mystery.

jackson hill. twenty five. drug addicted porn star.

[jackscnhill-blog]

“I got hit by a car on the way to set today, then I spent three hours doing the same scene over and over. It’s been a weird day.”

[jackscnhill-blog]

calebmathers:

Caleb had dabbled in drugs a few times in high school, but he’d never really liked the feeling of being out of control in that way. Eyes lit with concern he stood before the younger man, concerned that he’d scratch himself raw. “Don’t apologize…just tell me what I can do to help.”

Everyone knew that Jack was always on something, he was constantly high. At this point, it was the only way he could function anymore, he didn’t work without being on something. His nails are scratching furiously at the skin on his arms, his head resting against the wall behind him with his eyes squeezed closed. “Need a hit. Fucking need something. Anything.”

[jackscnhill-blog]

eve-sommers:

Eve had just finished cleaning up from a shoot and came out into the lounge area, finding one of the other actors there scratching at his arms and sliding down the wall. Her brow creased, concerned about him as she walked closer. “Are you sure? You don’t look fine…”

At the sound of another’s voice, Jackson’s hands dropped down to his side, nodding slowly at her words. “Yeah, yeah, I’m fine. I was high, now I’m not, shit’s fucked.” He wiped the blood off his arms with his sleeves as he spoke, hands shaking violently.

[hayleycrestwood]

“The old guy…ooooh shit. Steven? You pissed him off? I hope you’re ready for a world of hell then…he’s got a memory like a steel trap and he’s a grudgeholder.”

[jackscnhill-blog]

“Yeah, that one. All because I wouldn’t do a scene with a guy. I’m probably fucked now, but shit happens. I don’t even give a fuck.”

[jackscnhill-blog]

he’s coming down from a high, he’s tripping, he feels like he’s losing his mind as he sits himself down against the wall, scratching furiously at his arms. “i’m fine, i’m fine. i just need a minute. sorry. fuck, i’m sorry.”

[jackscnhill-blog]

hayleycrestwood:

“Consider it a learning opportunity, a chance for you to show your expertise. You don’t have to be her yoda, just be cool about it. Let the producers be the ones to fret about that stuff. I mean they gave you a replacement, right?”

“I just left, I wasn’t waiting around all day for her to get it together. Had better things to do with my day. Producers probably made it happen, they’re not my biggest fans. I wouldn’t recommend arguing with producers, especially not the old guy.”

[dxrcielane-deactivated20180305]

“See the fact that you hadn’t even spoke to her yet just makes it all the much worse if you ask me. She was clearly not meant for this job, but hey we’re weeding out the weak ones from the start. I would have done the same if I was you.” 

[jackscnhill-blog]

“I don’t know if she was scared of me or just the whole thing, she seemed fine until she actually saw me. I wasn’t sticking around for her to get her shit together, I could’ve been getting high or something instead.”

[rileyxbaxter-blog]

“I’ve noticed that some of the girls that came in after me are pretty scared of just about anything. I guess some people enjoy the more vanilla porn too, but I’m surprised they paired those girls with you.”

[jackscnhill-blog]

“If they don’t think they can handle it, they just shouldn’t come in, it’s just wasting everyone’s time. I have things to do outside of work and I had to fuck around on set for hours because of this dumb bitch. I don’t know why they thought pairing the new girls with the roughest guy on set was going to be a good idea. This is probably what I get for arguing with the director.”

[jackscnhill-blog]

thatsmydraya:

I suppose it’s understandable, seeing as how some can’t handle this type of shit. Poor thing. I don’t know if her immediately crying was necessary though…could’ve just walked out.

I don’t even think she was legal, she looked way too young. Probably got herself a fake ID and wanted some cash.

[jackscnhill-blog]

hayleycrestwood:

“Oh god…she cried? I think it’s just that so many girls get into this industry without any real idea of what it is they’re committing to…young girls who haven’t really owned their sexuality yet. God I definitely wouldn’t pair them with you…I mean we’ve got big teddy bears that normally usher in the new girls. Did you eventually get to the scene?”

“I feel like these girls just think porn is going to be straight up and down sex for an easy pay check. None of them have any clue and then they get on set and freak out on everyone. I don’t think giving her to me for her first scene was a good idea either, everyone knows how rough my scenes are. I didn’t even get onto set fully, she was acting like an idiot, director said we weren’t shooting, so I left. Didn’t even touch her.”

[jackscnhill-blog]

ty-is-a-porn-star:

“Again, not judging.  We’ve all got our own unique slate of kinks.  And anti-kinks.  But your director is an ass if he’s making the talent uncomfortable.  He doesn’t have a job without you, and anything he does to put you off your game and uncomfortable on camera is going to hurt his paycheck a hell of a lot more than yours.”

“That’s what I said, and he said I wouldn’t be getting paid after that. I told him he couldn’t get paid without me. He’s a dick, I’m a dick, it was quite entertaining, honestly.”

[dxrcielane-deactivated20180305]

“Oh god, everyone’s talking about that. I heard she got fired after that so I don’t think you’ll have to worry about her again. Did you even kiss her or anything?”

[jackscnhill-blog]

“I hadn’t even spoken to her yet, and she just lost her shit. I’d barely even stepped onto set and she was gone. As soon as they said we weren’t filming, I left, had better things to do with my life than watch her carry on.”

[jackscnhill-blog]

thatsmydraya:

She cried? Before you even got down to business? Mmm, maybe she was slapped with immediate regret. Don’t see why, considering I’ve seen what your scenes are like. 

I hadn’t even gone near her and she cried. I’m known for getting rough, but I hadn’t even spoken to her yet. Fucking amateurs. 

[jackscnhill-blog]

rileyallude:

“Not everyone can handle it. Everyone thinks having sex is the easiest thing, but honestly, it’s not everyone’s thing. I was with a girl who had lost her virginity two weeks before, and we were dong some rough scene, and she cried before anything happened”

“I don’t see why they bother bringing them onto set if they think they can’t handle it. I’d been on set for two seconds and this girl just burst into tears. I know I get rough in scenes, but I hadn’t even spoken to her.”

[jackscnhill-blog]

brazzedxbentley:

“I didn’t know they hired two-year-olds these days..” 

“Comedian, aren’t you?”

[ty-is-a-porn-star-deactivated20]

“Is there anything wrong with that?  Working with another guy?  I consider myself thoroughly hetero, but I can get behind a good Eiffel Tower-ing.  Or in front.  Or with training a willing porn starlet, for that matter.  I get some of my best inspiration for the camera off of it.  Takes all sorts, though.  No director has any business insisting you do something you’re not comfortable with.”

[jackscnhill-blog]

“I’ve got nothing against it, man, each to their own, it’s just not my thing. I might hit her up on her offer though, been a while since I got laid off camera. Yeah, he’s a dick, he went off at me, it was hilarious.”

[ty-is-a-porn-star-deactivated20]

“Ah, hell, getting on the bad side of the director is the worst thing you can do.  Though even that can be worked through.  Even the clueless ones can be trained up.  And turned out.”

[jackscnhill-blog]

“He was a dick, he started it. I just told him I wasn’t working with another dude, like I always say, because I never work with guys and I never will. He just wouldn’t understand that. This one I worked with the other day asked me to train her up outside of work, I think she just wants to fuck me and it’s got nothing to do with work.”