[itsmejuj]

[gaycommunist]

i’m all the ages i have ever been

@swarnpert // haruki murakami “norwegian wood” // laura mathis “no most” // russian dolls // sue zhao // “eleven” sandra cisneros // “deathless” catherynne m valente // “memento mori” crywank // “untitled” keith haring, 1982 // dante and aristotle discover // jenny slate // @psychicdonuts

[itsmejuj]

I think the hardest thing in the world is not loving someone who doesn’t love you back . I think the hardest thing in the world is loving someone, having them love you so much , but not loving who you are with that person, what that person brings out in you.

[itsmejuj]

You know your tits are big when you have to put on a bra just to dance around your house alone

[itsmejuj]

Day 4

(I’ve been failing at doing this but part of it is about self love and forgiveness so going at my own pace should be okay)

A huge part of this year for me has been remembering that I don’t have to take myself so seriously. It’s okay to like things that are different from what other people like and it’s okay to be interested in things for fun. I don’t have to only be fighting for justice or trying to get into school.

It’s ok if I want to paint and sing and play music.

It’s okay if I want to be happier.

[itsmejuj]

I wanted to detach from all of my preconceptions

[itsmejuj]

It’s always been very important to me to have an interesting life.

[itsmejuj]

Why did I ever feel I was unworthy or incapable of what I truly want ? Why do I still feel so ?

[love-personal]

[itsmejuj]

Stumbled upon this while walking my dog. Brightened my day. Thank you stranger. ☀️

[itsmejuj]

My biggest mistake so far was to stop being an artist

[itsmejuj]

I wish all these parts of me could live in harmony.

[itsmejuj]

How does anyone know what to do ever

[itsmejuj]

I didn’t think I was brave enough

I didn’t think I could do it

I tried so many times and I just couldn’t budge it

I wanted to for so long but I wasn’t the bravest

I was scared to it would hurt until I finally made it

Now there’s marks on my arms and it ruined my song

There’s whisky and pixies all dead on the lawn

And I proudly have blood dripping down my left arm

[itsmejuj]

I like to write

I’m not very good

There’s a lot of things that people tell me I’m good at

But I don’t think I am

I don’t really think I’m good at anything except maybe being loud and scattered and myself

I like to write

I’m not very good

And some people think i should shut up, i should

But I will scream

I will scream

I will scream as loud as I could

And dream

I will dream

I won’t hide under my hood

I like to write

But I’m not very good

But that’s not the point

If I want to I should.

[itsmejuj]

I have been searching from the bottom to the top

[fairycosmos]

when i watch other people my age, i see that they have this kind of effortless way about them that i don’t think i’ll ever have. the way they talk to each other and the way they go out and pursue what interests them without having to think twice about it. the way they know how to conduct themselves, the way it all comes so naturally to them, like breathing or swimming or riding a bike. it’s like they all have something ingrained in them that i just don’t have, and it’s so embarrassing and it’s fucking killing me. i wish i knew how to be okay.

[itsmejuj]

Even if it looks like that, most young people don't know what they're passionate about and that's okay. You don't need to have it all figured out yet.