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2024☆ What a ride,honestly!♡◇☆

♡ Here's a little doodle i created that year .this is really important to me because it marks my return to visual art in a way.and the last slide is that of a deer a very zoophobic me somehow mustered up the courage to take a picture of ♡

#throwback #artists on tumblr #morute art #rural gothic #gothic art #gothic #goth artist

professionalbitch

"Why do queer people even need a whole month?"

I am in elementary school. I have discovered something in myself that is different from my peers. I have no words to express this feeling, so I instead live in discomfort for years and years and believe it to be normal.

I am in seventh grade. I have lost my entire friend group because a rumor was spread that because I am queer, I must be a creep. My last sleepover with those friends was spent sitting in the same room as them while they texted each other talking shit about me.

I am in seventh grade. I have endured homophobic bullying from snarky comments to food being thrown at me in the cafeteria, and today finally swing back. I get one of the bullies on the floor and the teacher breaks us up. I get in trouble for fighting while she continues to bully me. Nothing is done about the bullying when I speak up about it.

I am in seventh grade. I am being outed to my entire classroom by the people I share a table with. They are walking to every single desk and telling each classmate I am queer. I watch as every head turns to look at me in disgust. I am completely alienated from that class and spend my days working alone.

I am fourteen or fifteen. The discomfort I have lived with my entire life finally has a name: dysphoria. I have come out to my family as trans. I am in my room alone on my birthday, crying because every card has "girl" on it.

I am fourteen or fifteen. I get a tone with a family member because I am tired of her excuses for continuously misgendering me. Her husband corners me outside and threatens to hit me if I ever talk back to her again, and tells me my identity is made up. My family sides with him.

I am fifteen and sixteen. I wish I could die instead of living in stagnancy.

I am seventeen. My country is passing law after law to restrict my community. Trans people are going missing and being murdered, and their lights are snuffed without so much as a whimper. I am disgusted and afraid and grieving alongside my trans brothers, sisters, and siblings.

I am twenty. I do not speak to much of my family anymore, my mother has only ever called me my birth name, and I have lost every single friend I ever had except one, and had to rebuild myself and my circle from the ground up. Family holidays are hollow. I have self harm scars permanently etched on my skin, purple half-moons under my eyes that are like stains at this point, and I will never forget how I have been treated and what I have endured. My heart breaks knowing millions out there experience the same things and worse.

I am twenty. I am crying in my boyfriend's arms about not feeling like a real man. I am hearing him reassure me that he sees me for me and he loves me as the man I am. My small friend group strictly calls me by my chosen name and pronouns. I am in love, I have more support than ever, and for once, I'm starting to feel glad I'm alive, glad that I held on. For once, I have hope.

I am twenty. It is pride month and I am hearing the same complaints over and over again. And I am not apologizing for existing a little more brightly this month. We have all fucking earned it.

ethel cain demos are the best

#SoundCloud

Obsession was not it

Like sorry but I don't like it when a movie does not give two packs of cigarettes for breakfast,mourning lamb,I go to school in my father's beat up jeep with like my grandma's nails in my fucking drawer or whatever.

I don't like that it's giving 'palatable to cishet, instagram addicted normies'instead

#obsession #obsession movie #obsession movie review #obsession was not good #obsession was mid #hot take #cinephile

itsyourproblem

Is There Any Way To Commit Suicide Without Actually Like Dying Forever Like Any way To just like Make a point

ish-ue

I've been searching for an answer to this since before I said my first words

I hate the lack of sad-girl americana amab slightly transfem non binary media

I think I'll have to do it myself

#americana #trans artist #pride #queer art #protect queer art #nonbinary #non binary #ethel cain #genderqueer #southern gothic

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springsteen84

“Pretty boy , Consumed by death”

starsandgoodness

I love vacillator but seriously guys if you love me please don't keep it to yourself I'm a bit insecure and I'd much rather you say you love me instead of making me guess it would really mean a lot thanks guys

ish-ue

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