there is always a story behind the face.

megan louise. sixteen. pansexual. this is the story of my life, the things i love, and the things that happen in my brain.

[thatskyblue-deactivated20210328]

[chronically-kyle]

Choose recovery

[jacketslutt]

THIS IS AN ANCIENT BLOG DONT LOOK OK MY NEW URL IS HACKBERRY TREE THIS IS JUST HOARDED

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I know this is super personal and shit but I'm the horniest person alive right now.like someone rough me up and loosen up my muscles and yesssss

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Oscars nighttttt

[melanie45221]

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The saddest thought just cane over me. Unless something drastically changes I won't be having sex on my eighteenth birthday :c this is a.sad realization.

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How To Know You Cleaned Your Pipe Well: You're stoned off of one hit holy shit omg

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mo: Come over tomorrow!

mo: prepare to model.... then party.

mo: by the way, i will beat her ass. straight up.

me: hahahaha. alright then.

[jacketslutt]

I AM SUPPOSED TO BE YOUR BEST FRIEND NOT YOUR LUSTFUL CREATURE

[jacketslutt]

i guess i knew all along that things that were so important to me, were stupid and simple and fake to you.

i hope everything works out for you, i hope you end up happy and all of the things go well for you. 

just please don't hurt another girl like you've hurt me. 

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don't mess with little dogs.

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Thank you for showing me just how much you cared after all.

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i wish i had just ended everything so much sooner, sometimes. i just... wish i had the guts when i had. everyone does so much better without me. i hate that it's that way, but it always has been. i'm always in someone elses way, someone else's business, and it never is my intention.

i just want to be close to people. i want to love you the way you deserve. i want to be everything i think you deserve. 

but the thought of knowing that i can't be that anymore breaks my heart. knowing that i've become such a flaw, such an eyesore to everyone around me is painful. 

i spend my weeks alone at school, putting on a face for everyone else so that they don't worry. i spend all of my time becoming someone i shouldn't have to become. 

i want to be okay again. before any of this ever happened.

i don't want to lose my prince charming. i don't. but it seems like i am not able to be that. you deserve the world on a silver platter with a beautiful girl who can give you anything you want and more. i would give you everything i can and more. 

i'm sorry my worry and care comes off as oppressive and clingy. i'm not trying to push you away. i'm trying to pull you closer, but i'm failing. 

i'd understand if you told me to get my shit out of your dorm and call it quits. i don't want it to happen, but i'd understand. no one ever stays. 

[jacketslutt]

i know that i'm an imperfect soul, and i know that there are a lot of things about me that no one wants to deal with. 

but... please know that i'm trying. i'm trying to give you the best thing i could ever offer to anyone. maybe i'm too high strung and maybe i'll spend my nights alone for the rest of my life. maybe i'm just... forgotten about a lot.

but i can promise you, you never once leave my mind. 

i'll give you back your things if you want them. i'll give you back your life if you want it. i'll drive up there and give you your things and never speak to you again if that will make you happy.

it wasn't my intent to push you away. i'm sorry.

[jacketslutt]

I'm not ashamed of my sexuality or my history. I have adored my two with all of it. I'm ashamed that I can't control myself better when the temptation arises. Sure, I care so much that it keeps me up at night wondering if I made you comfortable. But at the same time, I am so worrie you'll leave just like everyone else always has. The one before you got everything she wanted from me, got tired of me and left. Open your heart to me. I want to be your "the one", not "the one that got away from me".

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Can we talk about how I had th best night of my life while "what's eating Gilbert Grape" played in the background orrrr