~Elysian~

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LORD PAHINGI NAMAN NG LAKAS NG LOOB

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STRESSED, BURNT , HURT LORD ANUNA

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6 years... Ayoko na ng gulo , ayoko na ng away , sana'y makinig... Sana'y makaabot sayo lahat ng nais iparamdam , lahat ng intensyon. Sa lahat ng pagsubok laging tandaan, Hindi ako mahal. Hindi ako ang yong kalaban dahil kalaban NATIN ang problema. di alam paano makaaabot sayo mga salitang eksaktong gusto kong iparating , paano tayo magkakaintindihan? paano ba tayo matatahimik. Mahal sana lagi tayong makini sa isa't isa. Lagi tayong umunawa. Huwag unahin ang galit.

Hindi ko nais na ikaw ay mawala. Nakakatakot. Pero sana kung gano ako katakot mawala kay naway ganun din natin gusto ayusin ang mga problema. Magsabi ka naman.

Pagusapan Magkaintindihan Mas pipiliin ko pang ganito kaysa hindi umimik at manatiling tikom ang bibig. lagi natin piliin ang isa't isa

Dahil ako mismo pinipili ka araw araw.

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Nakikinig ka ba sakin?

Nais kitang salubungin sa dulo ng yong galit. Hindi para sa wakas kundi upang tayo'y magkaayos.

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You are the cause why I overthink, I'm insecure. It's what you say and what you make me feel

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You're the one causing chaos in my emotions Pakalmahin mo naman ako

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It's nice to bring back memories by scrolling through my blog. Kung nakakausap ko lang tong blog ko, I'd say a lot has changed. Di na gaya ng dati eh. People might ask "pano mo nasabi?" Change really is inevitable. Di mo mapapansin agad but yes there are changes. Dati, gustong gusto mo ko ipost, imention, itag Ngayon, "Date in private" . Understood it's part of maturing, growing but sometimes nakakamiss din pala maappreciate in that way. Kahit once at hindi lagi. Dati late night serious talks Ngayon, no more drama Memories good and of course the bad ones do haunt you. Good memories make you tear up as well as the bad. Overthinking that it might happen again. Kasi bumalik yung tao. What if ganto what if ganyan. Sa daming pictures ko noon puro puso at comment mo. Ngayon puro haha pero sa iba naka puso. Not of a big deal Sometimes gusto ko sabihin hindi ako okay. Namimiss ko to, yung ganto. Tama ka di na siguro babalik yun kasi tatapalan na lang ng panibago. Pero it still haunts me. Pero di ko maexpress kasi ayokong masabihang OA at madrama. Mahal kita. Nagkikita tayo araw araw. Pero bakit kahit araw araw tayong nagkikita at nagkakasama namimiss kita. Namimiss ko ba trato mo sakin noon? O namimiss ko yung mga oras na di na pwedeng balikan. Ako kung pwede lang maerase yung bad memories gagawin ko para hindi na ako huntingin. I have insecurities yes. Sometimes what the person makes you feel and say makes you insecure Padilim ng padilim mga naiisip ko nalulunod nanaman ako. Ayoko na maging maramdamin. The only time na magiging totoo ako sa nararamdaman without thinking na sasabihan akong OA at madrama, Pag lumalangoy na ko sa alak. Natatakot ako mawala yung tao, Ang tanong takot ba siyang mawala ako? Hahabulin mo ba ako, susuyuin mo ba ako? Ano ba naman to ang dilim dilim. Ang dami kong gustong sabihin Pero para akong may busal sa bibig Natatakot na pag may maling nasabi Wala na, di ka kakausapin, di ka susuyuin. Di ako galit sa tao. Mahal ko yun. Galit ako kasi ganto ako. Minsan gusto ko na lang mawala. Mapayapa kaya?

