Jamie

transmasc, he/him, 23

[its-jamie-now]

4 months on T and my voice is still the same. Everyone gets a deeper voice and then there is me.

[its-jamie-now]

The sound of my laugh is changing. It gives me gender euphoria

[its-jamie-now]

I hate being autistic. It's exhausting

[crippled-peeper]

you can be a trans man any way you want btw

[its-jamie-now]

PMDS is kicking my ass today. Send help

[its-jamie-now]

Is anyone else sometimes annoyed by cis people because they don't get it, but think they do?

"... doesn't make you less of a man, you don't need to be dysphoric about it"

I know! I know! But I am still dysphoric! I cant just turn it off with logic.

(I know they want to be supportive, but sometimes they just dont understand)

[its-jamie-now]

I just want to feel loved once. Don't I feel it because no one loves me or because I am not capable of feeling it?

[its-jamie-now]

Lace panties lowkey gives me gender euphoria (yes as a trans man). Kinda gives me Dean Winchester Panty kink vibes

[its-jamie-now]

I'm working out atleast 45minutes (most of the time way more) 6 times a week 10 days ago (4 times weights, 2 times HIIT).

I did my workout today, same weights. Usually I'm out of breath after 10 minutes. Finish the workout without a sweat. Couldnt believe it. Doubled the weights, did it again. Finished it with only two short drinking breaks.

What the hell?!

[its-jamie-now]

Omg! Omg! My body squared up! Omg! Im so freaking excited! I look like a dude! I can't stop looking at the mirror and smiling.

[its-jamie-now]

God I just want to be a cis guy and be silly with other cis guys. No dysphoria. No thinking about belonging. Just having fun and goofing around.

[comicallyqueer]

Not that I make a mess in common areas or anything (I am decent).

I think it is fine when someone decides to talk about *their* experience with their assigned gender at birth, but do not talk about mine, please.

[its-jamie-now]

A friend said to me "Somehow you manage to make your boobs look masculine", when I was shirtless and without a binder. Kinda feel good now.

[its-jamie-now]

Being trans, pre op, early on T and midsize is so fucking lonely. I'm so dysphoric that I don't even try to start dating. I have so much love in me and noone to give it to. Being disabled and having a nurse and social worker makes my chances even smaller.

[tboy-cock]

guys do we remember when the woke take was that trans people shouldnt have to out themselves to be allowed into queer/trans safe spaces? this also applies to trans men. this applies to cis male passing trans men. this applies to trans men who look like cishet dudes. this applies to trans men

[its-jamie-now]

Listening to classic rock while working out with weights till I cry out of exhaustion to fix my dysphoria.

[its-jamie-now]

I feel like the T isn't working. (2 months on T)