October

I am a writer. 28

[iusedtobeoctober]

Hello,

Just introducing myself so nobody thinks I’m a bot.

Here are some of my public works:

ao3: iusedtobeoctober

send me the pillow, the one that you dream on (hellcheer) UNFINISHED

[iusedtobeoctober]

I feel like daddy!steve is the type of daddy to be apologetic while he’s spanking you. “Daddy didn’t want to do this baby” he’d say with a frown on his face. He’d be rubbing your stinging bum between each smack. “But you just can’t listen.” Then he’d land another smack on your backside.

He’s the type to say things like, “Where’d my good girl go, hmm? What happened to her? I miss my baby.” And eventually, once the spanks lead to tears and you’re sufficiently red and stinging he’ll turn you over and cradle you. Babying you and wiping away your tears with his sleeve. He’d still be apologizing, kissing all over your face and putting lotion on your bum. He’s just so soft, he doesn’t want to have to hurt you (but tbh… both of you like it hehe)

[iusedtobeoctober]

Can’t stop thinkin about perv!steve who’s girlfriend wants to wait for marriage so he fucks her with the just the tip.

And he’s such a meanie about it too. Cooing;“Awh, is it too good baby? You want more? Hmm? Gotta make you my wife first. Is that what you want? You wanna be my wife?”

[elegantpaperoperatormaker]

Laughing my ass off thinking about Steve wanting so many kids so badly, but it's Eddie who has a baby first. And what's more, you and he have two by the time Steve even finds the woman he wants to marry.

Later on, Steve makes a huge deal over the news: his wife finally agreed that they can start trying. Eddie's just snickering, begging you to let him say it.

"I'm not cleaning up any cuts or bruises, so it's on your neck," you shrug, avoiding Steve's questioning eyes.

"We're pregnant!" Eddie yells, already falling halfway out of his chair, laughing at his best friend's shock.

Fuming, Steve shouts, "Oh, my God! Get off of her!"

[pawspaintsnthings]

[pawspaintsnthings]

Roughing out this short fancomic and listen sheep-Joel is now a thing

[pawspaintsnthings]

I don’t know what it says about me that I need to self soothe, even in fiction, with dogs?? but here is Apollo. She’s a very good girl

[pawspaintsnthings]

Roughing out this short fancomic and listen sheep-Joel is now a thing

[just-french-me-up]

[iusedtobeoctober]

WELP

I slipped on black ice hauling water to my horses, spilled it all over myself, and bruised my back. What a great time to sit on my couch and write hellcheer!

[iusedtobeoctober]

Small Blog Appreciation Post!

as the year closes, i have seen a lot of blogs wrapping their favorite hellcheer/eddie fics from the year, which is so great! it's super important to show appreciation and gratitude to writers everywhere! even if they're already the top in their fandom, they still deserve it. but, i wanted to dedicate a post specifically to the small blogs and some of the writers i haven't seen pop up in as many recommendations because they deserve it just as much!

so without further ado...

reality and other highs by hibiscus_tea (@chrissy-n-eddie)

first one's free to get you hooked by @uwusillygirl

small mercies and other fics by @chainsawmunson

the steddieverse collection and other fics by @carolmunson

there was a wonderful lovely silence, there was a wonderful lovely sound and other fics by @mirkwoodmunson

one-shots by @h4rring1on

jitterbug and other fics by @pollenallergie

if you have any more recommendations please reblog and continue! lets show our favorite writers some support and luvin's this holiday season :)

[carolmunson]

babe, im gonna leave you just fills my brain with self-sabotaging, toxic eddie :(((

it’s giving very much toxic!rockstar eddie who leaves to go on tour and sleeps around but tells his girl at home she’s ‘the one’ so she doesn’t mess around with other guys

[iusedtobeoctober]

hi ive unearthed myself. been through lots in the past week_. i have dodged the inpatient/outpatient care gods and returned to my hole in the earth more feral and crazy than when i left! but i am doing better. i think. not really sure yet. but i AM happy to be home and back with my scrivener and fireplace muah!

got a hellcheer draft goin rn…. goal is to finish and edit in the next couple of days and relieve iusedtobeoctober of her hiatus

[aicosu]

[iusedtobeoctober]

Cracked out some more of this story it’s swarming my braino. Cant even write it in its linear fashion.

