Once upon a time I wrote a Kakashi x Iruka fic. In a notebook I still have. I read it not too long ago and like most things I write, I was left wanting more and realizing i had to do it. Now here's the thing. I doubt i'll ever finish it. I havent even watched naruto in almost a decade (jesus I'm old!) and also I never even finished shippuden.
So instead here are all the ideas i had for the fic. All the little head canons.
The story took place in the time between, before shippuden. I think is was loosely based on another fic i'd read at the time.
Basically Iruka and Kakashi sorta boded over missing Naruto and sorta over beign lonely. It all happened slowly and almost by accident they just spent more and more time together. Until it ended up becoming something more. In those years they eventually moved in together and ended up engaged. They always talked about where naruto fit into it because he was such a big part of their lives, particularly Iruka. So when they did find a new place to together, they did it woth the very purposeful decision that made sure Naruto had his own room in their home.
They also decided, I belive Iruka brought it up and asked, to wait until he returned before they get married.
In that time Iruka had a lot of time to think and really reflect on his relationship with naruto. What it all ment to him. So he decided that he wanted to adopt naruto, like officially.
He's an older teen and I was (and still am) confused on how custody and children are handled in the Leaf Village, considering he'd been living alone the whole time even as a young kid. And the kids were essentially treated as adults in regards to missions and stuff like that.
So when he has the conversation with Kakashi, he tells him he wants to adopt Naruto. But he knows it would be more symbolic than anything that he'll be grown by the time he returns, but that he wants to give hi the option to live with them. That he wants to be as involved as Naruto will let him be. But he knows that it all affects kakashi too since they live together and intend to get married.
Kakashi of course, says yes. He knows what their relationship is like, he's not surprised at all.
And so they move and they wait for him to return.
When he does, and Iruka tells him all of it. That they're gonna get married but he wanted to wait for him. That he was to adopt him, wants him to live with them and he already has the space in his home for him if he wants it. Naruto cries, of course he does, and of course agrees. to all of it.
I also think I worte a conversation between kakashi and naruto. About what it all meant for them. i think kakashi said he was okay with any of it, that Iruka and Naruto had always had that kind of bond and naruto should't feel like their relationship has to change because of the adoption. They can be whatever they already are or anything else.
(I think I wanted him to be sort of hesitant. Because he doesn't see himself a father figure in any reguard. but has no intention of taking thins from Iruka. Also because he doesnt want to presure Naruto into feeling anything he doesnt or feeling guilty for it. they just are what they are and that ok)
-That's pretty much all I had writen. The rest is what I wanted to write into it.
They we're gonna grow into their newfound parenthood slowly.
Iruka and Naruto have always sorta had that vibe. But when you label out ike that it puts a little pressure on it even with out inteding to. But they settle into the domesticity easily.
kakashi on the other hand does not. He's awkward about it. Fumbles in way that he hadnt before when he was just his teacher as opossed to his kida sorta dad/stepdad. he thinks about it too much gets in his head about it more than he ought to. but eentually that settles too.
One of the subplots i was gonna add was the NaruSasu of it all. BUT with a Gaara catalyst.
Basically Naruto and Gaara have a moment (kiss/hookup/experiment whatever) And when he gets home to his dads. he freeks out about it. but not because of Gaara. But because suddenly he has a whole new perspective on everything he felt and did with Sasuke. Evertyhing has change so radically and so fast in his head and he cant make sense of any of it.
So he has a whole breakdown on his couch... with Iruka, his Dad. Which leads to another breakdown about that because he HAS someone now Iruka somehow is suprised by all of it. Though when he thinks back, some things start making more sense. But not of it helps his kid sobbing in front of him.
On top of his huge realization that he has feeling for Sasuke he feels a whole lot of guilt about Gaara. Because they left things open ended. and he doesnt know what he's suppose to do. He doesn't want to hurt him, and he doesn't NOT have feelings for him. They have a bond no else could understand. Lived a life in a way only the two of them really got. Thats what it felt like for him. But he knows it doesn;t compare to what he feels for Sasuke.
I intended to make it a whole tragic thing. A long-winded one. Naruto is honest with Gaara because of course he is. But Gaara's not stupid of course he knew Naruto had feeling for Sasuke. They ultimetly decide to stop. not break up cause they weren't really anything yet.
Time passes some canon plot happens (again didn't see much of Shippuden, so i'm talking early plot)
It had been a while since Gaara and Naruto had their thing. Naruto has had time for it all to settle. For him to make peace with everything going on with Sasuke. But it happens again. Naruto and Gaara find confort in each other. And Naruto figures this time it's with everything in the open his cards are on the table. So they decide to give it shot.
And it works for a while. Naruto is happy. He has a boyfriend he genuinely likes. He goes home to a family, to his dad's. Canon plot is happening but his personal life is doing okay.
I don't know much canon plot but I'd imagine them being together for a little under a year. SO like a genuine real relationship.
Then Sasuke happens. Somehow at some point, Naruto and Sasuke have a moment. Naruto cheats.
