Sel, CEO of Jade Harley

18+ --- she/her--- i post about: transfeminism, communism, queer liberation, tabletop RPGs, game development, anticopyright, open source, dadaism, writing he/they is cool too if I follow you or know you outside tumblr occasional shitposting, badposting, dragonposting. this blog contains some occasional NSFW and horny text, but no explicit artwork- that's on my side blog if you want to ask for it.

[jadeharleyinc]

welcome! i'm Sel, a programmer and game developer. i also write and run tabletop RPGs. my posts on this blog touch on the following:

(often) transfeminism, workers' rights, anti-imperialism, shitposts

(sometimes) queer liberation, technology, original jokes or essays

(sometimes) tabletop RPGs, game development, dragons

(rarely) writing, philosophy of art

i don't reblog nsfw art, but there may be occasional suggestive text. i don't go out of my way to discuss uncomfortable topics or reblog disturbing artwork- but i might, rarely. i don't tag posts very well (sorry!)

you are free to DM me, just remember my attention span is abysmal. have i not answered your ask? nothing against you, i probably forgot. i'm also on noterook! finally, if we're mutuals you can ask for my discord

eventually i'll list the posts i'm proud of. but for now:

tags you can check out include #shitposting, #badposting, #evilposting (all sorts of joke posts) #essay, #mini essay (my writing)

i accidentally gained a reputation as "the girl who looks at studies about AI to see exactly how bad the impact is, since nobody cares to read those apparently". might as well lean into it! links under the cut.

the scale of AI's ecological footprint - (various studies and raw data) - number-crunching, slightly rant-y. is it ecologically irresponsible to run AI on your computer? can we put those numbers in context? the "AI rots your brain" study - (Microsoft Cambridge & Carnegie Mellon University) - a paper frequently misquoted on purpose. what were they actually researching and what did they find? the "this is your brain on ChatGPT" study - (Braini AI & MIT Media Labs) - an extremely worrying paper, not for its findings but for its horrendous methodology and undisclosed ties to an AI startup.

[crabanarchy]

They say ooooh be a good boy for daddy and you'll get a reward. But then the reward is just gay sex. This is bullshit. I wanted a skateboard

[crabanarchy]

Then they say if you're a bad boy daddy will punish you. But what's the punishment? More gay sex! You can't escape it. This whole damn place is in the pocket of Big Sex

[vivvy-of-the-lake]

you gotta pull yourself up by the butch straps

[revelware]

If I see one more person who is into butchfemme call tma/tme a regressive binary I'm going to start welding your carabiners shut

[revelware]

treating 20th century american lesbian bar culture as a universal queer experience and pillar of our culture while simultaneously discounting contemporary theory of gender dynamics is just straight up conservative... you are just trying to conserve a different culture than the usual breed.

[revelware]

I am unimpressed by drag. I am unimpressed by butchfemme. I am unimpressed by so many of the hallmarks of the queer queer culture of the previous century being used as a bludgeon against a fledgling mode of material analysis.

I am unimpressed with transgression being the yardstick by which we measure the value of our culture, rather than the material liberation of our people.

[marxistlesbianist]

In all their propaganda and agitation—both within parliament and outside it—the Communist parties must consistently expose that constant violation of the equality of nations and of the guaranteed rights of national minorities which is to be seen in all capitalist countries, despite their "democratic" constitutions. It is also necessary, first, constantly to explain that only the Soviet system is capable of ensuring genuine equality of nations, by uniting first the proletarians and then the whole mass of the working population in the struggle against the bourgeoisie; and, second, that all Communist parties should render direct aid to the revolutionary movements among the dependent and underprivileged nations (for example, Ireland, the American Negroes, etc.) and in the colonies. Without the latter condition, which is particularly important, the struggle against the oppression of dependent nations and colonies, as well as recognition of their right to secede, are but a false signboard, as is evidenced by the parties of the Second International.

Vladimir Lenin, Draft Theses on National and Colonial Questions for the Second Congress of the Communist International

[sreegs]

[saltaired]

“train yourselves towards solidarity, not charity. you are no one’s saviour! you are a mutual partner in the pursuit of freedom”

[sivavakkiyar]

Palestine Action ban is lawful, Court of Appeal rules

The Home Office had challenged a High Court ruling that the group's proscription should be quashed.

In one of the most significant rulings on national security in recent years, five of the most senior judges in the country overturned an earlier decision from the High Court that the ban had breached the right to protest and had been incorrectly taken by ministers.

But five Court of Appeal judges concluded in a hearing on Monday that the ban had been "justified and proportionate".

In a statement, the group's co-founder Huda Ammori, who brought the original legal challenge against the Home Office, said she intended to appeal the ruling to the UK Supreme Court.

