I fall a lot.

Hi! I'm Melissa Joy. In this blog you will see lots of different things I like, ( and I like a lot of different things), random things going on in my life, & random pictures of me. I like cute things and skulls and such. There is usually a different theme of my posts everyday. Thank you if you follow :) "Memento Mori" :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

[pterribledinosaurdrawings]

[hotboyproblems]

dog: BARK

me (with the same tone and volume): WHAT

[wlfgrrl]

[firefox-official]

i have this writing style i like to call “uncertain.” it’s where the narrator isn’t really sure what they’re talking about either

[dkpsyhog]

That is so powerful and I want to write a short story in this style now thank you

[firefox-official]

“the park had been there for as long as i’d lived there, i think. i couldn’t be sure. i was never one to go to the park anyway” nobody has any clue what’s going on

[nonlinear-nonsubjective]

self aware unreliable narrator

[iwillshinehappiness]

Lemony is that you?

[thebootydiaries]

me: I’m going to bed early tonight.

me:

me: is that the sun

[everythingfox]

Disney princess dog

[mupparts]

yo is this real 

[whitepeopletwitter]

[iwillshinehappiness]

hunny, we never stopped

[lawbutch]

It was life-changing for me when someone said that all coping mechanisms were necessary at some point and came from a place of survival. Behaviours that hurt you now at some point probably saved your life, because they helped you get through unimaginable trauma or symptoms, or because they helped you survive in an environment that wasn’t safe, or they helped you protect yourself against someone. Self-harm, disordered eating, and other trauma responses aren’t stupid or selfish, they’re your body trying to protect you with love, the best way it knows how. 

That’s why it’s so tough to break those habits and patterns, you can’t hate your way out of them. It’s been really helpful for me to reframe triggers and urges that way, instead of saying “you’re an adult you shouldn’t still be feeling like this, you’re stupid and immature for still wanting to self-harm” 

I’m trying to say things like 

“I appreciate the strength it took to learn this tool, I know it helped for a long time and it came from a place of love, but now it’s not helpful and we’re going to do something else because now I’m in a new situation and I have new and better tools.” (like journaling, playing music, talking to friends, going for a walk, listening to loud music)

[hunterinabrowncoat]

Self harm doesn’t always happen when a blade touches skin.

It’s skipping meals because you don’t feel like you deserve to eat today. It’s having sex because you want to be used or abused or defiled. It’s drinking recklessly because you might have the ‘courage’ do something stupid. It’s smoking - not because you need the nicotine - because you know it’s bad for you. It’s banging your head against a wall when you’re angry. It’s crossing the road without looking because you lowkey hope a car might hit you. It’s thinking about all the ways you could break a bone and make it look like an accident. It’s not taking painkillers because you want to suffer. It’s taking painkillers in excess because you know it’s dangerous. It’s walking home the more dangerous way because you’re kind of half hoping you’ll get attacked or raped or stabbed. It’s going for long walks at night and getting chilled to the bone and hoping that you get lost so that you can’t find your way back. It’s seeking out triggering material. It’s all the stupid little ways you punish yourself for existing.

Sometimes self harm happens when you put effort into depriving yourself of things you like or need, and sometimes it happens when you don’t put any effort into doing the things you like or need.

It’s a pattern of self-destructive behaviour, and it doesn’t only happen in one way.

[pojexali]

[daggers-drawn]

[ghostfoxie]

What the fuck did he even buy

[daggers-drawn]

Probs anything and everything. Hording is a compulsive behavior in which acquiring something is the payoff. Notice that none of them are open?

Amazon is reveling in having victimized and profited off this man’s unhealthy coping mechanisms.

[malwarewolf404]

“Amazon enabled my dad in his hoarding”

Amazon: “Wow, isn’t technology amazing? Aren’t we the best?”

[wrongxdog]

people in the comments missing the point as usual lol- no one’s saying amazon is responsible for his condition, but their response is insensitive at best. if they had to reply to someone’s personal business like that, they could’ve idk… provided links with return and refund instructions? not say “wowie! this man’s coping mechanism lines our pockets so we’re happy!”

