thoughtless

kw || 20 y.o || uk

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shirt that says "i ❤️ confirmation bias"

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don't fuck with me ill poeticize anything

[iyamwhoiyam]

guys i've procrastinated watching AoT since 2014

after finishing s1 today, i must say i have failed myself for the past 9 years. smh

been missing out fr

[perfectquote]

“Be softer with you. You are a breathing thing. A memory to someone. A home to a life.”

— Nayyirah Waheed

[iyamwhoiyam]

[starlightacademia]

“It's taboo to admit that you're lonely. You can make jokes about it, of course. You can tell people that you spend most of your time with Netflix or that you haven't left the house today and you might not even go outside tomorrow. But rarely do you ever tell people about the true depths of your loneliness, about how you feel more and more alienated from your friends each passing day and you're not sure how to fix it. It seems like everyone is just better at living than you are. A part of you knew this was going to happen. Growing up, you just had this feeling that you wouldn't transition well to adult life, that you'd fall right through the cracks. And look at you now, it's happening.”

[iyamwhoiyam]

🩷

[iyamwhoiyam]

i have been so lonely lately

so lonely i've forgotten what it's like to have company

[iyamwhoiyam]

[iyamwhoiyam]

me and you

under a cherry blossom tree? 🌸

me and who?

[iyamwhoiyam]

[iyamwhoiyam]

البحرُ صدري و الفُؤاد غريقُ

[iyamwhoiyam]

that girl

with sun-kissed cheeks,

pearl eyes,

and lips that have

only tasted the

sweet drip of honey.

-znab

[iyamwhoiyam]

But then I realised

that they only

stopped

loving me

because I stopped

loving

them

first.

-znab

[iyamwhoiyam]

i bandage the

wounds on my skin

with pieces of my heart,

and wonder why

i am still

bleeding.

-znab

[iyamwhoiyam]

1/03/2022

Journal Extract

" although i feel nothing, i feel everthing. how much longer can i bottle up my emotions for?

i fear that i might explode one day and bleed from the wounds I've been covering for months.

but what i fear more is that i implode. that i start bleeding internally. only then will i choke on the crimson blood flooding my lungs.

and that's when i will be far beyond saving."

[iyamwhoiyam]

17/02/2022

Journal Extract

" my disintegrating has left a hole in me. a hole that nothing can fill anymore. this black hole that was once a bright star is infinitely digging into the emptiness of my heart; tearing my sanity apart. i have no concept of time and am losing connection to reality.

that is why the sound of a ticking clock comforts me. and the dragging of my pen onto the smooth pages of this journal is as far a i can do to being myself again."