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ive kinda been fckn hammered constantly lately which suuuuuux

#jackkal #im like why am i crazy and sad #<- has been drunk and high for the past 72 hrs

got shorts today that i wasnt entirely sure werent a pair of boxers until i found the pockets

also idk what the fuck is wrong with me that i want to shorten my name and while most people i know have COMPLETELY changed their names, no one respects mine. at all. and they all acted like omg why didnt you tell me! when i told every1 im legally changing it and i was like i did. many times. and expressed how deeply it mattered to me. and you didnt care. and now everyones gone back to my old full name and im like see i told you you didnt care bro 😭

#jackkal #and i cant keep correcting everyone forever bc then theyll resent me #even tho ik bitches who idek their legal first name!!! like what #it makes me feel dirty and like evil for having desire and making autonomous choices #like i cant imagine being trans.. im gnc but i dont even do all that anymore bc of how fucking vicious ppl are and i cant even get away #w this. when its 3 DAMN LETTERS BROOO #and its not just a personal choice part of it is the way people pronounce my full name in our regional accent pmo so bad #i dont say it like that but everyone else says it so nasally and with closed vowels and not open and i dont like itt

i really deeply wish i was worth something to anyone and not just a vessel through which people pass energy wherein they expect so much out of me but also put negativity in and the positivity only comes from what i have myself produced and not from a genuine earnest care or belief of worthiness and itll be those same people that go on and on about how THEY feel this way, and im like well i dont pour negativity into you like this and i dont expect anything out of you like that but they do me and im like right because im like a kickable dog

#jackkal #when i meet strangers who match what i put out its like heavens light shone down #but ive never had anyone in my life not do this exact cycle to me of expecting me to be there for them and then when i am its unsatisfactor #and they like hate me for trying and then theyre like why dont you try anymore and they like try to baby me #but then when i do give them energy and i let myself open up they flip and shut me down and im like its gotta just be that IM the problem #sometimes i feel like the only way to truly solve an unsolvable equation is to remove the factors that create the problem yk.#its like everyone ive ever met WANTS me to be fucked up and sickly and depressed #when i do things for myself they take it as a personal attack and i just dont know whyyy i dont even talk about it outside of what i post #on here. to no one. and when i do talk abt it a TINY bit bc other ppl were they lock the fuck in and store that info to use it against me!!#whyyyyyyyy

didnt know people were still on the kamala harris was as evil of a candidate as trump and i wont be voting next election cycle and no electoral candidates have ever been this universally unacceptable train we are soooo fucking fucked. i hope everyone wanted prezy dent trump forever because apparently thats better. i swear to god modern liberals generally prefer a republican president in office so they can bitch and moan about how oppressed and morally superior they are all the time. with less minorities being murdered in the streets what would they lord over their coworkers at burger king then..

#jackkal #the liberal obsession with being right at all times over pragmatism is fucking despair inducing #yessss no one go out and vote in droves we definitely didnt get close to third pardy candidate viability in 2016 #yesss buy into the conservative narrative that its hopeless and dont vote theyd hate that #never ever vote blue dont vote at all that way we can never have a dem majority w a plausible shift from the 2 party system #its better this way!#like i dont care what you believe in if youre not voting you may as well vote for trump which is DEFINITELY the worst choice but idk #like i really figured most would have gone hmmmm lots and lots of deaths actually 8 an hour from healthcare repeal alone maybe i shouldnt #abstain next tkme #noope it seems everyone still thinks voting for kamala was an equally destructive choice... genius

diarrhea parasites and disease got me cracking uppp everyone quietly suffering from explosive shits rn

#jackkal #and youd not know but you go in any bathroom and every bowl is a crime scene bro #irs extra funny for it to be regional too #living in the diarrhea epicenter rn

ewaneneollav

repeat after me: people don’t notice the little details. i’m going to get away with it. people don’t notice the little details. i’m going to get away with it.

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eightiesgalaxy

Bonnie Tyler 1951-2026 RIP

teathattast

it is INSANE to me that cream cheese isnt a more common sandwich ingredient at least in my region. i remember thinking i fucking invented it as a kid bc its just not a thing and i think almost every single sandwich needs cream cheese and in fact i think most sandwiches with pickles should just have dill pickle cream cheese !!!!! no weak pickles fuck it atp id rather eat something else providing pickle than a cheap rubbery squeaky ass pickle slice they made in the great value lab

#jackkal

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seeing this image in 2026 is like seeing an old friend who I've dearly missed

well i leaned on youtube shorts as a replacement for all social media and also my nicotine addiction fo long enough now i have to kill that too because over consumption is evil and shit

#jackkal #ive been feeling it rotting my brain lately im donee

my mouth is so small 😭 the more i weigh the more of a tom holland situation i approach

#jackkal #if i weighed as much as him relative to height my mouth would be abt that small lol #i got lips at least tho

btw kindness is a war and sometimes you lose the battle and it actually makes you a better person if you keep fighting and come back stronger than to be miserable and let it fester kindness is what cleanses your rot

#jackkal #its sooo hard but like u gotta fightt #@ myself #the only correct choice after failing or losing is to keep fighting

amanitaphalloides

maybe next year instead of amateur fireworks on every block for hours and hours we can try holding up a single beautiful flower

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