It’s fun to tell people they’ve cancer, Right?
There’s no surprise people believe I’m an ass if you find videos or posts saying I banned people for whispering me, sitting on rocks, or “stating their opinions”. How I’m rude, make people cry or how I’m “immature”. The posts at hand are desperate cries for attention or support while covering up what might’ve taken place, in some cases even something I have absolutely nothing to do with more than maybe someone I knew or know had some sort of involvement in a situation and that my name was slapped onto it.
It’s interesting but also a bit sad to see so bad mannered children with such skewed reality doing their best to scream innocence when they lack both morals and compassion for anyone but themselves. Over time I’ve had so many people come up to me and tell me “Hey, you’re not as bad as I thought/as I’ve been told”, as much as it’s a nice thing to hear and see, it also brings a double message where you’re constantly reminded of how people roam around and just feel that prodding that little extra about their abusive internet life on an online game will feel up their cup of self centered bullcrap while swinging any heavy object at your name.
But as time goes on I do not feel I have anything to hide, but on the other hand these negative and demolishing posts and actions will remain not only to be seen, but also to be remembered by people like you and me. When you’ve seen people close to trying to start a cult following because I said no to them, or drag people aside just to ensure that they will think bad of me you truly start to see desperation in it’s purest form, but also how powerless one might be as negativity speaks further but also stronger than any good things.
You can work really hard and well, stay out of trouble and know that you’ve been “good”, but your hard work could just end up falling back to step one on a wider scale as you happened to defy and put the wrong people in the their right place. And then the question comes to you. How many times would you be have the energy and be able to start over again?
It will get to a point where you give up, and just let people talk and be stuck in their safe spherical bubble of ignorance. Where you expect nothing from the person next to you, and how you rather have all doors closed for people rather than opening them up. This is also why I’ve come to respect some people so heavily, because even if my name has been put up on trial in front of their faces, they wanted to find out on their own,
I cannot even imagine how many people I’ve been a “virtual parent” to, the one to tell them “NO” for the sake of more but themselves, not me, but others. If you think hard for a second. What is it in to anyone if they do not get any money, and they do not look for the spotlight? No decent being becomes a doctor because they love to tell people they’re dying of cancer or how they need to go through painful surgery. They most likely do it because they like to help people, make a difference and maybe even feel good about themselves doing it.
So here you go guys, you got a guy who banned people for no reason, were immature and power hungry on a game because he found it… fun? If that’s how you want to think, how small is really your world huh? Maybe there’s something more to it than a mean guy doing you no well online.
I will admit that I’ve been extremely naive and believed that most people will eventually think of greater things and more but themselves. but I’ve been wronged. It’s a selfish and self centered world we live in and as much as we can try to make it better together, we cannot change it.
It’s just a nice feeling believing in something(not religious). And I believed doing the “right thing” for more than certain individuals would be the best, looking back at things I’d probably fare better personally if I were just an empty shell and doing what people wanted all the time and play pretend with people instead of dragging a line of where the limits go.
Now as this post has gone on about me a bit, there’s probably more people out there that believes in something too. Help them, support them but most importantly believe in them, even if it’s something you might not understand or care much for as it is what will keep them afloat and strong.
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