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Thoughts of a teenager girl that are put into words. 22 years of heart pumping

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“I feel so romantically unlovable.”

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“I opened up to a man again, and I’m regretting it again.”

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I’m not even going to try and redeem myself.

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Why am I Single?

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Just cause I don't have anxieties, have stable emotions, and don't cry out in front of them, means I can't be the one getting attacked.

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They get triggered and deny it if I tell them they caused damage to me. Yet, when they do the same to me, everyone agrees.

I'm that evil I guess.

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"Do you know why I always wanted to justify myself to you? It's because I always end up looking like the bad guy."

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"Everything I say and do is wrong in the eyes of you."

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I erased the names and my picture for privacy reasons but I left out the rude commenter’s picture since it’s really isn’t something.

The reason why I’m posting this because at the time this event happened, I was pretty confident and reassured that I accept myself as who I am and as how I look. I’m fully aware that I’m not the prettiest out there but like, I was done being insecure with myself. Now that I’ve learned self-acceptance, I thought this comment would be nothing but just a small negative thing that happened to me that day.

Yet, I find myself thinking about it the next day. Once again, the walls that I broke down are slowly building back up. To be completely honest, I’m not affected by this comment in a way that makes me lose my self-acceptance. I have reached the point where pure criticisms are nothing but insecure remarks and that it has nothing to do with me but their own personal problems. I guess I was angry, how they have the audacity to just degrade someone who they don’t personally know. I don’t get where people get this hatred. Like, you can have everything go wrong in your life but that doesn’t justify this behavior. Seriously.

Also, I know my replies weren’t the most mature or intellectual. I just wanted to keep things light for the both of us.

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"I always found myself crying when I'm around them. It's no one's fault, maybe I should just take my leave."

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"You know how you think their lives would be better without you? I genuinely feel that way. Im not saying they're wrong. It's my fault."

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"There's so much darkness in me. I can't control it. I've become toxic in my family."

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"I'm such a coward in romance that here I am having a fake relationship with a guy I met online."

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"This is why I hate being in love with someone. I can't function well because I can only think about him."

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"I keep falling for the same type of people. It's not good."

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"You know you're important if I say that I'll make it up to you."

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"It hasn't been long since we've known each other, but I already miss you."

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