Chiara

['kia.ra] [she/her] Sort of (not so) secret diary. Bullshits💜, Bts💜 books, random stuff. Enjoy your time here

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Store manager wants to have a "quick call" in two days with me...

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Frontal lobe officially developed and the saxophones are getting louder

Happy bday i guess

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It's the day after... I didn't cry on my birthday (that's a first) but im about to do so rn (altought it's a rage induced cry) because fuck this country, fuck this job, fuck the job market and how it fucking takes advantage of us for 2.9 meager fucking euro per hour.

guess i was right about the saxophones

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And to think that i was happy because i was like 'oh, maybe i can change and upgrade my phone!' now i either suffer untile the end of june hoping they don't fuck up my pay again or pray that my parents help me.

jfc having to ask mom and dad to help me i want to cry. they are always like 'oh you can ask us to help you with money' but fucking hell im 25 and sooo ashamed to do so.

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Frontal lobe officially developed and the saxophones are getting louder

Happy bday i guess

[itzmechiara]

It's the day after... I didn't cry on my birthday (that's a first) but im about to do so rn (altought it's a rage induced cry) because fuck this country, fuck this job, fuck the job market and how it fucking takes advantage of us for 2.9 meager fucking euro per hour.

guess i was right about the saxophones

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Frontal lobe officially developed and the saxophones are getting louder

Happy bday i guess

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I suffered my first official 'this meeting could have been an e-mail'

It started at 9pm and its fucking 11pm. All of this for a fucking internship in a retail job. It's beem like a week so i shouldn't, but im altready regretting it...

But according to fucking boomers i need to make apprenticeship, sacrifices to earn my spot and for what???

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Jfc what a fucking pain in the ass you are...

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Who suffered more, jesus christ on a cross or the woman side of the (italian) family in charge or hosting easter dinner?

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After weeks of procrastinating and postponing updates, i finally updated the sims 4 (and hopefully all my mods). It's time to see if it works, pray for my sims4 and my pc

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Recap of (catholic)Easter Vigil mass 2026:

0.5 me and mother doing speeling bee, strends and worlde before mass started #priorities

Main priest's voice breaking during on of the first chants

An introductory part was sang by the deacon: very nice voice and nicely sung, but long af

Timeline of the mass was messed up because main priest forgot to recite one of the prayers between first and second scripture leaving all of us (and the church grandmas!) confused for a second

Altar kids breaking the chocolate easter egg in front of everyone, the chocolate was the offered to all of us

Homily was fine, a wee bit confusing some parts, but it was overall nice and good

I'm not exactly a practising christian, but god i love me some amazing organ + choir music

When asking saints for intercession (which is done singing, btw) me and my mother almost burst out laughing with the name of some of the saints

shout out to my guys saints Atanasio, Basilio, Ignazio di Antiochia, Cirillo and Metodio

Highlights was the kid with shoes with lights and the Winnie the Pooh plushie

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30yo and you have the mind and the behaviour of a fucking child. My godness, i fucking hate you. The day i get rid of you is the day i will rejoice.

The day i meet god or whoever is in charge of my life and this fuck ass place i will have sooo many questions.

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i fucking hate that it's 7pm and it's still bright outside and that the wather it's also still cold. It's spring and i have barely seen the sun. I mean i like the spring vibes, don't come at me, but not in this way.

It has been spring for 7 days and i already miss the autumn vibes.

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So when i tell you that i don't think im all right in the head and that i should talk to somebody about my issues it's all "oh wtf are you saying stop it"

But then you complain that i don't behave the way you expect or like all normal people.

wtf

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Watching city of angels... imagine being stalked by nicolas cage and not realising it 💀

(All respect to him but jeez)

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And it ends like that??????? Like wtf kind of final was that?????

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Watching city of angels... imagine being stalked by nicolas cage and not realising it 💀

(All respect to him but jeez)

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btw saw 🏴‍☠️ wuthering heights yesterday...

I was bored

This whole movie could have been an email

Poor Isabella they destroyed her character

Poor Emily Brontë what have they done to your book

I didn't even like the book (probably because it was a mandatory reading and english is not my first language), i could not finish it but jesus christ they massacrated it

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The day i get rid of my fear of confrontation, my fear of driving, of crying during a confrontation, the day i stop crying during an argument... it's over for you bitches.

like i told multiple times i fucking hate and im scared of driving big cars, why tf do you insist of having me driving big cars???

And despite me creating excuses for not driving you still don't get that i don't want to do it??? And i hate that i have to tell you so through texts with furthere excuses because if i called you i would be crying soooooo much i would need to talk to a good psychologist or psychiatrist or whatever it is.

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Received today my last exam mark, i finished all my university exams! 😀

Now I just have to write the thesis for said university 🙂