Chapter 7

Travel - Food - Beauty I Share. I Repost. I Treasure Happy Moments. 3rd Year Medical Student. All Photos © 2014-2015 It's A New Chapter, All Rights Reserved.

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Falling for a person you never thought you'd fall for...

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Great things come when you least expect it

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Let's not cross each other's path again

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Someday you will realize how important I am in your life. That you have mistakenly chosen her over me. If time comes when you needed me most, one thing for sure I will never be there for you.

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I'm only his backup plan. Then I have to be sure that the next man who will come into my life, I am his only priority.

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To the girl who loves trouble and chaos. May all the bad forces be with you. FUCK YOU.

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So New Discovery

He left me because he said it was for his career and his family. 

But lately, my true friends told me he was flirting with another girl when we’re still together. Recently, he has a photo with a girl which I think she’s the girl he chose over me, he fell in love with that girl for less than a week. Duh

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Moving On 2 (End of 2nd week)

How are you? - I’m doing okay and it is better than the 1st week, I am slowly getting myself back :) thanks to our busy schedule in school.

What are the things that made you focus again? - Well, so far I am reorganizing my goals because previously I included him all in my plans. - My goals now are somehow the same though I just deleted our plans together

What are your goals now? Graduate 2019 > Physician and Resident Surgeon by 2020 > Legit Surgeon 2025 > The rest would be to treat my mom like a queen, to do volunteering abroad, to have my own family, to take MBAand lastly to have my own foundation to help people like free clinic or consultation; or to sponsor students with financial problems who want to become a doctor too

Are there other things that made you forget him? - I deleted Facebook account and Instagram app for me not to check on him as well as not to see any people related to him may it be my friends or his friends. In addition, I don’t want to see any bad vibes on my news feed so I created a new FB account with no friends at all just purely academics because we have this class group that all announcement or corrections are there. - I went trekking (haha) with my relatives to the volcano’s crater and seriously it helped a lot in bringing myself back. I’m happier and I feel free. - I just tried the tinder app, because I am curious about it. It’s not that I’m looking for another man or a relationship, I’m just really curious about it. I enjoyed swiping left and right with my friends and my cousins too (hahaha). It somehow boosted my self-esteem because I thought no one would like me again, but looking at it somehow there are still guys who are interested or liked me (probably based on my profile picture).

Do you think you’ll get over him in less than 3months? - Definitely yes, with my busy schedules and my cousin who’ll be my roommate for almost 2 months, moving on will be easier 🙂

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Walked 2 hours just to get inside the crater 😍

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We took the extra sour candy challenge 😂

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Foundation: MAC Studio Tech NC25 Concealer: Etude Big Cover Sand Eyebrow and Eyeliner: The FaceShop GrayBrown and Black Eyeshadow: Urban Decay Lips: Ofra Pasadena

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Air Cushion: IOPE N23 Matte Concealer: Etude Big Cover Sand Lips: Ofra Mina Eyeliner and Eyebrows: The FaceShop Black and GrayBrown

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Foundation: MAC Studio Fix NC25 Concealer: Etude Big Cover Sand Lipstick: Ofra Mina Eyeliner and Eyebrow: The FaceShop Eyeshadow: Urban Decay Contact Lens in Sterling Grey

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I tried to spend all my time To find someone new Someone who could take this love That once was for you But I don't wanna fool someone Just to make me feel alright I need to get you off my mind And so I will find a way Coz I will tell my mind, convince it I don't need you I will tell my heart, convince it I don't love you and I will tell myself that I can live without you Though I'd be lying, at least I'm trying to move on

Kithara

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Moving On 1

Day 0 - Watched movie and cried; Made myself more beautiful on Christmas Eve. Day 1 - Same Day 2 - Deleted everything and Unfriended him; Spent more time with friends and family Day 3, 4, 5, 6 - Being sarcastic and played and sang sad songs Day 7 - NYEve of course I forgot him for a while Day 8, 9 - Happy Me Day 10 - Back to School; Paid Bills; kept myself busy Day 11 - Cleaned my stuff and saw some stuff that reminded me all of him; Restless and went to sleep early

Today Day 12 - Still a bit emotional; wishing that I could erase all the good memories tonight.

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Almost 8 years

We were really in love with each other, he kept on saying we’ll be together forever… And I foolishly believed it.

We were totally fine, exchanging sweet messages, doing our good night facetime, updating each other once in a while. And then…. Few days later he became cold. I asked if there was a problem, he said none and he said he was just busy. I understand.

Another cold days, no calls nor texts at all. Thinking that he was really busy.

I asked if I was a burden to him. He said Maybe. I asked if he still needs and loves me. He said He doesn’t know. Then it became quiet.

Days gone by until I asked if what are his plans because I can definitely understand and adjust for him. He said it’s hard and still doesn’t know.

24th of Dec, he just ended everything with just one SMS saying he’ll be focusing on his career.

What happened to those happy days? How about our future plans? Our promises to each other? What went wrong? Am I not good enough for him? Is he really busy? Or he found someone else?

Is that really easy to throw everything away?

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Where do broken hearts go? Dito sa Kiltepan #sagada #mountainprovince #visitphilippinesagain2016 (at Kiltepan View Point, Sagada)