Growing up, Iâve always struggled with making friends. I found myself going through great lengths while those I called âfriendsâ wouldnât do the same for meâââit could be as simple as remembering their birthdays or what they like.
I just wanted to be someones first choice wherein a room of people, theyâd be looking for me first because of how much they enjoy my company as much as I enjoy theirs. As I grew older it became significantly clearer that I wasnât any closer to that happening and the disappointment just kept getting worseâââI kept expecting more from people even with my past experiences.
I started envying certain people because of how easy it was for them to fit in right away while I tried so hard but felt like it was never enough. How was it so easy for them while I had to try my very hardest?
I jumped from friend group to friend group, trying to find my place and my people, it became a constant cycle of the realization that I couldnât fit in. It came to a point where I questioned my self worth because I felt so much rejection even without it being actually said.
Knowing in the back of my mind that there wasnât anything wrong with me and that I always approached relationships with my purest intentions, I learned that my people will eventually find me. I had to stop trying to fit myself in friendships that had no space for me.
If youâre a floater friend, I hope you know that youâre not alone and one day youâll find your people and be happy that you didnât waste time with any of the others. Donât lose hope
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