Palestine Action has remained banned since the High Court ruling in February to allow for further legal arguments and give the government time to consider an appeal.

[danielkahndyke]

the op linked the study in the replies & i’ve been skimming it & it’s actually rlly rlly interesting to think abt

https://e1.nmcdn.io/assets/pushkin/wp-content/uploads/imported-files/Wait-theres-torture-in-Zootopia_-Examining-the-prevalence-of-torture-in-popular-movies.pdf

[danielkahndyke]

like this sentence from the introduction alone is fucking crazy. “approximately half of adults in the united states think that torture can be acceptable in counterterrorism.” what!

[maidthings]

having extremely bad mental health happening to you is no excuse to stop doing 2/10 bits

[true-bluesargent]

the thing is is that you'll be like. 11 years old and someone will tell you that you have to shave your legs. either it will be your mum or a friend or a mean girl in the p.e. changing rooms telling you how gross it is that you have hair on your legs. so then you ask your mum about it and she says yep you have to take this razor blade and drag it across your skin under running water and just hope you don't cut yourself too badly and you have to do this every single week and maybe more frequently than that and you have to do that for fucking ever. the rest of your fucking life. because the hair that grows naturally on your legs is gross and ugly and people will laugh and boys won't like you! of course boys have hair on THEIR legs. but that's normal and even attractive and it's just not the same for you. and a few years later they'll say well you obviously should also be shaving your armpits. and then it's your arms and then it's that you have to wax your upper lip and pluck your eyebrows and ewww why do you have hair on your fingers and your toes.. you need to shave that too. and then suddenly you need to buy spray that will make invisible hairs on your face visible so that you can shave that too! and it's expensive and time consuming and difficult and it HURTS but they just say beauty is pain babe! and you're not allowed to say that maybe if beauty is pain then you don't actually want to be beautiful

[true-bluesargent]

and i'm so fucking tired of girls who do shave being defensive when this topic comes up because then i have to say well of COURSE it's your personal choice whether you want to shave or not! no offense! maybe it makes you feel empowered! you do it for YOURSELF! because that's bullshit and i actually DO think you should stop shaving your legs because it's not fucking empowering it's insane. if you give it more than a minute of thought it can't possibly be empowering. you're in a PRISON!!!!! and i was in the prison too okay and i know it seems hard to break out but i promise you it's not. and the more people we can break out of the prison the easier it gets for everyone else i swear to god. please

[muffinlance]

pros for stopping shaving: save time money pain, reserve fucks for future ventures so you have some left to give

cons for stopping shaving: people you don't ultimately want in your life will disapprove

try stopping shaving for a month I promise you you will want to extend it to infinity months thereafter

also like. I could see getting hassled for this in middle school because middle school. but if you're a whole ass adult I promise you people are too busy to look at your legs and your pits, most clothes cover them anyway. and if you're a teenager now it's a great time to sort your friends into "chill people to keep forever" and "judgy pricks to put in the compost bin"

[femmenietzsche]

I like how from the perspective of a follower someone getting their life together to the point that they no longer post is exactly indistinguishable from them getting killed by a gas explosion

[baked-fish]

I hate to say "some of you don't go outside," but fucking Christ, dude

[hunbunqueen]

Ouuhh I see the water it’s right there on the post,, I’m so thirsty ouyghhhhhw just one sip for me ooouuuuuu

[baked-fish]

Girl, what are you talking about? Are you feeling alright?

[beneaththegildedmoon]

Btw the heat *is* why we see water that's not really there, but mirages aren't exactly hallucinations so much as optical illusions:

It's just the changing density of the air refracting light weirdly, so it looks like there's a reflection of the sky on the ground, which our brains often interpret as a pool of water. It can also happen upwards instead of downwards, especially at sea, when the air is much colder near the surface and a warm front appears above it:

Which, btw, is one possible explanation for ghost ship sightings, so that's fun :)

[plum-soup]

Border wall expansion bulldozes ancient tribal site in Arizona

Lol they bulldozed through an ancient sacred indigenous carving just to build their stupid wall that doesn't do anything but look ugly

[storyweavingspider]

Tops can be sexually assaulted too, without being penetrated even.

[storyweavingspider]

Like outside of the times I’ve been coercively raped, I’ve had people tell me I couldn’t possibly be the victim in a situation, implicitly because I’m large and a top and the woman who SA’d me that specific time was petite and a bottom.

Even when I was “cis” I had an incident where my gf at the time, a drunk cis white woman, literally spent an hour trying to pin me down and rip off my clothes to fuck me as I was trying to care for her, despite repeated refusals. It reached the point I had to leave the room after escaping her and hold the door shut until she gave up, and any time I mentioned it to others back then the concern was not her trying to sexually assault me, but that if she had succeeded I’d have been at fault for being a Black “man” having sex with a drunk white woman.