[iwillshinehappiness]

Personally I didn’t take it like that or really grasp the “ hoarder” part until looking at the comments. Im sure amazon is just trying to put a positive spin on it. I doubt the person who wrote it had malicious intent, just ignorance and unsure how to reply to someone through poor mental health buying a shit ton of stuff. Its not Amazon’s fault he has a disorder. Who caught him how to use the account? why don’t they change the password?

[klaascows]

[modelsof-color]

Crystal Noreiga by Luca & Alessandro Morelli for Dolce & Gabbana FW 2018

[lacetulle]

Paolo Sebastian | Fall/Winter 2019 Couture

[astrodidact]

[nitramaraho]

This is fascinating to me - I am sharing a screencap of a twitter post on tumblr of a list of desires - what direct evidence am I supposed to put when simply sharing a photo, @luckyboys1?

Frankly, it is not my job to convince supporters of 45 why his actions taken as president are worthy of impeachment. It’s not my job to try and convince people why he’s simply an awful person. If we have made it to the middle of 2019 and you’re “on the fence” about his actions, you’re either willfully ignorant or incapable of being reasoned with in the first place. Economy, civil rights, diplomacy, education, income inequality - you name it, it has suffered with him as president. If we’ve made it to this point and you still defend him (putting aside the human rights violations, his tariffs and tax cuts alone have done lasting damage to the economy) nothing I can say will change your mind! 

Supporters of conservative policies love to shift the burden of proof and demand evidence, demand debate, but there is no good faith present. No one comes out with proof and direct evidence about how the tariffs have improved domestic manufacturing (they haven’t), no one comes with proof that locking refugees in cells has reduced crime or kept the border “safe” (they haven’t) - but I am supposed to take hours out of my day to do your fucking job and research?

45 getting elected was not “my fault” in the first place. I screamed from the moment he secured the nomination, I donated, I phone banked, I was involved in local efforts to get out the vote. I did every thing one individual can do. What got that man elected was bullshit pseudo-centrism acting as if “both sides are the same and just as bad” and “my vote doesn’t even matter anyway”. What got him elected was people being afraid of a changing world and taken in by a charlatan who promised them that they were in the right and it was everyone else who was wrong. It was 30 years of district gerrymandering and an archaic electoral college that allowed someone to dramatically lose the popular vote but still win the election.

Jesus Christ.

[dankmemeuniversity]

[iwillshinehappiness]

I didn’t like Stranger Things season 3

( Spoilers ) I can’t put my finger exactly on it but it was missing a lot of what 1 and 2 had that drew me in. I did not like the way Hopper was a possessive, jealous asshole to someone who was literally not even his girlfriend. That’s fucked and I have no patience for those people/ characters.  El had no real growth, we dont learn more about her, what the upside down is, where the powers come from, why they left!? She literally ends with not being able to use her powers. Not the story growth for her I was hoping for. Maybe their just setting it up for an awesome season 4 but in the meantime it makes for a pretty “ meh” 3  Honestly most of the whole entire season 3 plot is about billy ( ew ) and El learning to be herself and dump Mike, which totally cool and good for her, but was dragged through the whole season and didn’t really go anywhere or benefit the story imo.  Yeah Allexi was cute and sweet and all but he also made no sense at all. Random scientist who spills all the beans for a slurpee? really? reallllyyy? Come on. 

I think actually the lack of mystery is what kinda killed it for me. It was too much drama/ attempt at comedy, not enough solving the issues and suspense. Literally what sets off Joyce is Magnets. really. Thats it, thats all? all they could come up with? Their was no danger, no worry, she had no idea will was getting chills. If she ignored that or was too distracted she could have literally moved and not been affected at all, depending on how long the monster took to form, also what even was that? Blob organic material thing to form one giant monster? There was no continuity from the previous seasons.  Idk anyone else feel this way? I feel like everyone just saw their favs and ignored everything else.