(at this point he uses Iruka and Dad to call him interchangeably. Though he calls Kakashi dad ver, very rarely. this is one of those times)
I would imagine Kakashi finds out first because they were possibly out on a mission together when it happens. Naruto is quiet in a way he never is. Kakashi is a little more confident in this feeling like his kid notices and tries to take a beat to check on him.
He usually tries to separate the dad-him and the team leader-him. They'd talked about it once they got closer at home. That when on a mission he can't be his father. he can't let himself be. It was one of the few times he called himself that. Acknowledged fully how their relationship had changed.
But his Kid is quiet, in a way he really doesn't like. And they're finally past danger(hopefully) and on their way home. So he lets himself have this and checks in.
He almost regrets it. Because as soon as he says something about it it, in that cadance he ususes at home. Naruto breaks, mumbling so much that he barely catches him calling him 'dad'. So he has to stop them, adding a day to their trip. Takes Naruto away from the others. (not too far he still has a responsibility to the others)
It all comes spilling out of Naruto in a rush once they finally settle down to talk. A running flow of self hatred. Because above all else right now he just feels unbelievably guilty.
he doesn't even really process the Sasuke of it all. Just the fact that he's a shit person for cheating. That Gaara doesn't deserve that.
It's not till much later that he lets it sink in. He was with Sasuke. Sasuke has feeling for him?
(side note- it is a little funny if tsunade finds out and she just depants look at him saying "you cheated on the sand's kasekage!" like the political nightmare is a little funny)
Anyway he tells Gaara, does it in person cause he's a fucking man and he'll take his consequences. at least that's what he tells himself. (and Iruka, Iruka told him that)
Gaara is crushed but ultimately not surprised, which is even sadder, and they both acknowledge that. And he hits him with a "we always knew I was just a placeholder" (Gaara, baby, no(T~T) and they break up. It's not dramatic, or filled with fights and anger it's just quiet. And sad.
The tragic yaoi i had in my head is that Naruto is actually the love of Gaara's life. But he always knew he wasn't Naruto's.
So in my fucked up little brain these two keep hooking up (or occasionally making out whatever level you think appropriate) like for years. Just every once in a while. Cause my boy Gaara is a sucker for punishment and because he is a tragic little gay boy who'll take any pieces Naruto is willing to let him have.
And the absolute madness is that Naruto is an equally tragic little queer that will take any scraps Sasuke is willing to give. So in all the years they were 'enemies', they also see each other in secret.
Well secret to everyone except Naruto's dads.
Naruo lives with this guilt for most of his teens. Because he knows how Gaara feels. He knows what he's doing. He is Gaara. He knows that. But he's too weak to cut either relationship off. He wants every piece he can get with Sasuke. But he finds comfort in Gaara.
It's all very broken and very sad. I am unfortunately a sucker for good angst.
I don't know how that would of all ended since that was all supposed to be B plot.
The truth is it was originally intended to be a mpreg fic. Naruto was supposed to be a side plot, but it was so endearing and lovely and rich in story it became most of the plot.
The thing about mpreg I love is the pseudoscience it takes to make it possible. It's just fun. and rare now post omega verse popularization.
The original idea that created this fic was that Iruka and Kakashi were going to decide they wanted a baby.
So they spent a while developing their own justsu (based and founded on Naruto's sexy-jutsu of course lol) to make that happen
The thing was the jutsu had to be maintained during all of the pregnancy. They knew it would deplete the carrier's chakra, but weren't ready for quite how much. Kakashi offered to carry but Iruka decided it should be him. He's the one who primarily stays in the village anyway it just makes sense.
Kakashi reluntatly agrees. It works. They're new untested jutsu works. Now I think I would have probably made the first try fail. The jutsu requires more upkeep and chakra than they expected ans so he miscarries. and it's bad. Iruka was in the hospital for a week, Kakashi doesnt want to try again. It didn't work it's fine. it's over.
But Iruka wont have it. He's adamant. So they try again. But kakashi makes him swear no more. if it doesn't work he will not do this again. Iruka agrees to it.
And it works. He makes it halfway through the pregnancy before it starts affecting him negatively. He's depleted. The jutsu slowly draining more and more chakra to maintain itself.
At one point maybe Naruto finds him on the floor just panting. and he freaks out. Of course he does. He's able to realize it's his chakra that its almos gone, so Naruto helps until he can get him to the hospital, lending him his own.
(i don't fully remember how it all works bear with me)
Kakashi is beside himself. He feels like he had in a hand in killing his husband slowly. He tries to stay with him more often. Iruka is okay if Kakashi is nearby, sharing his chakra. (very omegaverse coded I know)
All in all, the pregnancy goes well. And they have a baby. A cute little baby girl.
All that is happening while they have to deal with Naruto's messy romantic life lol
I also imagine they had a long talk with him that wanting a baby does not replace him. and that they love him. He's their son and nothing will change that. That he is going to be a big brother and how important he'll be in his little sibling's life.
Anyway that all i got, I'll go climb back into my cave now goodbye
