🪷 eido 🪷

ugw: 45kg sh // ed

[its-eido]

it’s been awhile whoops

i’m at 116.8 :)

[its-eido]

lil update im at 121lbs rn 💗💗 absolutely slaying

[its-eido]

omg hi did you guys miss me

[its-eido]

i wanna go back to starving for days. i keep failing. i’m still at the same weight as i was a month ago

[its-eido]

i’ve been clean from sh for over a month now, and im getting a tattoo to cover the ones on my arm. im kind of scared, not because they’ll be covered or the fact im getting a tattoo, but if i relapse will it be for nothing ?

[its-eido]

sorry i’ve been so inactive lately, i’ve been eating some what “normal” for a little bit now, at least one full meal a day and i’ve stayed the same weight so im not too upset.

i still want to be smaller but i’m so stressed with work and shit that i eat, not binging just eating.

it feels weird

[its-eido]

pfft- 💀💀

so true tho

[its-eido]

feeling your bones for comfort >>>>

( my fav are my collarbones, hips and ribs i love it sm. )

[its-eido]

looking for more ed moots !! 🦴🪷✨

honestly just want some people to talk to about this all cause i cant with any of my irl friends :’)

here’s some stuff about me:

- im 5’2 and my gw is between 95-100lbs or 45kg

- i have two cats and i love nature and bugs

- i have a mix between ana and bed eating disorder i think, it’s kind of everywhere

- i like baking and playing minecraft :P

im okay with bodychecks and selfh@rm ( i promise i’m not a creep and i will not ask or want to see anything unless you want me to ) we can do diets together, share thinspo and overall tips !! repost this if your interested <33

[its-eido]

i totally failed this whole week. i’m right back at 130, im so depressed and tired and i’ve been eating to relieve my stress and i’m so mad it’s making me more stressed.

i hate this stupid fast and binge cycle.

[its-eido]

i can’t wait to live by myself so i can starve in peace.

[its-eido]

goals

[its-eido]

i want to cut myself so bad. i know it would make me feel better and i love the blood but it’s almost summer and i don’t know if i can hide it much longer

[its-eido]

god i can’t break this cycle !! no matter how much i starve, i get so close to my lw then i wake up sick and have to eat, but everytime i eat i binge and i can’t control myself.

i keep going between 123-128 over and over. it is so annoying ?? is it water weight ?? i cant possibly gain a whole pound in a day. and i can’t eat small portions during the day cause i know i’ll binge. maybe i can do omad but make my one meal dinner cause then i can just go to bed after.

i am going insane 😵‍💫

[its-eido]

i absolutely hate myself. i don’t deserve food or love or anything good

i deserve to rot in my room forever

[its-eido]

i broke my 4 day streak yesterday cause i woke up dizzy and nauseous, but today and for the next few days i’ll be starving again <3 i barely gained anything with what i ate yesterday and i’m still below 125.

i will punish myself for what i ate yesterday, i don’t deserve food and if i’m nauseous i will deal with it :) i hate my body. i shouldn’t be feeding it something it didn’t earn.

[its-eido]

going on my 4th day of barely eating/starving !! i can already see changes, but that doesn’t mean i’m gonna start eating again. i’m going until i reach my gw :) <3

my ribs are my prominent, so are my hip bones.

my thighs are getting smaller, as are my arms.

im wearing the outfits i want to without feeling as insecure.

i still have a long way to go but knowing that what im doing is getting me closer to my goal and actually being to see it is giving me soo much motivation.