Nostalgia and Loneliness

Sometimes at night I suddenly become aware of all the things I’m missing out on right now, and all the people who I’m not close to anymore, and all of the good times that will never happen again, and all the people who meant the world to me who have forgotten about me forever, and I get this awful feeling that’s kind of like a mix between loneliness and nostalgia.

[j8dead]

I just don’t fuxking care anymore. What is there to care about.

[j8dead]

I don’t want to kill myself

But I don’t think I’d stop someone if they tried at this point

[j8dead]

Always remember

I’m not ready to date. Just means I don’t want to date you. Even if it’s followed by but if I were to date anyone it’d be you.

[j8dead]

God fucking dammit

[j8dead]

Give up. It’s no use. Nobody likes you. They just pretend to. Trust me. They’ll show their true colors and when you need help, and ask for it, They won’t be there. And they’ll act like they didnt agree to help, and you’ll be left waiting for the help you expected. The only one who cares about you is you, and you barely care about yourself to begin with. So what’s the use. They’ll leave you, they’ll talk to you, make you feel like things are good. And then they’ll all leave you when you’re struggling. Duck people. Duck connections. Be a ducking hermit. It’s the same amount of emotional returns, with none of the effort you put into gettting people to lien you. Spend that effort on bettering yourself. Because setting aside that time, that energy? I. The end it’s not worth it. They’ll leave tou. Whe. You’re feeling you’re lowest. When you’re feeling like they’re your only source of hope. When everyone else has left you. And they’ll ghost you too. Trust in yourself. Because nobody else gives a dakn

[j8dead]

Give up. It’s not use. Nobody likes you. They just pretend to. Trust me. They’ll show their true colors and when you need help. They won’t be there. And they’ll act like they did t agree to help. The only one who cares about you is you, and you barely care about yourself to begin with. So what’s the use. They’ll leave you, they’ll talk to you, make you feel like things are good. And then they’ll all leave you when you’re struggling. Duck people. Fuck connections. Be a ducking hermit. It’s the same amount of emotional returns, with none of the effort you put into gettting people to lien you. Spend that effort on bettering yourself. Because setting aside that time, that energy? I. The end it’s not worth it. They’ll leave tou. Whe. You’re feeling you’re lowest. When you’re feeling like they’re your only source of hope. When everyone else has left you. And they’ll ghost you too. Trust in yourself. Because nobody else gives a dakn

[j8dead]

I lowkey hope that I die on the way back to Missouri

[impaled]

[birdhug]

you know when little kids are told to smile for the camera and they do the biggest grin bc they aren’t self conscious about their teeth yet they just give it their all.. that’s wat this looks like

[j8dead]

And we’re back here. Because I want to vent but I don’t necessarily want people to see. I’m a fucking mess. I don’t want to live here anymore. I feel worse off than I ever have. Which is saying a lot. I can’t find a new job. I’m broke. I’m single as fuck with zero prospects now. My best friend out here won’t talk to me. My favorite person is very clearly pulling away. And I’m lost. SHd, more than ever, and everytime I think I get something figured out, something else breaks. I haven’t felt comfortable (outside of maybe a week or so) in more than a year. I’m too depressed to take care of my room so it looks like a fucking tornado. I’m just so tired of this all. When are things supposed to start getting better?

[finehoney]

if i could give you the moon, i would give you the moon

[j8dead]

That thing where

Someone says something you don’t agree with so you say that you’re attacking them. But in actuality it is being lightly suggested that you don’t need to get another cat because you can’t take care of the two you have and that pets aren’t accessories they’re living breathing creatures that aren’t just there. And the person “attacking” you had to buy them flea meds because they won’t fucking do it and their cats are literally bleeding from the flea bites because they’ve been infested for months.

[j8dead]

That thing where

You sit on your sisters bed so she can’t sleep but then when your kids wake up you go to take a day long nap and make your sister who didn’t get to sleep watch your children for you. All the while keeping the threat of putting your sister out on the street. Because you’re a shitty human.

[anxietyproblem]

[j8dead]

Cool

Ignore me but call the person sitting next to me to hang out despite the fact that we made plans today. Doesn’t hurt my feelings at all.

[the-memedaddy]

[kazbrekkcr]

hercules: rip to odysseus, perseus, theseus and achilles but im different

[katiebishop]

[texnessa]

“When I was a student at Cambridge I remember an anthropology professor holding up a picture of a bone with 28 incisions carved in it. ‘This is often considered to be man’s first attempt at a calendar’ she explained. She paused as we dutifully wrote this down. ‘My question to you is this – what man needs to mark 28 days? I would suggest to you that this is woman’s first attempt at a calendar.’ It was a moment that changed my life. In that second I stopped to question almost everything I had been taught about the past. How often had I overlooked women’s contributions?” ― Sandi Toksvig