THE JESTER OF UR DREAMS!!

haiii i'm vivian/lilith/marx/buck :-P! they/it/he, 21 yrs old. puerto rican american. HUGE ENJOYER OF POSTAL AND MORAL OREL AT THE MOMENT 🔥🔥

[j0vialjester]

❤️“Middle School Fujoshi Awakening”, 8 x 10 in. canvas with acrylic and thin black sharpie💙

NERVOUS ABT HOW THIS IS GONNA PERFORM ON INSTA (same @ durr) SO I'M CROSSPOSTING HERE.....

late pride month post and a happy tomtord tuesday from yours truly <3

this was like 6 days of on-and-off work usually spanning 3-5 hours at a time so any and all support is appreciated !!!!! :-D

[j0vialjester]

fiiiine ughh here's a wip of my actual design for tord (not a single soul demanded to see this)

im being extremely obnoxious with the shape language as you can see

[j0vialjester]

i made this. smiles. anyways good luck guys #yes #awesome

[j0vialjester]

half-assed acht ref for a friend hashtag yolooooo #thuglife #swag

[mrfatmangoman]

Dr. Lobutto be like

I HATE DRAWING !!!!!!!!!!!!

[pastorveins]

p1 inspired by @j0vialjester 's version

[clowncarstars]

Not an actual ask, just wanted to let you know that the way you draw Postal 97' Dude gives me life and if you ever stop drawing I will eat your car.

Post man got tons of love mail 💖💖

Thank you all for your kind words, I truly and deeply appreciate it!!! Sorry for not answering my inbox as much as I should, I promise I’ll answer way more soon once the semester is over! I truly appreciate these inbox messages you guys send me it motivates me more to do what I love I can’t thank you guys enough for taking the time to send me these 💖💖

[theevileye69]

Hello. Cunt

[j0vialjester]

how does p1 dude raise his son? (champ)

hi! good question! thank you for the good question.

hmm. so, here's the thing. i don't actually think he HAS a "champ"! or at least, not in my interpretation. there is a doghouse in his yard, but it's like so pixelated i can't tell if that's just snowy dirt in there or there's a sleeping dog or some shit. we never really see a dog by his side, nor hear one (not even in the home theme).

but anyways, my personal belief is that he doesn't have a dog. the doghouse was just left behind by the previous owners of the property, and he hasn't gotten around to disposing of it. there is another purpose to me writing it this way. i wanted p1 to be as isolated as possible at home. i want him to be a "worst case scenario" of sorts when compared to the other dudes. he lacks a stable support system.

it's a real shame because i feel like he could really benefit from a psychiatric service dog for his psychosis (unmedicated and undiagnosed, progressing into schizophrenia). but i feel like he doesn't trust himself with animals-- he'd think about hurting them and that would distress him. i feel like he does have a fear of dogs in particular, partially because of the loud barking and the potential biting, but also because of paranoia he has with authority figures. he sees a cop walking around with a police dog and he thinks "WHAT IF I SECRETLY HAVE A POUND OF METH IN MY BACK POCKET AND THE DOG SMELLS IT AND THE COP SHOOTS ME WHAT IF I HAVE EXPLOSIVES LOCATED IN MY COAT AND I DIDNT EVEN REALIZE I NEED TO CHECK RIGHT NOW" (don't ask him if he has OCD, the answer will always be No)

[j0vialjester]

Please tell me someone sees my vision. Pleeeeease I ALSO WANTED HIM TO LOOK REALLY UNSIGHTLY LOL drawing gross men is a passion of mine #serious (the marks on his face are from picking at his skin btw Dermatillomania sweeeeep)

also shameless plug but i have a p1 dude rp blog that i would love to use Maybe POSSIBLY @bblessed-are-the-meekk

[j0vialjester]

not really a headcannon question BUT

which dude do you relate to most??? (if any)

this is a good question because it also allows me to talk about myself #yolo

i relate to bits of p1 and bits of p2. fitting, considering theyre my favorites. dunno if theres one i definitively relate to "most".

i remember p1's war journals (the ones written from the "demon's" perspective) made me especially uneasy, because a lot of them remined me of the thoughts i tended to churn out when i would get manic. vaguely poetic, gleeful, barely coherent, occasionally religious (i'm agnostic, for the record, but in very desperate times i suddenly became interested in faith) etc etc. so i could connect to him in that sense. then there's also the matter of his paranoia and erratic behavior. i am a very paranoia-prone person myself. i think he suffers from persecutory delusions. i havent experienced full-on delusions (i have suffered from "magical thinking" instead), but i have definitely experienced strong, irrational fears in relation to these things. i also generally relate to the concept of feeling like a terrified animal backed into a corner with no choice but to lash out at your "attackers", whether they're real or imagined.

hmmmm and then theres p2 dude. i think my disposition is more in line with him. theres many instances where my range of outward emotion is more muted, like his. ive improved on this as ive gotten older and gotten better with masking, but i also used to be pretty monotone. i do still say a lot of things with a dry delivery like he does, and i tend to have a vocal fry. but ofc i work two jobs in customer service so i have my "voice" for that, too. i have also come to realize within the past half-year or so that i do have some antisocial traits. not going to unload all of that HERE obviously, but i relate to p2 dude having limited emotional investment in the lives of others. the way that he really prefers to keep to himself and seems to have this passive frustration, boredom, or repulsion towards most others around him. he can be charismatic, but his charisma is sort offfff perfunctory, if that makes sense. oh and of course, i also have my fair share of. um. morbid/violent thoughts towards others, much like he does. but naturally i do not act on them because going to jail would be quiiiite inconvenient LOL.

picks my boogers. yeah i think i covered all the bases i wanted to with that question Yay

[j0vialjester]

😄 hi would anyone perchance like to send me headcanon requests/questions abt my iterations of p1 and p2 dude…… 🙂‍↕️They’re my favorite dudes so i really want excuses to talk about them lalalala 🎶 🎶🎶

[take-this-2-ur-grave]

me checking my notifs every two seconds knowing damn well no one’s there

[j0vialjester]

hellooouuu postal fans 😄 i come bearing a Polite Offer

do u guys have any postal dude headcanons that you would like to share 💭 well you can share them HERE and i will LISTEN! i love to hashtag Listen and Learn 😋

[bassclarinetfan]

My chud son who I love

[j0vialjester]

hellow fellow moral orel fans 😄

do you guys have any headcanons abt the characters that you would like to share 💭 im bored and i like to #listenandlearn ENRICH ME RIGHT NOWWWWW 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

[j0vialjester]

i just made some bullllllshittt (still working on his actual character so these are like the bare bones basics LOLOLOL)