarily because one of the biggest themes of the show was played on similar instruments and chords.

Anyway, it was a great show. Not very funny, but sweet and it might make you cry at times.