Dørky Trash

Hey there! Marilyn is currently learning the methods of 'Adulting' and will be with you momentarily; take a piece of advice while you wait: Be yourself and the right people will come to you.

[ironyoflife63]

4 months just before our anniversary later, im okay with being just me again

[ironyoflife63]

i wish i would have never met you

i wish i didn't text you back

i wish you would have just let me go

i wish you never got my hopes up

i wish i went through a string of terrible people

i wish i never said what i did

i wish you cheated

i wish you just left me alone

i wish i never met you.

[riffatmatinpoetry]

“I am good enough. I deserve love. One day someone will recognize how much I am worth. Today, my focus is on bettering and loving myself.”

— Affirmation of the day.

[ironyoflife63]

nothing hurts more than the relationship that taught you the meaning of love ending after so many people using you for their gains

the relationship that gave you the motivation you kept running out of to get through the day instead of the relationships that made you dread waking up in the mornings

the relationship where they helped you weed out the toxic people in your life and encouraged you to do your best to succeed rather than those who berated you for having friendships

a relationship where you can be alone and not feel lonely suddenly ended and im alone and the loneliest i ever felt even when surrounded by loved ones

[teenagecrush]

[33v0]

[remanence-of-love]

[remanence-of-love]

[suicideisthesolution]

I already knew I would lose you some day. But that you would turn away from me like that was not what I expected.

- V. J.

[remanence-of-love]

[siickangel]

Alessia Cara // Out Of Love

[screaming--stars]

[ironyoflife63]

its over

you said you dont love me

you said its been fun

but could you say youll do it again

theres so much we havent done

and i find myself wondering

could you say you miss me at all

the pain in my chest says

we'll never be the same but

my heart begs to differ

that we'll be back

i deserve better

sadly i just think that better is you

you can say that its over

you can say that we're through

but god its gonna be hard

getting over you.

[ironyoflife63]

Dream

the only light in the room shined from a screen but illuminated your face to where it looked the light came from you.

the late night where you had your arm around my waist under the cover weighing me down. your face illuminated and was the most beautiful thing i have seen yet.

afraid you're a dream i comb through your hair. a dream ill wake up from i stroke the curves of your face. a dream who will disappear i squeeze your shoulder to make sure you're still here.

and while you dream im not sure you know that i pray you never leave.

once you were the one i dreamt of in my sleep and i pray to hold you tightly in the meantime before you choose to go once more into the night as dreams do.

[ironyoflife63]

A Person

my soul burns eternally as god punishes me for being a horrible person.

a person who left her family.

a person who's sexuality was a sin.

a person who begged for your attention when she was sad.

a person who was dramatic and self absorbed.

a person who didnt think before she acted or else she thought too much or too little.

a person unworthy of true love, driving everyone who was a possibility away from her.

god punishes the girl who asked for no help. she was too proud to beg and when she did it was horrible to watch without disgust in your eyes.

what a mistake of a person for god to make.

[ironyoflife63]

Kidnapped

im so fucking depressed. i said i wasnt but i am. the anxiety creeps in before jumping me from behind and kidnapping me into a dark alleyway where depression keeps me hidden in the shadows tied to a chair. the anxiety laughs as it watches people walk by the alley not giving me the time of day. depression holds my eyes open, a knife to my throat when the occasional person looks at me in disgust. after years of this pain. the day in and day out torture, skipping meals, and the silence of no comforting words. my mental limit peaks and they kill me in cold blood. the blood drips into the sewers where only the rats are saddened by my disappearance. the people who passed me by glad were overjoyed the eyesore in the alleyway they had to pass by everyday was gone.

[ironyoflife63]

Thoughts pt7

you broke up with me today. 031821. im puzzles angry sad and tired. i told you when you miss me return to me. you said you will. i miss you now. please come home. im numb and drained. please god. im not a perfect person. i know you throw trials. i know he is my soulmate please. return him to me soon.