I hate myself more than anything, to be very honest. I think I'm disgusting and a horrible being for doing those stuff I do, I belive I need therapy and treat myself. I hate myself, every time I see a artist that I like say "proshippers need to die" I feel even more horrible about myself, I was a kid. I didn't know any better. I was a unsupervised kid on the internet, what could happen? Since I'm 8/9 I draw rheee stuff and I hate myself, I cut myself as a punishment, and there was a time I even tried to b groomed, all because I hate myself. And when I tried to be groomed I got scared, and all the DMS I got from old people made me feel awful, I know I'm disgusting, I know I'm horrible, I hate myself more than anything on this world. Ive tried to kill myself a hundred times, and I'm still here. On this insufferable loop of cutting myself every time I think about these disgusting stuff. I dont hate people for liking these since I know im not any better than them. All the times I think about what happened with me, how I hate thinking about the times he touched me, when that disgusting woman touched me. He and I don't talk about it anymore, but it was probably a big fucking trauma for us both, and I just want it to go away.
