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i think im ready

IM NOT READY

its all gonna dissapear one day or another and ill be GONE my name wont be a word no one will remember ill just be a FIGMENT of their imaginations

I THINK IM FILLING WITH EVIL

“nobody's goin anywhere any time soon”

anytime soon??????? so it will happen??

ill die. i absolutely will.

its not even a threat its a fact. ill die if im left behind

im over tubs and paint mostly

but i owont be able to handle someone else leaving me

im gonna have no one and im gonna not be able to live anymore

tubs is gonna confront tyler. they’re gonna tell xem to block me.

and then slowly but surly everyone is going to slip away and at most ill have plates and zip and at least ill have atlas.

im gonna watch soothouse now. im too tired to keep on trying to reason with myself

the word is hard to type now. it makes me sad

i guess maybe paint could see it

bcs logically its useless

maybe thats why i cant post it

why apologize when the people who i want to see it cant see it

i think its silly

i have a draft. something that i never finished. its sitting there and i look at it sometimes.

documenting my road to apology