when it was the end of 2019 I was caught up on the ideas of decades and how I should start a new decade with a different approach putting to affect everything I've learnt in the past decade. when december reached its end and came into more realisation and understanding to how I was in this past decade (2010-2019)
and what I've learnt and done in those 10 years and how I came to be from the very begginging of 2010 till the end of 2019.
from dancing and learning english to the mentalist and being smarter than everybody else. from reading books and listening to older people and their experience and learning from everything I face and live.
from 2012 and learning about the Illuminati and the Freemasons till the moment of full understanding by watching Zeitgeist movies.
to learning about Jacque Fresco and learning about everything he says and downloading his videos and rewatching them all.
and the venus peoject and how its bettet than everything I had ever read about or hear about.
to 2013 and buying a laptop and watching even more videos. and droppening out of highschool and never going back. and the time on facebook and youtube.
then in 2014 and leaving my old house and moving to a new neighborhood. and then dealing with the aftermath of that and how reminiscent I became about my shit old room as I described it and my old town that I was so desperate to leave.
to then unsubscribing from the faith and religion and escaping my environment.
to then adopting a new diet and being labelled vegetarian in 2015, then losing my laptop later that year.
then having my first smartphone in january of 2016.
and at February I did my first dental surgery and remove my right wisdom tooth in qibla,
and having my fist offical job in Basra Times Square Mall. in February.
and then removing my left wisdom tooth later that month
only to go back to that mall in march and having my favorite job of all time almost as cashier in Texas chicken restaurant.
and then quitting that job for me to be jobless for alomst the entire year.
then ofcourse 2017 and how hot and sad she was
from the death of Jacque Fresco in may
getting my first tattoo in may
my 23rd June anf the time in the beach
the sad songs and all the jobs of that year.
then 2018 and getting back to the same mall and going more to see and speak with the beach.
till the end of it and meeting golden girl
and then 2019 and how fast it was and how wiser I became, with every cup of tea and beach visit with every summer and palm tree.
for the sad and .... very sad
for all the songs and every single person I spoke with. that I hurt or made them feel good
for the start and the end.
it only brings me to saying what I wanna say about trying to make the New Year's Eve special
in December 31st 2019, where I went to have tea at my spot in ashar and then to the beach of rivers.
I saw that everyone didnt seem to care about the year ending and definitely did not care about the decade ending. (wich is ofcurse a good thing, its just another number)
the seemed ok with 2019 ending because of what was going on at that time and the massive Revolution and the protest that was going on at that time from october fisrt.
then I moved my way back to the place of the protest in Jibila Basra Iraq at 10pm at night.
I saw that they were doing all kinds of operation and grief about all the young peole who died in the protest and still were dying at that time.
it was both mixed with sadness and happiness
so I stayed there and decided that I want to finish this decade there with the people (mostly males)
and I had more tea and I played chess and I took a lot of pictures for the end of this decade.
and it happened at 12am where the clock marked the beginning of the new decade/year
I filmed the fireworks and the happy yelling of people in the street and all the overwhelming feelings that I had for I did not beleive I was alive that whole past decade and now I can witness the change of decades and document it and filim it.
after 23 mintues almost everything calmed down and everybody was going back to their places and some went back to their tents and I head back to empty ashar and empty Basra.
I walked in my town for a about 16 minutes at 1:16 am in january 1st 2020 and everybody was asleep and they definitely did not care about this decade.
its only 3 days in this decade and already a lot has happened, from ww3 and the memes to how bad it was in Iraq and with the killings of young protesters.
and the death of Kobe Bryant and his daughter.
to china declaring the outbreak of (covid19)
novel coronavirus in Wuhan China.
then the days went on and I had some of my own things to do like
getting on a boat for the first time in the decade this one and the one before.
having a somewhat happy/cold winter birthday
and for the very first time in my life I had someone as the best winterbirthday party present from the universe to make me happy at January 26th.
and I started doing a lot of things that I didnt think I could do or even think about in the first place.
and as the days went on and as we know each other and as I deal with the firstness of all of this.
I had my first date ever in my whole life in February 14th
and I kept liking this decade with all of its early problems and stayed very positive about everything and wanted to see a solution for everything.
the time started to move fast and so does the problems, the protest and the killings and the pandemic that was declared on march 2020 by the WHO.
and I was very observant to how people and government reacted to this and how Iraqis reacted to this compared to the rest of the world. and I monitored everything both online and in real life and saw how the system started to crumble. and I tryed to stay very smart with this situation this is my first time witnessing a pandemic.
how did we not see what was coming, how did we not think about it and had teams be prepared for it how did we came to be very negligent and so comfortable with this system and we are witnessing now is the failing of
to deal with this very new thing in our day and age.
we have been sleeping on these comfortable beds of phrases like
"we are more advanced than ever now"
" humans can survive in every condition"
"humans are civil and smart"
and you can see that this is not true if you look at the current state of people and how they are behaving the globe.
your trust in democracy did not work
your trust in politics did not work
Your dependence on the economy and money did not work
Your religion and God did not work
and as we continued the destruction of the environment in ourselves with our aberrant behaviour. and how we can all see now that we were not really civilised or smart.
and now you are witnessing the aftermath of we did to this planet and ourselves.
only one thing remains one thing that helped us all since the beginning of time.
Science and how wonderful it is and how its the only way out of this pandemic.
every other thing has abandoned you,
your politics, economics, democracy, Money
they have all prove to you that they are not worth your time and faith in them.
they are not worth your thoughts of them
and their ego that makes you a victim of being you.
you can see that science is the only way, its the music and the internet of this Quarantine
the company of people that is provided by the help of science
and medicine and doctors that are by science helping humans survive.
the ventilators and the bed
and as Im sitting in my balcony of gaze, looking at the town as it rains heavy on these muddy streets, thinking to myseld if this is what I had in my mind for the start of the decade?
I dont know what I had in mind when I was waiting for a new thing to happen in this decade.
it is a strange time and a strange feeling that I have when I see the state of the world and how surreal it is.
I have hope for this planet and for humans that they will come out of this smarter and better
I dont know if they will I would like to work for that and see that in the next months and years and decades.
a lot of people are behaving currently regarding this situation.
most are doing their absolute best at times like these.
and I can only do my small part of anything from writing to filming and documenting.
and to listening to experts and science.
to not make assumptions and judgements
and to stay hopeful for the days to come.
maybe it will be the start of end of this Monetary System.
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