dianadethemyscira

[ironcyclecherryblossom]

God is going home.

Mahal na mahal ko po Kayo. 😭💔

Maraming salamat po sa lahat. 😭😭😭 Kung di dahil sa Inyo, di ko na alam kung san ako pupulutin ngayon. Mahal na mahal ko po Kayo. Kulang ang salitang salamat para sa lahat ng sakripisyo Nyo sa amin. You will always be loved and remembered my Master. 🖤😭

You left us May 13, which is the ascension day of Jesus Christ this year. 🥀🖤

[ironcyclecherryblossom]

Ghostfighter

To all the boys who have no balls on how to say to the girl they’re dating na ayaw na nila, I don’t understand you. I’ve been ghosted twice this past months and that makes me think that there’s something wrong with me. It made me search and research on the internet on why boys ghost women and how to deal with that situation. I don’t know. I think it’s one of the worst things, investing feelings to someone who can’t give backbones to their words. Thank you, next is becoming a personal anthem. Be happy self, please. and don’t ever think that you deserve being ghosted. Ghosting is something natural to most men. I deserve true love. Take note of that Self. 

[ironcyclecherryblossom]

Akala ko okay na ako. Naka move on naman na ko pero bakit masaket pa ren? Siguro kase hindi ko pa naririnig yung mga tamang sagot sa lahat ng tanong ko. I never wish to fall in love with someone who can’t love me til the end but I did. Whenever someone asks me about love, I told them I had one. And it’s the truth. I had a relationship with a girl. I’m bisexual, specifically pansexual. Someone made me realize I’m not straight.  But maybe, our relationship didn’t work because of many instances. A lot of things happened between us. Naging magulo ang lahat simula nung umalis sya. Hindi naman na sana ko papayag na umalis sya e kaso masyado na kong ginawang mundo, at nawalan na ng time sa sarili at sa pamilya nya. Kaya kahit masaket, I chose na umalis sya for her growth. Para sabay kameng aahon at yung plano namen. Pero wala. Everything turned out into toxicity. I don’t blame her. I don’t blame myself either anymore. Maybe it’s God’s way of saying na hindi talaga kame para sa isa’t isa. Wala na yung sinabi ko na antayin lang akong makagraduate at maging stable e ilalaban ko sya. Siguro naging mabilis ang lahat kaya mabilis ding nawala. Hindi ko alam kung paano nakakayanan ng iba na magkaroon agad ng iba at masabing mahal nya na. Feeling ko napakadali kong palitan at napakadaling itapon ng pinagsamahan and everything within the relationship kapag ganun, even yung pagiging bestfriend nawala. I admit it, it became my lost at first. Nahulog kase ako. Hindi naman kase ko open sa lahat ng tao o sa mga kaibigan ko talaga. Kaya masakit talaga para saken. Thank God for having friends who saved me. I really thank one person for being there to listen to my rants those times kahit sobrang kulit ko na at matigas ang ulo ko. And she is the only one who knew a lot about us. (Hindi pa kasi ako open na bi ako that time. Hindi pa ako ready sumagupa sa judgmental na society kase ang toxic pa ng acads) She saved me when I decided to end my life. Masasabi ko na malaki ang utang na loob ko sa kanya. Thank You God for not giving up on me. I can’t imagine kung nasan na ko kung di ako lumaban ng mga panahong yon at kung di mo ko binigyan ng guidance. Lalo na nung namatay si Kuya. Nagpatong patong lahat that time. Hanggang sa napatanong na ako kung isinumpa ba ako? Pero eto ako ngayon, namumuhay para sa Iyo. Mahirap kase nagkaroon talaga ako ng depression. Kaya kahit ayoko, nalulungkot talaga ako at times. Please continue to enlighten me and heal my heart from all of the heartaches in the past. I love You my Master. I am nothing without You.

[ironcyclecherryblossom]

It’s exhausting na gumawa ng mga bagay bagay para sa ibang tao. Ang daming tao ang umaasa sa akin. Minsan masyado lang siguro sila nagtitiwala sakin. lol. I have no choice but to continue to do this. Darating yung time na kaya ko na magsabi ng no reasonably. hehez. Hinay hinay lang tayo Self. Palakas muna. Grow up. :)

[ironcyclecherryblossom]