[uwusillygirl]

hi there! (relapse ask anon here)

thank you for your “eye rolling parental advice” and cuddles. i really needed them. it’s always so hard not to dig and shred myself apart when i relapse. and i appreciate you saying that recovery isn’t linear, because in my experience it’s never been that way. i don’t know if it ever will be.

ive read your response a million times. i love it and it feels so real to me. i can see eddie acting his ass off to distract chrissy or pull her out of her mean little head sometimes. eddie (your eddie) in a caretaker role is something so tender and soft. it’s the magic little potion i put under my pillow. can cure me of pretty much anything.

do you have more caretaker eddie headcannons? 💗 thank you

hi!!!

it IS really hard not to beat yourself up in these situations, i totally get that! i think we're sort of socialized/conditioned to be like "we can beat this mental illness/neuroses/issue out of us with sheer discipline and force!!!" but that is simply not the case (nor is it a nice way to live!!!).

when i'm in a bad state and need to pull myself out of it (and am tempted to do so by beating myself up) i try to remind myself that i have never gotten anywhere/magically cured myself by being cruel, so maybe gentleness and grace is the way to get out of this (and often times, it is! but worst case scenario, you're in that rough patch with a lot more love than before)

hehe i'm glad you liked the headcanons! i'm glad you like him, i think my eddie occasionally borders on unreal/out of character just because he's SO good at it lmao, but it's MY fantasy fic and i get to do what i want! i'm gonna write a ridiculously skillful caretaker man!

mmm lemme see what else i've thought of for him... i'd say i definitely see him as a big proponent of like going outside/touching grass/seeing friends to feel better, and chrissy may too be in her head to make plans but eddie's fine making them for them, even if it's just going to a movie with max or something (that SAID, i think he knows that may be overwhelming to chrissy if she's wanting to like curl into a small ball/is feeling physically wrong in her body - in those cases he opts for like giving her a set amount of time to just mope on the couch and then she has to like do something nice for herself, even if it's something of his choosing).

i think he's a shit cook but has a very small selection of things he can cook on the days chrissy feels bad, because he doesn't like the thought of leaving her at home on her own.

also i think what makes him a good caretaker is he doesn't really show his hand much. like he mentally has a bunch of game plans in his back pocket, but he never tells chrissy these exist, so she's sort of on her toes enough to be sufficiently distracted, even if he's just making her dry dishes that he washes or open their beers or whatever.

[iusedtobeoctober]

thank you for taking the time to respond to this with such care 💗

i am actively working on allowing myself some grace during times like these. being mean to myself has only pushed me deeper into my hole. im finding it’s a little easier to navigate this time around since my living situation requires me use my body frequently. and i love my life and everything i do and part of that love is making sure im taking care of myself, even if it’s just the bare minimum sometimes :)

your eddie is the realest eddie i’ve read, if i’m completely honest. i can tell that you’ve really taken the time to study and learn about him. the eddie’s that live in our brains are very similar. it makes me want to pick your brain apart! (with upmost love and admiration, of course) the caretaker aspect of him might not be canonically ooc, but when he’s not stressed out from being accused of murder and diving in and out of the upside down, i imagine he’s a real sweetheart, especially to sweet baby chrissy.

eddie being pro-touch grass is so real to me. i imagine he’s very familiar with the woods behind the trailer, and will lead a skittish chrissy through it to bring her to his favorite spot.

the eddie in my brain is also a shit cook. but he does know how to make a chicken soup. wayne taught him. and it’s so good because he just packs the broth with every spice they have in their cabinet (which is like thyme, oregano, ginger, salt, pepper, and an occasional bay leaf) soup is such an easy food to eat when feeling generally icky so i can imagine chrissy eating it for days at a time until she’s over it and ready for something a bit more solid.

eddie being a caretaker is so special. because you’re right, he doesn’t show that hand a lot. but when he does there’s a method, a plan, and a mixture between a healthy amount of assertiveness and love.

[iusedtobeoctober]

Was gonna spend the morning writing but now I’m sitting under my stairs with a bowl waiting for this lost mouse to run back here so I can catch her and bring her outside… rural tings

Anyway I wrote over 2k of my current wip and I could probably finish it today if I eat and ~hyper focus~