I'm in dire straits financially, so I've come to the point where I'm thinking of selling Alex...again.
I keep considering it, but never can go through with it. Of course, I'm in such bad shape financially that I can't sell him fast enough, because I'm so close to the unplanned overdraft for the third time this month and it's only been a week & a half since I got my wages through - I went overboard last month & it's snowballed out of control this month. I can't get a loan, because of my bad credit score, and I don't want to tell my parents, because they think I've been doing fine and getting extra cash in so that I don't need money from them. I could do with some, but I don't think they'll be too happy that I've lied to them about the fact that I don't need the cash I'm making from sales (although I don't actually have enough to post 2 items off today).
I can't even cry about it, and I want to. I don't know why I can't. I guess I'm mad at myself more than upset. I've been trying & trying to resolve this, even thought I had my head above water so to speak, but then more payments went out even though I've tried to be good with it all! So, now, I'm so close to the unplanned overdraft again and I'm going to push myself over the edge posting two items off today. If I can even do that...
I could do commissions for online art, I suppose, but I don't do pieces on my computer. I do them by hand, and I don't want to sell the originals. But, I'd need money for prints. The only other option I have is to sell off all the things I don't use any more. And I mean all of them. But, then I'd have nothing for if this happens again. I could put the commissions in place once I'm financially stable enough to afford prints, or add a charge for the print on to the overall price. I need to think things through, but I don't have a clear enough head right now.
I can't lose Alex just to fix my financial woes. He came into my life at a crucial turning point, and creating his character distracted me from it. Sure, I ignore him a lot of the time now, but I just can't get rid of him. Or, am I being too sentimental with a doll? He's the biggest cash cow I'm sitting on right now, because of how much he cost me in the first place. He could pull me out of this financial crisis, but it means saying goodbye to him. And I don't know how quickly he would sell...or where the best place to advertise him would be.
I'm in a catch-22, and I've got no means of immediate escape.