Iunno just. Thinking about this and it’s frustrating.

[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

my ex-husband would make my life hell if I didn't fuck him, scream at me for hours or days which often led to him hitting me. later, when talking about it with people, it became very clear that a lot of them were thinking, "but you're bigger than him, why did you let him do that?"

he told me point blank that if I called the cops, he'd lie and say I was the abuser. we both knew who they would believe. I was more scared of losing my cool and fighting back than I was scared of being hit. I preferred being hit to the screaming.

it didn't start out like that, of course, he started out by guilting me about the fact that I didn't want to fuck him. I didn't fuck him because he was abusive about other things. it's always stuck with me that sex was essentially the last thing he got abusive about before I left, I think it took him that long and had to start slow because he was protecting his image of himself as a victim.

he had to build that protection up before he could try to actually force me to fuck him. he did not, of course, ever threaten me before I said no. that would've made things too clear to ignore, it was always a day or a week later. it always started as "I feel undesirable because you don't want to fuck me".

you understand that this is rape, right? I waited until now to mention that we were both "cis" at the time because "husband beating his wife" is understood differently than if the genders were the other way around, especially for transfems.

you understand that the difference between being understood as "abused wife" and not "man who probably deserved it" is razor-thin, right? where did you sort me?

[tezmotismo]

this is the first time i'm spwaking abt this publicly so bear w me plz.

i am a trans woman, but i only realized this two or three years ago.

i am a single mother with sole custody of my 7yo daughter.

do whatever bioessentialist math u gotta to parse this situation.

my ex could give classes on ignoring boundaries. i recently saw the movie obsession, and to say it was triggering for me would be an understatement. i was never allowed even a moment to myself. she would hover over me at all times, and every miniscule thing that i did was noted, logged, and tallied against some master formula in her head to determine whether i was being a sufficiently good "boyfriend". failing this metric would lead to bouts of screaming, sleep deprivation, psychological torture, and physical violence. i still have the scars.

the *only* reliable way for me to mitigate the damage being done to me, was to fuck her. at first i could avoid the fights this way. then i could only interrupt them. eventually this became simply a consequence. she would scream at me until i was too dissociated to properly understand my situation, and i would wait for the tone shift that meant i should get ready to... be raped.

and then i discovered in the worst possible way that she had been lying to me for months abt being on birth control

i wasn't given any say in the situation. she ran back to her family some 1500 miles away and told me i could either go with her or have no presence in my child's life. the things i suffered there were worse. it took years of legal action for me to get away from her with my child. this informs my relationships to this day, nearly a decade later.

for years. YEARS. i was unable to understand what happened to me as sexual assault. because trans women aren't oppressed before they come out. because tops can't be assaulted. because the big strong "man" can never be a victim. because there simply isn't vocabulary for these experiences. because because because.

the first time i ever read the phrase "self-inflicted corrective sexual violence" i spent hours sobbing uncontrollably. this doesn't come close to capturing the essence of all my experiences, but it does fit several of them. the idea that not only were such things possible but also that *what happened to me WAS sexual assault* is the only thing that's allowed me to start healing.

THE ONLY THING because not a single person in my life even considered the notion. my mother berated me for not thinking abt the consequences of *my* actions. my friends laughed abt how it was too bad i got "baby trapped". my subsequent relationships constantly pressed for more and more details digging for the part where i must have done something to deserve it. even my therapist at the time suggested that it was "fear of impending fatherhood" that gave rise to these feelings.

none of that is true. i was repeatedly raped, in a way that resulted in a child, that i now am solely responsible for. she's the light of my life, and the best kid i know, and none of this is her fault. i'll do anything to make sure she has a better life than me. that's the only way i'll ever rlly make peace, i think, with the fact that i will never fully recover from this trauma. there's only so much healing to be done. the rest is scars.

so please. please. please understand that just because i was "topping". just because i was "stronger". just because i was a "man". doesn't mean that it could never happen to someone like me.

because it did.

[headspace-hotel]

Seems legit

[headspace-hotel]

we all hear about kudzu being introduced as "erosion control" in the South but I don't think contemporary people understand on a gut level what that means

these are images from a 1930s pamphlet that endorsed kudzu, entitled "stop gullies: save your farm"

It was Bad.

[headspace-hotel]

Invasive plants need to be understood as part of a much larger cycle of incredible violence against the land.

[communistkenobi]

people are living in fantasy worlds we can’t even begin to imagine

[communistkenobi]

people are living in fantasy worlds where america is the only country with anti-vaxxers