wc's random thoughts & poetry

can i drown in water and pretend that i'm drowning in your love?

[itswilsonc]

i'll miss making love with you.

[itswilsonc]

you can fuck yourself in the a hole.

[itswilsonc]

I think I am too tired to give a fuck.

[itswilsonc]

I think I was too blind. Too blind to see to who you actually were. No, I am no way saying you are bad. In fact, you are beyond perfection. But I guess our worlds will just never collide, and nothing can change that.

[poetryvrose]

i don’t know much about love

but if you asked me who i wanted

i’d say your name always

half asleep or full

when drunk

and when sober

when breaking down

or during our worst fights

i’d say your name always

// it’s you

[heaping-cup-of-shut-up-deactiva]

[itswilsonc]

I beg you

Please, please, I beg you. Please do not come to me only when you need something.

[itswilsonc]

"I love you"

you said you loved me last night and now im here wondering how much you meant it

[itswilsonc]

i'm tired of being the one who cares too much, tired of being the one who loves too much, tired of being the one who falls too hard.

[itswilsonc]

how can you ever know if someone means it when they say they love you?

[itswilsonc]

you're leaving me hanging

[itswilsonc]

you make me feel things i shouldn't, bal. you do.

[itswilsonc]

i'm indecisive. some days i feel so determined to forget about you, but on other days-- i can't even get rid of you from my fucking mind.

wilson’s rant 22 march

[itswilsonc]

as time continues walking on its eternal journey i realized it has been 8 months. at some point i wonder if i have truly moved on from you; sometimes i manage to convince myself that i did. lots of things have happened. we lost contact during the school break but we talked for a bit when school reopened 3 months ago. earlier this month i found i got an offer from a boarding school and i had to move to another town in another state. when i finally told you that i was moving it broke me that you didn't really give a damn. i wish you cared, i really do. we never said goodbye, nothing. on my last day i just couldn't take it and i wrote a letter and slipped it into your bag when you weren't noticing. i wished the best for you, because we mightn't stay in touch. worse still, i heard rumors about you liking my close friend. but what could i do other than pretending that everything was fine? hence, i packed my bags, hopped on a bus and moved to a new town living a new life without my parents. i met new friends. they were nice even though they were different from my old friends. it's been a while since i had been here and i still think about you. i wonder if you're doing well. i wonder if you went steady with that 'close' friend of mine. or maybe you are seeing someone else? then one day, during the school semester holiday, i came back. i received a text from you. you asked me how my life was there. you just found out about the letter. you told me i was your best friend. you told me you were grateful that we met. i believed what you said for a second. but the truth? did you really appreciate me? was i ever significant at all? if i was, why didn't you say anything when i left? you make me feel like shit. but i love you. all i'm hoping for is for you to return my love. i sound desperate but that's how bad i want you. and you fucking fell for my close friend. i hate my life i hate everyone. fuck my life.

wilson’s rant, 12:40AM, 22nd of March 2017

[itswilsonc]

and one day i finally realized that i no longer had any reason to write about you.

getting over you, 2:11pm, 25 Nov.

[itswilsonc]

one day i will look into your eyes and you will just be just another human being, nothing more than that. you will no longer have the power to conquer my happiness. today is not the day.

why am i in love with you?

[itswilsonc]

that's the thing about love; you can either give 100% to someone and get 100% back, or give 100% and receive nothing in return at all.

@itswilsonc