incaseyoucarewhatishare

personal thoughts, dreams, stories, life and motivation

[jackyhoefflin]

You are YOU and that is YOUR superpower. We always compare ourselves to other people. I feel like especially in this whole world online. Where you see people with all different types of bodies, wealth, experiences etc.  I know how hard it is not to compare yourself to those people. But let’s face it, this all an image of someone, almost no one posts pictures of themself looking weird/ugly. Everyone wants to show off their best, which can be intimidating because you would doubt yourself. But take a look at yourself. YOU ARE UNIQUE. Theres no one like you. So everything about you is so special because theres only one of you. And thats frickin’ awesome. Just appreciate everything you have and you are. Look at yourself. See the good. Accept the bad. Change it if you want to, but do it for you and not for someone else. YOU ARE ENOUGH! Take a look back on your life and be proud of everything you’ve done and achieved. Everyone is different and everyones life is different. So theres no right or wrong, there shouldn’t be a comparison between people. Because you’re living your life your way with the decisions and the choices you make. Make sure you’re doing it all for yourself, because you don’t have to prove anything to anyone other than yourself. You are so beautiful and awesome. You can do anything you want. Be who you want to be. Don’t let anyone get in your way. Please follow your heart, because only you know whats good for you. 

[jackyhoefflin]

period. <3 

[jackyhoefflin]

Only a few people know that I’m struggling with myself and food. I’m having an eating disorder for more than a year now and it took me a while to realize it. Most people don’t think you’re struggling because you’re not looking sick or anorexic. But too many people don’t know that there are many different types of an eating disorder. So don’t judge people by their cover. You don’t know their story. I just always lost control when I ate, I would overeat (binge) and then I’d throw up to get it all out of my system.I’d count calories so I wouldn’t eat more than 300kcal a day. I’d try weird diets. And starve. I’d constantly bully myself in front of the mirror or even when I was outside surrounded by strangers, thinking they judge me for the way I look. I was so uncomfortable, I just wanted to stay in bed all day long, so no one had to see me. I’d faint in school because I had no energy. Luckily my friends and teachers saw what was going on and helped me. So I saw a therapist for a little bit and I want to go to Therapie again as soon as the Corona thing is over. Talking to someone helped. But I only had a few sessions so I’m still struggling but I’ve overcome a lot already. I stopped throwing up and I’m doing better mentally. But it’s still there. The Voice in my head. 

But if you’re struggling too-  just know how precious and wonderful you are, and you deserve a live where you love yourself. You can do it. Don’t give up.

 I need to learn to love myself. But I know I’ll get there.  xoxo