★ :: `. — beat by mars !
[01 / 02] :: martin x reader
[syn] :: don't send a rapper a voice message unless you wanna be an intro ! track three,,
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you thought you'd felt sorrow and rage back when you two broke up, you thought there weren't any worse feelings than that. if you could go back and warn your past self about the shit storm of events and emotions that were about to occur, you would. martin had truly ruined you mentally, whether he knew it or not — you were so drained. he had to know full well what he was doing; purposefully, intentionally using your voice in his tracks, not talking to you since the break up — yet calling you to trick you into a vocal sample. you were in disbelief at the amount of nerve he had, it was truly baffling.
atleast james somewhat had your back — kind of. you weren't really sure what any of the members thought about it, but atleast he let you know. that's the most anyone has helped you in this entire fiasco. with your psyche declining rapidly, overwhelmed with issues and no solutions — you needed to do something, anything. just so he'd admit that what he did was wrong, or even just for him to stop.
you hadn't been on twitter for a while. struggling by yourself already, you didn't need to hear people's opinions on your 'mysterious voice'. the app feeling stale — almost dead, your finger hovered over the icon hesitantly.
eventually clicking on it, not even bothering to read whatever came up on your timeline — you got an idea. it might not even work, maybe no one will even see it; worth a try though, you thought.
;; [martin's POV]
'you know what you're doing man, what even happened between you guys?' james borderline yelled, attempting to talk some sense into martin — but his words fell upon deaf ears.
'you knew her, how clingy she could be — nothing happened i just, got busy' he replied, knowing that wouldn't be a good enough answer — he wasn't even convinced himself.
'don't bullshit me we were so much busier when you two were dating. you didn't get busy, you just got en ego' james said before leaving the studio. ending with martin being there alone, like he wanted.
he'd been lashing out recently, not that he knew why. he had everyone confused, the company included. rubbing his face to wake himself up — he turned back to the glowing monitor in front of him, yet another one of your voice tracks displayed on screen. he sighed, eyes tired, head heavy.
was he trying to get you back? he did miss you — not that he'd ever let you know. was he trying to provoke you? no, you never did anything wrong; what he said about you to james wasn't even true. he never stopped loving you — he just got distracted, and admittedly a bit of an ego. his head was spinning, with no idea why he even tried this in the first place, he couldn't stop now. he's gone too far already, may aswell keep going. he's not sure what it'll do — probably nothing, but he's gonna try. he's gonna try so insanely hard, for an outcome he can't even predict. his sunken eyes going back to hover over the neon track, he was so tired.
hours passed, with no progress made. staring endlessly into the audio software, before his phone started to ring.
not recognising the number, he picked up out of curiosity.
'wassup?' he spoke, only to be met with silence. a few seconds passing before an unfamiliar girls voice can be heard on the line.
'this is martin right?' she spoke, sounding almost giddy with excitement. he didn't recognise the voice, but responded nonetheless. 'yeah? who's this?' he asked.
'oh my god – oh my god ok uh, i literally love you so much like you've been my idol since predebut and i just like – i can't believe im talking to you right n- ' he ended the call.
before he could even stop to think about what that possibly was — his phone rings again. from multiple numbers, and not just a few; thousands and thousands of calls are all attempting to get on his line. his heart sank to the floor — his number's been leaked.
;; [readers POV]
it was a bit extreme, but you couldn't lie to yourself anymore. you couldn't keep trying to convince yourself he was still a good person — still the boy you loved. it was clear he changed; drastically at that. it was clear he had no regard for your feelings, so why should you have any left for his?
only a few minutes passed before you got a text, from him. the only time he's texted you in the last five months, was to confront you — you expected it but, it still hurt.
with your jaw clenched and your cheeks stained with tears, you blocked his number. your heart felt like it'd been punctured thousands of times, but you knew it was for the best. you never thought your relationship would end in you two hating each other — but if that's what'll get him to stop then so be it.
you know you needed to let go, you probably should've stopped hoping long ago — but how could you? he was your first love, that combined with teenage angst was a strong potion. every emotion felt like it was amplified by a million percent, almost like the worst high of your life, comparable to a nightmare.
with a heavy heart, crying your eyes out; you accepted that he never loved you, no longer cared for you, and now hated you. a hard thing to come to terms with, but you knew it was better than wishful thinking. you no longer considered martin a friend, or an acquaintance — you hated that he was your ex even more. if he wants to keep using your voice in his songs, so be it. you didn't care anymore.
;; [martin's POV]
[ AN ] :: thankyou guys so much for the support on this little series that wasn't even meant to be a series lmao. seriously i was just gonna write the first one cuz thats all i had in my head but y'all gave me sm motivation to turn it into a little story 🤍🤍 im all for teen angst and i felt martin was the perfect subject — don't get the wrong idea from this fic lmao i love him literally so much (and am gonna write more for him in the future) but yea,, i just hope y'all are ok with a little angsty ending ❤️🩹❤️🩹
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