DONT TOUCH ME @it-was-yxu - Tumblr Blog

Unfortunately, I am alive, but I'm probably deleting this blog. maybe starting a new one idk. A bunch of my old posts keep getting reblogs and it's making me think about past shit moreso than usual and that's stacking on top of all the other shitty thoughts in my head. Every little thing has been piling.up lately. I was.manic for a while and now I think I've just bounced to the opposite end and high dived.into a pit of suicidal depression so yeah I'll either be deleting this blog or just abandoning it idk yet

Ik it's been a while, but this will probs be my final post here.

I've been doing a lot better and I think getting away from that former friend of mine, and also not being on this account has helped me. I'm in a much better place with good friends + some newer friends, and I think putting myself into a depressing space on here kinda just made me feel worse when I was in dark places (shocker /s), so I'm not gonna do that anymore.

I'm not gonna delete this blog cuz it's basically an old diary for me at this point. I'll still be drawing my vent art cuz it's a good coping mechanism for me that's always been a constant in my life. But yeah, I won't be posting ever. 🫡

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I don't care about anything anymore. Nothing's ever going to fucking get better for me I'm just done I don't fucking care anymore. Everyone's better off without me anyways.

God please I just want to fucking die already. It's not like my life matters to anyone anymore anyway.

#god forbid anything ever goes right i cant have fucking anything i just want to die #storage

I'm tired I don't want to fucking do this anymore no ones even talking to me anymore and I don't want to talk to them because what the fuck are my "problems" compared to theirs? I don't fucking do anything I don't work, no one has time to hang with me.or talk to me I'm a financial burden on my mother it would just be better for her and.evwurone else if I was just fucking gone

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I'd ask for help, but wtf is anyone.going to do for me? How could anyone help me? I can't afford therapy so wtf am I supposed to do? What could anyone do to help me? I can't do anything for my-fucking-self I'm so fucking sick of thiss

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No one goes out of their way to talk to me anymore.. I barely ever get responses from any of my friends and I get being busy butnit takes them days to a week to respond and usually just a couple words :/ Idk think everyone's just giving up on me, probably for the best, Im basically nothing at this point. I don't do anything, Im too scared to leave the house, too scared to live my life normally I can't work or get money I can't provide anything for anyone, not even myself, so why the fuck am I still here???

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#poetry #depression #bipolar disorder #agoraphobia #anxiety #storage #void writes #for once lol

I am (once again) begging people to realize agoraphobia is NOT just social anxiety/GAD

#agoraphobia #agoraphobic #storage

All I've been doing is laying in bed trapped between watching a TV show that I watched when I was 14 and doomscrolling and occasionally reading some fanfiction. I hate that I'm too scared to go out and do things on my own. I hate that my brain is spiralling because I know the winter depression is going to hit soon and once again, I won't know what to do about it but lay in my bed and watch TV and fuck around on my phone until I fall asleep and begin the cycle anew the next day, for months.

I'm exhausted and I don't even fucking do anything and it's not fair.

#fuxjing kill me already im so sick to death of this shit #storage