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I've been crying uncontrollably because I need to work but I need to look presentable enough to get my computer from my dads room and if he asks what's wrong I think I'll just like. Break

Ugh

#i need to get better at understanding that not every idea for jokes i have are. smart.#i shouldntve yelled and while that makes me an idiot calling myself names would fix nothing

I need to say it but I dont want him to stop, snowy was humming and it was so cute and I love him so much I've missed hearing him

I love the two of them so much

#i just want to have a nice little home with the two of them #i want to lie in bed with them and fall asleep after fits of laughter and anime #theyve made me so happy and i just want them to feel safe and comfortable #and i want to hold snowy so bad i wish he lived closer #tomato sighs into the void

God I'm just???? I love him so much

#hes very sweet and genuine and while he has a lot of self doubt he doesnt mind when i tell him hes wrong about something

Knowing for a fact that someone is physically/sexually attracted to you and you're attracted to them is?????? Oh my god what??????????? Hello?????????????????

#i both want to be discreet about the matter that chagirl isnt a virgin anymore and also shout it from a mountain #phonesex counts fuck you it was great #im??????????? in love?????????????????#it happened yesterday and i have been screaming internally since #i was apparently good at it and im just like :3c #aaaaaaaaAaaaAAAAAAAAAAA #nsfw mention

Posting here instead of my insta vent but I love my boyfriends so much they're so soft and sweet and I want to be able to hold them both and AAAAAAA I am very clingy but they dont mind at all and I'm just. I'm so happy with them I've been stressed from school and I havent been able to talk as much as I like :(

#tomato talks #a guy on my insta is in a rut and he gets pissy with people in happy relationships #*if you can make a poly relationship work fuck you* okay man have fun

even anyone, cant you love anyone?

#whip nae nae i get upset over my relationship (or lack thereof) with my mother #vent art

Turns out I'm stupid! Sorry! Try again later!

#tomato talks #vent #negativity #tomato screams into the void

Nightmare

My friend (I'm having trouble telling which one but I think it's one I haven't seen in a year) and I are chilling in my dad's office when a lady barges in with a bunch of suitcases and computers. She hooked up the computers to something. They took little glasses from the suitcase and put them on my friends face after knocking her out, and placed goggles on top of them. I forget the rest of the process, but by the end she was stuffed unconscious in my dad's desk drawer. I think it was implied that the computers were going to do something to my friends brain? When the lady was about to do that to me, a guy barged in and fought her off. As he checked if I was okay we heard sounds from the drawer. He openened it and I reacted in horror at my friend in the goggles. She started mumbling and I took off her goggles and was scared she wouldn't wake up because of the glasses underneath. She started mumbling and woke up.

She and I hid under my dad's desk. We heard my dad came in and I went up to hug him and explain what happened. My mom didn't believe it. The weirdest thing in this dream is I had like ten genuine seconds of explaining my feelings to my mom and I think my dream said "yeah this is getting too real (or more likely, unreal)" and just kinda cut out the rest. I'm hugging my dad and explaining what happened while walking. He tells me that they just passed the guy leaving the office, and I don't know if the lady was on camera.

We arrive at a fancy dinner I think my mom planned. All there is is a big circular table with empty cocktail glasses, one of which is by a person who was my great uncle, who looked like Danny Devito for some reason. It need with some weird bit at home where my chest turned into flimsy balloons for some reason? Eh, you tried brain. Absurdity only gets you so far.

Now I'm up an hour early and my throat is dry for some reason. I've been having dreams I remember when I wake up more lately. This is the first one I've had in a while you could consider a nightmare. Unlike the glass pipe sci-fi apocalypse or whatever, it was shot from my perspective. I think that's what made it ""scary"" because it was genuinely me having reactions to stuff I guess. I'm not that shaken by it, it was just more coherent than most of my dreams.

#you tried brain. you tried.#im gonna get a glass of water and try to get a half hour of sleep.#tomato talks #mind control mention #? possibly i dunno

me: ok so mom you want me to pick up sticks because its more efficient for me to work because you cant do it that well

mom: yes

me: and because this definitely isn't a one person job its going to take a bit of time

mom: yes

me: so i'll need some time to pick up the sticks so you don't kill yourself by hitting them with the mower and almost hit me

mom, immediately revving and jumping on the lawnmower,:yes

#i know i bitch about the little shit but damn this is annoying #i had the sense to be on he other side so she wouldnt hit me with the lawnmower so thats good #tbh its a miracle my head isnt through a windshield or my legs werent broken by her on the mower by now #tomato talks #bold text #vent #death mention

(why does lassie have imi's speech quirk here? Shut up is why.)

#tomato talks #tomato art #vent #body horror #tw blood #tw gore #eye strain #lassie #decapitation #whats this about? tge answer is also shut up

Finding out two separate dude friends used to crush on me still leaves me reeling whenever I think about it like Bitch What The Fuck

#first off not a dudes kind of gal that is a Well Known Fact #theyre both ones i wasnt even remotely attracted to #like dude that was just baisic fucking decency #one was during those olden days when i was questioning my identity and hes like im here if youre into dudes #like thanks :) ! no :) !#then this one was like *yeah i ised to have a crush on you*#yeah i can tell because youre way more despondent after finding out im gay hon #uuuugggh #tomato talks #vent #swearing

I wake up in a bad mood and I WATCH VINE COMPS and I HUG MY PLUSHIE and I WATER MY PLANTS and this is me MANAGING MY ANGER HEALTHILY.

GRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#text post #tomato talks #i know i shouldnt go off on my aunt but I REALLY REALLY WANT TO #fake ass bitch #caps

I took a super long shower and now my hair is super soft and smells like cotton candy uwu

#sometimes i question why i grow out my hair then i remdmber the FLUFF #tomato talks #not vent but still unrelated to man #need to blog good things sometimes!

daydreamingtomatos

Sleep is great because if anyone threatens to take it AWAY from you as a punishment they get whiplash.

#text post #tomato talks #vent #take away my tablet. take away my books #. take away whatever you damn well please.#you want to cut me off from everything that keeps me grounded? fine!#i can always just sleep and not exist for a little bit look poof im not even here #im so fffffffucking tired and im still upset about last night #reblogging from main deleting original #wrong blog sorry

#that feel when all of your mistakes are catching up to you and even though the people close to you just say what matters is that you tried #and you are viscerally aware that your hardest isnt good enough for standards youve been able to meet up to this point #and have no idea how to confront your own failures #hahaaaaa yeet #tomato talks #tomato art #tomato oc #not dae #this one doesnt have a name but im down with suggestions #all i really have written out for this character is that they are sad

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