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It's nice to bring back memories by scrolling through my blog. Kung nakakausap ko lang tong blog ko, I'd say a lot has changed. Di na gaya ng dati eh. People might ask "pano mo nasabi?" Change really is inevitable. Di mo mapapansin agad but yes there are changes. Dati, gustong gusto mo ko ipost, imention, itag Ngayon, "Date in private" . Understood it's part of maturing, growing but sometimes nakakamiss din pala maappreciate in that way. Kahit once at hindi lagi. Dati late night serious talks Ngayon, no more drama Memories good and of course the bad ones do haunt you. Good memories make you tear up as well as the bad. Overthinking that it might happen again. Kasi bumalik yung tao. What if ganto what if ganyan. Sa daming pictures ko noon puro puso at comment mo. Ngayon puro haha pero sa iba naka puso. Not of a big deal Sometimes gusto ko sabihin hindi ako okay. Namimiss ko to, yung ganto. Tama ka di na siguro babalik yun kasi tatapalan na lang ng panibago. Pero it still haunts me. Pero di ko maexpress kasi ayokong masabihang OA at madrama. Mahal kita. Nagkikita tayo araw araw. Pero bakit kahit araw araw tayong nagkikita at nagkakasama namimiss kita. Namimiss ko ba trato mo sakin noon? O namimiss ko yung mga oras na di na pwedeng balikan. Ako kung pwede lang maerase yung bad memories gagawin ko para hindi na ako huntingin. I have insecurities yes. Sometimes what the person makes you feel and say makes you insecure Padilim ng padilim mga naiisip ko nalulunod nanaman ako. Ayoko na maging maramdamin. The only time na magiging totoo ako sa nararamdaman without thinking na sasabihan akong OA at madrama, Pag lumalangoy na ko sa alak. Natatakot ako mawala yung tao, Ang tanong takot ba siyang mawala ako? Hahabulin mo ba ako, susuyuin mo ba ako? Ano ba naman to ang dilim dilim. Ang dami kong gustong sabihin Pero para akong may busal sa bibig Natatakot na pag may maling nasabi Wala na, di ka kakausapin, di ka susuyuin. Di ako galit sa tao. Mahal ko yun. Galit ako kasi ganto ako. Minsan gusto ko na lang mawala. Mapayapa kaya?

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Mundong Mapaglaro..

Sa tuwing ako’y nalulumbay

yakap mo ang nagpapawala ng pagod

sa araw araw na pagsabak sa nakakapagod na  mundo 

isang halik, isang mahigpit na yakap ako’y handa nang harapin muli ang mundong mapaglaro.

Di alam kung dapat ba maging masaya, dahil parang sa tuwing ako’y masaya tila binabawi sakin ng mundo.

Kelan ba ko sasaya kasama siya ng di binabawi ng mundo yun kasiyahan na yun ?

kelan ba magiging sapat at tama para di na bawiin ng mundo yung kasiyahan ko sakanya.

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Hope you had nice holidays :)

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You’re my “di pa ko inaantok, usap pa tayo” in this world of “inaantok na ko, tulog na ko”

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To that person who took my breath away

You are amazing. Amazing enough to handle me. Yes “ME” I know somewhere, there’s still a child in me. That makes me an immature person, but I can be mature too :) All I want to say is thank you for that day that you went out of your house and saw me. Thank you for the days that we would see each other and like I was secretly rejoicing for having the chance to see your face, to talk to you and to get drowned by looking at  those brown hazel like eyes. You literally took my breath away. It’s like I was brought to paradise, and how lucky and proud I am now to call you mine. Now, we’ve been through a LOT. Struggles, challenges. We passed them together. Thank you for staying with me. I never thought that I would be loved this way but I am very thankful to have you. I became a better person and since the day you were mine, I promised myself to love you from the bottom of my heart because all my heart says up to now is “he is the one”. If I would have a chance to be reincarnated I would find you. Thank you for all the love and care. Thank you for meeting me, and being that guy who showed me “home”

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To that one guy that made me believe that True Love exists

Ever wondered how you met this person, and ended up being the most important person in your life

To my love, thank you. Thank you for never giving up on me. For being there through the good and the bad. Thank you for unlimited hugs and kisses from you that makes me feel so loved. For all those words that made my heart melt those things that made me love you more each day  that passes. Thank you for being patient with me. For being able to handle me on those times that I was hard to understand. Thank you for letting down your guard for me to enter. There is so much to say my love for you are definitely the most breath taking person I’ve ever known

I am afraid to lose you my love. It feels like being brought back to the deepest darkest place and having no love, no strength no you. And so I always wish up there every night that you would be the one. The one together with me in the aisle facing our creator and saying our vows. 

I have felt real love from you and it made me believe that there is really someone worth the tears, arguments and especially someone worth fighting for. I won’t stop fighting, I won’t stop holding your hand. I’ll never let go of it. 

I will always be here for you know matter what. Whatever storm, I’ll be staying fighting with you. We aren’t perfect but why are you perfect despite your imperfections? I love every piece that makes you, you. Every detail every flaw I love and accept because it’s who you really are.

I am blessed to have someone like you. Who made me a better person and taught me that love, real love exists. So please don’t let me go, hold my hand till the end. And I’ll hold yours. I’ll give my all, loyalty, trust and all the love I can give. You are my happiness and I’m thankful that it went to the right person.

Thank you Justine Jaz Benares    

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I heart that loves doesn't need things money can buy, it needs a heart that loves it the same way

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