2018 Year end post

There are times, mapapatanong ka na lang kung bakit? Pero I never lose my faith to my only Master. My 2018 is a mixture of happiness and sadness. Masaya ako na akalain mo yun, nakayanan ko pang makagraduate. Hindi ko mabilang kung ilang beses akong nagbreakdown sa buong 2018 at sinabi sa sarili kong ayoko na, titigil na ako. Paano ba ito? Kaya ko pa ba? But thank God, He put my mind in the right thinking and gave me guidance to continue with my life. Kuya’s death became traumatic to me and processing all the documents after his death is never a joke. I talked to a lot of people, went to different places. Minsan, napapatanong ako, Bakit ba ako yung nandito? Deserve ko ba na sa ganito kong stage at sa ganito kong age, nakikipaglaban ako para sa hustisya at humaharap sa mga malalaking tao? Mostly they are lawyers, so kelangan kong maging matalino kase sobrang dumi ng sistema ng Pilipinas. Upon my experience sa pag aayos ng kaso about Kuya’s death, I learned many things in life. And pwede ko bang sabihing strong ako kasi ginawa ko to kasabay ng board exam review ko? Minsan, para na akong mababaliw. Pero no choice, ako lang yung may time sa amin, My two older siblings are busy with their work. I’m not ready to take the board, sinabi ko to sa family ko. Pero di sila pumayag. I failed. Eto yung ayokong mangyari, makita at maramdamang disappointed sa akin ang mga tao. TBH, wala naman akong pake sa kanila e pero ang masakit lang e kung pano tayo maijudge agad without them knowing kung gano kahirap yung pinagdaanan natin. Pinapalagpas ko lang lahat up until now kase iniisip ko na wala naman talaga silang alam so shut up na lang ako. Pati pagpapagupit ko ng buhok naiconnect sa pagbagsak ko. It’s offensive pero never akong sumagot. Pangiti ngiti lang ako kase hindi naman nga nila alam pano magtake ng board. And it just means na I’m above them kaya they’re putting me down. I met a lot of people and personalities in 2018 but the thing is I cannot trust that much anymore. Na trauma na siguro ako. Maybe I should care less to people, but I always care much. Siguro kase alam ko yung feeling na mabalewala. Kaya I can’t help but care. It’s okay. God knows naman. Ang importante, I already know my limitations and I already learned from my past experiences. This year, I’m gonna start something new in my life. And I hope na it would help me to grow and be a better person.  GodMaster, thank You for everything. Thank you for clearing up my headspace whenever I feel like giving up in life. Thank You for not giving up on me. I am nothing without You. I love You more than myself and I will always do. 

[ironcyclecherryblossom]

Fuck Dysthymia

[oikawas]

Be careful in the world of men, Diana. They do not deserve you. You have been my greatest love. Today, you are my greatest sorrow.

WONDER WOMAN (2017) dir. Patty Jenkins

[justiceleague]

Wonder Woman (2017)

[ironcyclecherryblossom]

Are you a Gold Star lesbian? (Just in case you don't know what it means, a Gold Star lesbian is a lesbian that has never had sex with a guy and would never have any intentions of ever doing so)  

I’m bisexual and why do you need to know my sex status? lol. 

[ohsuestorm]

Diana + muscles.

[ironcyclecherryblossom]

And this heart needs to let go of everything that’s hindering her from reaching all her dreams. This heart needs to let go of everything and everyone that hurt her in the past. Life continues for her. and this is the time that she will survive, that she will be set on fire. 

~The fragile girl with a weak heart, the Old Self.

[echoesinmysleep]

“And in the death of her reputation, she felt truly alive.”

[tswiftgallery-blog1]

the red tour // 1989 tour // reputation stadium tour

[ironcyclecherryblossom]

Hi. I’m Rose Ann, a blogger-photographer- designer wanna be. I am the person who has many goals in life. I wanted to travel around the world. I would also like to have a blog enumerating my bucketlist. I am very excited to reaching my destination whenever I imagine about all of it. hehez (insert my kilig excited self with a sparkling eyes look.) ;) At this moment, I am currently typing and writing this blog, for me to have a breather or at least ease the pain that I am feeling from previous happenings in my life.(Bare with me, I don’t want to enumerate them all, i think it’s not that necessary). i don’t know could I end up this blog. i’m just trying to write what I feel and think. 

[ohsuestorm]

Diana + muscles.

[ironcyclecherryblossom]

I hate this feeling of being there for everyone but when it comes to me, it seems like they’re too busy and can’t handle me by the way I break down. It always seems like I’m just toxic cry little girl. No one is there. Oh why life?

[ironcyclecherryblossom]

Wrote something long in my blog then this happened. I can’t retrieve it and I’m like, “I can’t write it anymore.” So, what’s now, Life? You better shut.