Fatimah G's Mental Notes

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How you handle stress is a choice.  You can be a reactive brat or you can be a role model. A mature presence. A calm amid the storm.

Brendon Burchard

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!?#@!

My mood and thus my speech has become unpredictable. Like a storm that is calm one minute. Harsh. Angry. Spiteful the next. I don’t even feel guilty until a long while later. A major shift from whom I once was. 

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Oh the shame of it

It is in fact a great taboo in society to talk of it. People shift uncomfortably in their seats as the topic comes up in conversation. The thing is. It exists and is treatable just like any other medical illness. The irony though. The more I try to bury it, the more passive-aggressive the come back is. 

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It’s the strangest thing

..to not recognize ones self; to not know how it was before. Some brief moments give a snapshot of what lies beneath the mess, which brings some hope to a battered soul. This only lasts for a moment. It is then overwhelmed by the emotion. The illness. Depression. It is what it is. No more denial.