secure the bag, sis.

JADE. the visionary. someone lost their sister and that someone was you, now you're alone and unsure what to do.

[jadesommers]

peterbeach:

Oh sorry, I didn’t know anyone was out here. Peter’s eyes widened ever so slightly at the sight of Jade next to Lua’s car. They hadn’t really said a single word to each other since they’d embarked on this trip, so he couldn’t help but feel the slightest bit awkward by suddenly being in her presence. He didn’t really know what to say to her. Hi, remember me, Peter? The quiet kid who sometimes came over to hang out with your sister? Yeah, you look just like her! Too bad she’s dead now, huh? He shook his head. That certainly wasn’t it. 

“Yeah, go ahead.” Peter said quietly, gesturing to the spot next to him. Anxiety began to build in his gut as he struggled to find something to say to her. The thought of just sitting next to each other in silence seemed very threatening. He quickly reached towards his pockets, feeling for the pack of Camel Turkish Royals that he knew to be inside. He found them quickly, along with his green 7/11 lighter and pulled them out. “Would you like a cigarette?” He asked politely, pulling out one for himself. He held the box out towards her questioningly, hoping she’d say yes.

Jade looked down at the offer and smiled, “Sure, why not?” She said talking one and placing it her mouth, leaning forward for Peter to light it for her. It’d had been a while since she smoked a cigarette, she and her friends had tried to quit while they were in New York but they all knew that the rest was sneaking one in on the roof and Jade was no exception. That’s while she was in school, it had been a while since then or since she had spoken to any of them. It was really hard to hang out with people who didn’t have any idea what you were going through. Fuck, it was hard to hang out with people who knew exactly what you were going through. 

She looked up at the fairly empty parking lot, inhaling the tobacco she could sense the other feeling slightly uncomfortable with the silence so she exhaled a puff of smoke, “This is really fucking weird, right?” she said still staring off, “Not just the weird road trip stops or that we have a dog tagging along but all of us together.” She sighed, not really sure why she was venting. Maybe it was because Peter left a lot of space for talking but it felt always like a huge weight lifted off her shoulders to just have one person she didn’t have negative feelings towards to talk to. “Do you think she would have changed her mind on this whole roadtrip idea if she knew how things went down? With her, I mean.” she said talking about more so the Wilco situation than anything else. God, she really did hate him and the idea of spending the next few weeks in a car with that asshole made her blood boil. “Shit, I’m sorry. I’m just ranting.” she added shaking her head then taking another drag.

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brysoncane:

I thought that for a second too, but, I don’t know, Jade. This seems too messed up. In what point of grieving does opening it all back up to relive in this healthy? Does doing this for someone who can’t experience it actually matter? Is it worth destroying ourselves again? Because I’m not sure it is. I’m not telling anyone how to grieve or live or whatever the fuck else, but I know for me personally, I just barely started to be okay again, and this is setting me back. 

This might be the most selfish and horrible thing she ever could have done. 

It’s beyond messed up. Jesus, I can’t believe I’m actually on a road trip with some of these people but she...left us unexpectedly, to say the least. She didn’t know this is how she would go and didn’t expect things to be like this. She only wanted to have fun in her memory. And isn’t honoring that the least she deserves after everything she was to us? I thought you of all people would have understood that. Do you think this has been easy for me? It’s not, but I know I this situation won’t kill me. It hurts but I trusted Olive more than anyone. She only made a shitty situation better and I can trust this will turn out okay and the fact that you really think she even has a truly selfish bone in her body tells me how much you really knew her. 

[jadesommers]

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peterbeach:

For the most part, Peter had been fairly quiet on this trip. Being around all of his old friends triggered an anxiety deep inside of him and he had found it difficult to be vocal over the past few days. He’d had a good time, he supposed. He’d enjoyed being in Lua’s car and had had fun since they’d left Shallow Creek. Still, he knew he wasn’t participating in the road trip the way that Olive must have wanted. She had always, since the moment they’d met, encouraged Peter to break out of his shell. She would want him to be social and outgoing, as much as he could be, anyways. 

He sighed and looked up at the night sky, his eyes darting between the different stars. He was failing miserably. After all, here he was, sitting outside next to Lua’s parked car alone, rather than spending time with the people he used to cherish the most. 

Peter was pulled from his thoughts by the sound of movement to his left. He tilted his head and peered around the side of the car, “Hello?”

Frankly, Jade wasn’t really sure why she was part of this whole road trip shenanigan. She only casually knew her sister’s friends and interacting with them was proving a lot harder than she anticipating. Jade thought she could push herself back into her regular outgoing attitude but it was a lot easier to do that on a screen than it was in person. For the most part, she struggled to make small talk in the car or participate in the rounds of eye-spy. Truthfully, she was just really tired and wanted to go home and sleep for 5 days.

She figured she’d get some fresh air and step out away from the rest for a moment which was fairly simple to do, it’s not like she would be a missing asset in the group. When she walked out, she noticed Peter sitting next to the car. “Oh sorry, I didn’t know anyone was out here.” she said then looked down at Peter sitting on the edge of the cement, “Mind if I sit out here with you for a bit?”

[jadesommers]

brysoncane:

You are aware that we all have free will, right?

I sort of figured we were on in this because of moral obligation. Ya know, for her. I’m not exactly thrilled to be here but this is what she wanted.

