I am not scared of being lonely
I am not scared of being lonely, I fear the fall into loneliness after abandonment. Loneliness is a steady state, when I am in it, I am at home with it. But the chance meeting with someone you can make a connection with, and the drifting apart and eventual abandonment, that drop from feeling good in a company and then to being lonely...that drop is what I fear. That is so torturous.














