Monday 8th February
Julia wasn't in today so we had Nigel for the whole day. I was upset in a way because I really want to add more onto what we already have, but we were told that we need to have scenes ready for a moderation on Tuesday. Today was horrible. Like no one payed attention to the people doing the warm up, and people did they're own thing. It annoys me because we seem to only get on with work when Julia is there, but we're not even capable of listening to someone who is leading a warmup. Even thought the warm up wasn't successful, I was still filled with loads of energy. Even then, I felt like no one was into it. We were meant to be rehearsing but I can only pick a handful of people who wanted to work me put effort into the rehearsal. I would like my company members to not think of rehearsals like a quick fun through, we have to do them as if we were actually performing. I know I can get repetitive and very boring because that's how I feel sometimes but I'm always bursting with energy and wanting to work, and I feel like my energy gets drained from other people not putting any enthusiasm and life into the performance. I feel like what's the point of me giving 100% if not everyone else is