[jadesommers]

text ✉ GINNY ⇆ ANYONE

GINNY: Hey. This is kind of awkward, but could you help me with something?

GINNY: There's a shiny new penny in it for you.

JADE: Gee, a whole penny just for me? Where do I sign Mr Berry Gordy?!

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brysoncane:

Figuring out how to get home

is fucking expensive and my parents won’t help. So that’s cool.

l wasn’t aware that bailing out was an option. I’d help out with the expenses if I could.

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But it don’t snow here It stays pretty green I’m going to make a lot of money Then I’m going to quit this crazy scene I wish I had a river I could skate away on

[jadesommers]

tfw ur sister is dead, playlist.

#bigmood 

download on Spotify

[jadesommers]

Group Chat

shea: You'd better have good music taste, Jadeling.

jade: I have amazing taste. Hope ya'll like ABBA.

jade: I'm totes kidding.

jade: kinda.

[jadesommers]

Group Chat

shea: First four to reply get a seat in my sexy Ford. The backseat's stacked with candy and I've got a subwoofer! Any takers?

teddy: so long as you’re not opposed to backseat crocheting (i’m... a loser), i’ll tag along! 💕✨

jade: I CALL SHOTGUN!

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“ Sing me to sleep And then leave me alone Don't try to wake me in the morning 'Cause I will be gone Don't feel bad for me I want you to know Deep in the cell of my heart I will feel so glad to go ”

[jadesommers]

to jade, from olive received: august 1, 2017

Was this some kind of joke? 

As Jade re-read the letter, once, twice, five times, ten times...She couldn’t believe it. Her heart felt like it was about to beat out of her chest and suddenly she was forgetting how to breathe. Oh god, was she having a panic attack? She threw the letter on the bed and ran to the bathroom, turned on the water faucet and splashed cold water on her face. “Olive, you fucking bitch,” she swore as she kept her eyes closed and tried to focus on breathing. 

Everything was fine. It was totally fine. Her dead sister had written her a letter which she is just receiving after seeing all her friends. It’s all totally completely fine.

As she walked back to her room, looking at the paper as if they were Olive herself. Jade picked them up, ran her fingers across the letters as if she could feel her sister through them somehow.  

It was stupid. But not as stupid as Olive was for writing something like this in the first place, how would she know something like this was going to happen? Fuck 13 Reasons Why, she knew Olive was watching it way too many times for it to be normal. 

Should she have been glad to be able to read a few final words from her sister?

Yes.

Was she? 

No.

Jade had been trying so hard to move on and even though it fucking hurt, she was doing it. At least she was pretending like she was. It’s been SEVEN YEARS, she had this whole “I’m living my dream everything is a-okay!” thing down to a science. Now here she was standing at the edge of her bed tears rolling down her face like the night she found out what happened. 

What was she supposed to do now? Was she really expected to go on a road trip with her friends?

The idea sent made her squirm. She had talked to a few of them but it wasn’t easy. Not when she blamed most of them for what happened and those who she didn’t just remind her too much of Olive.

God, she missed her. 

She missed her so much and now she had to go and get this letter because Olive was a fucking freak who didn’t know when to just stop being such a weirdo.

As she held the piece of paper, she just got so upset. Crumbling it into a ball in a fit of rage and slamming it in her trash bin.

Knock, knock, knock.

“Hey, is everything all right?” She heard her dad say though the door.

“Yeah, everything’s fine!” 

At least, she hoped it would be.

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But it don't snow here It stays pretty green I'm going to make a lot of money Then I'm going to quit this crazy scene I wish I had a river I could skate away on

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Surprise, surprise!

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teddybeas:

Wow.  Duckie.  I am literally filled with ever single Land Before Time feel right now.  Is that movie on Netflix?  I need to look this up pronto!  You know, I can totally see you in New York!  I mean, I’ve seen you post about it online and stuff, but still.  Friend to friend.  I think it suits you.

We did.  Dad burned the burgers, as per family tradition, and mom wowed everyone with potato salad to the point that literally nobody cared about the burnt burgers.  A Graham affair to remember.  You should come by sometime for dinner!  My family would love to see you.  If you want to, of course.  No pressure.

Those movies were my childhood, I think a few of them are. But that’s why we have our trusty illegal streaming sites. Thank you, I actually really appreciate that. People told me it was going to be rough, and it was, but that’s what makes the journey all the more special once you make it. You should totally visit me up there one day.

I like my burgers with a little charcoal on them, it balances out the freshness of the other ingredients. I would love to come over, I haven’t seen Mama and Papa Graham in years. It’d be nice to see them again and catch up. With you too of course, which reminds me. What have you been up to? Besides eating burned burgers.

[jadesommers]

Surprise, surprise!

[jadesommers]

sydneygrover:

We could definitely write a crazy indie comedy about all the weirdos we’ve bumped into while out on the road. I got to see a lot of places but traveling alone can be kinda weird. Sometimes you’re stuck making friends with grandmas who can barely hear you.

TBH, I love the idea and now you have to do it with me. I’m attached, sorry, no takesies backsies. Hey, grandmas can totally be cool though. Like Grandma Baddie Winkle, she’s my life goals. But I’m surprised you didn’t meet more free spirted quirky people to befriend, now my dreams of hitchhiking through Europe and finding a cool hippie BF/GF is crushed.