I named My Depression as SSSST_

Dark, Isolated, and contains many hidden things.

[its-sssst]

My birthday wish was to die within this year.

[its-sssst]

My goal is to settle the dues and leave.

By leave, I meant death.

[its-sssst]

Everyone keeps forcing their idea of what the best way is for me to live my life…

“Sleep early, don’t stay up late.” But that’s not who I am. I stay up late—and the important thing is, I still get enough sleep, just at a different time.

“Eat a lot, eat on time.” I can’t. We’re not biologically the same. My stomach isn’t the same as yours, my cravings aren’t the same, and my metabolism isn’t either.

“Go out so you can have fun.” I can also have fun by staying inside.

Why can’t I live in the way that makes me happy?

[its-sssst]

My plans were to jump on an incoming train or wish for a disease to take me early.

[its-sssst]

[its-sssst]

I pre ordered The legend of Zelda: Tears of the Kingdom and im getting it this friday

But i have this problem that i might fail in my study

And i feel and think that i dont deserve to get/recieve the game.

I feel i need to be punished for being a failure.

[its-sssst]

I’m a failure. I cant even cry for myself.

[its-sssst]

I have this feeling of dread, I’m so scared to fail this.

[its-sssst]

me: forgot to do something that wont be a problem or can be done tomorrow

s******l thoughts join the chat.

ST: o/ hey just checking if you want to go?

[its-sssst]

im homeless

[c0ffinbunnii]

[its-sssst]

aaah thanks

[princessaabaddiee]

[its-sssst]

i just realize ive been writing i wanna die when i was a kid.

im 28 now, im living a pretty peaceful life but i still want to die.

i think its both emotional and genetics problems. im built to want to die.

[its-sssst]

please dont reach out to me, i stayed away to be better. please dont make me despair again....

... its coming back...

..

[edwardslostalchemy]

Sometimes you just gotta leave people behind so you can heal. And it hurts to do it, but ultimately if it helps you in the long run, do it. Your life will be better and you will find better people, and the people that are already in your life will be there for you.

[its-sssst]

putangina, pabili ng bagong utak yung matino pls.

[myopressivedepression]

[its-sssst]

Take me.