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You need to keep moving forward.

The past is a wonderful place where we may have made great memories, had heartache or made mistakes. Its lovely to reflect on how we have improved or learned from our mistakes but we can only give our self a vaccation into our pasts not set up camp and live there.

Recently I did something I wasnt proud of (not any criminal offence), something that was extremely out of character for me where I have hurt someones feeling and also made myself look like an idotic mess. I have spent the last 7 days reliving this over and over feeling sick to my stumoch and torturing myself. Even though I have apologised and made amense with other parties involved I have hurt myself more than anyone else.

So I am now forgiving myself. I am concentrating on not making the same mistake again and trying to laugh it off. A little bird once told me its these times in life that makes a better you and you just need to keep moving forward.

So thats it...I am standing tall with my head held high and I am moving forward. Reminding myself whenever I look through my own archices to only give myself a few minutes and truly concentrate on the many many more good things that I have done.

You need to forgive and move forward. Take a moment to live outside your own thoughts- go a run, play your favourite song as loud as possible and dance like a freak, get a tattoo, go visit a beautiful place, do whatever you need to to refresh yourself. Now keep going like the good human you are.

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I hope you see. I hope you feel

One year on since you left our world. Hardly a day goes by your not in my thoughts but today of all days the thoughts are more painful and I can taste the bitter salt from my tears.

I hope so much you can see how loved you are. I hope you know how much you were admired. I hope you know how much you mattered. I hope you know that you made a huge impact in my life that will stay with me always. You have motivated me and inspired me both in work and as a human. I will never forget your words.

Behind the heartache there is a blessing. I am so blessed to have had you in my life and greatful for every moment. Until I see you in the next journey of life, I will continue to think of you.

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'The color turquoise is associated with meanings of refreshing, feminine, calming, sophisticated, energy, wisdom, serenity, wholeness, creativity, emotional balance, good luck, spiritual grounding, friendship, love, joy, tranquility, patience, intuition, and loyalty'

Born creative These are all qualities I desire to possess.

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Travel 'What's your plans?'

Every person who has left home knows the excitement of experiencing a new place, the lows when you’re missing home and the ever occurring impending question- ‘So what’s your plans?’

‘My plans are to enjoy what I’ve just worked my ass off to do for the last forever so shut it’.

If only I could be brave enough to say what I really want to.

So any traveller who has been home also knows the ups and downs; nothing to look forward to, being the shiny new object for a whole 1 minute then being ditched, being excited that nothing has changed, being let down that nothing has changed- but you.

So I’m back in Australia on my 2nd year after spending 20 months at home. A roller coaster 20 months. I had a mission this time; I’m almost 30, I’m single and now officially unemployed- you can see the boxes I’m wanting to tick here. So it’s only been one week and I’ve changed my mind as many times of where I’m going to base myself- Brisbane or Sydney?? I am fortunate to have 2 very close friends in each city who have reached out with their hospitality. But still which one do I pick?

How do people who don’t have friends or relatives over here start out?

Am I too old for the hostel life? Yes I most surely am!

What’s my mission again?

It only has been 1 week…1 week alone with my thoughts. Not only have I managed to change my own mind a hundred thousand times but I’m now questioning life in general.

What are my plans?

The sun is shining can my plans just be enjoying nature?

Time to phone my mother and get some insight!