Fearless

Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting; but a women who fears the Lord is to be praised.

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I've been pretty annoyed lately. The thing is i also happen to have my monthly visitor, so i can't tell if it's just an imbalance of hormones or if there is really something wrong with me. 

But lately I've been easily annoyed, quick to anger, and just sick of the world. No, i am not suicidal, but yes, i am very very tired of how the world works. I am disgusted by the lies and hypocrisy or supposedly righteous people and irritated by the disagreement of pre-established truths. I feel empty inside, as if no one was there to understand how i feel. On top of all these annoyances, i have constant, nosy, and overprotective parents looking over my shoulder thinking that reading this post would solve the mystery of my current issues. 

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Thanksgiving '12

Happy Thanksgiving!! 

Every year I really look forward to Thanksgiving because it's honestly the one time my family really gathers together. It's super lame but my family was never big on being family oriented. And it's kinda embarrassing to say, but I miss them. And every once in a while i fear that when my parent's generation pass away, I won't have a family anymore. I feel like once we lose the aunts and uncles we have in common, we will start drifting even further apart, as we are all caught up with our own families. I don't want that to happen. I miss those days when grandma was still around and it was loud and lively. Now, it feels like a tradition or perhaps an obligation to show up. I know, thanksgiving is a time to appreciate and not complain. Don't get me wrong, i am beyond thankful for the wonderful, humorous, and supportive family God has given me. I only wish I could be around such wonderful people more often. 

Nevertheless, i remain thankful and continue to count my blessings! 

      "I will praise God’s name in song and glorify him with thanksgiving."

                                                                                (Psalms 69:30)

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College App season

Applying to college is such a pain! In fact, there seems to be no plus side to the whole process. But I think I found something positive about it. While writing my personal statements, i was really forced to evaluate who I am and ponder on the things I wish to pursue in life. It's really difficult, yet  so rewarding when that right moment comes along, and you seem to be just about 100 years older.  

There's a lot that i had to think about and sometimes I would catch myself on tangents down memory lane. I think about all the friends that came and went, the times when i felt extremely sad, or unfathomably accomplished. But the question that I was always left thinking about was what my talents are. 

I always get stuck on that question because I couldn't find something that i was exceptionally good at. So for a long time, I considered myself talent-less and it always led to to question why God hasn't given me a gift that sets me apart from everyone else. In my mind, i didn't have a talent, and even if i was slightly good at something, it was only considered an "ability" but never a talent. But last weekend, a girl shared a message and i felt like it was said directly towards me and my situation. She too felt like she wasn't good at anything and lightweight incompetent with the people around her. Through her message  i realized that talent isn't defined as being the best. Talent means something you feel especially passionate about, and through your genuine interest, inspire others to feel the same way. 

Once again, a super long blog. And like all previous stuff, i'm not sure if this makes any sense. But it's ok, no one reads this anyway :p 

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[xjasmineee]

“Tell your wife that she looks pretty, even if she looks like a truck.”

HAHAHA. 

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innocence of a child! it's really JUST that simple....

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As a single woman, I have wrestled with the question a lot over the past 10 years.

When Harry Met Sally made the question famous, but it’s been one we’ve been throwing around for at least the last century. Society’s changing: the days of men in the field and women in the kitchen are by and...

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the recent

One of my biggest challenges right now is surrendering to Christ. Big things are ahead and many small roadblocks are getting in the way. But i constantly strive to keep everything under my control, acting like I know what's best for myself. I'm constantly thinking of solutions and praying that God will answer my prayers by following my plans. I failed to realize that He knows best. In fact, what better plan to have then His?

You know, it's soo easy to say "leave it to God." It's not wrong, but it's so often thrown off the tip of a Christian's tongue that it's loses the power it really has. This past week, i have been challenged in my faith in Him and many times I failed. But i am encouraged by this one phrase i read in my devotional this week. " Store up His truths, because the winter is coming." Stay grounded, Sharon! 

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worse day ever

so basically something is really bothering me and i can't concentrate no matter what! i know it's suppose to be most people consider sweet and good but i'm absolutely miserable right now 

I'm praying everything works out cuz I'm dying a little

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Constant lag

It may be just the kind of person i am, but whenever i encounter things that i really don't want to face, i tend to flake. I push them off to the side, and try to avoid having to deal with it. One most recent situation is college apps and SATs. i know, it's super crucial and in fact something i shouldn't be procrastinating on. But i just can't get myself to be motivated. In fact, i can barely stay focused in school. It's  not like i'm becoming all rebellious and stuff, but i guess im scared. I'm scared of what is about to happen in the next month. It's the thought of officially saying "I'm apply to blah blah blah college, that kinda makes me nervous and uneasy. 

But today I sort of realized that i had enough fooling around. And i don't mean im going to be crazy studious either, but I'm going to pull myself together. Pick up the motivation i abandoned months ago, and work hard for my dreams. 

A verse that i feel is really keeping me going is found in Colossians 3:23 " Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters." For Him I work for, and to Him be the glory! 

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return

I just realized that i haven't really updated anything for the last few months. One of the main reasons is because i had nothing to write about. But now that it's senior year and so much seems to be going on, i feel the need to blog. Maybe this could be a way to relieve some stress and perhaps document the rather rough or pleasing times of this year. 

I'm really tired right now, and i know it's not a good sign. It's like 9:40 right now and the night is literally still young. I have a AP Chem test to prep for and a lot of club planning. I really didn't realize how much stress taking on clubs could be. Now that i have to face the issue of not having enough time to do all the things i need to get done, i kinda lightweight wish i didn't do so much. But im sure it will be all the worth while. Well, i hope it will. 

Well if anything, my grades aren't too bad. Kinda of contrary cuz im literally complaining about my grades everyday. I know, im a nerd. And i guess it's nice to realize that i got great friends and something to look forwards to everyday :] 

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Encouragement!

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I hate it when an act of bravery turns out wrong, and all i want to do is dig a hole and hide forever, cuz it's seriously THAT embarrassing....-___________- 

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There are two types of bestfriends

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Number 1 :

The bestfriend who you’re so close too. You see them at least twice a week or more. You guys talk alot and catch up on everything.

Number 2 : The type of friendship where you two don’t talk as much but deep down, you know that persons your bestfriend. Why? They understand you even if they barely see you.

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I suppose every now and then we all get sick of people entering and leaving our lives.

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happy 75th, homie

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Im so stressed! I have a huge physics final tmr and i honestly don't know anything. I got a B on my math final and i need to go talk to my teacher and see if she's willing to bump it considering that it's one point from an A. God, please soften her heart!! Also, im getting ridiculously lazy. I guess its this thing that kicks in when ur half a day away from summer, and your body is just on break mode. I'm totally rambling here, but i need to get it out of my systems! With summer so cloose, yet soo far it's literally killing me. 

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